Chinese New Year's Eve is the great Chinese New Year's Eve of China, the last night of the end of the year, also known as the New Year. The New Year is a traditional festival in Chinese, and it is also a happy day for families to reunite
The big Chinese New Year's Eve in 2017 was the most "yearless" since I was born, and it was also the first time I resisted the New Year in my heart. Because this year I became a wife, a daughter-in-law, and left for the first time the home that gave birth to me and raised me for more than twenty years, that feeling is lonely, and the emotion is indescribable.
That year, I was alone in the family's Chinese New Year's Eve meal, and I vaguely remember that it was the first time I cooked a large table Chinese New Year's Eve meal.
That afternoon, still early, I received a call from my mother, the mother on the other end of the phone said, you are married, this year's family New Year is not lively, we and my brother three people to eat is not fragrant, as soon as I heard this sentence, my tears came out of my eyes.
Yes, the one who was the happiest, the most carefree, the most joyful and laughing, and the happiest family was already my mother-in-law's house, and at this time I was in my in-laws' house, a new home, a strange family.
After saying goodbye to my mother, I threw myself into the work of preparing Chinese New Year's Eve meals, watching my in-laws, grandparents, sisters-in-law, and the family fiddling with various things for the New Year, while talking about other matters of the New Year happily, while I would rather stay alone in the kitchen, immersed in the time of preparing food, rather than talk with them, because I feel that I can't fit into their family, for this home, I am strange, I am lonely.
After Chinese New Year's Eve meal, the family sat in the living room, bumping melon seeds, eating small snacks, talking and laughing about the parents' short, I also had a word without a word, and the picture of the previous New Year always flashed in my mind. In previous years, after eating Chinese New Year's Eve, we all went out to "blow up the street", and a group of small partners went to the west after stringing up the east family, but now there is no such scene. The difference in customs, habits, and atmosphere made me feel the feeling of the New Year at all, and I was lonely and unhappy all night.
The so-called married women have no home, which makes me deeply understand. The in-laws can't be integrated, and the mother's family can't go back. So this year is destined to be extraordinary.