She was married at the age of 28. Wrapped in three inches of golden lotus, but put on a pair of big shoes, the moment he stepped off the flower stand, the shoes fell off, and the foreign appearance was varied. The hard-won smile on Lu Xun's face disappeared, and from then on, Juan lived in the cage of marriage, but never wanted to escape.
Zhu Anming knew that Lu Xun did not love him, but chose to stay with him for the rest of her life, even if she knew the existence of Xu Guangping, she was still unwilling to leave, she had many opportunities to dissolve this marriage, but she did not face it bravely, did not live her own life, and was willing to become an appendage of Lu Xun.
Lu Xun was "cheated into marriage"
Juan was "born with wisdom, worker girl red, observant of etiquette, parental love is equivalent to palm beads", with a higher vision, pick and choose, pick to 20 years old. In that era, when 20 years old and not yet married, she would be called "the old girl" and could only fill in the house. The Zhu family naturally did not want their daughter to become a house filler and go to be a stepmother for others.
Zhu An's becoming the daughter-in-law of the Zhou family is also a bit of a coincidence, mainly from Lu Xun's mother, Lu Rui. In 1898, not long after Lu Rui lost his husband, his younger son Tsubaki died prematurely, and under the two blows, Lu Rui's mood was extremely low. At this time, Lu Rui's distant concubine Qian Shao's grandmother often came to comfort Lu Rui, accompanied by watching plays and playing mahjong. After many contacts, Lu Rui and Grandma Qian Shao talked about the lifelong events of their children, and Lu Rui paid attention to the Ding family's Aunt An at the Zhu family's Taimen at this time.
In February 1899, the Zhou family made a request, the Zhu family returned the promise, the marriage contract was confirmed, and there was no remorse. However, after two years, the Zhou family invited Geng and asked the Zhu family about Zhu An's birthday. At that time, Lu Xun returned to the academy, and his younger brother Zhou Zuoren also wrote a letter to tell Lu Xun the "good news". Lu Xun briefly returned to China during this period, and for this family affair, Lu Xun put forward two requirements for Juan in his letters with his mother: 1. Let go of his feet, and 2. Enter the school to study. For the old society at that time, let alone let women let go, believe in the traditional concept of "women without talent is morality", it is even more impossible to let women enter the academy. Zhu An naturally could not meet such a requirement, so that Lu Xun never wanted to accept this family affair.
After the engagement between the Zhou family and the Zhu family, Zhu An waited for seven years before going from engagement to marriage, and sadly, Lu Xun was still tricked into coming back to get married. Lu Xun never considered Juan to be his daughter-in-law, but rather regarded Juan as a gift from his mother. In 1906, Lu Xun, who was studying in Japan, received a telegram that "his mother returned quickly from illness", and when he returned home, he found that it was a scam.
Lu Xun accepted the new idea, naturally unwilling to accept this kind of family marriage, and even more unwilling to accept a woman who did not know a word or even wrapped a three-inch golden lotus to become his wife. In the eyes of the clan, Lu Xun was an unruly guy, who did not follow the right path of the imperial examination, not only cut his braids, but also learned foreign languages and wore foreign clothes. The clan has been worried that Lu Xun will do something out of the ordinary, but the fact is that Lu Xun did not say a word, all obeyed the arrangements of the clan, put on fake braids, and consummated marriage to Juan.
Zhu An was able to complete the marriage, he was very happy, what people did not expect was that on the night of the cave flower candle, Lu Xun did not even touch Juan, on the second day of the marriage, Lu Xun slept in his study, and on the third day, he returned to Japan. Since then, Juan has been alone in the empty house and has become the wife of Lu Xun in name only.
The appearance of Xu Guangping, the disillusionment of hope
During these three years, Juan fulfilled her duty as a daughter-in-law, although Lu Xun did not want to see her, but Lu Xun's mother Lu Rui still valued her, and Juan did not fail Lu Rui and served her mother-in-law wholeheartedly. Juan waited day after day until 1909, when Lu Xun finally returned to China and was hired as a teacher at the Hangzhou Normal School, in addition to being responsible for the translation of Japanese teachers.
In 1919, Lu Xun took his mother and Juan to his new home in Beijing, and a glimmer of hope appeared in Zhu An's eyes, but Lu Xun's attitude towards her really poured cold water on her. Under the same roof, Lu Xun and her had very little communication, and they couldn't say a word for a day. Lu Xun even put the bottom and lid of a wicker box in two places in order to reduce contact with Juan, and the bottom of the box was placed under his bed, and the clothes and pants that were changed down were placed inside; the lid was placed in Juan's room, which contained the clean clothes and pants he had replaced.
Lu Xun's mother once asked Lu Xun why Zhu An was so good, lu Xun just couldn't get along with her, and Lu Xun replied: "I can't talk to her." Lu Xun and Juan are not on the same spiritual level, Zhu An retains the feudal ideas of the old society, and Lu Xun accepts the new ideas, but he cannot change Zhu An, and can only avoid them. Lu Xun often said, "She is not my wife, but my mother's wife." Lu Xun regarded Juan as a gift from her mother, and was forced by the pressure of society at that time to divorce Juan, and divorce was equivalent to sending her to hell for Juan.
Juan did not give up, or as always, she was good to Lu Xun, she once said: "I want to serve him well, everything is according to him, the future will always be fine." She looked forward to Lu Xun's return one day, even if it was better for her, she was very content. Juan always felt that waiting wordlessly would give her a good ending, but she did not expect that the result was the news that Lu Xun and Xu Guangping were living together.
Lu Xun was actually a victim in this marriage, he had never loved Juan, but he had to live with Juan and obey his mother's arrangement. Lu Xun was already extremely disappointed in his married life, and he did not have the luxury of having love. Xu Guangping's appearance, like a dazzling light, shone into Lu Xun's gray and cold emotional world, making his world suddenly have color and temperature.
In 1923, Lu Xun was invited to give a lecture at the Beiping Women's Normal University, where Xu Guangping happened to study. Lu Xun gave lectures in the lecture hall, and Xu Guangping sat in the first row every time, listening carefully to the lectures and taking notes. She found herself enjoying this gentleman's class and falling in love with him. And Lu Xun also noticed this young and bright female student.
In March 1925, Xu Guangping took the initiative to write a letter to Mr. Lu Xun, writing down the confusion and confusion of his life and asking Lu Xun to guide her. What Xu Guangping did not expect was that Lu Xun actually replied to her and answered her one by one. Since then, Xu Guangping and Lu Xun have corresponded frequently, speaking freely in the letter, or talking about ideals or current affairs. In October 1925, Lu Xun and Xu Guangping braved the pressure of public opinion to break through many obstacles and formally make a relationship.
In October 1927, Lu Xun and his student Xu Guangping officially moved to Shanghai to live together, and the news reached Zhu An's ears. Juan's waiting suddenly fell short, she knew that Lu Xun would not be able to turn back once he went, and originally thought that Lu Xun's mother Lu Rui would be on her side, but after Lu Rui learned this information, he was not angry, but somewhat happy. Lu Xun has always not accepted Zhu An, resulting in Lu Xun having no queen, and in the old society, filial piety was greater than three queens. Lu Rui could not have looked at Lu Xun without children, after learning that Lu Xun lived with a woman, but felt that Lu Xun had a queen, she could not be unhappy, although Juan was very kind to her and served her well, but in the end he could not stay for the Zhou family, and naturally would stand on Lu Xun's side.
In 1929, Xu Guangping gave birth to a baby boy named Zhou Haiying. When Juan heard the news, she was overjoyed and lonely. Juan once said to Yu Fang: "I am like a snail, slowly climbing up under the wall, always looking forward to one day climbing to the head." But I can't do it now, I don't have the strength to climb, and it's useless for me to treat him well. Zhu An gave up the struggle from then on, only thinking of being the daughter-in-law of the Zhou family, with her mother-in-law, and indeed responded to Lu Xun's sentence "My mother's wife."
A sad cry: "I am also a relic of Lu Xun!" ”
At six o'clock in the morning of October 19, 1936, Mr. Lu Xun passed away, and there was no mention of Juan in his will. Lu Xun did not formally marry Xu Guangping, legally speaking, Xu Guangping is just Lu Xun's lover who cheated on her extramarital affair, and only Zhou Hainian and Zhu An have the right to inherit the inheritance, but the fact is that the copyright of Lu Xun's works and the inheritance of Shanghai were handed over to Xu Guangping, and Zhu An lived on Xu Guangping's regular living expenses.
In 1941, Xu Guangping was imprisoned, and Juan lost his financial resources and gradually became unable to make ends meet. She personally has no ability to earn money, nor has she thought about living independently, and it can be said that she has been dependent on the Zhou family all her life. In 1943, Lu Rui died, and Juan's only dependence also left, and Juan's later life was difficult for everyone. She has no offspring, retains the views of the old society, regards Zhou Haiying as her own, and looks forward to Zhou Haiying sending her to the end.
Because of Lu Xun's relationship with Zhou Zuoren, Zhu An refused to accept Zhou Zuoren's help, and Zhu An, who was cornered, had to start the idea of Lu Xun's book collection after selling all the belongings in his home. Zhu An's behavior caused an uproar in the literary circles, Lu Xun's friends came forward to stop Zhu An, xu Guangping learned about it, and immediately entrusted someone to talk to Juan and advised her to keep Lu Xun's relics well, and he would do his best to take care of her. During that time, people frequently visited zhu an and persuaded zhu an to stop suppressing his emotions and said sadly: "You always say that Lu Xun's relics should be preserved and preserved!" I am also a relic of Lu Xun, and you must also save and preserve me! This sentence thus became a very famous complaint from Juan, and also revealed the sadness in Juan's heart, and she was helpless to make this decision, but in the end, Juan still kept Lu Xun's relics.
In Qiao Lihua's "Biography of Juan", Mr. Yang Dai said such a passage: "Juan's last miserable cry is really touching and pitiful. As the saying goes, 'a pair of small feet and three liters of tears', but she has become an 'abandoned object' that no one cherishes! Juan was treated as an object to live, but in her heart she read Lu Xun's good, until death she said: "Mr. Zhou is not bad for me, there is no quarrel between each other, each has its own life, I should forgive him." Mr. Xu treats me very well, she understands my ideas, she is willing to maintain me, and constantly sends money to come... She was indeed a good person. She seems to have become an outsider to Lu Xun and Xu Guangping, and she was originally married by the Ming Media, but she has become a superfluous existence, and in the end, she still has to read Lu Xun and Xu Guangping's goodness. Juan has always been content with the status quo, unwilling to jump out of the comfort zone and accept the arrangements given to her by others. Women who confess their fate will not be happy after all, nor can they pray for happiness from others, and cowardice and incompetence will eventually be abandoned.
On June 29, 1947, Zhu An, who was seriously ill, was puffy and breathless, and finally failed to carry that night, died sadly, and died alone, without a person around. Her last wish was to be buried next to her husband after death, but Xu Guangping did not agree, and Zhu An was temporarily buried in the Baofu Temple cemetery outside Xizhimen in Beijing. In the 69 spring and autumn periods, loneliness occupied more than 40 long years, and even when he died, he was lonely.
Juan's life was desolate, and the reasons for this were the poison of the old society, but also her personal cowardice, unwilling to resist the arrangement of fate, and lived herself as an object of Lu Xun, without any thoughts or willingness to make any changes. If Juan's tragedy was the tragedy of women in society at that time, then the emergence of Xu Guangping proved the existence of another kind of woman, refuting this view, Zhang Youyi, who had a similar encounter with Juan, took the initiative to give up this unfortunate marriage, walked out of it, and realized the reversal of life, thus proving that the liberation of the mind can reduce the occurrence of tragedy.
(■ |.) Xiao Xiao)