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Leng Qiuyue died.
On the night of the winter solstice, when her neighbors changed her birthday clothes, they smelled a foul smell and found that her lower body was festering...
Before Leng Qiuyue died, she was crazy for a long time, and she had too much confusion and indignation about her life. However, all this cannot be vented in normal times, but it is easier to say it when it is crazy.
In the original work, Leng Qiuyue once made this judgment on his life of "living and widowing":
I have men who are as widowed as no men. I don't have a man widow to earn a chastity archway, I have a man widow to figure out what?
Leng Qiuyue dreamed of breaking free from the current life, but when Lu Zhaopeng proposed a divorce to let her start her life again, her heart was very resistant.
She wanted to live the life of an ordinary woman, which was not difficult; but she only wanted to live the life of an ordinary woman with Lu Zhaopeng, which was very difficult.
"Keeping the widow" has become the fate of Leng Qiuyue.
Lu Zilin lost control after drinking
The news came from the White Deer Plain that "the daughter-in-law of the Lu Zilin family is crazy".
It turned out that Leng Qiuyue was dancing in the wheat field while dancing and saying to people: My father is good with me, I am good with my father, and you tell grandma!
When he heard the news, Lu Zilin was eager to dig a hole in the ground and drill into it.
The reason why Leng Qiuyue was crazy, so that he was talking nonsense, was directly related to Lu Zilin.
Probably half a year before Leng Qiuyue became a madman, once, Lu Zilin returned home drunk and mistakenly regarded Leng Qiuyue, who opened the door for him, as his wife, and there were many frivolous meanings in his words and limbs.
At the beginning, Leng Qiuyue deliberately reminded Lu Zilin that he had recognized the wrong person, so that Lu Zilin could pay attention to his words and deeds. But what Leng Qiuyue couldn't imagine was that Lu Zilin not only did not listen to Leng Qiuyue's words, but his behavior was more bold.
At that time, Leng Qiuyue had never been caressed by Lu Zhaopeng, but he began to enjoy all of Lu Zilin's actions for himself.
It wasn't until the critical moment that Leng Qiuyue regained her senses, forcefully broke free of Lu Zilin's arms, and fled to her room.
This was Leng Qiuyue's first attempt at the separation of body and mind, and her body was desperately eager to be satisfied, while her mind remained within the circle of morality. When her mind boldly touched the boundaries of ethics, she herself never imagined that the reaction of her body was so beautiful.
And such "beauty" is full of great "sin".
Even if the physical desire is greatly delayed, Leng Qiuyue's heart always has a line blocking herself, telling herself about the shamefulness of "incest". Even if you are widowed to the point of madness, you cannot cross that line.
Therefore, the next day, in order to denounce Lu Zilin's shameful behavior the night before, Leng Qiuyue took advantage of Lu Zilin's inattention and put a handful of wheat grass in his bowl.
Leng Qiuyue wanted to use this to tell Lu Zilin: You are the cattle that eat wheat grass.
Leng Qiuyue had thought that her actions could provoke Lu Zilin, or smash the bowl or quarrel with herself. However, Lu Zilin did not show his inner anger, but instead pushed the wheat grass in the bowl aside and ate the rice in the bowl. Not only that, but he also handed the bowl to Leng Qiuyue and added another bowl of rice to him.
Looking at the wheat grass in the bowl, Leng Qiuyue was panicked for a while, and she couldn't guess Lu Zilin's true intentions for a while. She thought that Lu Zilin had admitted to herself in this way that she was an animal that ate wheat grass.
The more Lu Zilin was silent, did not resist or insult, the more Leng Qiuyue felt that she should not retaliate against Lu Zilin in this way. The resentment in my heart could no longer be publicized.
As everyone knows, Lu Zilin is brewing a huge revenge behind his back.
Lu Zilin's counterattack
Leng Qiuyue still failed to restrain herself, or broke through the inner defense line of "ethics".
Leng Qiuyue always remembered Lu Zilin's gaffe behavior towards herself that night, and strangely, she did not resent, but enjoyed it a little more, until she broke through the last line of defense in her heart.
Although Lu Zhaopeng is Leng Qiuyue's husband, the person who really opened Up Leng Qiuyue's cognition of male and female love is Lu Zilin.
In the original work, Lu Zhaopeng only did something hasty on the wedding night, and Leng Qiuyue at that time did not understand anything, but his heart was also longing. It wasn't until Lu Zilin performed specific actions that Leng Qiuyue completely felt that the original "men and women's affairs" were so beautiful.
At this time, Leng Qiuyue was no longer entangled in the so-called "ethics", she broke through the bottom line of morality and blatantly showed her goodwill to Lu Zilin. When her mother-in-law went to the temple to offer incense, she said to Lu Zilin: Dad, you love to drink in your own house, and it is troublesome to run to the village to drink.
At first, Lu Zilin did not care about Leng Qiuyue's words, thinking that this was just a junior's concern for the elders.
But Leng Qiuyue's next sentence completely exposed the filling. She said to Lu Zilin: My mother is not at home tonight, you don't go out in the dark, I am alone in the house afraid, open the door for you..... Nor is it convenient.
When Leng Qiuyue said that it was inconvenient to open the door, Lu Zilin's face suddenly burned with pain.
Cold autumn moon saw the situation, busy said: you drink in our house, I will give you two stir-fry dishes.
Lu Zilin had no idea that Leng Qiuyue's series of words and actions were actually showing him overtures.
I have always felt that people are mortal flesh who eat grains and grains, and it is normal to have desires. Once people's desires are suppressed for a long time and cannot be released, the heart will become distorted and become inhumane.
Leng Qiuyue put the four fried dishes on the table and prepared wine, and then ran to the house and wiped the rouge gouache and fiddled with his hair.
Leng Qiuyue's every move, every word and deed, made Lu Zilin smell her inner thoughts. After all, Lu Zilin was a man who read countless women on the White Deer Plain, and Leng Qiuyue's trick could not escape Lu Zilin's eyes.
What puzzled Lu Zilin was that at this time, Leng Qiuyue's words and deeds were completely different from those that night's words and deeds that he had been slighted by himself, and it was almost like two people.
Because at this time, the cold autumn moon has already let go of the bottom line of the heart, and is completely pulled by the desire of the body.
In order to dispel his inner concerns, Lu Zilin began to test Leng Qiuyue, such as inviting Leng Qiuyue to eat at the same table with him, and Leng Qiuyue agreed; for example, when the two were drinking, Lu Zilin deliberately touched Leng Qiuyue's hand, and Leng Qiuyue not only did not dodge, but grabbed Lu Zilin's hand...
Leng Qiuyue's series of reactions made Lu Zilin more solidify his inner thoughts, "This woman is widowed and crazy", and also made Lu Zilin more confident of retaliating against Leng Qiuyue's humiliation of herself.
When Lu Zilin was not paying attention in the cold autumn moon, he stuffed a handful of wheat grass into a plate of cold mixed bean sprouts, and the original book read:
Lu Zilin said to his daughter-in-law: Don't drink, you eat vegetables, and you should taste the dishes you stir-fry! The daughter-in-law twisted and plucked up the courage to pick up the chopsticks and eat a small bite of bamboo shoots and melons. Lu Zilin further encouraged and said: You try the cold mixed bean sprouts again. This time, the daughter-in-law was more comfortable extending her chopsticks to the bean sprouts plate. When she put the bean sprouts in her mouth, she vomited and spat out, and she was stunned at the stone table. She ate wheatgrass.
The victorious Deer Zilin snapped:
Learn the rules, you are the beast that eats grass.
Lu Zilin thought that this was just a beautiful counterattack, but he did not know that the handful of wheat grass he had sent into Leng Qiuyue's mouth directly killed her.
When Leng Qiuyue realized that he had eaten wheat grass, he was already humiliated and had no place to look at himself, and the original book wrote:
She wanted to cry and couldn't cry, when she heard Grandpa's footsteps go up to the landlord's house, followed by the sound of the door latch slamming rapidly. Unconsciously, she fell from the stone pier and fell to the ground, clutching the placket on her chest with both hands, hanging down her head that could not be supported, and realized that she would never be able to stand up.
The moment Leng Qiuyue showed her kindness to Lu Zilin, she stepped on her dignity as a person. The reason why Leng Qiuyue chose to show kindness to Lu Zilin was all due to Lu Zilin's lightness towards her that night, and she thought he wanted her.
In fact, Leng Qiuyue's first reaction to Lu Zilin's behavior was "disgust". But it was Lu Zilin's behavior that disgusted her that made her physically satisfied. She thought that Lu Zilin wanted her, so she gave up her last dignity in exchange for the warmth she thought it would be easy to get from Lu Zilin, but in the end, in exchange for ridicule.
I have always felt that What Leng Qiuyue put down is not only dignity, dignity is more like life for her, because Lu Zhaopeng's departure has made her an "abandoned woman", a joke on the White Deer Plain, and what supports her to live is only those who are still precious in her eyes, and these only remaining dignities, and always remind themselves that they are still a capital person.
She showed her overtures to Lu Zilin, seemingly gambling on her remaining dignity, but in fact betting on her remaining life.
Leng Qiuyue died
Since being humiliated by Lu Zilin, Leng Qiuyue had never spoken again.
What her mother-in-law told her to do, she just did it and didn't say a word.
The strange thing is that when Leng Qiuyue often works silently, Lu Zilin's frivolous actions towards him that night will come to mind. Until one day, this feeling became more and more intense, so that Leng Qiuyue could not control herself, and ran to the security center like crazy, shouting while running: I want to find my father. My dad is good with me, I'm good with my dad...
Leng Qiuyue was completely insane.
Mr. Leng inquired, prescribed two pairs of medicines to his daughter, looked at those boiled black potions, Leng Qiuyue's first reaction was to refuse, but under the forced pressure of his mother-in-law, he still drank it.
Lu Zilin thought that if these two pairs of medicines were drunk, the daughter-in-law would meet well, but who knows, the daughter-in-law was even more crazy.
Lu Zilin and his wife put their hopes on Lu Zhaopeng, hoping that Lu Zhaopeng could come back, so that leng Qiuyue could leave a baby, and her condition might be better.
What Lu Zilin could not imagine was that Lu Zhaopeng had already married Bai Ling and lived a life. Lu Zilin and his wife had no choice but to pin their hopes on Mr. Leng's medical skills.
However, what made Lu Zilin even more unexpected was that Mr. Leng had made a cruel effort to poison his daughter.
I sometimes wonder, who killed Leng Qiuyue?
It is Lu Zhaopeng, who clearly believes in "new learning", opposes feudalism, why can't he escape his father's persecution, or follows the feudal "words of the matchmaker" and marries Leng Qiuyue;
Everyone advised him to leave a baby for Leng Qiuyue, he would rather die than follow, but why did he have to go fishing and water with Leng Qiuyue on the wedding night;
I sometimes feel that Lu Zhaopeng is a complete double standard for Leng Qiuyue, and his personal body and mind are screwed up in Leng Qiuyue.
It was Lu Zilin, who obviously did the bad deeds, but in order to prolong the face of the lingering, he beat leng qiuyue upside down, so that the "wheat grass" became the last straw that crushed leng qiuyue;
It is Mr. Leng, for his own face, regardless of his daughter's feelings, and even at the cost of poisoning his daughter. Leng Qiuyue had a lot of grievances in her heart, and countless whys, but her own father had mutilated his right to speak, so in the end, he could only go to the mad demon to escape the evil of this world.
The times are like a melting pot, before each of us enters this melting pot, we are branded with our own brand, no matter how you go, where you go; no matter how you break free and become what you become, we can't escape the brand on our bodies after all.
Some people say that Leng Qiuyue does not know how to fight, and her thinking is too old-fashioned.
What about Tian Xiao'e? She has been fighting against that era with her own actions, but in the end? The results remain unsatisfactory.
Man, sometimes it's just not enough to die, but what can't be done? Admit it.
Author: Zhang Xiaonuan, may you and I meet not too late in the warm and comfortable text, and grow together
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