Many years ago, when I first heard Tengger's "Heaven", I couldn't help myself and shed tears.
Because I can always imagine myself riding a horse, galloping in the endless prairie, singing all the way.
The release of that emotion is the most rare thing in life.
It's unbelievable that someone could use song to make the prairie so apt.
After this song became popular, the "soul singer" Tengger also became famous.
However, everyone's understanding of Tengger is still only superficial, and nothing is known about what really happened in his life.
In fact, Tengger's life experience is also like his singing, meandering.
01
From his birth.
In 1960, Tengger was born in the grasslands of Inner Mongolia.
Both parents are well-known local folk singers who support their 5 brothers and sisters by singing.
Therefore, several children also hope to become a singer in the future and live by this skill like their parents.
Of the siblings, Tengger was the most talented.
Since he was a child, he likes to shine his voice on the prairie, and he can sing and dance, and has a good understanding of music.
The parents saw that Tengger had inherited their talents, and they also felt a little relieved in their hearts, so it seemed that it would not be a problem for the child to support himself in the future.
Among several children, the parents were also extremely doting on Tengger.
As a result, when I was in junior high school, something happened that caused a certain shadow on Tengger's heart.
Playing with his classmates, Tengger jokingly claimed to be a respected great man.
His words reached the principal,who called Tengger to his office and reprimanded him, and called his parents to the school.
Young Tengger did not know what this matter meant, only that it was more serious than he thought.
After the continuous fermentation, Tengger was regarded as a "bad student", and he quickly panicked, thinking that his life was ruined like this?
Disheartened, Tengger actually thought of jumping off the building to commit suicide, and wrote a suicide note.
Fortunately, my brother found him in time and intercepted him.
Since this incident, Tengger's life has completely changed, he has no interest in learning, and he skips class at every turn.
His parents, who still had a glimmer of hope for Tengger, once again lost confidence in him.
Parents believe that Tengger will be like this in this life, and there will be no chance of anything going on.
After Tengger became a "bad student", he seemed to have liberated his nature and spread joy everywhere.
Singing only occasionally in the prairie was his only pleasure and his dream.
02
At the age of 15, Tengger was looking for a partner to play with.
A classmate told Tengger that the Inner Mongolia Art School was enrolling students.
Tengger thought to himself, there is nothing to do anyway, just try it, so he went to the interview.
Originally, I didn't have any hopes, but I ended up interviewing.
At first, Tengger studied dance at an art school, and he thought that practicing dancing every day would be much more interesting than listening to lectures.
Soon, he realized that he was wrong, and the dance class was the hardest.
Every morning at 5 o'clock to get up to practice, the most important thing is that an action often has to go through thousands of times of practice, the basic skills are the same every day.
Not only is it hard, but it's also boring.
After two months of this, Tengger felt that he could not hold on, so he told the school that he wanted to learn the instrument.
He felt that learning an instrument could never be like learning a dance.
As a result, the instrument was not as tall as he thought, but learned three strings, and for two or three years at that time, Tengger was basically fooling around.
Although he was a fool, he was also studying hard and did not give up.
However, in his spare time, Tengger does not rely on music to support his life, but relies on alcohol to anesthetize.
Originally, it was the "tradition" of the northwestern Hanzi "drinking like drinking water", which led to Tengger's thousand glasses not drunk and love wine as fate.
Often get together with friends, that is, more than a pound of high wine.
When drinking, others take a sip, and he is a big bowl into his mouth.
Later, when encountering anything, Tengger used to solve it by drinking.
Tengger's monthly living costs, a lot of which are spent on drinking, are not even enough in many cases.
Once, he had a seizure of alcohol, but he didn't have any money.
Just when he was in a hurry, the spirit machine thought of a way: to sell blood.
That time he drew 500ml of blood in exchange for 70 yuan.
With the 70 yuan, Tengger immediately went to buy fine wine.
Another time, he went to someone else's wedding, and as a result, he drank too much and fell drunk outside.
Twenty years old is the age of youth, but drunk all day long.
His parents broke his heart for him, and his mother advised Tengger to drink less, and Tengger promised in person, but when he went out, he forgot everything.
He didn't expect that he would lose a lot of things because of drinking...
After graduation, Tengger did not go to work outside, but stayed in school as a teacher, teaching three strings at the school, and also serving as an orchestra conductor.
In order to make Tengger, the "conductor teacher", more professional, the school sent him to the China Conservatory of Music to study conducting.
This time of further study, which had a great impact on Tengger, began to realize that what he had studied before was not professional, just half a bucket of water.
At the same time, it also stimulated Tengger's awareness of music.
He finally knew that the music was not two voices roaring on the prairie, it was music.
In 1980, when Tengger was 20 years old, he officially entered the composition department of Tianjin Conservatory of Music, and began to study popular music at the beginning, and began to imitate Teresa Teng's songs.
In this way, Tengger has been studying and honing for five years before he came to work from the Tianjin Conservatory of Music.
He was assigned to the Central National Song and Dance Troupe, and Tengger worked as a three-string player in the folk band.
Here, he often fell into a state of chaotic life, sometimes there was nothing to do and no income, and his life became a problem.
Tengger was full of doubts about the future.
What is the purpose of learning music on your own and going around?
At this moment of extreme doubt, fate once again gave Tengger an answer.
03
In 1986, the Oriental Song and Dance Troupe hosted the first "Peacock Cup" Young Singer Competition.
Tengger rushed to the competition and entered the top ten with a song that was completely original to himself, "The Mongols".
This is the first time in Tengger's musical career that he has won such a highlight moment.
In fact, from a certain point of view, Tengger began to enter the singer's career from the competition.
From the first contact with the art of song and dance, to the first time to win the award, and the many life twists that followed, it is all related to the competition.
However, Tengger, who is already in his twenties at this time, also longs for a sweet love.
The following year, he met Haskova.
At that time, Tengger was invited to participate in a large-scale theatrical performance in Inner Mongolia.
Haskova was the host of that show, had heard a little about Tengger, and had heard his song "The Mongols."
Also from the prairie, Haskova has a lot of feelings about Tengger's songs, so there is more admiration in Tengger's eyes.
After the show, the two began to have contact.
In a chat, it was learned that one of Haskova's college classmates turned out to be one of Tengger's elementary school classmates.
This is also a kind of fate, but also increases their sense of closeness.
Under this coincidence, Tengger and Haskova developed a relationship and began to fall in love.
During that time, Tengger's heart seemed to be wrapped in sweetness, and there was always an inexplicable smile on his face, which was probably happiness.
Tengger silently swore in his heart that he would give Haskova a happy home.
In 1988, the two finally went from lovers to marriage.
In Beijing, they had a low-key wedding.
Promise will work hand in hand to whiteheads.
At that time, although Tengger did not have much money, he had a stable job in the Central Song and Dance Troupe, and he also had a house.
Haskova had no problem with his living conditions.
After marriage, Haskova moved to Beijing and began to work as Tengger's kenneth.
Tengger began to live a happy and sweet newlywed life.
04
In 1989, Tengger participated in the "National Pop Song Outstanding Singer Selection Competition" and won the first place in the "Top Ten", and it was precisely because of this competition that Tengger was discovered by Xu Peidong.
Xu Peidong is a well-known composer and has a high reputation in the circle.
Being able to gain Xu Peidong's appreciation is enough to see Tengger's musical talent.
In 1991, Tengger finally entered the music scene and began to compose music, and then created "Father and Me" and won the "Highest Award for Chinese Works" at the second Asian Music Festival.
I believe that after listening to this song, I will be moved by the gentle and delicate feelings in it.
It was from this time that Tengger's music gradually formed a distinct personal style and was loved by many fans and friends.
In fact, listening to Tengger's songs, I was conquered by his voice.
The following year, Tengger began filming the film Black Horse, where he was the music composer and lead singer, and won the Best Music Award at the 19th Montreal National Film Festival.
The road of music is always endless, and you need to constantly open up and break through.
Tengger believes in the idea that he must find his own path on the road of music.
It's just that maybe the road will be full of thorns and difficulties.
He came to Taiwan alone with a guitar on his back.
It was a strange city, and he had to face many strange people and unfamiliar environments.
But Tengger firmly believes that in this place, there must be a world of its own.
Soon, the little famous Tengger was welcomed by many Taiwanese fans, and also held a personal concert in the local area.
Taiwanese fans are accustomed to listening to the melody of tenderness like water, and suddenly hear such a rough and heroic voice, and they love it very much.
So immediately the organizers held a number of concerts for Tengger, and in Taiwan, Tengger completely made his own name...
05
In 1993, Tengger already had a certain position in the Taiwanese music scene.
At that time, Zhang Shaohan also endured great torture in order to live, working in his mother's "steakhouse", and was exploited by his mother every day.
But she had no choice but to bury her head in silence and do her own thing.
As everyone knows, fate has quietly arranged one ordeal after another for her.
In the future, she will continue to grow her wings in the tribulations, and then fly in the wider sky.
Many years later, Zhang Shaohan and Tengger stood on the stage together, singing the song "Invisible Wings" and lamenting the impermanence of life together...
It was also in that year that Haskova was transferred to the Central National Song and Dance Troupe.
Although she also takes care of her career, she is always family-oriented and hopes to be a virtuous housewife.
This is also a big regret for Haskova.
Because Haskova's artistic attainments are also very high.
She has been participating in film and television dramas since 1985, and has performed brilliantly in "The Lion in the Desert" and "The Assassin at the Wedding".
But to choose a family, you must sacrifice these auras that you once had.
After fading out of her career, Haskova did not enhance the relationship between husband and wife, but had more and more friction with Tengger.
Especially in the matter of Tengger's "drunkenness", the couple did not quarrel less.
At first, Haskova only dissuaded Tengger from drinking less, but Tengger did not listen, and often got drunk with three or five friends.
I spend more time with my friends than I spend with Haskova.
Over time, Haskova stopped holding out hope for Tengger, and her feelings faltered from quarrels to cold wars.
They are also finally on the verge of collapse.
The most important thing is that Tengger himself has a bold and generous personality, and after getting drunk, he often waved his hand, rushed to pay the bill, and what valuable treasures in the family were sent outside.
Haskova could not stand Tengger's personality, so she would nag Tengger, and the two often quarreled over it.
Arguing too much became a cold war, and Tengger didn't care about Haskova's feelings at all.
Faced with tengger's bad habits that he could not change, Haskova swallowed several words to her mouth.
At one point, she finally couldn't bear to file for divorce.
Tengger immediately realized the seriousness of the problem and promised that he would not drink again in the future.
Haskova's heart softened and she stayed again.
But as soon as he turned around, Tengger had a hangover with his friend again.
Haskova finally became intolerable and formally filed for divorce with Tengger.
Tengger knew this time that maybe the marriage could never be recovered again...
06
1995 was a very sad year for Tengger.
His wife Haskova went through the divorce procedures with herself, and the 7-year marriage came to an end.
His career has also stagnated.
However, Tengger did not know that haskova was also very uncomfortable at this time.
After the divorce, Haskova transferred away from the Central Song and Dance Troupe and began to participate in a number of film and television dramas, using her busy career to soothe her wounded heart.
Although the career is still successful, it has not stepped into the threshold of marriage again.
Maybe it's because of the fear of falling down the road again.
Later, when talking about her marriage to Tengger, Haskova said that the reason for the divorce between the two also had personality factors.
Because they are more introverted and not very good at expressing their inner thoughts, many problems will accumulate into the heart and eventually erupt.
This is a big problem, and it is also a relatively common problem in marriage.
They can't cross and will eventually go their separate ways.
After his divorce from Haskova, Tengger often fell into self-blame and guilt.
He also finally realized the "harm" of drinking to himself, and gradually reduced the number of drinks.
In 1997, Tengger met Hongel Jura.
The two soon fell in love, and during that time, Tengger seemed to be full of strength.
Love is the best medicine to redeem the heart, and this sentence can also be applied to Tengger's body.
Jura encouraged Tengger to devote himself to his work.
In 2000, Tengger's "Paradise" won two awards for best song and best singing, and won the "Best Song Award in Shenzhou" again.
The following year, he gave two solo concerts at the North Exhibition Theater.
More than a decade has passed since the last time he was in Taiwan, and Tengger has a lot of feelings in his heart, perhaps this is the best gift that fate has given him.
But he did not expect that fate would soon take away the love of his life.
In the Spring Festival of 2003, Tengger and Zhula married, and the following year, Zhula gave birth to a daughter for Tengger.
Tengger was 43 years old.
Going around, he lost his love, lost his family, and only had it again in the middle of his life.
What a blessing!
07
After becoming popular with "Heaven", Tengger's life has improved greatly, and the arrival of his daughter has made him full of hope for the future.
After the birth of his daughter, Tengger named her daughter Gagill, which is the name Tengger had thought of ten years ago, which means "earth" in Mongolian.
He also wrote a song for his daughter, "Gagill", as a way to express his love for her daughter.
The blow came quickly, and in 2007 Tengger's son was born, when Tengger was almost half a hundred years old.
While enjoying her daughter's double life, her daughter was detected to have a congenital disease.
There is no cure for this disease, and Tengger is plunged into endless pain and suffering every day.
When her daughter was 6 years old, she left Tengger forever.
During that time, Tengger's heart ached like a knife.
Tengger cut off his long hair and began to immerse himself in the world of music.
He even began to look back on the first half of his life.
Losing a marriage and losing a daughter will still regret it in the dead of night.
If you cherish it in the first place, you will at least keep your first wife.
However, time cannot be turned back, and anyone needs to face the future.
The surface looks incredibly hard, and there will still be a soft and sensitive corner.
People are like this, always after the loss of how to know how to cherish, some people can lose can have again, and some things lost is forever.
Tengger's life was full of hardships, and now it has been completely solved.
Of course, the pain he endured behind his back, but not many people knew.
Now we hear Tengger standing on the stage like an old naughty boy, singing "Invisible Wings" and then starting to sing "Learn to Cat Call" again.
We think it's funny, but he's just ridiculing life...