She was my lover, and at a time when I didn't know what love was, she accompanied me through one of the most memorable days. The days I spent with her completely changed the trajectory of my entire life, and it still affects my life.
■ Narrator: Yan Heng (pseudonym)
■ Age: 29 years old
■ Occupation: Manager
(i)
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I was born in a rural family, and the most direct way my parents taught me was to scold, especially my father. I distinctly remember one time when my next-door neighbor's dog chain was missing, I came to my house and said I stole it.
The family was eating, and my father picked me up, stripped me of my clothes, and jerked me hard with a belt, trying to beat me until I admitted it. But before I could admit it, the neighbor came over and told him that his dog chain had been found. My father didn't even ask a question, "Does it hurt?" and threw me aside. From my parents, I didn't get a little bit of home warmth.
I had seen the name of Peking University on TV, and at that time I had a dream in my heart, hoping to study at Peking University. Grandpa said, you work hard, you can read well to go to Peking University. When I was a child, my grades were particularly good, from elementary school to junior high school, and my worst grades were also 4th.
(ii)
Because I was often beaten by my parents, when I was 13 years old, I stole 300 yuan from my father and ran to the Shaolin Temple. But when I got to the Shaolin Temple, I was stupid, there was only one martial arts school there. I was there for two months, and I couldn't resist calling home because I wanted my grandparents.
Dad answered the phone, and I could hear his despair and exhaustion on the phone. But because I was afraid of him, I didn't say a word and hung up the phone. But with this call, my family found the Shaolin Temple and took me back.
Back at home, my mother said, if you have the ability, don't come back, and my grandmother hugged me and cried. In fact, in those two months, I was also quite guilty, and I wanted to lie in front of my parents like other children, but none of them gave me a chance.
I went back to school, but my grades plummeted. In that final exam, there were 46 students in the class, and I took the 6th to the bottom. My father habitually asked me how many places I had taken. I lied to him for the first time and said I finished 6th. The father did not ask carefully, and the matter was thus mixed up.
(iii)
When I got to high school, I was hooked on playing games, and I imagined the characters in the game as my father, and I played hard. My math teacher said to me, isn't your dream to go to Peking University? If you go on like this, you will not even dream of Peking University!
The math teacher went to my father, who ordered me to kneel down, then take the belt off my waist and smoke it. I suddenly stood up, and my father looked at me with a stunned look, "What, you still want to rebel?" Want to hit me? I said, "I don't hit you, and I don't want to be hit by you." "After saying that, pull out your leg and run outside."
That day, I spent the night writing a letter to my father, and I said, "Dad, everyone says that home is a warm harbor, but I don't get any warmth." I'm leaving, I'm going to Guangzhou to work.
Early the next morning, I took the 500 yuan I had accumulated and stepped on the train to Guangzhou. On the way, I met Suna, who was going to school in Guiyang.
(iv)
Suna's family is in rural Liaoning, 3 years older than me. Young people always have a lot of common language, and along the way, we talked particularly speculatively, like friends we had known for a long time.
Suna also took good care of me, and this situation continued until we fell in love, and later became the source of my pain. Halfway down the road, I suddenly felt a headache. Suna stroked my forehead with her silky and warm hand, and she said, Oops, you have a fever.
Then she asked me to take care of my luggage, and she went to get me the medicine. My heart was so warm at the time that I felt like she was like my mother. Suna is not beautiful, but in my eyes, she is the most beautiful girl in the world. In my state of mind, she was my relative, and even if she was a liar, I would trust her.
Suna was about to change trains, and when she got out of the car, she left me her dorm phone number. When I got out of the car in Guangzhou, I found that the money in my pocket was missing. All over my body, there were only 3 yuan and 5 dimes left, and all I had was the number that Suna had left for me.
I called Suna, and without the slightest hesitation, she eagerly told me: Don't go anywhere, just wait for me at the station, I'll pick you up.
I stayed at the train station and had no place to move, and at noon the next day, Suna rushed to the Guangzhou railway station. At that time, Suna treated me as carefully as a mother treated a child.
(5)
I followed Suna to Guiyang, and she asked me what my plans were. I said, I'm going to the construction site to move bricks.
Suna's school is three stops away from where I work, and she sends me every day when she prepares a meal in the cafeteria until I get my first month's salary. At that time, I felt very happy every day, and even thought how lucky it would be if my mother could love me like that.
I hadn't seen Suna for a few days, and one day after work, I went to look for her. I was bare-chested and wearing a pair of large shorts. The security guard at the door said that he would not let me in, so I grinded there, and when he was not paying attention, he sneaked in quietly, and he was still quite proud in his heart.
When I couldn't find Suna, I shouted her name on campus. Suna soon came out, but I also felt the strange eyes around me, and the sneaking pleasure of sneaking off the security guards was replaced by a kind of loss, and I realized that I was incompatible with the school.
(6)
Suna asked me, why didn't I go to work? I said, miss you. She scoffed, "You're stupid, you're not good at work." Just then, a teacher passed by us, and the teacher asked Suna why she didn't go to class. Suna said, "My boyfriend is here. ”
At that moment, I was so happy that I was almost floating up, and the beauty in my heart was ah. Until then, I had always wanted to call her sister, but she said that she would not let anything, and it turned out that in her heart, she had already regarded me as her boyfriend.
Suna said that although you are younger than me, in my heart, you are the kind of boy I like, and from the first time I saw you, I liked you very much. If you are a real man, you must do your own business well in the future.
That summer, Suna didn't come home. Every day after work, I would hold hands with Suna and walk around the park and the road.
At that time, Suna asked me, will you marry me in the future? I said, yes.
She said that in the future, we will work together to buy a small house that belongs to us. How to design the house, what color the curtains are, buy a few sheets, what kind of floor to lay, and buy two pairs of small raccoon slippers, we all thought about it.
We live in such a dream every day. Every time she thought about it, Suna's gaze was so charming. That beautiful dream, we fantasize about several times a day. Since then, I have lived for our shared dream.
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Yan Heng is a child who escapes from his father's violent discipline, and fortunately he meets Suna, a kind female college student. What kind of story will happen between a wandering rural boy and a female college student who has come out of the countryside? Stay tuned for the next issue -
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■ Text/Hebei Youth Daily reporter Pi Xueyan
■ Editor / Pi Xueyan
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