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In 1938, after the fall of Beiping, Hu Haoqing and his two children defected to Lao She in Chongqing, and the mother and son three braved the rain of bullets and bullets, traveled thousands of miles through the blockade, and finally arrived after more than three months, but did not usher in the imaginary reunion joy, and waited for more than twenty days for Lao She to pick them up.
A year ago, when the War of Resistance Against Japanese Aggression broke out, Lao She rushed to Wuhan with a patriotic heart, wanting to use literary and artistic works to awaken the national enthusiasm of the people, he was elected as the executive director and head of the general affairs group of the Anti-Enemy Association in the Literary and Art Circles, and then moved to Chongqing due to war chaos, he was busy with daily affairs, but it was understandable that three or five days later was understandable, and more than twenty days was not busy to explain.
Lao She has a heart, the person in his heart is called Zhao Qingge, a young and intelligent talented woman, a talented woman with common ideals and tastes, the drama they created together "Tao Li ChunFeng" is praised by tens of thousands of people, the names of the two are often linked together, and they also have feelings in the day and night, but Lao She is 38 years old, married for 7 years, and has a son and a daughter with his wife, and the old She who is in a dilemma is extremely painful.
A day, a week, and soon more than 20 days passed, Hu Haoqing was waiting, Zhao Qingge was also waiting, waiting for Lao She to make a decision, but Lao She never said a word. Lao She dared to cheat on his wife behind his back, but did not dare to face his wife, dared to be with his lover, but did not dare to deal with it well, he felt guilty about both women, but he did not know how to be good.
Zhao Qingge is stubborn and tenacious, at the age of 15, she heard her stepmother and father discuss dropping out of school to marry, she took the only 4 silver dollars to leave home and drift, worked hard to get scholarships to study, she published articles at the age of 17, became a writer of "Women's Monthly" at the age of 19, soon emerged in the literary and art circles, 23 years old became an officer of the organization department of the "Literary Association", and was also the secretary of Lao She, such a proud woman did not want to drag mud and water, she decided to quit.
Lao She understands his wife's efforts, and he can't bear to abandon a big son, but after 7 years, he still went to Shanghai to find Zhao Qingge, and he didn't expect a similar scene to be staged again, his wife Hu Xuanqing also chased after Shanghai, Zhao Qingge wanted to marry the Ming media, Lao She still couldn't give, only wrote a desolate poem:
Eight years of wind and rain, frost river Wanye Ming. The flat boat carries wine to go, and the country and mountains have unlimited affection.
In 1946, Lao She went to the United States to give a lecture, and when he was lonely in a foreign country, he still fantasized about eloping with Zhao Qingge:
Let us flee to a distant place, find a clean place, I write books, you paint, with the breeze as a friend, with the bright moon as a companion, let the sky fall, our love will live forever!
But Zhao Qingge has her own pride, not wanting to be nameless and unworthy, she once again refused and created "Falling Leaves Unlimited" as a response. The unmarried talented woman Can falls in love with the married middle-aged professor Shao Huan, this love is not tolerated by the world, Can chooses to leave and tells Shao Huan: Maybe only by jumping the river together can we escape reality.
The feelings of a middle-aged man are essentially sophisticated, accidentally naïve, and cannot last! If you don't love your wife, you will love your children!
Zhao Qingge thought that the reason why Lao She repeatedly retreated was that she could not let go of the child, but the distant aunt said that Lao She cheated QingGe, "let her think that she can have a home", and the old friend also pity Zhao Qingge:
I thought that it was a supreme and beautiful thing for a talented woman to be high standard and clean herself, but seeing the end of Zhao Qingge, I was greatly stimulated, and it was okay to be single, but not because of a man. Good women must have good emotional caregivers, and men who cannot give them this kind of protection are not worthy to approach them.
Zhao Qingge thought that it was an emotional failure, why was it a deception in the eyes of others? She should have wanted to ask Lao She, but Lao She had already shown it with actions. Zhao Qingge was forced to write a script, and if he did not write it, he would stop his salary, and Lao She sent 800 yuan to his wife behind his back to help, is this not true feelings?
Lao She jumped in Taiping Lake for 33 years, Zhao Qingge also came to the end of her life, she was never married, accompanied by more than a hundred letters written by Lao She, before she died, she wrote down the memoirs of everyone, only to Lao She never mentioned, before she died, she burned all the letters, did not want to leave a trace in the world, Zhao Qingge believed that Lao She just failed her, this love does not allow others to put their beaks.
Zhao Qingge is a fan of the authorities, bystanders are very clear, Lao She can not divorce, it is impossible to divorce her, no matter how many years of entanglement, how many moving love words have been written, will not divorce, Lao She's concept of marriage and love has always been very clear, and clearly written out, the novel "Divorce" in many people make divorce, but no one divorced.
Lao She's works are rich, "Camel Xiangzi", "Four Generations Together", "Crescent Moon" and other highly acclaimed, many works of Lao She is most satisfied with "Divorce", a work that deviates from the macro narrative, he established a concise and fresh and humorous text style that no longer changes, the whole work was completed in just over seventy days, behind the completion of the one-stop experience is the gushing of real experience.
In 1933, Lao She created "Divorce", which shows that he is increasingly dissatisfied with marriage and has thoughts of divorce, at this time he has just been married for two years. In 1931, the 33-year-old Lao She and the 26-year-old Hu Xiaoqing married, both of whom were Beijingers, both Manchus, living in the same way, temperament and hobbies were close, their parents agreed, and they themselves were willing, which was not easy in the Republic of China.
Lao She's family is poor, rely on his mother to dismantle and wash and make up for his life, study is funded by great benevolent people, teacher training graduates as a teacher to support the family, around May Fourth, Lao She worried about the country and the people want to go abroad to see, was introduced to the British teaching, can send more money to the old mother, five years later returned to Beijing by friends introduced to Hu Huqing.
Marriage does not affect the life of the old mother, Lao She considered marriage, he and Hu Yuqing exchanged letters, "three chapters of the law": can suffer, can work hard, not quarrel. Lao She will not please the wife, nor will he beat the wife, he is willing to establish a friendly and harmonious family, wrote more than a hundred letters in half a year, a year later the two married, and soon had a son and a daughter.
I have a sentence that must be made clear, on weekdays, if you see me sitting there without words, smoking a cigarette, don't pay attention to me, I am conceiving, not to make trouble with you, I hope you don't bother me.
The beginning of this marriage is happy, but only two years, Lao She wants to get out of the siege, after giving birth to a child, the expenditure is greater, the burden of life is all pressed down, Hu Xiaoqing has to take care of Lao She's mother, but also to take care of the child, the beauty of the past is fading day by day, the pillow people have become vulgar and practical, and the marriage is only left with chai rice oil and salt and chicken feathers.
What is someone else's marriage like? Lao Sheti wrote "Divorce", and he had already made up his mind when deciding on the characters: only those who make divorce are eligible for selection.
Mrs. Wu has not added Ding to the Wu family, Wu Taiji has raised a woman, Mrs. Wu can't stand this insult, find a fight at the door, but no matter how noisy do not dare to really divorce, "leave, eat who drinks who goes", survival is the top priority.
Mrs. Qiu is a college student, proud of her heart, Mr. Qiu can't stand to do low and small to divorce, she does not quarrel or make trouble, saying "divorce is a method, why must he be with him if the husband does not talk to him", but she does not put it into action, because she has another sentence: as long as the man does not make too much trouble, just go on. Face is no small issue.
Old Li is very dissatisfied with Mrs. Li and wants to divorce, but Mrs. Li is not ugly, her face is clean and her eyebrows are straight, she just speaks in a loud voice, her breathing is loud, her body is wide, she is stupid and vulgar, Mrs. Li will only cook and be affected, and it seems that she is only the mother of the child.
Old Li's idea was detected by Brother Zhang as soon as it was born, and Brother Zhang's popularity in the ancient road was excellent, and when he encountered difficulties in life, he talked to Brother Zhang. The sacred mission of Brother Zhang's life: to love to be a matchmaker and to oppose divorce, he has a unique view on marriage: man, as long as he marries a good daughter-in-law, he will not make trouble, if the marriage of the family is satisfactory, the world will not be too peaceful, this is called ruling the country by marriage.
Old Li told Brother Zhang about his bitterness, and Brother Zhang first invited him to eat a comfortable shabu-shabu lamb: there is oil and water in the stomach, and life is meaningful. Old Li wants to pursue a little bit of poetry, Brother Zhang does not understand, marriage matter age, appearance, family road, personality, eight characters must be carefully measured, "poetry is also a woman, women are women, you can not always carry a big car to the woman's home to marry a poetic." ”
Brother Zhang asked Old Li to pick up people, Mrs. Li took over, but Old Li's bitterness increased unabated, Old Li read "Lotus Pond Moonlight" could not touch the heartstrings, the clothes did not change half a point, and was also ridiculed by colleagues, he admired the gentle and quiet Mrs. Ma more and more, which was the embodiment of poetry in his heart.
Old Li did not dare to talk to Mrs. Ma much, he refused to break the sweet atmosphere, but Mrs. Ma solemnly told him to avoid suspicion, do not let Mrs. Li have more heart, old Li's good dreams were shattered. His face was thin, his hands were hot, his heart was vague, he was seriously ill, and he felt more and more poetic and the warmth of his wife.
With the return of Mr. Ma, Lao Li found that Mrs. Ma was not an imaginary poetic woman, Mrs. Ma and Mr. Ma fell in love at first sight, she fell out with her mother-in-law for love, but Mr. Ma changed his mind, leaving her alone in the empty house, and when her husband returned, Mrs. Ma did not say much, she was a secular woman after all.
Old Li's poetry was completely shattered, but he became more and more recognized with his wife. Mrs. Li cooks, coaxes children, washes clothes, even hangs up the children when shopping, and is ridiculed, old Li thinks she is pitiful, Mrs. Li must really take old Li as her husband, parents, masters, and even God, old Li is very moved.
Old Li found that Mrs. Li was much better than the other wives, not spicy or strong, and also gave birth to a son and a daughter, working hard and complaining, "will be" is necessary, not will be done, had to abolish the marriage system at all.
Old Li also found poetry, a few pieces of rouge petals of thin clouds across the east, quite poetic, old Li has some fragmentary scenery in his heart: a wheat field, a hill, hanging behind the mountain in the first moon, a stream, some flowers and plants on the shore, simple, quiet, independent, life began to have some taste, no one understands, why ask his wife to understand, no one understands what it has to do, he enjoys the mysterious romance.
Old Li also found that romantic people are just so, like beauty but dislike honest and quiet, like lively adventure but dislike too masculine, in the end is not satisfied, romantic people are too self, only enjoy a moment do not care about the results. Old Li does not do fruitless things, and he will not make the old mother sad.
I don't want to taste love, what I want to pursue is poetry, family, society, country, world, are all down-to-earth, not poetic.
This sentence can be described as Lao She's voice, many people think that the work should not be associated with the writer's real life, I don't think so, Hemingway's novels are all based on real life, and Hu Xiaoqing's marriage promoted Lao She to create "Divorce" and write his concept of marriage and love.
The protagonist of the novel is Lao Li, honest and honest and diligent, knowing democracy and freedom, but he should get married, have two children, serve an iron rice bowl, live a safe and stable life, he does not pursue love, he wants his mother to rest assured, he wants his children to be complete, he does not pursue romance, he has a sense of responsibility, and he does things with results. Even if he is dissatisfied with his wife, Old Li can find balance and comfort.
This is also the requirement of Lao She, he is extremely filial to his mother, attaches importance to the family like children, likes the humane Beiping, Lao She will not give up his life for love and romance, he likes Liu Shanren's daughter, but he does not dare to say it because of his status, and so Liu Shanren's daughter becomes a nun, and he does not dare to pursue, he and Hu Xiaoqing are also better than feelings.
There is no vigorous love, Lao She may not be sorry, but let him choose again, he will still be like this, just more entanglements
A wall in front of it, push it open, there are barren mountains and wild waters, but it is majestic and vast. Don't dare to push, I'm afraid that the air that has not been inhaled by anyone is poisonous! Behind a wall, push it open, and on that side is the bed drapery table and chair, the stove fire tea smoke. Don't dare to push, I'm afraid that the dirty air is poisonous! Stand here, between the two walls stands a dreamer!
Lao She does not make a choice is a kind of escape, he is afraid of the triviality of marriage, but also afraid of the fiery unknown of love, the poetry he yearns for is "a woman who has not been taught badly by reality", but marriage must be down-to-earth, so why abandon his wife and son, let alone the birth of the little daughter.
Hu Xiaoqing is willing to eat nests, have children, wash her hands and make soup, trapped in the identity of his wife and mother, provide care for Lao She within his ability, and live as the most standard woman, Zhao Qingge is different, that is a stubborn woman, her mother's early death makes her sensitive and melancholy, in order to get all the love requirements of her father, she runs away from home after disappointment.
Leaving Zhao Qingge, just abandoning a piece of emotion, Lao She also has a wife, children, literature, status, he can seek "poetry" in creation, and without Hu Xiaoqing, Lao She will have nothing, or even be discredited, that maintenance fee is enough to make him breathless, the rest are unknown, may not be much happier.
Go to the extreme will fall flat on the head, Lao She finally returned to the family, it seems that nothing has changed, the family gathered together again, life is stable and peaceful, but such a life is too long and tired, 7 years later, Lao She looked for Zhao Qingge again, he was bravely attracted by Zhao Qingge's determination, but still did not dare to take the most critical step, Lao She tossed and turned again to return to the family.
Eloping to the United States is the bravest thing Lao She has ever done, but it is just a dream, and the protagonist in "Divorce" has a similar dream:
Escape from this stinky family, escape from the monster Yamen; flee all the way to the fragrant and intense Nanyang, naked and sleeping in the jungle on the edge of the equator, dreaming of all colors!
But in the end, he only left temporarily, and soon returned, and Lao She was no exception, but he did not expect that in 1966, after the special revolution began, he would be criticized for this, not only by outsiders, but also by his wife and children, and the refuge he most longed for became a magic cave, and he walked to the lake with bruises all over his body and sat all day without anyone paying attention to him.
No one knows what Lao She thought before he died, but there should be Zhao Qingge and "Divorce".
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