A love letter!

I don't know how to imagine, how to express, the pain and thinking of tossing and turning, our future and present. You know what, I want you to be good, as I thought. I'm quite selfish, time will be smoothed out, I am still a wisp of memory that I, or maybe I don't know. Will you, will time, the red leaves on the white paper will wither after a long time. I am afraid, I long, you are so, for me, it is a thousand years of autumn leaves, so full of life, so hope. If, after a thousand years, I have climbed a mountain, whether this is the case or not, and what should I do? If you are a suffering monkey, questioning me, if you are innocent, if your childlike heart is true, why, why. I held up the sky, held up the great tribulations, full of shyness and guilt, I am an unmarried girl after all, you can understand, you can understand. When we join hands, when we separate... You Yunying are not married, I... Manly, in the end, it seems pitiful. I am cowardly to you, cowardly to appear pitiful, but you do not like, I am strong, strong can break the sky, not I wish. Let the time decide, let the fate determine.