Novella: The Road Back home

The way back home

1

Fish lifted people away from home for many years.

The name of the fish is given by his father, and he is eager to be like the ancient times, the examination of the person, the title of the gold list, the glory of the ancestors, live well, but also let the family have a light on their faces, but also enjoy the blessings.

However, in addition to some good memories of childhood and on the way to school, the fate of Yuju people is doomed to bumps at the moment of walking out of school and entering society.

Yu ju people on the way to school, is very hard work, father also gritted his teeth, for him to study, has been provided to the town, I hope that at this time, he can use his full strength, enter any school used in the market, in the future, there is a job, unlike him, a lifetime facing the loess back to the sky, the wind comes, the rain goes, it is OK.

Yuju listened to his father's words and has been studying hard. However, after finishing his studies in the town and taking the test that determined his fate, the results came down, and although he tried his best, he still did not pass the exam, and returned home with pain and regret.

At this time, my father was already ill, and after knowing the news, he could not be disappointed and sorry for him. The mother, too, is busy with her father's illness. The whole family's life has fallen into the hardship and obscurity brought about by the illness of the father. The fish lifted people too late to be disappointed and regretful, followed the family together, and ran for their father's illness.

The people in the village used to listen to what their father often said in front of them, saying that the fish people's study is very good, and they will definitely be able to go to school and eat a relaxed meal in the future. I am very envious, and I also encourage my children to study well. Now, knowing that Yujuren did not go to school, while being as disappointed as Yujuren, he laughed and ridiculed Yujuren, saying that his father gave him such a big name, which was white. When I returned home, I was just like the people in the village, the people who carried hoes, repaired the earth, and lifted people. Thinking about the father of the fish lifter, who was sick, in the village and the township, he did not look favorably, so he thought that the fish lifter not only could not be a lifter, but also ate a relaxed meal, and the life of the family, after the death of his father, was afraid that it would be difficult.

The fish followed his mother, anxious together, thinking about treating his father.

In the village, the township did not look good, the mother's family thought, go to the city to treat the father. However, there is no money in the family. The sisters who married out have just started a family and have no money. The mother was in the village, and she did not borrow money, and her heart was disappointed and painful.

My father was in the village, worked as a clerk, and finally he was still in the village, and when he saw that his father was sick like that, he lent the money from the village to his father.

Initially, the mother asked Yu to take his father to the city to see a doctor. Say fish lift people have read books and know words. The fish lifted the man and led his father out of the ravine of his hometown, turned over the mountain beam, waited for the shuttle bus under the asphalt road in the mountain, and took the shuttle with his father, climbed over the mountain beam, and went to the big city to see his father.

The fish lifted people's hearts, praying that they could plug out the illness for their father, that they could see their father well, and then, together, they began to live a good life again. Father's interest is also very high, did not mention that the fish lifter did not go to school, but said, sick, in the future with the fish to create a beautiful life at home. Father's face, with a smile, the gaze in his eyes, became bright.

However, Yu Juren took his father to the hospital and did not check out the actual condition, bought some medicines, and went back.

Father also felt that he did not have any serious illness, when he went back, he was very interested, and said to the fish lifter, wait until the illness is better, what to do, what to do, let the fish lift the person follow him to do it, the future life of the family, is getting better and better.

The fish lifted people to listen, promised, and what unfolded in his mind was a new and beautiful life, which made him forget the disappointment and pain of not going to school.

Back at home, the father took medicine, do not know the effect of the drug, or the psychological effect, at the beginning, these drugs still work, the father can eat, the face is also faded, people appear to be spiritual, the eyes are bright.

However, not long after, my father still couldn't eat, and after eating, he couldn't pull it down, and his stomach swelled and hurt. His face was yellow again. The smile on his face, the bright gaze in his eyes, dimmed.

Following the happy mother, she began to nag again, saying that Xu was not diagnosed with the disease, and this medicine cured the superficial disease, and it played a role for a while, and the substantive disease was still in the body.

Borrowed money, and some of it, the mother's family personally led the father to the big hospital in the city to check on the disease.

It didn't take long for my father's illness to be checked out, and my father had cancer, which was already at an advanced stage, and there wasn't much time left.

When her mother heard the news, she instantly felt that the sky had collapsed, and she did not dare to believe this fact, nor did she dare to think about her future life without her father.

The mother hid the illness from her father, and only told him that he was not much sick and that he would get better by taking some medicine.

Father's interest, as soon as he came, a smile, bright eyes, said to his mother, I will say! I have a good heart, and I can get any serious illness.

My father longed for what he would do with the fish when he was well, so that the family's life would be better in the future.

The mother listened, smiled, and secretly wiped her tears behind her back.

Because I don't have much money, I can't stay in the hospital. It is also because the doctor said that his father's illness, no matter how long he stayed in the hospital, was in vain, unable to operate, and there was no other way to alleviate his pain. The patient eats, eats, wants to play, just play, there is not much time.

When my mother heard this, she bought some medicine for her father, led her father back to her hometown.

My father was still doing it, he was well, and he still wanted to do something.

But the mother was secretly preparing for the aftermath for her father, while shedding tears.

Yu Juren knew this reality, faced his father, smiled, and should follow his father's words, and behind his back, he also shed the same tears. Nor did he dare to imagine the days when there would be no father in the family.

After a short time, what medicine my father took had no effect. He also didn't take medicine anymore. The disease is getting more and more serious, not to mention eating, water is difficult to drink, and the stomach is swollen like a drum. The face is more and more yellow, as if dyed, the person is more and more thin, the eyes can put down the egg, the hands are like dead branches.

At this time, my father also understood that he had a bad illness, and there were not many days left, and his mother hid his illness.

In the face of such a reality, the father did not complain, nor did he get angry, but said to his mother, in his life, there is no regret, he should eat, he should play, the only regret is that he did not raise the fish to settle down, he still found a daughter-in-law, did not start a family.

A few days later, my father said his last words to Yujuren: People's hearts test themselves. Then, gradually, I stopped breathing. The fish held his father's hand, looked at his father, and felt as if his father had not died, but was too tired and asleep. His father's hand was slowly cold, but he felt how warm this hand had been.

My father died, and my two older sisters, who were married outside, returned. The younger siblings were all at home, together with their mother, and they had a funeral for their father.

After my father's funeral, my sister went back to her home. There are only a sad mother, a fish lifter, a brother, and a sister in the family. The home was shrouded in desolation, and it suddenly seemed so empty.

2

Not long after his father's death, Yuju left the house.

The mother had been nagging in her mouth. After his father's death, Xu was devastated and nagged even more. Nagging the fish to lift people, but also nagging fish to lift people's siblings. The relationship with the neighbors in the village is also handled very stiffly, because of her nagging, and often conflicts with people.

YuJu people did not go to school, and they were disappointed and miserable. The death of his father also brought him deep pain. Coupled with the nagging of the mother, the fish lifters feel more and more unable to feel the hope of life. I feel that staying at home, no matter how hard I work with my hands, what I can get is to have a place to live at night and food to eat during the day. With the increasing age day by day, in the face of the destruction of the family, the nagging of the mother, I feel that the love that does not say dreams is even a family, I am afraid that it is all luxury.

Once, in the nagging of his mother, the fish lifted a fire, and after bumping into his mother, he carried a bag, stayed in his clothes, and left the house.

When he left, the fish raised his hand and said to his mother, I will never come back.

My mother said, just don't come back. Have the ability not to come back for a lifetime.

The fish lifted up people and said, if you don't come back, you won't come back. The fish lifted the man with his bag on his back, and left the house without returning, passing through the village and walking outside the ravine of his hometown.

The fish lifted people this way, that is, nearly twenty years.

In the past twenty years, Yuju people have traveled to many places, met many people, experienced many things, and somewhat complicated. However, to put it simply, it is also simple. In the beginning, he wandered everywhere, wherever he could shelter, where to eat, where to stay. Whenever I have a hard time, I also think about going home and want to go back. However, thinking of the death of his father, the destruction of his home, the nagging of his mother, the hateful words he said when he left, and the feeling of going back, there was no hope of going back. Just grit your teeth again, insist, drift.

Later, I felt the same way, drifting around, being able to stay and eat, but it was the same that people did not feel the future. It's in a city.

In the city, renting in an urban village, finding the hardest and most tiring work, in this city, you can also fall on your feet.

With the gradual familiarity with the city, Yuju people have some culture, and gradually get rid of this most bitter, tired and dirty job, and find some easy, but also more decent work. In various industries, fish lifters have been dried. Later, familiar with many industries, there are also some networks, fish in the hands of people, there is some money, began to open their own shops, do it alone. Not for a few years, I also made some money. At this time, Yujuren met a girl, and later, the girl's family became his woman.

When the business is at its most prosperous and the fish is glorious, the woman accompanies him with a dead heart and lives with him, so that the fish lifting body tastes sweet and happy.

Fish lift people and women, but also dream, in the future in the city, buy a house, car, live a stable and happy life. The woman was also intoxicated, and said to the fish, at that time, I will give you a fat boy.

Yu Juren did not expect that the mall and the battlefield, just when he was most proud and the business was most prosperous, because he trusted people, lost all his money, and owed a swollen ass, immediately took shelter, and it was difficult to eat. At this time, the fish lifted people also felt that their health was not very good, and the woman could share happiness with him, but she could not share the suffering, and ran away with the person.

Fish lift people in the city, immediately have nothing, shelter, eat without landing, just like that floating in the city. When he was rich before, he felt that this bustling, lively, and wonderful city was his, but only then did he find that the city had no relationship with him, and he was just like when he first came, poor and white. The difference is that in the flow of time, his youth has been lost, people are not young, and there are unspeakable pains in his body.

In the past, when I was rich, in the city, when I drank, I patted my chest, and I was a very good person, but at this time, the phone could not be called, and I pretended not to know when I met.

The fish lifted people's hearts and felt particularly desolate. In my heart, I especially want to die grandpa, grandma, father. Also think of mothers, brothers and sisters. Think of the villages of my hometown, the landscapes of that side, the old houses in the villages, and those folks.

Yu Juren felt that at this time, there was nothing, and he was floating in this indifferent city, his hometown village, perhaps the only one to rely on, and home.

With the exhaustion and scars of the heart, with the thoughts of his hometown and his relatives, and with the last warm hope, he embarked on the road back to his hometown.

3

From the city, the road back to home is actually not far away. Over a mountain beam, you come to the town, from the town over a small mountain beam, into a ditch, there is a potholed dirt road, walk a mile or twenty miles, you come to a village, the fish lifter's home, in this village.

Although the road is not far, Yu Juren did not expect that he left this time, that is, nearly twenty years, did not return to his hometown village, he also had a childish, full of vitality of the young man, became a person who experienced the world, encountered ups and downs, and gradually entered middle age.

Yu Juren thought that when he left home, he was empty, and now he is still empty and goes back, turning his life into a circle.

At this time, when going back, the difference is that people are no longer full of youth and vitality, and the vitality of the body and the dreams in their heads have long been worn down and destroyed by the hard and cruel life of reality. What remains on the body are the traces left by the years and life. What remains in the heart is that I have experienced many things, seen a lot of Jean, and experienced the hardships and dryness after life.

After leaving his hometown for many years, the fish lifted the human body to taste the initial drifting and hardship. After experiencing hardships and ups and downs, and finally from the trough to the glory, watching the happy life of dreams, it is coming, but in an instant, it has disappeared, from the peak of the dream to the bottom. He has become an uncivilized person who does not know where to eat during the day, does not know where to live at night, and has no place to live. In this bustling city, there are no relatives, there is no one to rely on, people are gradually middle-aged, encounter such a change, the heart from heroic, instantly feel so desperate. Like many years ago, from the beginning, in the feeling of despair, it is no longer possible. He didn't have that kind of economic strength, and he didn't have that mood anymore.

When you have money, you feel that the city is your own, and when you have no money, when you are down, you feel that you are not the city.

In the hearts of the fish people, the only thing missed at this time, the one who was involved was the relatives at home, and also missed the landscape of their hometown. If you think of your relatives in your hometown, you will be able to accommodate him, and the landscape of your hometown will be able to accept him.

The fish lifted the person sitting on the shuttle, the shuttle was like a streamer, wrapped around the mountain road, gasping, crawling, the fish lifted people's minds, so clearly emerging from the landscape of the hometown village, their own relatives.

The sky above the head, blue, under the sky, are rolling mountains, the mountains are not high, full of various trees, changing colors with the change of seasons. The mountains are open, like a ring, embracing a pingba.

Above the Ping dam, there are two ditches, from which two small rivers flow out, and after meeting in the Ping dam, there is a slow flow away. The river is overgrown with wild willows, reeds, trees, aquatic plants, and small rivers flowing in silence.

The village, just before the confluence of two rivers, on either side of a larger river.

People's houses are mostly houses with black tiles, there is a yard in front of the door, and around the house, there are various fruit trees. The family raises pigs and chickens; also raises dogs, raises cats, and has a pastoral life in the chickens and dogs.

Outside the village, on both sides of the small river, at the foot of the mountain, is the field, and the stone ridge outside the field is built, which surrounds the field into an irregular shape and puts them together to become a beautiful scenery.

Although it is a sandy land, it grows corn, soybeans, potatoes, and wheat, nourishing the families in the village.

The fish lifter's home, right in the middle of the village on the side. It is also a house with earthen walls and black tiles. Behind the house is a hillside full of pine trees. In front of the door is a large yard and a vegetable patch.

When the fish lifter opens his eyes and can see things outside his body, he gradually remembers his relatives at home. There was a father, a mother; two older sisters, a younger sister, a younger brother. There was also Grandpa and Grandma, who lived in a small room next door to the house and had not been with them.

When Yu juren was studying, his grandparents died one after another.

In my memory, my father and mother, except when it was windy, rainy, and snowy, generally went to work. Even if it is windy and rainy, I am also at home and doing some work.

The eldest sister was reading, and the second sister read for a few days, but she couldn't read, so she came back and helped with housework. The younger siblings are still young, ignorant, childish, and grow up happily.

Grandparents, in the cottage next door, lived their lives, Grandma did the housework, Grandpa went to the fields and did some work. In winter, the fire in the home stove is very vigorous and warm.

The life at home, although it is difficult and poor. He wore patched clothes, ate sauerkraut paste soup, and lived at night in a house with black tiles. However, looking back, the fish lifter felt so warm. Especially when a family is eating together, when the family lives in a house with black tiles, in the winter night, no matter how strong the wind outside blows, the house is so warm.

The family is large, the life is poor, although there are sometimes quarrels, and some of the sisters are beaten because of this, but the feeling of reminiscence is warm and happy.

The fish lifts people's hearts, and at this time, they especially long for the warmth and happiness at this time. I long for the years to be able to turn back the years and go back to those years.

When the fish lifter also thinks that when he is older, he will no longer be satisfied with such a big place as his home, and he will run around the village and play. I know that in the village, there are many grandfathers and grandmothers. That kindness, kindness. I also know that in the village, there are many uncles and aunts. There are also big brothers and big sisters. What makes The fish remember the most is his peers, those who can play together. In the spring, go fold the flowers and pinch the thorn rod along the small river. In the summer, jump into the waterhole of the small river outside the village and play with dog planing. In autumn, the mountains are full of wild fruits to eat. In the winter, run in the snow, build snowmen, and have snowball fights.

On the walnut trees outside the village, a swing was tied and swinged. In the summer night, in the courtyard of the village, play games.

Thinking about it, the fish is the most popular, and how I hope that time can be turned back, back to that time, and can play with my partner and carefree.

Yu Juren remembered, just thinking of quickly feeling his hometown, looking at the landscape, looking at the relatives at home, a grown-up partner, longing to be able to find comfort in them, melt him to live, soothe the trauma and pain in his heart.

4

The fish lifted the man in the town and got off the bus. Yuju people know that the shuttle only passes through the town, and to go home to the village village, you need to find a way to go back from the town.

The mountains around the town are the same as when they walked, and the town looks the same as when it walks, with a road as a street, and many houses and shops are opened on both sides of the street.

However, the streets in the town, along both sides of the street, were extended, and houses were built in pingba across the river. Many houses in the town have been demolished and repaired, and the appearance is beautifully decorated. The town became much bigger than it had been years ago.

The town is bustling with people and cars.

The fish lifted people in the town, did not stay too long, found a car, and went to their hometown village.

The road along the way is familiar, still dark asphalt. The mountains, rivers, and scenery along the way are also familiar, making the fish feel so kind.

The car drove under the beams of the ravine back to the hometown, and the fish lifted people to see that the potholed dirt road back to the hometown had become a gray-white cement road. Although it is still narrow, the curve is sharp, and the route is also the route in memory, but it has become flat.

I also saw that on the hillside, there were cement telephone poles, and between the poles, there were wires, and the fish people also knew that their hometown had been electrified.

I also saw that there were other cement poles attached to the poles, and on the poles, there was a black foreskin line, and the fish people knew that the hometown had already connected a mobile phone signal.

After so many years away, my hometown has changed. Yu Ju people know that the sky above their hometown is still the same as in their memories and have not changed. Under the sky, the rolling mountains have not changed. The flowing river has not changed it! It's just that he doesn't know, what has changed in the face of the village, what has changed for the people in the village?

After leaving for so many years, I have not had any contact with my family, and I am completely isolated from my hometown, and I don't know what my hometown looks like at this time.

The fish held the memory, but also with the imagination, sitting on the van, following the gray and white cement road, driving smoothly forward.

According to the familiar route, a lot of up the mountain beam, the sky in front of you, is so familiar, under the sky, is the vast mountains, the ditch between the mountains, is the hometown village.

The fish lifted people's hearts, and suddenly felt that warmth, like a wanderer, found a home. It is also like a wronged child, eager to go home and be comforted.

Get off the mountain beam and drive in the ditch. The landscape along the way has not changed, the village has indeed changed, some people have built buildings, under the sun, it is particularly dazzling. Some people have renovated the house, the roof is flat, the walls are snow white, it is very beautiful. In the courtyard, there is also a cement floor. Outside the courtyard, flowers and trees are planted, and there is running water, giving people an elegant feeling.

Yu Juren thought that the conditions in his hometown were changing and becoming beautiful.

However, in front of the eyes of the fish, the people who appear are changing. In the original memory, many of those kind and kind old people were gone. What can be seen, faltering. At that time, the prime-aged people, bright eyes, wind and fire running the days, with their hands to create life, at this time has become old, hair is disheveled, the face is dark, full of wrinkles, hunched over, a desolate look. The young people in the memory, people of the same age as themselves, it is difficult to see them. Occasionally, I saw, also no longer young, the eyes are dull, the face is full of traces of age, the hands are full of calluses, the hair is disheveled, the clothes they wear are full of dirt, and when they see people, their expressions appear wooden.

This makes the fish lift people's hearts, in the face of the living environment of the hometown people, the warmth of the heart that changes and turns into desolation.

Passing through the village, sometimes driving in the deserted mountains, in the mountains, the sun is shining, the river flows silently, it is particularly quiet, and the fish lift people's hearts, still in excitement and warmth.

In this way, in a van, through village after village, through the uninhabited mountains, and gradually approached the village of my hometown.

Along the way, the fish lifted the man like a child, his eyes wide open, looking curiously at everything outside the window, as if he had never been to this place before.

When approaching the hometown village, the fish lifted people's hearts, and they were excited and warmed up again.

In his mind, he remembered the scenes of his childhood home and the scenes of the village. He also came back from school, just returned home, and his father fell ill and died. I also thought of the scene of staying in my hometown village in the face of my mother's nagging, the same hopelessness, and resolutely leaving. I did not expect that this walk, that is, a period of one or two decades, he was from a young man full of youth and vitality, he also experienced life, and in the flowing years, he became a progressive middle-aged person, and the body and heart, as well as the years, and the real life, portrayed too many marks. Youth and vitality have dissipated in the years. At this time, it is all gray thoughts, there is no other way to retreat, and the hope of life, only with the only hope, back to his hometown, longing for the landscape of his hometown, can accept him, longing for his relatives, the people of his hometown village, can accommodate him, let him have a place to live, have a mouthful of food to eat, then, he forgets everything in the past, let go of everything in the past, as if he had a terrible dream, he will never leave his hometown, accompany his hometown landscape, be accompanied by his relatives, and be accompanied by his neighbors, and get comfort and warmth until he is old.

Thinking about it, the fish lifted people's hearts, gushing with warmth, and tears could not help but flow from their eyes.

5

The van, after turning a big bend, the hometown landscape, the village in the landscape, appeared in front of the eyes.

Like the villages along the way, the landscape has not changed, nor has the flowing river, including the fields, or the way it looks when I walk. The houses of the village have basically not changed, and they are also the direction he walked. It's still that big. However, there have been changes, and like the villages along the way, some people have built buildings, which is particularly dazzling. The houses with black tiles with earthen walls have been repaired, and the yard has been paved with cement roads. There was electricity in the house and a mobile phone signal. There was running water. The village, as a result, has become beautiful and elegant.

In the face of the beautiful hometown village, the heart of the fish lifters is excited, eager to find a place to live in the hometown village, soothe the heart, and stay in the hometown village until the end of the old age.

The fish lifter got out of the car at the head of the village, carried something simple, crossed the village, jumped over the stones in the small river, and went home.

The fish lifted people suddenly felt that in the village, there were no longer memories, so many people, empty, many people's doors, has been closed, some open people in front of the eaves, sitting some old people, hopelessly looking at the sky, mountains, villages in a daze, eyes are unfocused, dull, from their faces, fish people can vaguely feel, who is this, memory, they are so strong, wind and fire, bright eyes, dreaming of using their hands to create a happy life. At this time, it has become like this. He didn't know the fish lifter anymore, and it seemed that apart from his own life and death, there was no curiosity or interest in drinking things for people outside of him, and there was no longer any expression or action towards the fish lifting person passing in front of him.

There are a few sparse children who do not understand, and some are by the courtyard, playing with mud alone. Some are by the small river, playing with stones. Seeing the fish lifting the man, his eyes widened, looking strange, and curious, even a little frightened. They don't know the fish lifters, and the fish lifters don't know them. However, from their faces, the fish people vaguely saw the familiar Jean's name.

When crossing the river, passing through the village, and walking towards the hometown, I met several people, who were not much older than the fish lifters, and at the same time that they recognized the fish lifters, the fish lifters also recognized them. In the flow of years, and in real life, although each other's faces have left the vicissitudes of the years, physically, leaving traces of life, and gradually aging, but left in the memory, that look, but still exists.

People smile and enthusiastically ask the fish to lift people, you are a fish lifter!

The fish lifted the man and said, yes, I am.

They said that they had not seen each other for ten or twenty years, and that they had changed.

The fish lifted up and smiled and said, yes! It's changed, it's old.

They smiled and said, they are all old.

After the greeting, let the fish lift people feel warm, and then, take a step forward, walk to the hometown.

Although the house is white, repaired, and paved with cement, the house and the road have not changed their location, and the way home is so familiar.

In the distance, the fish lifters saw the old house, like the people in the village, renovated, the roof was flat, the walls were white, and the yard was paved with cement, becoming beautiful.

When we got to the old house, on the door pier, there sat a child. Next to him, there sat a woman who didn't know the fish lifter, and the fish lifter didn't know him.

The fish lifted people and thought, this may be the daughter-in-law of the brother, and the child!

The fish lifted the person and smiled at the child, teasing the child, and the child felt frightened, got up and hid behind the woman.

The fish lifted the person and said to the woman, I am the fish lifter, that is, the person of this family. What about mom and fish?

The woman smiled at him and said, "They're going to work."

Without saying a word, the fish lifter went into the house, put the simple things away, went out the door, and sat down under the eaves of the door, against the wooden sticks placed against the wall.

The woman looked down and played with her phone, and the child hid behind the woman. The fish lifted the people and sat quietly, looking at the sky above their heads, looking at the mountains and villages under the sky. Everything was so familiar, and my heart suddenly felt like I was back in my mother's womb, feeling so warm and kind. With such a down-to-earth feeling, The fish lifts people feel that all the hardships, ups and downs, and disappointments they have experienced are nothing, and when they return to their hometown, there are familiar landscapes, relatives, and familiar neighbors, and here, they can live.

Years of wandering, finally being deceived, hurt, and coming back with nothing. Let the fish lift people see the so-called lively, wonderful, bustling. Yu Juren's heart thought that as long as there is a place to live in the mountains and rivers of his hometown, and he will never leave after a bite of food, he will never leave, nor will he go, just in his hometown village, until he is old, and finally buried in the landscape of his hometown. This is the place where he was born and raised, and from here, finally the leaves fell back to the roots!

Thinking about it, the fish lifted people's hearts, especially steadfast, but also felt warm.

It didn't take long for the mother and brothers to return, both carrying firewood.

The brother grew tall, had a beard, and a throat knot, and his hair was long, unkempt, and covered with dust. Although it was not the same as the appearance in the memory, the general appearance was still there, and the fish lifted the person to recognize it at once, and shouted, the fish.

The fish was stunned and did not recognize it, this is a fish lifter.

The fish lifter said, I am the fish lifter, it is your brother!

Yu Yu'er smiled and shouted, Brother, come back.

The mother's hair was gray, her face was wrinkled and spotted, and she looked thin, her back was somewhat curved, and her hands were full of calluses.

At the same time that the fish recognized her mother, her mother also recognized her.

The fish lifted up and shouted, Mom.

The mother shouted, lifted the man, and came back.

The mother became old. In the eyes of the mother, the fish lifter also has changed, and the youthful vitality is gone, it is the appearance of a middle-aged man.

Mother and brother, after washing their faces, the mother is busy on the stove, the brother holds the child, follows her daughter-in-law, and plays. The children are very affectionate in their arms, and from time to time they laugh, and the family is happy and happy, so that the fish lifts people to bless at the same time, but also very envious.

In the twilight, my mother cooked many delicious dishes and cooked dishes, and the family sat around the table.

In the house, the light bulbs are dangling, and the TV is playing programs. In the house, I bought some electrical appliances, and furniture, and arranged them neatly. The walls are snow white, the top is hanging, the house is very warm, giving people a comfortable and warm feeling, so that the fish lift people to find the same feeling as childhood.

Sit in one piece, eat and drink. Although my mother was old, she could drink a few glasses of wine. If yu Er and her daughter-in-law can drink, they will accompany the fish to drink.

As the wine went down, the stomach gradually warmed up, the brain also fainted, and the words increased.

The fish lifted people to listen to their mothers, and their brothers, talking about what had happened in the family in the past twenty years, too many details to tell, just talking about the general.

The sister married in the village. Later, the brother experienced many twists and turns, found a daughter-in-law, and had a child. In the days of the family, they ran some on their own, supported some on the top, repaired the house, and paved the yard with cement. The family pulled a big electricity, with a variety of electrical appliances, the days in a thousand hardships, to live like this.

Yu Juren also talked about his own experience, the difficulty of starting to go out, experienced drifting, and later settled in the city, had a temperament, and also had a family, but after a scam, there was nothing, and now he is in despair, his hometown is the only destination, he wants to come back to find inner comfort, find a place to live, never go out.

Yu Juren did not realize that after he finished his experience and the situation at this time, the disappointment and enthusiasm in the eyes of his mother and brother gradually faded. The banquet, which was very quick, was over, and after eating and hastily cleaning up the dishes, there was a bed in an empty house in the back, and let the fish go to sleep.

The fish was drunk, and slept in the old house, feeling so warm, down-to-earth, and had a feeling of returning to childhood, thinking about nothing.

Only, vaguely, there was always a muttering sound in the ear. The fish lifted people to feel, ah seems to have made a day of car, hallucinations in the ears, did not listen carefully.

Fish people feel the warmth of the old house, the enthusiasm given by relatives, the heart is steadfast, and the warmth, doing in the hometown village, can have a place to live, a bite to eat, forever, never leave, in the hometown village to grow old.

6

When the fish lifters got up the next day, the mother and the fish had already gone to work, and the sister-in-law also led the children and walked around the village. After the fish lifted the person to wash his face, he went to the stove room to see, the rice was scooped up, the bowl was soaked in the pot, and the rice that was scooped up was still warm, so he ate it.

After eating, there was no one in the old house, and it was somewhat empty. The fish lifted the people and went to the village, thinking of going to the sister Yu Orchid's house to see.

The Fish Orchid Family, in the village across the river, outside the village, built a building, which seemed luxurious.

The man with the fish orchid is a car, a businessman, the family earns money, repairs the house, and lives in the village, and lives a very prosperous life.

The fish lifter went to the sister Yu Orchid's house with excitement. Fish orchids and men, children are eating, how many years have not seen, fish orchids have changed in length, taller, slender hair, dyed in fashionable colors. The clothes worn are also as fashionable and dressed up as charming.

The fish lifter went, it seems that the mother and brother, got up early, have come to the house, told her about the fish lifter back, and the fish lifted the person thing, the situation at this time, so, in the face of the brother Yu Ju ren appeared in front of the door, did not show surprise, but appeared very calm, but also behaved strangely, did not want a little expression, lightly asked, came back.

The fish lifted the man and said, back.

Fish orchids have asked, have not eaten, have not eaten and eaten.

Seeing the expression of the fish orchid on his face, the fish lifted the heart of the person, suddenly felt so cold, said, have eaten.

The man of the fish orchid urged the fish orchid to scoop rice for the fish, and the fish orchid reluctantly got up, scooped up a bowl of rice, and did not invite the fish to the house, so he handed it to the fish, and the fish lifted the person and said that he had eaten. Turning his head and leaving, not knowing why, his heart was suddenly cold, cold, and the tears did not know when, flowing out.

When I went back, the fish held people and sat quietly under the eaves in front of the door, the sun was warm, and the sky was as blue as blue. The mountains are rolling, in the dry yellow, winter is coming, and the year is coming to an end. The village is particularly comfortable in the sun.

Yu Juren looked at the landscape of his hometown, basking in the warm sun, and suddenly recalled the past of his childhood, recalled the scene when the family was together, and also recalled his childhood and his partners in the village, in a piece of the scene, just went to the sister Yu Orchid's home, the coldness shown by The fish orchid brought him the coldness in his heart, and was covered by the warmth brought by this memory.

The fish lifted people and thought that he was confused at this time and came back with nothing. The day of the fish orchid, living well, looked down on him, nothing. As long as his mother and brothers are good to him, can allow him to shelter again, and where he eats, his heart will feel warm.

The fish sat for a while, and was caught up in this warm memory, and the brother and daughter-in-law, not knowing when they would return, were still sitting on the door pier, playing with their mobile phones. The child began to sit next to him, sat for a while, probably knew the fish lifting people, and was not afraid of the fish lifting people, so they rushed to the side of the fish lifters, the fish lifters were about to reach out and hug him, did not expect that the child hit the fish and raised a palm, spit, scolded the fish lifters, and shouted at the fish lifters, this is my home, roll.

Looking at the child's dark eyes, cute appearance, the fish lifter did not put the child's actions, and the words said, to the heart, feel that this is just a child naughty, do not worry, the heart is not seriously injured by the child, still preserve the return to the hometown village, stay in the hometown, face the hometown landscape, gushing warmth.

The fish lifted the people with this warmth and went to wander the village again. Like when they first lived in the village, the fish people dreamed that when they wandered in the village, they could meet kind old people, strong people, who created life with their hands, and who were full of dreams about life, young people, just like when they were children. I long for people who can meet, who can talk to themselves, who can play together, who can find the memory, the warmth and happiness.

Yu ju people in the village, walked around, only to know, in the village, the memory of those kind old people, has disappeared their figure, through the village, looking at the foot of the mountain, after he left, the grave that came out, there are old graves, there are new graves, fish lifters know that those kind old people, have been forever buried in the mountains and rivers of their hometown, no longer ask about the things of the world, regardless of the bittersweet and bittersweet of the world, joy and sorrow, the hardships of life and the happiness of the moment. The old man who met was still strong in his memory, but at this time he was old, his hair was gray, his face was full of wrinkles, his ears were back, and his eyes were sloppy. They basically can't recognize the fish and lift people, that is, they recognize it, they have also experienced the world, they have seen through the world, at this time there is only the indifference of their own life and death, coldness, being outside the world, and no longer asking questions about anyone and anything in the world.

This made the fish lifter feel a little empty, but also a little desolate.

A few children are either sleeping or playing carefree. Regardless of the hardships and sorrows of life. It doesn't matter how empty, dead, old the village is. Nor did he know the twists and turns he had experienced, the desolation, and the desire to return to the roots of the fallen leaves at this time. Looking at the children, the fish lifted people thinking about when they were young, and like them, they played alone, and at that time, there were many children in the village, and there were many partners, carefree, playing so happy.

At this moment, the fish lifter met a childhood partner, although it was the same, the face, the body was full of traces of years and life, the person also became old, the hair was disheveled, the body was full of dust, but the general appearance was still the same, the fish lifted the person recognized it at once, the heart was very excited, rushed up to say hello, but did not expect that the partner was very indifferent, did not talk much, said what work to do, hurried away. Looking at the distant back of his partner, the fish lifted people's hearts, empty for half a day, sad for half a day. I know that the enthusiasm of childhood, the hilarity of playing in a carefree piece, can never be found again. Everything was his memory, an empty dream.

After walking around a while, I met a man from the village who was slightly larger than the fish lifter, called Weizi.

Wei Zi drove a small car, his face was chubby, his body was also fat, and he showed signs of middle-aged happiness. His face was rosy, his eyes were sharp, and he looked proud.

The fish lifter recognized him, he also recognized the fish lifter, chong yu ju man smiled, said hello, asked the fish lift man, and came back.

The fish lifted the man and said, back.

Wei Zi said that I am now working in the village, and in a mining department in the village, there are also things to do. Later, when you have time, come and play.

The fish lifted up the man and said, "Okay."

Wei Zi drove away. Looking at Wei Zi's distant car, the fish lifted people's hearts, and there was an indescribable taste. There is guilt, inferiority, and regret in the face of Weizi's gain of scenery. There is also a warmth of respect for WeiZi, still knowing him, his enthusiasm, respect.

7

The mother lifted the fish and began not to speak much, nor did she have an expression, as if there were no fish lifting people.

Brother Yu'er, like his mother, no longer speaks to Yuju and has a cold face, ignoring his presence.

Brothers and daughters-in-law, leading children, often revel in the mobile phone, only the child, appears naughty and lively. Although sometimes, when the adult fish is sitting quietly, he will run to the side of the fish lifter, slap the fish and raise the person's hand, and then run away in a hurry. Then, looking at the fish and smiling, the eyes were dark, dark, and very cute. The fish lifter not only did not worry about anything with the child, but felt the cuteness of the child, felt that the child was still in front of him, made warm to him, and let his heart rise warm.

At night, the fish people slept in only one bed, in an empty room. During the day, no matter whether there is rice left in the pot or scooped up rice, just eat a little, you can fill your stomach, you will be satisfied.

However, the fish lifted people to feel that they could often see their mother and brothers, muttering something together. The sister-in-law remained silent, intoxicated by the phone. Children are so innocent and innocent.

Ever since the sister Yu Orchid was so cold to him, just like a beggar, hurting Yu Ju's heart and self-esteem, Yu Ju Ren had never been to his home again. However, the fish orchid often came to her mother's house, and there was no expression for the fish, no speech, no feeling for his village, and his mother and brother were together, muttering.

The fish lifter wandered in the village, the village, so empty, and there was no way to speak, and the person who was enthusiastic about him made the fish lifter feel a little lost, and he didn't go to the village much.

The fish lifted up people, and suddenly wanted to go to my sister's house to see. When he first left home, his two sisters were already married, and he knew that the eldest sister, Yumeizi, was married in his hometown village, not far down the river. The second sister, Yu Zhu'er, married in a village outside the mountain, in the plain.

Go to the second sister's house, relatively far, the fish lifters want to go to the big sister's fish eyebrow home to play.

There is also going, the mother said to the fish people, you don't have to go to people's homes, people's homes, things have happened a lot in recent years, the mother died, the son had a car accident, there are old people to take care of at home, you go is not to add trouble to others! The second family, you don't want to go, for so many years, you haven't gone to the door to take a look, there is no face to go. There are many things in people's homes, repairing houses, marrying women, and their health is not good, so they go to people's homes to serve you.

His mother's words, although they stung the fish lifting people, made him feel like a lost dog, driven away, and had no place to stand.

However, when he knew that such an unfortunate thing had happened to his eldest sister, his heart stung deeply. Knowing that the second sister is not in good health, she is also anxious. However, at this time, he had nothing, it was difficult for him to protect himself, and he could not help them, only empty and anxious. Seeing my mother say this, I was also discouraged, and I went to my eldest sister's house to see the idea.

There is no place to go, the fish people just sit under the eaves in front of the door, ignored by people, looking at the blue sky above their heads, the mountains under the blue sky, the villages in the mountains, in the memory, looking for that warmth and comfort. Let the mother mutter, since they did not call him to speak, no matter what they say, let them say it!

In this way, in their muttering, and ignoring, after a few days, the eldest sister Yumei unexpectedly came to the house. The mother was so enthusiastic, with a smile on her face, asked if she was tired of walking, what she wanted to eat, and was busy making it. It was like he came back at the time.

The fish eyebrow arrived at home, put something, saw the fish lifting people, no expression, just a faint rush to the fish raised people to ask, came back. Then, go talk to them.

After talking for a while, Yumeizi followed her mother and went to the stove room to cook, and her mother took out all the delicious food and let it be done. Fish and women, as well as children, get together, play very lively, that sweet, happy scene, let the fish people envy.

In a few moments, the fish orchid and the man also came, and the fish orchid did not talk to the fish, ignoring his village, the man smiled with him, said hello, and followed a piece, went to the stove room, busy. In no time, the stove room was filled with fragrance.

Although no one pays attention to the fish lifting people and asking him to do something, but looking at them so intimate and lively, the hearts of the fish lifters have found the memories in the old house, once a family, all intact together, every New Year' and festival, isn't it so lively? The fish lifted people's hearts and felt warm. Just sit quietly under the eaves, feel the liveliness in the house, look at the sky, look at the mountains, look at the village, remember the life in the old house, bask in the warm sun in winter, feel the silence of the village, feel so solid in your heart, feel so warm and happy.

In the twilight, they finally made a meal, and the mother called for the fish to move the table, and the fish was very quick, and in the house, the table and stool were set up. They quickly brought the dishes to the table and laid out chopsticks, cups, and bowls. The fish shouted for them to sit, and they all sat down, and only then did they come to shout that the fish would lift up and eat.

Although there was no expression, the tone was stiff and a little light, but the fish lifted the man still got up and went. Feeling that everything had returned, the old house was bustling, and he could not spoil the lively atmosphere. After all, he was still living in the old house, eating with them in a pot.

The fish got up, went to the house, saw an empty seat at the table, and sat down.

The fish went to get a drink and came out.

After sitting down, they all ate vegetables, and kept calling their mothers to eat vegetables, and no one beckoned the fish to lift people, as if there was no presence of him. The fish lifted the person silently, picked up the chopsticks, wanted to eat something, eat something.

Fish eyebrows, fish orchids, fish children, children do not drink, drink. Mothers can drink a little, and both fish and fish can drink. Yu Yu'er gave the drink to the eldest sister and let them pour it, and Yu Yu'er drank with his mother and the fish.

A few glasses of wine in the stomach, the stomach is hot, the brain is dizzy, so that the fish lift people forget the indifference of their relatives to him, ignore, watch their relatives sit around the table, look at the old house, recall the days of the past, and feel warm in their hearts. This warmth made him forget, in the city, fell to the fall after nothing, but in the heart, still longing, can fall leaves back to the roots, in the hometown village, can have a place to live, have a mouthful of food to eat, and then, forever stay in the village, never go anywhere.

The mother drank a few cups, and then she did not drink, just the fish eyebrows, the fish orchids, the fish daughter-in-law, the children drank drinks, in a piece, casual, affectionate talk. The child eats and drinks, his eyes are black, his face is happy, and he is very happy.

The fish will drink with the fish.

The amount of wine in the fish seems to be particularly large, and the fish lifts people drink more and more fiercely. I started drinking four cups, then six more, and after six, and then twelve, I felt that I was not too addicted, so I took the lid of the wine pot and drank it.

The fish and the fish lifted people, drank and drank, and they became excited, and the words became more.

Yu Yu'er told Yu Yuren about his life at home after he left.

Yu Yu'er told Yu Juren how difficult the life at home was after he left, and they created it with their hands, little by little. It is also said that some of the policies after the departure of the fish people, mountains and forests and land, are divided according to population. Yu Juren has not returned for many years, there is no news, the hukou village has been cancelled, there is no land for him, and there are no mountains and forests. The old house! It is also their hands and hard work that they have come to this place, and every bit of the family is obtained through their labor through their hands.

The fish lifter also wanted to say that he was outside, and the fish said, don't say it, no matter what, you have now fallen into this field, come back with nothing, this house, live for a while and a half, want to live for a long time, it is not OKAY. The house is his, and the mountains and fields are also his, and there is no fish to lift people's share.

The fish lifted people and said, I am very tired outside, now I am indeed depressed, there is nothing, there is no place to go, the only thing is to come back, come back is to have a place to live, eat, never leave, just in the hometown village to grow old.

Yu Yu'er said, "But you have nothing outside now, and it is not yours to come back."

The fish lifted up the people and said, I will go to the Weizi tomorrow, look for them to judge, to return to my hukou, to return to my mountains, forests, land, house.

Yu Juren did not know why, his words, at once provoked Yu Yu'er, Yu Yu'er a glass of wine splashed on his face, and then punched and kicked him, scolded him, day your mother, for many years did not see anyone shadow, thought you were dead, you mixed well outside, did not see us, now lost, nothing, but want to rely on us, but also to divide mine, there is no door.

The child was frightened and crying, and the woman who was fishing, took the child and returned to the house.

My mother cried and said, "Why is my life so bitter!" It was hard to rely on his hands to get such a little family property, and he wanted others to share it.

Fish eyebrows, and fish orchids, just this to give the fish a slap, that to the fist, pointing at the fish to raise people's eyes and scolding, when you enjoy the blessing, did not think of us, fell, nothing, but also want to come back to divide the family property, the door is not.

The man with the fish orchid, silent, without words, pretended to pull the fish to lift the person, but secretly, gave the fish a few fists, and beat the fish to raise the eyes of Venus.

In the end, how it ended, the fish lifters no longer remember. I just remember that after getting drunk, I had a piece of confusion in my head, light-headed, and my eyes were full of their cries, screams, punches and kicks to him.

8

The fish lifter was woken up by the guards.

At this time, the sky was already bright, and the fish were lying on the wooden sticks under the eaves in front of the door, vomiting in a mess. There was a blank in my head, I only felt pain everywhere on my body, and my eyes couldn't open them, so I couldn't open them until I realized that my eyes were swollen and squinting. His face was covered in blood scabs, and his body was covered with scars.

Looking at the hall again, the table was turned over, and the floor was full of plates, scattered chopsticks, cups, and various dishes left.

Wei Zi rushed to the fish and said, You see, you are drunk, you are beating people, cursing people, and what kind of home you have become. After you drank, didn't you say, "Come to me and give you a house, land, and mountains?" I'm here now to deal with this.

The fish lifted people's minds, a blank, what he said and did after drinking, he couldn't remember anything. I only felt a pain in my body, a fire in my stomach, and the same pain in my head. He didn't know how to say or say anything, so he just sat quietly, motionless, without saying a word.

The mother was crying, and the fish said, last night, after drinking, you were so powerful, how dumb this time, don't say it.

Fish eyebrows also said, yes! Last night was so bad, it was beating people and cursing people, how can I not say it this time.

Yu Orchid said fiercely, you see, what kind of mother's anger has become, you have to say good, say no, you can't live in this house.

There was also a circle of villages next to it, and the people who came to see the liveliness all said, yes, you come back, let you eat, let you live, get you wine to drink, but you can become like this, or not.

Wei Zi held a tea cup in his hand, in one hand, holding a cigarette, drank a sip of tea, smoked a cigarette, and said to the fish, that day when he came back, he saw that you had just returned, and he was enthusiastic about you, but he did not think that you had become such a person. If you don't say good, don't deal with it well, fool around, I'll call the town police station and come and get you away.

The fish lifted people and said, I didn't say anything, I didn't think anything, just outside, mixed up, had nothing, just wanted to come back, there is a place to live, there is a mouthful of food to eat, can fall leaves back to the roots, and will never stay in my hometown and not leave.

Wei Zi sneered and said, clearly telling you that you have not returned for many years, there is no news, and you thought that you were dead, and your hukou village had already written off for you. In many policies, land and mountains and forests are divided according to hukou, and in the village, you do not have land, mountains and forests. The house your brother has repaired, and there is no longer your share.

Fish, eyebrows, fish orchids have also said, everything in the family, is the fish and the mother hard to create, there is no fish to lift the share of people, can not until now, but also let him come back in vain.

Yu Zhu'er also called back, Yu Yu'er opened the hands-free, she scolded the fish on the phone, as for you to study, spent so much money, many people in the family have not studied, you have been gone for twenty years, and now you still want to come back to divide the family property, really don't want to face.

The mother was on the side, crying even louder, saying that life was bitter, hard work for a lifetime, and when she was old, she could not be at peace.

The fish lifted the man and said to Weizi, can you get me a place in the village, I thought of a way, with a wooden stick to build a shed, get a small field, all kinds of vegetables and crops, give a little mountain forest, good firewood, so that I can survive in my hometown, now I have no place to go except my hometown.

Wei Zi sneered and said, Now let me go to the town, the city, which dares to get you land, mountains and forests. It's all private, who wants to get it for you.

The fish lifted the man and said, then I am in the village, there is no way to live, and if I want to go back to the village, it is impossible. I was born and raised here, I was a man from this village, and this is the only place I can come back from.

Wei Zi drank a sip of water, smoked a cigarette, and said, In case you want to come back, the only way is to be diligent and fast, work with your brother for a dollar every day, and can't eat everything for free. Don't want to follow your brother over, just in the village, see don't let there be a house without, pay for rent. There is also a way, that is, to go to my mine, to work, the key is to see that work, you can not do it.

Yu Juren thought that the method that Wei Zi said might be the only way, but such a method would always be under the fence, without his own independent living space and an independent way of life. When you can move, there is still a place to live, eat, and once you can't move, you can be driven away at any time. After thinking about it for a while, the fish lifted the man sighed, burst into tears, and said, I don't want anything, I don't want anything, I go. I didn't expect that people were so confused that they wanted to return to their hometown and find a home, so it was so difficult.

After saying that, the fish lifted up, went to the house, took the simple thing, looked back at the old house, looked down at the crowd of people watching him, and left.

Didn't go far, the mother behind the cry came, gave the fish to lift the man's pocket, stuffed a wad of money, rushed the fish to raise the person said, not I rushed you, there is indeed no place for you to stay at home, take this money, buy some food on the road, take the car. In the future, don't come back, I'm dead, I don't have to come back, just forget this place! Wherever you fall, you get up. Go out and find a place to live, find something to eat, and live your life. Your mother has no ability and cannot take care of you.

After saying that, the mother went back crying.

The fish lifted people's tears, and the rain fell like rain. He glanced at the village, in the direction of his father's and grandparents' graves, knelt down, prostrated his head, and then, as he had done many years ago, when he left his hometown, took a step forward and left firmly. I thought in my heart, in this life, I may never go back to my hometown, if I come back, it must be when he remixes the scenery and has a lot of money in his pocket.

2018, 12, 18 days of grass