My name is Amy, I'm a resident singer in a bar, and I love my stage, but I'm more interested in standing on a real music stage and becoming a real singer. To be honest, I don't like the night, I always feel that it will pull me farther and farther away from my dreams, and I have to get close to the night, because singing in the bar is my current channel to release myself, and it is also the guarantee of my survival!
Until the popularity of the show "The Voice of China", I suddenly realized that maybe it was an opportunity, and I didn't want to miss it. So, I stood on the field of the "The Voice" Fujian Audition, and the feeling of being on the stage made me feel that my dream was really within reach. But the reality was always harsh, and I didn't even make it to the finals, I only won the "Best Body Award", at that time, the dream was shattered.
I'm not reconciled. Come back and think about it for a few days, I shouldn't just give up like this, I don't want to stop there! I know I don't have professional music training and there's still a big gap between me and a real singer. I wanted to improve myself as soon as possible, so I contacted a well-known music teacher in Fujian through various ways. Including Teacher Zhang Yang, Teacher Jiang Yang, Teacher Jiang Zhou, etc., they did not hesitate to provide professional guidance for me, I really thank them, and I would like to say "thank you" again.
After the guidance and training of the teachers, two months later, I once again stood on the stage of the Dongguan Division of The Voice of China. There is a reason for choosing this division, Guangdong is my birthplace, and I hope that my career will also be born here! Standing on the music stage this time, I have only one goal – to fight for my dreams! This time, I won the third place! Looking back on this game, I still remember the joy of that day. I will use my singing voice to tell everyone that I am Amy of The Voice of China!
But I told myself that life still had to go on, and I returned to Fuzhou to continue my work and study. After work, I walked home through an alley, and every time I walked down this dirt path, I felt like I was stepping back from a gorgeous dream to a mottled reality. But now I just think that the real home may be not far away, and then I can take my son to me...
Someone commented that I was confident and enjoyed standing on stage. Others say I'm touched to see my progress little by little. However, in places that you can't see, in order to be able to best present less than ten minutes on stage, I spend half a day rehearsing every day. A person faces the mirror to practice form, expression, singing... It was hard work, but I still believed that the sweat would pave my way to success.
However, if someone likes you, someone must hate you. I never thought that appearing on the stage of "The Voice" in another image would cause everyone to suspect all kinds of suspicions? Some people say that I pay a lot of money to ask someone to "sing for me", some people say that I am strong backstage, and some people say that I have a "twin sister". For "substitute singing", in fact, that person is really me, I just made some changes! Now many people are good at using high-tech technology to add points to their lives and "accelerate (help)" for their dreams, why can't I?
What's even more helpless is that some people even pretended to be me and fabricated a "marriage advertisement"! I don't even know where these marriage conditions come from... Seeing the comments on the internet these days, I really don't know how to explain. Where is tomorrow, how should I face it...
In fact, for me, participating in the competition is not only to complete my musical dreams, but also because of a responsibility. Before, I didn't want to say that I was a single mother, and my children lived in Guangdong, but I worked in Fuzhou for various reasons. I have to work hard for my future and my child's future, and maybe the short separation now can create a more stable life for his future! But I also blame myself, because I am not a competent mother at all. I miss my child all the time, and I also want to spend my days and nights with him and witness his growth.
Now I can only look at my child on the phone and video every day and listen to his voice. I have a photo album full of pictures of him from birth to the present, and whenever I have time, I will flip through them and imagine that he may have grown taller and fatter again... Children are the biggest belief that sustains my efforts. Whenever I have a setback and want to give up, think about him, look at his pictures, I have a reason to insist!
We only see each other twice a year, and those few days of seeing each other are the happiest days of my year. Take him to eat what he wants, to play what he wants to play, to watch him happy, and all my persistence is worth it. But I am also afraid, from the difference from childhood, will he have feelings for me in the future? Will the lack of maternal love have a certain impact on the growth and future of children?
However, the hard work and tiredness of the present is for a better future. For the sake of unfinished musical dreams, for the sake of my children's future, I should do my best now, so that I can live up to everyone's expectations. I hope that everyone will pay more attention to my music, not my life and children, and once again I would like to ask you to give me a little space. Remember, I'm Amy, very ordinary, but also very persistent!