In 1906, the 25-year-old Lu Xun was tricked back to his hometown by his mother on the grounds of illness and married Juan, who waited for him to reach the age of 28.
For this arranged marriage of motherhood, Lu Xun was extremely unhappy. On the one hand, he hated deception, and on the other hand, as a new-style education and a schoolmaster, Lu Xun asked him to accept an old-fashioned, illiterate, stubborn, and ignorant old-fashioned, and a woman like Juan, who accepted a marriage like a feudal patriarch.
He didn't like Juan and moved to the study the day after their wedding. He didn't like Juan, not only did he not touch Juan once as a husband, but he always wanted to escape Juan in his heart. He didn't like Juan, not only did he see the marriage as a disgrace and he didn't even want to talk to her more, sometimes he couldn't say a word to her all day.
In fact, Lu Xun did not try to accept Zhu An. As early as when Lu Xun knew that his mother had made Juan his fiancée for him, he made two demands on Juan: that is, to put his feet away and read. However, they were all rejected by Juan or the Zhu family according to the old rules.
Later, after marriage, Lu Xun also tried to communicate with Juan, but Juan's lack of indifference and self-cleverness made Lu Xun never want to talk to her again.
Of course, Juan is not useless. Juan is also kind, filial, and makes a good dish, which is certified by Lu Mu. Zhu An still cares about Lu Xun everywhere in his life and takes care of Lu Xun's life. For example, Lu Xun did not like to talk to her, she would observe which dish Lu Xun ate more and which dish ate less when Lu Xun was eating, and then she knew which dishes Lu Xun liked to eat.
But Juan's life served her mother-in-law until she was old, not like the hostess of the Lu family, but like a nanny of the Lu family with the identity of a hostess.
And as a husband, Lu Xun never touched Juan once, so Lu Xun and Juan did not have children until they were in their forties. Until Lu Xun later married Xu Guangping, who was much younger to him, and gave birth to a son, Zhou Haiying.
Completely opposite to Juan, Xu Guangping is a new woman who is completely different from Juan. She rejects foot binding, loves to read, and has a very rebellious and rebellious spirit.
It is said that when she was a student at the Women's Normal University, she participated in the activities of the principal who opposed the introduction of slave education. Later, because he published a large number of anti-Japanese and anti-slavery articles, he was arrested and imprisoned by the Japanese and tortured. Such Xu Guangping is simply a female version of Lu Xun.
As a husband, Lu Xun has not flinched in his relationship with Xu Guangping. But the power of love still defeated lu xun and Juan's marriage, which was only supported by old morality. Later, Lu Xun lived with Xu Guangping and gave birth to a son.
Compared with his extreme dislike for Juan, Lu Xun not only loved Xu Guangping, but could also be said to be pampered.
Lu Xun and Xu Guangping have a very common language, and the letters that come and go of both people can be collected into a book.
Lu Xun, who was cold and sharp, would not only talk warm and warm love words to Xu Guangping, but even give her some meaty nicknames such as "good girl" and "little hedgehog".
Not only that, but we can see how different Lu Xun is from Xu Guangping and from Zhu An.
Once, Lu Xun's mother saw Lu Xun wearing a thin pair of suit pants, so she blamed Juan for not preparing cotton pants for Lu Xun. Zhu An hurriedly made cotton pants for Lu Xun and secretly placed them next to Lu Xun's bed, but Lu Xun not only did not wear them but threw them aside.
The same is to send clothes, once Xu Guangping sent Lu Xun a vest he personally knitted, Lu Xun not only immediately put it on, and even took a photo to send it back, and sweetly said: This heart is very warm, with it you can directly spend the winter, no need for cotton robes.
It is said that another time, at that time, Lu Xun, Zhu An, xu Guangping were already living together. At that time, Lu Xun actually cut Xu Guangping's hair personally and was seen by Zhu An, who was hiding in the dark. At that time, the warmth and smile on Lu Xun's face was something that Juan had never seen in his life.
Think about it, the person who doesn't want to talk to her much on weekdays actually cuts the hair for another woman's gentle and meticulous haircut, Juan's heartache, jealousy, as readers we seem to be able to imagine.
Love and no love, the difference between heaven and earth is really unbearable.
Of course, as a well-known figure in the literary world, he turned his back on marriage, disregarded his original match, and lived with his young students to have children, which naturally made Lu Xun feel criticized. Some people even said that Lu Xun was a scumbag.
The author, who had a rough understanding of this matter before, also felt that Mr. Lu Xun was not disgraceful in this matter.
But in a different place, if I were Lu Xun, after I specifically understood what kind of person Zhu An was and what kind of person Xu Guangping was. Let me choose, I am afraid that I will choose the same as Lu Xun.
And he is not without a chance to give Juan, Lu Xun once proposed that Juan's life of being poisoned by feudal old ideas, ignorance, stubbornness, bitterness, and tragedy, although it makes people sympathetic, but Juan does not seek progress, does not seek change, is trapped by the old society, there are so many opportunities for change, she is stubborn, sometimes pretending to be smart.
It is said that once, when the weather was very hot, Lu Xun's students came to their home, and she not only sent two cups of hot tea in the hot and sweaty weather, but even sent two bowls of hot lotus flour to make snacks. This made Lu Xun and his students very embarrassed. This makes people wonder why she doesn't think about it, or ask Lu Xun and the guests what they want to eat and do such an inappropriate thing?
Another time, Zhu An, who had been ignored for a long time, did something that could be said to make Lu Xun want to stay away from her completely. That is, before the opening of a Lu Mother's birthday banquet, in front of the guests and relatives and friends, she suddenly knelt down and said that Lu Xun ignored her, but she was a member of the Zhou family in her life and death. This earned her sympathy but disgraced Lu Xun.
Afterwards, Lu Xun's evaluation of this was: Old-fashioned women are very powerful! In this way, all sympathy is won and everyone blames him. Lu Xun did not like Zhu An, and it seemed excusable.
Well, even if these details of life are not mentioned because she has been treated coldly for too long, why didn't Juan change when she faced such an opportunity for change?
Lu Xun told her to put her feet down and read, which she did not do. Lu Xun tried to communicate with her, she only cared about her own cleverness, Lu Xun once proposed to let Juan marry as their daughter, he came to pay the dowry, but Was still rejected by Juan.
In short, she cares about the details of Lu Xun's life, and uses her heart to care about what Lu Xun eats and wears, which can only be regarded as concerned about Lu Xun's body, but she cares about Lu Xun's will and soul? The answer is cruel, no. Lu Xun hated the ignorance of the old times, but she stopped in the old times and did not dare to take a step.
I can't bear to blame this woman Juan, who was also victimized by the old times. But she hoped that Lu Xun, who was educated by the new trend of thought, longed for people who changed the new trend of thought to accept her, and even had children with her, but she did not make changes, how could it be achieved.
To use a less appropriate analogy, if the ugly duckling wants to fly with the swan, then he should try to become a swan, otherwise how can he hope that the swan will fall in love with an ugly duckling forever?
In fact, compared with other literary celebrities in the Republic of China, such as Guo Moruo, Lu Xun is not a scum. Although he did not have a child with Juan, as his mother and Juan had asked for. But at least he never stopped making offerings to Juan during his lifetime. Moreover, after Lu Xun married Juan, he did not like or go out to mess around, that era of male superiority and female inferiority, he actually abstained from sex for more than twenty years in the best years, until he met Xu Guangping.
Although Xu Guangping was more than a decade younger than Lu Xun, his appearance was not very outstanding. Therefore, compared with Xu Guangping's young body, Lu Xun's love should be Xu Guangping's self-pursuit, independence, rebellion, and dare to become the soul of a new woman.
After reading Xu Guangping's life experience, I felt that Xu Guangping was like another Lu Xun in his soul. And Xu Guangping is also brave, dare to fight, and humorous. Lu Xun fell in love with such a woman, it seemed natural.
The most important thing is that Xu Guangping will not only care about Lu Xun's body, but she also cares about Lu Xun's will and soul. She was as cynical as he was, as unaccustomed to the ignorance and corruption of the old times, and she understood what he thought, and in a way they belonged to a comrade in the trenches.
Compared with Zhu An, at the soul level, Xu Guangping was a white swan like Lu Xun. One white swan falling in love with another seems normal.
This analysis seems unfair to Juan, but love is unfair.
Juan's tragedy lies in the fact that she meets a person like Lu Xun who has a new soul inside. She herself was unwilling to reshape her soul. Turned himself from an ugly duckling into a swan with the same soul as Lu Xun.
Therefore, Juan's life can only be empty of fame, no children, no daughters, no pets, no love, and even no mine.