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Schopenhauer once said:
"Life is a mass of desires, and when desires are not satisfied, they are painful, and when they are satisfied, they are boring."
Chen Zhongzhong's painstaking work "White Deer Plain" has written the desires and pursuits of human nature through the enmity and hatred of three generations.
However, between this series of battles of giving and taking, wanting to live and die, and gaining and losing, why are people always dissatisfied?
Through the untamed Heiwa, the cunning and sinister Bai Xiaowen, and the loyal and generous Lu San, we can know a little bit about one or two.
Got it, always compare
People say it's better to gain than to lose.
However, some people tend to get it and look around.
There is always a kind of flaw that people still want.
When Heiwa, who has been wandering for many years, returns to the White Deer Plain again, it is already "homecoming". For a time, he became the leader of the bandits who had no worries about food and clothing, and called the wind and rain.
However, when he excitedly came to find his former lover Tian Xiao'e, he found that she had died tragically and gone to another world.
In order to avenge Xue Hate, he first turned his suspicious eyes to the patriarch Bai Jiaxuan. Because it was this person who once refused to accept him and Xiao'e and entered the ancestral ancestral hall.
However, Wanwan did not expect that the real murderer was his father Lu San.
Supposedly, Bai Jiaxuan had washed away the suspicion. However, Heiwa, who was obsessed, did not let him go, and he let his subordinates break Bai Jiaxuan's waist alive.
This waist pole once stood proudly in the White Deer Plain for decades. Because he was upright and adhered to principles, he was respected by people outside the village.
But Heiwa broke this enviable waist bar, why is this?
As the saying goes, "The grace of a dripping water should be repaid with a gushing spring." ”
Born in poverty, Heiwa was treated too much favored by Bai Jiaxuan and had extraordinary warmth and protection.
Because his father Lu San was a loyal long-term worker of the Bai family, Bai Jiaxuan treated this long-term worker like a brother, so he also treated Heiwa as his own child, and also sent him to the academy at his own expense.
However, Heiwa did not eat this set, did not feel this affection, because he was born rebellious.
When he was a child, when his good friend Bai Xiaowen took out precious rock candy to eat for himself, he was afraid that he would not be able to eat it in the future and would rather throw it away.
When he grew up, he did not want to be a lifelong servant like his father, preferring to go out to be a wheat guest and eat by ability.
Too much self-esteem because of poverty, too sensitive because of youth.
The benevolence of others has become a shackle on one's own body. The kind help of others becomes the charity of hatred in the heart.
Even years later, he was full of vigor and power. Even as things change and the present is not what it used to be, his heart is still comparing.
The obvious identity gap and strong sense of gap engraved in his heart always made him feel like a fish in his throat.
He couldn't get used to it, Bai Jiaxuan was in front of him and his father, that was always high, pure and upright. He hated Bai Jiaxuan's superiority, so that he always felt his lowliness and humility with great clarity.
Therefore, he wants revenge, he wants to break this symbolic waist pole, destroy the high wall in his heart that can never be overcome, and completely destroy his prestige.
Receiving too much favor from others, one day there will be a huge imbalance in the heart.
Your superiority and abundance are a heavy debt and burden to me.
Just like in reality, those who are ungrateful and vengeful will always say, "Not because you are bad, but because you are too good!"
In Jin Yong's "Chivalrous Journey", Mei Fanggu has been in love with Shi Qing all her life, but in Shi Qing's heart, there is only Min Rou. He said to Mei Fanggu:
"You are stronger than my Min master sister, not only stronger than her, but also stronger than me, I am with you, ashamed of myself, not worthy of you."
One consequence of being too good is to make people feel distance.
Some people, he can't stand perfection, he doesn't trust perfection. He would only suspect, "Something too good, not a good thing." ”
I can't accept the excellence of others, and I can't bear too deep enthusiasm, just because this compares my own imperfections and reflects my own incompetence.
If you don't get it, you're always calculating
Foxes who can't eat grapes complain that the grapes are too sour.
And the more people don't get it, the more they care.
Bai Xiaowen was once a good brother of Heiwa, and when he saw that Heiwa took Tian Xiao'e home, but was not accepted by his father, he kindly found a place for them to live and let them make a home in the cave at the mouth of the village.
He was happy for Heiwa's courage and envious of his brother's peach blossom luck. Because they are free love, Tian Xiao'e is so beautiful.
When he saw her for the first time, he was deeply impressed. However, it is only a dark and beautiful feeling.
Until Heiwa fled and stayed away from Tian Xiao'e, his heart was full of regret, however, he soon fell into unspeakable anger.
Because the goddess in her heart was caught in public and committed adultery with the dog egg in the village. This dog egg is just a light bastard who can't be brought to the table.
Bai Xiaowen's heart was rolling, and he couldn't believe such a fact. Just like the special thing that you cherish the most and dare not desecrate, but you are watching it being played with by others.
What you don't get yourself, others can easily get. Therefore, in human nature, he who does not see others as good, is angry because of jealousy, and paranoid because of anger.
The huge loss and anger made Bai Xiaowen think more about this matter than anyone else.
Therefore, when, as the new patriarch, he wanted to preside over the flogging of the adulterous man and woman in front of everyone, he raised his whip high, and pumped it fiercely at the dog egg, and even more fiercely, to the person who longed for and loved the most in his heart.
As soon as the whip went down, bright red blood flowers appeared on Tian Xiao'e's tender skin, which quickly dispersed the entire upper body, and the mournful cry echoed in front of the people for a long time.
At this time, Bai Xiaowen also had helplessness and heartache in his heart, but more of an irrepressible injustice, he hated Xiao'e for being too casual and hating that he couldn't get it.
Even if in the end, he really had Tian Xiao'e and saw her being killed for no reason, but because of his identity, he did not take any action.
There is a saying:
"Life can not get rid of two major dilemmas, one is not gained, the other is lost."
Until finally he became the battalion commander of the security regiment and became the most powerful person in the White Deer Plain. Bai Xiaowen was still worried about not getting it, worried about losing it.
In order to make up for the lost family dignity, he repeatedly framed Lu Zilin, bought his land, and demolished his house; in order to make up for the lost family dignity, he demanded to recognize his ancestors and pretend to be filial piety; in order to avoid the threat of promotion and wealth, he got rid of his best brother Heiwa.
There are too many requests in life, which makes people lament and hate.
If you can't get a perfect marriage, you can only criticize the lovers around you; you can't get the favor of your parents, and you always have resentment; you can't get career development, and you often complain about the environment you are in.
People are always like this, when they don't get it, they are angry and demanding, and when they lose, they are worried about their stomachs. Not to be willing to get the heart, to lose and regret the beginning.
All kinds of thinking and calculating can only make life full of regrets and troubles, and let your heart be tired and entangled all day long.
Between gain and loss, only comes from your prejudices
Saying goes:
"The eyes of the masses are shining."
Tian Xiao'e has had an affair with a number of men, and all of them think that she has a bad manners and a misconduct.
Among them, the most indignant is Lu San. He felt that he and his son had lost face, and finally couldn't bear it anymore and killed the infamous Tian Xiao'e with a sharp knife.
In fact, the woman who was killed did not have a deep hatred with Lu San, nor did she have anything to do with it. Logically, she was his daughter-in-law. However, he did not approve of her union with her son from beginning to end.
He did not recognize the daughter-in-law, did not let her step into his house, and let her fend for herself. As the book says, the woman who was killed, who had not eaten a bite of his food, had held out her hand to him once.
In the case of starvation almost half dead, I thought that my father-in-law was kind enough to give himself a nest head, but unexpectedly a cold sharp knife was inserted in his back...
Some people say that this is the great righteousness of Lu San' killing relatives. He is jealous of evil and wicked, and he is doing evil to the people. Because her son Heiwa was notorious because of this woman's wandering, and bai Xiaowen, the son of the old owner, was also depraved and sinking because of her.
However, this woman is exactly the person that both men once loved to cherish and feared loss.
What seems like a just act deprives others of their right and freedom to love.
If you are bound by emotional prejudice, you lose your rational judgment and infringe on the innocence of others.
This deep-seated prejudice also comes from most of the people on the White Deer Plains. In that era of ethics and morality, the three principles and five constants, women must be innocent and end from one.
However, Tian Xiao'e did not obey at all, she was at first the little wife of a rich family, and she got along with Heiwa, and then secretly rejoiced with Bai Xiaowen.
Therefore, they don't look at this woman well in their daily lives, she is dead, and they feel that it is a very natural thing, regardless of how she died and who killed her.
Therefore, in Lu San's heart, Tian Xiao'e was guilty. He didn't care if Tian Xiao'e was sold to Guo Juren by her father, or whether Tian Xiao'e and Heiwa were truly in love.
He couldn't see Lu Zilin's belly of male thief and female prostitute, nor would he understand the regret and guilt of Tian Xiao'e pulling Bai Xiaowen into the water...
No one cares how a weak woman can survive in that era of famine and turmoil. The high line of morality alone cannot be touched and violated.
Tian Xiao'e seems to have been killed by her father-in-law, but in fact she was killed by the indifference of the whole village. A woman who only wants to live in a chaotic world is pushed into the abyss by blind obsession and prejudice.
In "The Golden Age", Wang Xiaobo described the story of Wang Er and Chen Qingyang.
For Chen Qingyang, everyone said that she was a broken shoe without any basis, and only based on superficial feelings, she characterized a woman: "Others say that you are a broken shoe, you are a broken shoe." ”
That being the case, simply be an example of "satisfying everyone." Out of rebellion and revenge, Chen Qingyang actually developed the "greatest friendship" with Wang Er.
At this time, the people, on the contrary, had nothing to say.
Prejudice is like a cancer of the mind.
It can make people lose their hearts, unable to clearly judge the gains and losses of right and wrong, and can make innocent people go astray.
Truly wise people have always had a heart of compassion, a heart of equality, a heart of transcendence.
When you are obsessed with dividing the rich from the poor, the strong from the weak, the guilty and the innocent, you become a manipulator and a judge.
In the end, in real life, he became an insatiable seeker and victim.
History is always strikingly similar, and the true and false good and evil of human nature are also in a big drama of life, and finally show the mountains and waters.
Heiwa, who is bent on going his own way, finally realizes the dark side of his heart, and in the face of Bai Jiaxuan, who is in a rickety figure, he is full of remorse;
Bai Xiaowen, who was lost in the whirlpool of frustration, experienced the ups and downs of life, and although he fought for success in the worldly sense, he was eventually spurned;
And lu san, who was lonely and courageous, also died of madness due to deep conscience condemnation, and suffered a series of tribulations in Bailuyuan.
Life is short, suffering is long, and what is longer than suffering is the eternal suffering of the human heart.
When we have gone through the vicissitudes of the world, we will eventually learn how to live a calm life:
If you're lucky enough to get it, don't compare it back and forth.
If you can't have it, don't worry about it.
The difference between success or failure ultimately depends on our heartbeat.
Just like there is a saying in "White Deer Plain":
"There are many things in the world that, though clearly visible, cannot be spoken."
May the undercurrent of the years be turbulent, we can look down on the gains and losses, calmly face the gains and losses, and live really and calmly between one breath and one inhalation.
Author: Far mountains and near water
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