What a person is most proud of is not that he has a backer behind him, but that he lives as a backer ~ this is what Yu Qiuyu said in "Borrow My Life".
These words are also a true portrayal of my life this year. Today is the last day of 2021, looking back on this year: the epidemic has become the main theme of everyone's life, and I have also been an extraordinary year.
In order to help my son with the children, I became a member of the army of off-site baby carriers, and also became a member of the separated couples in two places.
I am a woman who relies on her husband for everything, but this year, gathering less and leaving more, he works alone in other places, I am alone at home with a baby, and I support this family alone.
Buying vegetables, cooking, doing housework... The kids went to work during the day, and almost everything in the house was mine except for the baby, as if I had suddenly become an omnipotent superman.
The life of a family of five (the daughter lives with us even if she is not married) I cook well, and I also bring the warmth and harmony of our big family to a happy and harmonious life.
However, in the beginning, I was tired and cried. Because my husband used to be at home, I relied on him for everything, and suddenly I was faced with so much alone, as if I suddenly became lonely and helpless.
How many nights, I hid alone in the bed and quietly wept. However, after crying, I wiped my tears and told myself: "You must now learn to face all problems alone."
Let's not say that taking children is tired or not, just eating and drinking Lasa for a family is not an easy thing. Because I not only have to take care of my little grandchildren, but also take good care of my children, who have a busy day at work during the day, and it is not easy.
Therefore, I can only rely on myself, forcing myself to grow, forcing myself to live as a backer, which is also my most proud.
However, the pain of this is only known to himself, because it is not easy to bring children, let alone take care of the daily life of the family?
There is no doubt that the physical tiredness is there, and how relaxed is the heart? A family of six, in addition to the husband is not at home for a long time, we five people live together, in the current society, we can also be regarded as a big family.
With so many people living together, contradictions and frictions are certainly indispensable. I am a mother, to lead the children to unite and harmonize, to let everyone have as few contradictions as possible, and if there are contradictions, I also have to try to solve them.
Fortunately, my children are also obedient and sensible, the whole family is warm and harmonious, and we live happily together. However, occasionally they are angry, and they also want to put all this down and run to their husbands, and then slowly persuade themselves, who let them be born by themselves?
This year, the most profound feeling is the epidemic. In particular, the outbreak in Nanjing in July. At that time, our whole family was deeply touched. Because, with the continuous development of the epidemic, Nanjing had to stop work and lock down the city.
In August, the children are at home on holiday and have nothing to do. That month was also our most difficult month, but also my most tired and busiest month, fortunately, the children also helped to do housework, otherwise, a big family, three meals a day to eat and drink Lasa, it is really not easy.
This year, I have cried, hurt, confused, helpless... In addition to the physical tiredness and the pain of living in a different place, perhaps only couples in a different place can deeply appreciate it.
Busy during the day, at night, the children enjoy their free life after work, I went out for a walk alone, walked alone by the Qinhuai River, watching the couples around me come and go together, and my heart was inexplicably sour.
At that time, how much I hoped that my husband could accompany me, and how much I hoped that someone could hug me when I was tired? I wish I had been around someone after a busy day to talk and chat and get rid of the exhaustion of the day.
However, most of the year I was alone, with my heart hanging on both sides, while carrying my grandchildren, while worrying about my husband in a distant place, sometimes, I really felt tired and tired. When he couldn't hold on, a man was secretly crying in the bed.
When I used to go to work, I thought it would be good to retire and be free to do what I wanted to do. However, when I retired, I found that the life after retirement was busier and more tiring than going to work, let alone free.
However, sometimes think about it: children are not easy, fierce competition and work pressure is also very large, every day to see them busy overtime, and painful, if you do not help them and the heart is also too willing to go.
Therefore, the bitterness can only be eaten by himself, because my husband is also very hard in the field alone, so I usually encounter difficulties and do not tell him. I learned to be strong, learned to face everything alone, and unconsciously, I actually trained myself into a "female man".
Looking back on the journey traveled this year, although the bitter points are a little tired, I have taken good care of my family, and the little grandson has not only grown tall and grown up, but also very well-behaved and sensible. Thinking of this, I feel very relieved in my heart.
But the only thing that did not take good care of yourself, the white hair on the head of this year added a lot, sometimes looking at myself in the mirror, especially want to say to myself, "Honey, you have worked hard, I did not take good care of you, I am really sorry", the most sorry for this year is myself.
During the year, "Today's Headlines" became my companion, giving me room to talk when I was lonely and helpless. At the beginning, I thought it was to make money, but doing it, making money was not the only purpose, as if I had unconsciously become my friend.
The most touching is the strange friends in the headlines, thank you for your silent companionship, although you have never known each other, but your likes, attention and comments have given me great encouragement and warmth, sincerely say "Thank you, my strange friends, I wish you happiness and happiness in 2022"!
What a person is most proud of is not that he has a backer behind him, but that he has become a backer. This is also my biggest gain in 2021, this year: gain, loss, harvest, growth... There are tears and there is happiness! It is worth it to see the growth of the little grandson and see the family enjoy and harmonize, no matter how tired and bitter it is! Dear myself, you are my greatest pride!