"Suddenly, it was like the sky was falling" "My throat was blocked and my tears kept flowing. ”
Ms. Cheung recalled the day she left Hong Kong for the United States in 1955. That day, late autumn, people said "the leaves are back to their roots," but she had to leave her hometown, and the Cleveland cruise ship sailed out slowly. The only people watching her on the dock were Song Qi's family, so this was not her. This is the first time in my life that I "escape", but it is also a rare moment when emotions are out of control, and I am willing to express it in words.
But since you are so reluctant to leave, why do you have to leave? They left as if saying goodbye, with only a few clothes and a pair of golden-wrapped rattan bracelets from her childhood. She only told her aunt and broke off contact with her. She neither contacted nor called her brother. Zhang Zijing eventually lived alone and spent her old age in a small house of 14 square meters.
1. Motherland
But Zhang Ailing also has many difficulties. After being born in 1920, she lived a happy life. At that time, her father Zhang Tingzhong was not so terrible, and her mother Huang Yifan was a new type of woman. They received no less love than others, but because of the contradiction between "child" Zhang Tingzhong and "avant-garde" Huang Yifan, which eventually led to the breakdown of the family, Zhang Ailing did not have a good childhood.
Of course, all this became a source of inspiration for her literature. In 1932, she published her first novel, The Unfortunate Her, in which she showed her many dissatisfaction with her parents and disdain for the old-style family. In addition, her literary success led her to success in school. Here, in the words of the teacher, she gained a little meaning and glory of existence. In 1939, she was admitted to the University of London.
Although this opportunity to leave her homeland was not realized due to the war and her school life was bumpy, she began to create blowouts in 1943, and classic works such as "Agarwood Crumbs", "Jasmine Tablets" and "Love in the City" are all works of this period. She quickly rose to prominence in the literary world and became the most talented woman of her time.
"However, any talented woman who meets Hu Lancheng will become a bitter woman." Of course, this sentence is not praising Hu Lancheng, nor is it pitying Zhang Ailing. Love, good or bad, is inevitable under various factors, but 23-year-old Zhang Ailing believes that this is love. But Hu Lancheng regarded her as a "beauty seeker" and was disappointed as soon as they met. Later, because of her fame and fortune, he reluctantly stayed by her side.
But Zhang Ailing didn't know that they had recently married. Zhang Ailing wrote, "Hu Lancheng and Zhang Ailing signed a lifelong contract and became husband and wife." He sang to her for two years, but it wasn't until Hu Lancheng desperately brought Fan Xiumei that Zhang Ailing was disheartened.
Then there was another explosion of creation, such as "Red Rose and White Rose", "Legend", "Gossip". Her talent was even better than before, but slowly she was tired again. She didn't even use her real name, so she had to use "Liang Jing". At the same time, a storm is coming. The social environment also made her feel a little scared, and all this made her panic.
It was 1951, and she was still in Shanghai, traveling to Hangzhou with a tour group. During the trip, she ate noodles at a restaurant. The noodles are crab meat noodles. Because she was not hungry at the time, she ate the ingredients on top. Apparently, the noodles didn't get a bite. But the person sitting across from her looked at her bowl and then at her. There was indescribable malice in his eyes, which made her scalp tremble, and she immediately set off for Hong Kong.
2. Abroad
Life in Hong Kong is not smooth and stable. Three years later, she chose to go abroad for the rest of her life in the more unstable United States. So she just started, but she should still have some expectations at first. Hopefully, the inspiration she had run out of would find new connections in a new place, but in the end she had no one to live with and was left alone.
So Rhea's appearance is like redemption. In 1956, she moved almost every week and later moved to New England. On March 13, she met Raiya at McDowell Art Camp. Raiya is indeed no longer young, he is 65 years old, and Zhang Ailing is 36 years old, so Zhang Ailing's second love has suffered a lot of attacks because of a misunderstanding.
She even became pregnant, but the child could not be born because although Rhea proposed to her, she asked not to have children. They finally got married on August 8. Zhang Ailing wandered away, but not long after Lai Ya suffered a stroke. He was paralyzed and had to travel for two years to care for him, and Rhea had not previously informed him of his health problems.
At that time, the economy was extremely difficult, and Zhang Ailing even had to write a script for the company, but the script was revised for three months in a row, and in the end everything was in vain - his hands and feet were swollen and he didn't get a penny from writing until the early hours of the morning. But Zhang Ailing still did her best to take care of her husband, bathing him, wiping his body, cutting his nails and combing his hair.
However, her social circle is getting narrower. After Raia's death, she lost interest in society and people. What she wrote was not popular in the United States at all. In 1970, her health deteriorated year by year. "Because I always stayed up late and always had a cold, I moved to Los Angeles and nothing changed," she said.
During this time, she began to move regularly again, because she felt that there were "lice" in her home, and the move caused the translation of "Sea Flower" to disappear. Three or four years of hard work in vain. After finally finding a house to live in, she hardly went out and spent all day in the house watching TV. Every now and then she goes for a walk, and the neighbors greet her, and she just says hello.
At noon on September 8, 1995, Lin Shitong read the newspaper. Suddenly the phone rang, startling him. When the phone was connected, the other end of the line uttered something that made him unbelievable: "I think Elieen Chang Reyher is dead." "Dead." However, the other party is the daughter of Zhang Ailing's landlord, and said that there has been no sound in the room for several days, so the other party does not need to lie to him.
When Lin Shitong arrived, he saw Zhang Ailing lying on the camp bed, covered with a gray-blue blanket and wearing an ochre-colored cheongsam. His body is very relaxed. TV series were playing in the room, paper bags were covered on the floor, and the bathroom was a mess. It's unimaginable. There were tissues everywhere, and according to the results of the forensic examination, Zhang Ailing died 7 days ago. A generation of petite girls passed away