On December 23, 2021, Xiao S's talk show "Xi Di Wants to Talk" was launched.
On the day of the premiere of the show, Xiao S invited her ex-boyfriend Huang Ziling.
The reunion of the former lovers is very topical in itself, but the same scene has already existed in "Kangxi Lai" 6 years ago.
And the original topic was also copied by Xiao S unchanged -
Again, Huang Ziyou is his favorite boyfriend in addition to her husband Xu Yajun;
She gave Huang Ziling and his current wife a "glue-like paint" sign, once again writing the sentence she had said, "The road to marriage is not easy";
When she asked again, "Am I still pretty?", Huang Ziling, who is nearly 50 years old, couldn't help but ridicule: "I knew she was going to say this again." ”
But even if she hypes with old love. The program traffic and word-of-mouth are still not optimistic, the number of Douban ratings has just exceeded 1,000, and the various sentiment bonuses can also exceed 6 points.
Netizens couldn't help shouting:
"Xi Di, if you have some courage to invite your husband to the show to talk, it is a hundred times better than your ex-boyfriend awkward conversation!"
In 1978, Little S Xu Xidi was born in Taipei.
Her family is a typical son preference, the grandmother gave birth to 7 girls in a row, and the eighth child was born to a son, that is, her father Xu Jian.
His father, Xu Jian, was pampered from an early age, and after getting married, he went to the tavern and casino every night, and his wife advised him twice, and he slapped his hand.
When his mother became pregnant with Xiao S, Xu Jian desperately wanted to be a son.
The birth of Xiao S disappointed Xu Jian, and her name Xi Di (pronounced "Xi Di") came from this, and she also had a nickname "Tingting", which means "stop giving birth to girls".
Since then, Xu Jian has been slightly unhappy, so he sprinkled anger on his wife and Xiao S, blaming them for not being able to use their sons to pass on the lineage.
When he was young, his father always drank and lay in the living room, and Little S was afraid of being scolded, and always shut himself in the room.
When Xu Jian watched TV, she often looked through the crack in the door, dreaming of acting in the future, but she did not dare to talk to her family about this idea.
Only when there was no one else in the house did she imitate a TV star and perform various roles in front of the mirror.
Once, she imagined herself playing a beaten student, holding a ring ruler in her left hand, "snorting" into the palm of her right hand, and screaming "Oops" every time she hit.
Suddenly the door opened and her mother and sister appeared in front of her. Little S was stunned in place, his face brushed red.
She later said in an interview: "When I was a kid at home, I was not only introverted, but also had low self-esteem. ”
At the age of 18, Xiao S met Huang Ziyou and immediately fell in love.
Huang Ziyou, who was 6 years older than her, was Taiwan's premier host at the time, and his calmness and composure gave her an unprecedented sense of security.
During the relationship between the two, Huang Ziling arranged the hosting work of Xiao S in an orderly manner, and was gentle and considerate in daily life.
Xiao S goes on a business trip to Japan, and Huang Ziyou pushes off her job to accompany her in Tokyo; showing off the "S" tattoo on her arm during the show.
Knowing that Little S is Takuya Kimura's fan sister, he takes her to the restaurant opened by Kimura's sister to eat.
Later, even if it was Xiao S's own trip, she also pestered Huang Ziling to help arrange it.
The two fell in love and talked about the 4th year, Huang Ziling was shortlisted for the Golden Bell Award, and wanted Xiao S to accompany her to wait for the result, but she traveled to the UK with her friends.
The trip to the UK is not over, and Xiao S receives a parting call from Huang Ziling.
When she returned to Taiwan, she found that there was gossip everywhere related to her relationship, and she broke down and cried.
In 2004, Xiao S met xu Yajun, a rich man.
After only 5 months of talking, the two developed to the point of meeting their parents.
The mother called to remind Little S: "I have no objection to wanting to get married, but if you are pregnant unmarried, I will never help you with your child." ”
4 months after this phone call, Little S Bongzi got married.
After the marriage, Xu Yajun was photographed going in and out of the nightclub, and Xiao S, who was pregnant with Liujia, stood up and explained:
"I was afraid of the smell of smoke and didn't dare to go, so I let him go alone."
But similar things kept happening, and her explanations became weaker and weaker.
Once she was hit on a bicycle and the whole person was thrown into the air.
When she landed on the ground, Xu Yajun shouted at her from afar:
"Don't move first, I'll take a picture first, lest everyone say that my family is violent."
Because of the two daughters in a row, Little S faced the same dilemma as her mother.
The Xu family wants a son and forces her to eat all kinds of folk remedies.
Little S cried privately and said to his friend:
"Although my womb is loose, as long as I am in good health, I will try to give my husband a son."
In 2012, Little S gave birth to her third daughter.
After that, she sent herself and Xu Yajun's happy daily life almost every day.
7 years later, Xiao S was a guest of the variety show "Little Sister's Flower Shop", and the former variety show queen was tired and talked about the inferiority in her heart.
Song Jia couldn't help but complain after listening: "I don't think you love yourself at all." ”
Little S was stunned and said, "Are you trying to force me to cry?" ”
As soon as the words stopped, she covered her nose and burst into tears.
Big S is two years older than Little S and the second oldest in the family.
Her mother often said that she and her daughter got along like sisters.
But as soon as big S was mentioned, she immediately changed her face and said that she was the boss at home and I was a follower.
In The memory of Little S, every time his father drank and abused, the eldest sister always hid in the room and shrunk behind the sofa, and only the second sister Big S rushed up to protect her mother.
After graduating from junior high school, He decided to give up the national examination and went to an art school instead.
After a year of study, she could not stand the militarized management of the school and decided to withdraw from school and retake the exam.
The mother disagreed, said two words to her, she did not say a word, directly on the highway "jumped out of the car" to leave.
The little S in the back seat looked stunned and thought, "How can the second sister always do what I dare not do?" ”
In 1993, producer Chen Guoqin discovered Big S and decided to make her debut, asking her what she wanted.
Big S replied that she had to take her sister with her.
The combination of the sisters was originally called "Toot Toot Toot Wow", and someone asked Big S: "Who are you two, Toot Bi and who is Toot Wow?" ”
Big S thought that the name was too ugly, so he changed the name of the group to "ASOS", "Big S" and "Little S" from which.
At the time of their debut, no matter how biased the place, how broken the stage, as long as the company said a word, they had to perform.
Every time Xiao S saw that there was no audience offstage, he felt very humiliated and did not dare to let go of his voice to sing, while Big S sang while shouting "Come on, ASOS is here."
Later, the two transformed and co-hosted "Entertainment 100%", and gradually gained popularity, and Xiao S was still accustomed to having his sister in the field.
Once the big S filming was too tired and missed a live broadcast.
After Xiao S knew it, he cried at the camera and said to the director several times: "Just insert a few ads, I can't host it." ”
Finally, with everyone's encouragement, she cried and lasted for 1 hour of the show.
Even if Little S breaks up, it is Big S who helps her shout Huang Ziling in public:
"You used to be my good friend, but now you're nothing!"
Instead, little Sercotta curled up behind her, took her sister's hand, and signaled her not to say anything.
When Little S got married, Big S warned her brother-in-law in front of her sister: "If you dare to bully my sister, I will break your leg." ”
In fact, at this time, she was in love with Zhou Yumin.
After talking for two years, just about to talk about marriage, Zhou Yumin suffered from depression due to the death of his ex-girlfriend, and Big S and other Zhou Yumin broke up with him after his stable state, she said:
"If it's not appropriate, even if it's very, very painful, you have to break up, you can't make it up."
In her opinion, happiness is never deliberately flattering, only in her own hands.
In June 2021, Wang Xiaofei made inappropriate remarks about Taiwan, causing an uproar.
Big S dropped a sentence on the social platform: "The divorce procedures are being handled, and his words and deeds will not be commented on." ”
People thought she was impulsive, but they didn't expect that after 5 months, the two did divorce, and the 11-year marriage was divided.
Wang Weizhong, the godfather of Taiwanese variety shows, once said:
"Big S is a chivalrous personality, And Little S is vulgar (a person without guts) in Taiwanese, just following behind his sister, anyway, the sky falls down and someone is on top."
Sisters born into the same family have different life trajectories because of their diametrically opposed personalities.
The sister always has the initiative, and the sister follows suit in the compromise.
It was big S who was divorced, so it was Little S who was in the spotlight, and everyone wondered how long she would be silent in a noisy marriage.
In 1998, Zhang Xiaoyan, a famous host in Taiwan, flipped through a film and television review in lianhe Bao, and he got goosebumps when he saw that the author's name was "Cai Kangyong", and then said to his assistant: "The guest of the next interview invites this person." ”
An episode of the show is just 40 minutes long, and the entire Taiwanese variety show industry remembers this man who talks a lot.
At the invitation of producer Zhan Renxiong, Cai Kangyong has hosted "The King of Electric Shock" and "Two Generations of Power Companies", and the program has a good reputation, but the audience is small.
In order to improve ratings, Zhan Renxiong recommended a program for hot celebrities to Cai Kangyong.
Cai Kangyong considered for two days, and finally pointed to the photo of Xiao S and said to Zhan Renxiong: "I will host when she comes." ”
Cai Kangyong's roll call invitation actually overwhelmed Xiao S.
She had long been accustomed to hosting with her sister, and now she suddenly went to a new environment and hosted with a man she didn't know, and she didn't know how to face it.
Later, Xiao S finally agreed to audition, and after recording a program, her nervousness was diluted.
Because Cai Kangyong perfectly replaced the role of her sister, with him behind her, no matter what she said, she would not worry about "collapsing".
In 2004, the two co-hosted "Kangxi Lai" was launched.
Once, Taiwan's political tycoon Lien Chan was a guest show, and Xiao S came up and asked him what kind of underwear he was wearing at home, so anxious that Cai Kangyong quickly played the round court in a joking way:
"If you ask such a question again, I will pull you to the shoot!"
Fei Xiang went on the show, and Xiao S plucked one of his chest hairs, saying that it was used for auction for charity.
Cai Kangyong continued: "This thing is very strange, but it is very precious. ”
As he spoke, he shifted the topic to charity.
Interviewing Chen Guanxi, Xiao S asked: "Do you still have the habit of taking intimate photos with your girlfriend?" ”
Chen Guanxi said "no", and his face was a little gloomy.
Cai Kangyong immediately used the phrase "he doesn't even dare to touch the camera now" and immediately focused the dialogue on the discussion of online violence.
With the collocation of Cai Kangyong, Xiao S gradually became more at ease, she dared to say more, her style was unique, and she became more and more popular, and in 2006, she won the highest honor in taiwan's hosting industry - the Golden Bell Award.
But people in the industry say:
"Little S is like fire, attracting attention, Cai Kangyong is like air, no one pays attention, but once it leaves the air, the fire is fleeting."
In 2016, Cai Kangyong left "Kangxi Is Coming", and Zhan Renxiong invited Xiao S to come to the mainland and used the original team to create a variety show "Sister Is Hungry" for her.
Xiao S hosted 3 issues alone, and the Douban score fell below 5 points, and the ratings were unbearable.
She was so drunk that she began to lean on "Kangxi Lai" in "Xi Di Wants to Talk".
In the second episode of the show, she coldly asked the guest Xu Weining: "When you shoot the kiss scene, will you stick out your tongue opposite?" ”
The same question, she asked Lin Xinru as early as 10 years ago.
However, this time, without Cai Kangyong beside her to adjust the atmosphere, Xiao S found that Xu Weining paused for a second, and she immediately said with some cramps: "It doesn't matter if you don't want to answer!" ”
Xu Weining did not know how to answer the call, after the air froze for a moment, Xiao S laughed a few times, and Xu Weining also laughed.
Her fun in Kangxi is inseparable from Cai Kangyong's cooperation, and when she loses her partner, "interesting" becomes "not calm enough".
The more so, the more she can't get rid of the "Kangxi Lai" mode in the show, as if she can retain her former glory and wrap her current self in a sense of security.
It's just a pity that the glory can't be retained, and can only be constantly created.
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In "Xi Di Wants to Talk", Xiao S said such a sentence: "If I can start over, I want to try what it would be like to walk through a life alone." ”
Countless netizens said that this sentence was interpreted as: Little S regrets getting married, and wants to divorce but has no courage.
In fact, it is not only marriage, in the 26 years since its debut, Xiao S has been accustomed to having someone to cover for himself from hosting to falling in love.
Stars do not deserve sympathy, but the little s who have always lacked insecurity and self-confidence and "struggled to maintain marriage" in the eyes of everyone are to some extent like ordinary people.
A combination of strength and vulnerability, a lifelong ups and downs in family and emotions.
And now, she does need to live another life of solitude, it seems that the more a person grows, the more he wants to be loyal to himself and live alone.
Xiao S, who is now 43 years old, after experiencing the first half of his life full of tears and justice, finally understood:
Even if the co-pilot's position is luxurious, it is not as good as holding the steering wheel in the palm of your hand.
And that, too, applies to us.
If you want to master the compass of life by yourself, give me a [watching].
Author | Jiang Yumu, a post-90s engineering & literary teenager, holds the head of elm and looks for the romance of life.
Anchor | Yi Fan, radio host, sound temperature explorer.
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