Raising a baby is not easy, and the second child makes me prohibitive

Early in the morning, before stepping out of work, my son, who was at home during the second grade holiday, coughed in the bed and spit out a blood clot! A blood clot!! My arm instantly softened and my brain blood pressure surged! A private children's hospital that can be visited in 40 minutes with only sanity. Because I assessed the timeliness of possible registration, queuing and examination in a public hospital, it may also be that I firmly believe that the child will not have an accident (after all, there is no limit to the vitality of eating, drinking and having fun), and directly run to Gubei!

Showed the doctor a picture, and the doctor almost pulled my heart out with a frown! In the 15 minutes of the blood test and other results, watching my son playing with the twisting car, laughing and waiting for the twisting egg... I swear to Heaven that I will never yell at him for learning things again, and I will use all my tenderness to make my child happy! After all the normal results of the Mycoplasma pneumoniae examination and blood routine came out, after confirming with a stethoscope that the child's lungs were free of murmurs, the doctor saw the bleeding spots, scabs, and a small amount of blood clots in his nasal cavity! Doctors say that it is most likely caused by allergic rhinitis caused by rupture of capillaries in the nasal cavity, blood entering the throat, and coughing out in the morning! At that moment the tears turned in a circle and went back... Academic performance still needs to be grasped!

My children are particularly susceptible to colds and coughs from an early age, which can lead to pneumonia! When I was 2 and a half years old, I was hospitalized with pneumonia twice in two months, and I hid in the corner of the ward helplessly and cried helplessly, which often caused my heartache. Then at the age of 4, I got a BE virus, had a fever to drowsiness, was urgently hospitalized to lower cranial pressure, and met other children in the same floor neurology and cardiology... I swear I can't have a second child! I'm going to give all my love to my son! Until the age of 5, the child gradually became stronger, not so easy to catch a cold, and it was not so easy to get pneumonia if he caught a cold! Recall that he was born to hire a childcare sister-in-law, to hire a 24-hour aunt from 3 months, and then from a 2.5-year-old to a day-shift aunt to start kindergarten,,, so many years in the hospital, in the non-stop payment! I am a person who can't get help from the elderly (not that the elderly don't help, it's that the elderly don't have the energy and physical help) and can't lose their jobs and financial resources to get the same as many women in first-tier cities!

Now that my kids are in school, to be honest, there's a gene that's pushing me to have a baby. Seeing the little baby will be can't help but warm up, fantasizing about how good my child is! But looking back at the physique and touching the same grandfather, my heart is like being poured with cold water, powerless and desolate ~ ~ After all, it is so difficult to pull my son to the second grade of primary school, and one-sixth of my life is gone

In fact, it is not that people who live in the city do not want to have children, in addition to giving him a good living and learning environment, as an only child to get us, the anxiety and emotional vulnerability, as well as the pressure of work and economy, we have to give up childbearing. Of course, I see our company has customers, which one is not greater than or equal to 2 tires? So it is not that people do not have children, but that the social class has deprived us of the right to choose and directly deprive us of our rights.

I also want to be a strong mother, but a strong mother has only one daughter waiting for her to be strong enough to give her and her boss a pension. I'm afraid of losing anyone in my family, but I'm not strong enough or gold enough! So I can only look forward to the second child, and I am discouraged.