"This world is too chaotic, Xiao Fangyi, my father doesn't know how long he can protect you!"
When Sheng Xuanhuai, the richest man in the late Qing Dynasty, murmured these words to his eighth daughter, he may have expected that her beloved little daughter would have a very uneven future life path.
Sheng Xuanhuai, who has been in the official arena and in the shopping mall for decades, can say such a thing because he has seen something from his daughter. As he expected, the eight daughters he carefully cared for and grew up became the most tragic of his eight sons and eight daughters.
Sheng Fangyi's mother was not the main room, and her mother was originally only a maid of Lady Zhengfangzhuang. After staying in the Sheng family for a long time, the old man liked her and accepted her as a lady. However, her mother's humble origin did not affect the status of Miss Eight in the Sheng family. All this is naturally related to Sheng Xuanhuai's love for her.
Sheng Xuanhuai
Sheng Xuanhuai loved Sheng Fangyi, not only because she was well-behaved and lovely, but also because she was his youngest child. Sheng Xuanhuai has many children, but because he has been busy building a business empire, he has hardly ever had children. After Sheng Fangyi was born, he finally idled himself, and he had time to tease the child.
People's feelings, always the more they get along, the deeper they are. Watching Xiao Fangyi grow up day by day, Sheng Xuanhuai felt how happy he was. But Sheng Xuanhuai did not know how to educate children, and his life's energy was almost entirely in business. When taking care of Sheng Fangyi, he always did his best to care for and satisfy her, and nothing else.
Sheng Fangyi is not only sheng Xuanhuai's youngest daughter, but also the only child of her mother, Lady Xiao. In addition, she was born in the heyday of the Sheng family, she played small food and clothing are extremely luxurious, when she was a child, her feet did not even need to touch the ground, she wanted anything, never just moved her mouth.
As Sheng Fangyi grew up slowly, Sheng Xuanhuai vaguely felt that there was something about his little daughter that made him feel uneasy. He couldn't say what was wrong, but the uneasiness grew stronger by the day.
One day, sheng Xuanhuai had just returned home, and he heard Xiao Fangyi crying, and he walked over to ask him to know that her most beloved toy had broken a hole. Sheng Xuanhuai hugged her daughter as usual and promised to "buy another one" while caressing her head.
Madame Xiao on the side saw it and said half-jokingly: "You spoiled her like this, worried that she can't stand the setbacks when she grows up!" Madame Xiao's unintentional words deeply touched Sheng Xuanhuai.
Is there anything wrong with spoiled children? Of course there is, otherwise there would be no old saying that "drowning a son is like killing a son". The biggest difference between love and coddling is that love has principles, restraint, and measure; but coddling is more laissez-faire and blind. In addition to interfering with the independent growth of children, coddling will also bury hidden dangers such as willfulness and poor resistance to setbacks.
Sheng Xuanhuai loved to read ancient books, and he naturally understood this truth. But helplessly, Sheng Fangyi was his old son, and he spoiled her, which had become a habit.
After realizing the problem, Sheng Xuanhuai did not make any changes, he comforted himself: "Xiao Fangyi is a girl after all, girls spoil some nothing, besides, my Sheng family is big, are you afraid that she will not be able to live well?" ”
Sheng Xuanhuai obviously ignored a problem, Sheng Fangyi's personality is the most inappropriate to be pampered. Sheng Fangyi, like his mother Lady Xiao, is soft on the outside, but stubborn on the inside. Such a personality, if she is spoiled and spoiled, and lacks the ability to resist defeat when she grows up, she is likely to have a big problem in some links because of her willfulness.
Compared with Sheng Xuanhuai's hidden worries, Mrs. Xiao was much calmer, and she was already aware of her daughter's problems, but she believed in Buddhism and believed in cause and effect. In her eyes, everything is predestined by karma, nothing else. When it comes to raising daughters, she is truly "Buddhist."
Her husband Sheng Xuanhuai died of illness, and everything about her daughter fell on her. When Sheng Xuanhuai died, Mrs. Xiao received a lot of family property, which was her sense of security, and she believed that with these, the future of herself and her daughter would be guaranteed.
Sheng Fangyi on the right; niece on the left (in Japan)
After Sheng Xuanhuai's death, Lady Xiao spoiled her daughter more than before, and she did everything according to her daughter's wishes.
Children who are spoiled to grow up tend to be more willful, which is almost irreversible. Sheng Fangyi's mantras, who grew up spoiled, are: "I don't want it", "I won't listen", "I don't care".
Girls who are spoiled and grow up, in addition to being self-centered, often have another characteristic: they take love too seriously. It is also because the focus is on love, they are often less concerned about other things, and they also lack responsibility.
Sure enough, after meeting his beloved, Sheng Fangyi openly confronted his mother who opposed him.
Sheng Fangyi's so-called "beloved" is a ticket friend, his name is Peng Zhenming, known as "Peng Laoqi". Compared with the Sheng family, his family situation is really ordinary, and the only person worthy of praise in his family background is his grandfather Zhou Fujiu. Zhou Fujiu was the richest man in Jiangnan at the end of the Qing Dynasty, and his sixth son, Zhou Junguang, liked Peng Zhenming as a grandson, and Peng Zhenming was also able to drive his uncle's luxury car in and out of various high-end places and met Sheng Fangyi.
The reason why Mrs. Xiao did not agree with the love between the two was that the Peng Laoqi family was too ordinary to be worthy of the Sheng family. Mrs. Xiao also did not look up to Peng Laoqi's personality, she once said to her daughter: "A big man, not doing a serious career, singing all day, is this a person who can be relied on?" ”
Sheng Fangyi was very dissatisfied when she heard her mother's words, and she pouted: "I don't care, and ah, don't say it so ugly, 'singing opera and singing opera', people are good villains are 'Cheng Pai famous tickets'." ”
Madame Xiao said helplessly: "Well, he is good at singing Cheng Pai opera, is a famous ticket, can appear in ink, but what can this be used for?" Will you really set up a stage to sing and support you in the future? ”
Sheng Fangyi continued to retort: "He can sing famous operas, he has also run two private radio stations, specializing in opera programs, and he really sings it himself!" ”
Mrs. Xiao actually made it clear long ago that Peng Laoqi did run a radio station, and indeed specialized in opera programs, but that was purely for the sake of making a splash and entertaining herself, and the industry did not buy it. To put it bluntly, still play tickets. Mrs. Xiao had a headache, and she felt that her daughter had completely "come out of the lover's eyes" and it was useless for her to say anything more.
Peng Lao seven
In distress, Mrs. Xiao had to continue to burn incense and worship the Buddha, and when she saw that her daughter insisted on marrying the unreliable Peng Laoqi, Mrs. Xiao was relieved, but she made two demands: First, Peng Laoqi must make his uncle recognize him as a dry son, at least the family lineage sounds decent; second, the man must handle the marriage affairs at the Dahua Hotel.
After Lady Xiao's request was put forward, Peng Laoqi was embarrassed, and it was not difficult for his uncle Zhou Junguang to accept himself as a dry son, after all, he had always grown up with his uncle and aunt, and they had already treated him as a son. But second, how much does it cost to get married at the Majestic Hotel?
Thinking about it, Peng Laoqi decided to once again perform his "entanglement skills" of pursuing Sheng Fangyi, and came to beg his uncle and aunt to help.
When Peng Laoqi wanted to marry Sheng Fangyi, the Zhou family's family situation was no longer the same as when Zhou Fujiu was alive: the Zhou family had no money. The uncle could not help his beloved nephew, so he had to sell some of the jewelry and collect the money for the wedding at the Majestic Hotel.
On the other hand, Mrs. Xiao also began to plot for the small two, she took out her savings, built a garden house for them, and gave them several ordinary buildings to collect rent to maintain daily expenses. After the marriage, Mrs. Xiao also arranged a private car for them, with the license plate number "87", a metaphor for Miss Eight and Peng Laoqi.
Mrs. Xiao's pampering of her daughter reached its peak at this time: she personally arranged the marriage of her daughter, and her daughter and son-in-law did not have to do anything, and everything was "all right".
Lady Xiao had obviously forgotten the ancient adage of "born in distress, died in comfort", and for Peng Laoqi, things that came too easily would never be cherished. As soon as he got married, his comfortable life, in addition to making Peng Laoqi sigh that his "fate is good", also made his flower intestines more and more.
Peng Laoqi was handsome and handsome, and he was already popular with women, and soon after marriage, he was tired of the rules and regulations of life and missed the women outside. During Sheng Fangyi's pregnancy, he began to look for women outside, and often did not return at night.
Sheng Fangyi attaches great importance to love, in her world: men are heaven and earth. Men cheating in marriage, at that time, it was not too big a thing, her father had many wives and concubines, but she who valued love very seriously, felt that she had been fatally hit.
At first, Sheng Fangyi still thought about it, she wanted to control her husband. But she found that the more she managed, the more vigorous Peng Laoqi became. Sheng Fangyi also found that her husband, who had been doing nothing all day, was obsessed with gambling, and at that moment, her heart was like ashes.
At this time, Sheng Fangyi suddenly woke up: what his mother said at the beginning was actually true! Devastated, she began to smoke opium, and she wanted to numb herself in this way.
After starting to smoke opium, Sheng Fangyi changed like a person, hiding upstairs all day and swallowing clouds and vomiting fog. At first, she would receive important guests downstairs, but after a long time, no matter who came downstairs, she ignored them. Once, the youngest son, Peng Guowei, was playing in the street, breaking his head, blood flowing, and the servants shouted loudly in fright.
At that time, Sheng Fangyi was smoking opium, and she also heard shouts, but she did not move. When the maids asked her "what to do," she raised her eyes and said, "Hurry up and take him to the hospital," and she still smoked her cigarette.
Sheng Fangyi and Peng Laoqi's children
From this detail, it can be seen that Sheng Fangyi looked down on everything after the failure of love. This kind of "looking down" is not thorough, but just shows that she attaches great importance to love, and as soon as she is hit, it is like the sky is falling.
Knowing her daughter Mo Ruomu, Lady Xiao once sighed after seeing her daughter who smoked opium all day long, regardless of everything, and sighed: "She, ah, has been too smooth in her life, has not suffered setbacks, has a stubborn temper, and her mind is still in her teens, and she has not grown up at all!" ”
Man, how do you grow up? The answer is: to experience frustration and learn to swallow suffering into your stomach, to learn to carry the responsibility on your shoulders! Unfortunately, Sheng Fangyi has not been able to grow up.
Seeing such a Sheng Fangyi, her sister Sheng Aiyi was so anxious that she once took the initiative to persuade her sister, she said:
"The frustration of feelings, I am much more bitter than you, my whole youth is waiting, waiting for something, waiting for him to be happy." Man, sooner or later you have to see through, besides, we don't point to men to live! ”
Sheng Fangyi has always had a good relationship with her sister Sheng Aiyi, but she can't listen to her sister's words of encouragement, she has already drilled into the tip of her own horn. She said slowly while smoking:
"I understand the reason, I just think I'm at a loss, you gave him so many children, is it not as good as the woman outside him." He took my dowry for granted and bought expensive gifts for those women, hey! You are different from me, you have been frustrated, but you now have a brother-in-law. ”
Sheng Fangyi's entanglement made Sheng Aiyi feel uncomfortable in her heart, and she knew that she could not persuade her sister. Sheng Aiyi, who could not persuade his sister, tried to persuade her brother-in-law Peng Laoqi, but at Peng Laoqi's place, she also touched a nose of ash, and he said:
"When you look at her like that, she simply looks down on me, yes, I am impatient, but she can't help but look at me squarely, she can't look at me, some people can look at me." 」
After Sheng Aiyi listened to these words, he couldn't help but feel a little sad in his eyes, and the failed marriage was always a lose-lose: his sister was a victim, and Peng Laoqi was not!
Sheng Fangyi Sisters (Sheng Fangyi on the left; Sheng Aiyi on the right)
The premise of running a good relationship is that both parties are willing to communicate. But Sheng Fangyi's stubborn personality is doomed, she can't communicate with her husband calmly; and her husband Peng Laoqi is also a person with a high heart and a strong sense of self-esteem, so these two people can naturally only go farther and farther.
Because the two have only spent money and not earned money, after Mrs. Xiao's death, their economic situation has become worse and worse. Later, the garden house that Mrs. Xiao had placed for them was sold, and they lived in a house made by the Zhou family not far from the bungalow, which was originally the house used by zhou fujiu for the liquidation of the accounting house.
After the House of the Zhou family could not be lived, they moved to the Sheng family's property into Delhi for temporary residence. Later, they moved to the point of renting a house. Their children found that the smaller their house became, the bigger the car became.
Even if the family's livelihood has reached the point of "worrying", Sheng Fangyi still refuses to quit opium, which is her spiritual sustenance. Sheng Fangyi felt that if he quit opium, he would definitely have no sustenance, and there would be no difference between that and death.
If Sheng Xuanhuai and Lady Xiao knew that their spoiled daughter would eventually fall to the point of renting a small house, I don't know how they would feel. But these, Sheng Fangyi did not care, she has been immersed in the pain of marriage failure can not extricate herself. She attributed all the misfortunes of her life to this man.
Sheng Fangyi's opium cigarettes are getting cheaper and cheaper, but the addiction is getting bigger and bigger. Because of the long-term opium smoking, her figure looks particularly thin, her teeth have fallen out of most of it, and for her, life has no other color except gray.
In 1949, Shanghai was liberated, and the people's government banned smoking. Sheng Fangyi's addiction to smoking was already very heavy, and thinking that if she did not have opium to smoke, she would have no sustenance, and she decided to commit suicide in fear.
At any time, the decision to commit suicide is an extremely irresponsible manifestation. But for Sheng Fangyi, who grew up spoiled, the word "responsibility" was never in her life dictionary, and there was no responsibility to speak of, and everything could be discarded.
Middle-aged Fang Yi
One windless evening, Sheng Fangyi put all the remaining opium on the bed, and she smoked a cigarette while lamenting the misery of her fate with tears. The more she looked back, the more uncomfortable her heart became. Confused until the middle of the night, she seemed to hear her father's words: "This world is too chaotic, Xiao Fangyi, my father doesn't know how long he can protect you!" ”
She murmured, "You can't protect me for the rest of your life, so you shouldn't protect me like that!" After saying that, she looked up, chewed a whole piece of raw opium a few times, and swallowed it with difficulty.
After swallowing the opium, she collapsed on the bed, and she suddenly felt that her whole being was quiet. Everything around her was quiet, and she seemed to be able to hear her own tears falling. It's all over, it's all over...
Sheng Fangyi ended her life in this way, and when she left, she was only 47 years old. When she died, she did not feel that suicide was a harm to her family. Life never seemed to be the most important thing to her, or even worth cherishing.
After Sheng Fangyi's death, Peng Laoqi was sent to labor camp after a few years in poverty and poverty, and was sent to labor camp on suspicion of economic responsibility. Soon after, he hanged himself because he could not bear the blow.
Sheng Aiyi sighed after learning the end of her sister and brother-in-law, when she was a child, she did envy her sister's favor, but until that moment she did not know: those who were spoiled in childhood, their happiness is very likely to appear only in childhood...