In 1996, a very beautiful middle-aged lady was admitted to the 301 Hospital in Beijing. After examination by the doctor, it was found that the woman had lung cancer.
In order to keep her alive, doctors had to prescribe medicines and treatments for her every day. I thought this lady would be able to live a little longer. But the good times did not last long, and in September of the following year, she died forever.
Is it the wrong way for doctors to treat it? No. Before this woman developed lung cancer, she had a habit of drinking and smoking. Long-term bad habits, coupled with the inextricable sorrow in her heart, she eventually died of illness and endless melancholy.
The 53-year-old woman has spent her life pursuing warmth in the name of "love".
On July 1, 1944, a baby girl named Yang Yaqin by her parents was born in Jinan, Shandong Province. In those turbulent times, her life was very hard.
Yang Yaqin's family also has 3 brothers and sisters, and a family of six people who want to eat and wear warm is a luxury. Even more unfortunately, when she was two years old, her mother died of illness, and the family has been supported by her father since then.
Even so, the father still holds the concept of son preference, often leaving a small amount of food for the male babies in the family, and Yang Yaqin has become the one who is hungry.
If material deprivation could not give the poor girl the heaviest blow, then spiritual poverty was Yang Yaqin's greatest enemy in her life.
She always did not get the love of her father, so she longed even more for someone to love her, but her brother's care for her was always difficult to fill the gap in the love in her heart.
A few years later, the death of their father collapsed like the pillar of the family, and the "home" of the four brothers and sisters who were barely able to shelter themselves from the wind and rain fell into an even more impoverished situation. The older of the four children took the initiative to take on the responsibility of caring for their younger siblings.
But the children take care of the children, their lives are still difficult, and the brothers and sisters can't see the dawn of a better life. And this also made Yang Yaqin form a sensitive and melancholy personality.
In 1960, at the age of 16, Yang Yaqin was like a flower growing out of the ruins of a life full of suffering. The roots of this flower may be bitter, but the appearance of the flower is so beautiful and unique.
This year, Yang Yaqin accompanied a good friend to the troupe to audition, and she also had a small expectation in her heart: Can I also become a literary and artistic soldier?
Perhaps after becoming a literary soldier, she will be able to eat and dress warmly, and she will be able to repay the brothers and sisters who pulled her up.
The lucky door was opened for Yang Yaqin on this day, when she was trying to play with her friends, she was caught by a director, and she was immediately invited to enter the Jinan Military Region Repertory Theatre and became a literary and artistic soldier.
But such luck is no accident. Yang Yaqin has a pair of thick eyebrows and a pair of rather heroic eyes. In her smile, with the purity and beauty unique to a young girl, coupled with her height of one meter and seven meters, is this not the standard appearance of a literary female soldier?
After entering the troupe, Yang Yaqin began to learn to act. She did not want to lose this very rare opportunity, she studied with the sisters and brothers of the troupe, while carefully pondering how the actor's smile should be.
In 1961, a director from the Bayi Film Studio came to Shandong to prepare for the film "Mine Warfare". This time, fate once again opened a window for Yang Yaqin, and she was like when she first went to audition, she was caught by the director. Unlike her accidental encounter when she auditioned with her friends, Yang Yaqin at this time has been learning her acting skills in the troupe for a year. She also became more and more beautiful, coupled with her high understanding of acting, the director gave her the role of the guerrilla Tian Sister-in-law in the film.
Yang Yaqin, who had only performed on the stage before, had the opportunity to perform on the big screen.
Yang Yaqin's heroic appearance adds a lot to her performance, and she creates the image of Tian Jie to be very full and real. The director of the Bayi Film Studio was very impressed.
In 1965, the director of bayi Film Studio wanted to make a film about women in the War of Resistance, "Bitter Cauliflower". He went to the troupe where Yang Yaqin was working. Although 4 years have passed, the director has not forgotten the literary and artistic soldier Yang Yaqin, who successfully portrayed the role of "Tian Concubine". As a result, she was recruited into the crew of "Bitter Cauliflower". In the same year, Yang Yaqin was also officially transferred to bayi Studio and entered a broader world of development.
Yang Yaqin played Juanzi, the daughter of Feng Daniang, the wife of a poor peasant, in "Bitter Cauliflower". The age of this role is in line with Yang Yaqin's image, and her eyebrows are heroic, which is the most suitable candidate for the role of "Juanzi" in the director's heart.
There is no problem in appearance, but Yang Yaqin, who has only acted in movies once, is a little immature in her acting skills. However, Yang Yaqin has a calm personality and is very studious, and the director is willing to teach her patiently.
But then another problem arose. At that time, Yang Yaqin was only 21 years old, and she had never eaten a full meal since she was a child, and suddenly came to an environment that could make her eat and wear warm, and Yang Yaqin gained weight. As the shooting progressed, Yang Yaqin also grew fatter and fatter. The director reminded her: "This does not fit the image of the poor character in the film." ”
Yang Yaqin also realized her negligence, and she made up her mind to lose weight. Yang Yaqin heard others say that she stayed up late and lost weight quickly, so she began to deliberately sleep late. But just staying up late and losing weight too slowly, Yang Yaqin began to climb the mountain. The high and steep Quinn Mountain, she can climb two times a day. Even if she is exhausted, she will not shout tired, and after going to the crew, she will take a short break and continue filming.
With the efforts of Yang Yaqin and the crew, the film was finally successfully released.
She played the girl in the movie who was full of fear and resentment after her father was killed by the landlord, the girl who snuggled on her mother's shoulder but had a firm look. Juanzi, played by Yang Yaqin, picks up the shotgun left by her father in the play and resolutely joins the militia team is unforgettable.
Since then, Yang Yaqin has become a well-known actress. The people of bayi Film Studio also remember this young actress who is not afraid of hardships in order to play the role well.
However, fate once again made a joke for Yang Yaqin. In 1966, Bayi Studios prepared to remake "Sea Eagle" (1959 first shot) and at the same time prepare for "The Great Wall of the South China Sea". Yang Yaqin participated in the actor assessment of these two films, and after competition and evaluation, Yang Yaqin was successfully selected as an actor in these two films. But later, bayi studios were affected by the general environment, so that the two films ended before filming began. Yang Yaqin's acting career was also pressed by fate to pause the button.
At the same time, because of the influence of her father's former work, Yang Yaqin also faced the dilemma of being criticized.
Yang Yaqin, who wanted to seek stability and love, was introduced by her superiors and met a guard soldier who was "rooted in Miao Hong". The warrior did not understand romance, but Yang Yaqin's heart had been lonely for too long, and she desperately needed a shoulder to rely on, so she married the warrior.
After marriage, because the work at bayi Studio was much less than before, she spent more time with her husband. But it is in this long family life that Yang Yaqin found that there are many things between her and her husband that are difficult to run into.
The first is that her husband is not optimistic about her literary and artistic work, and her husband has always been indifferent to Yang Yaqin as before marriage. This is unbearable for a woman who has been very unloved since childhood. After the two gave birth to their daughter Yang Xiaojie, she was eager to get more love from her husband in the arrival of new family members, but she did not expect that everything was "delusional".
Yang Yaqin had the idea of divorcing her husband. But in that era, a woman who initiated a divorce would be regarded as an outlier, and she had to endure the torture of difficult divorce procedures while suffering from the strange eyes of others.
She began to drink, and at first she may have just swallowed the bitterness in her heart. But as her husband's "indifference" as always and the pain in his heart continues to accumulate, Yang Yaqin drinks more and more times and for longer and longer.
After the two divorced, Yang Yaqin lived alone with her daughter, and she seemed to have returned to the difficult years of her childhood.
In 1974, the movie "Scout" was about to start filming, and the 30-year-old Yang Yaqin was selected to play the heroine. This is her first female lead role since she was 30 years old, and it is also the starting point for her to restart her acting career. Yang Yaqin devoted herself to the filming of the film, and she also regained the attention of the world.
Even if she is not in her twenties, Yang Yaqin is still beautiful, and many viewers will evaluate her this way after meeting her on the street by chance: "She herself is more beautiful than in the movie." ”
After starring in "Scout", the light on Yang Yaqin's body returned. The following year she starred in "The Second Spring," a reflection of the Navy's construction of a new type of warship. Perhaps, this is also the "second spring" of Yang Yaqin's acting career.
Just after filming this play, she received an invitation from the North Film Studio to star in the industrial theme movie "Youth Like Fire", in which she played the electrician Liang Dongxia. The role of the "worker, peasant and soldier" type in these three movies made her a "goddess" and idol in everyone's mind in that special era.
In 1979, Yang Yaqin starred in "Meng Gen Hua" and "My Ten Classmates", and she became the most popular actress at that time after playing the leading role many times.
And Yang Yaqin is unambiguous in her performance. Because she is the main actor, her lines are also the most. So in between filming, she is always concentrating on reading the script and taking notes. Yang Yaqin, who is becoming more and more famous, is also the object of many people's dating, but she has rarely drunk alcohol since she started shooting movies again, and she will not go out to drink with others. For those invitations to eat together, she also mostly declined.
There was once a scene on horseback riding, which required a shot of Yang Yaqin on horseback. The crew suggested that she find a stuntman who could ride a horse to keep herself safe. But Yang Yaqin refused, in order to give the audience the most real performance effect, she chose to shoot her own horse.
In order to shoot this scene, Yang Yaqin deliberately learned to ride a horse, and in order to make herself look like a woman who often rides a horse in the shot, she practiced over and over again until others could not see that she had just learned.
In 1981, she starred in "Song in the Whirlpool". But as she grew older, Yang Yaqin was no longer suitable for playing the heroine, and she began to be arranged to play some supporting roles. But even if she is assigned to small roles, Yang Yaqin also handles the emotions required by these roles very seriously, and will not perfunctory every performance.
At that time, Yang Yaqin's fame was still the same, and she also met the love she had longed for for a long time.
The man, who is a fan of his, told Yang that he admired her. After the two met, the man launched a strong love offensive against Yang Yaqin.
Under the pursuit of the other party, Yang Yaqin felt unprecedented romance and warmth, which is not exactly what she craves? The yearning for love makes Yang Yaqin indulge in it, and she feels like the happiest person in the world. The man's care and attention to her made her feel like she was living in a dream, and she was like a young girl who had just opened her heart, and greeted this love with full enthusiasm.
In 1982, Yang Yaqin played the second female lead in the movie "The Depths of the Soul", and the first female lead was the new star Liu Xiaoqing. The injection of new blood in the acting industry made Yang Yaqin smell a hint of danger, and she also had to face the "mid-life crisis" of the actress.
With the advent of more and more outstanding actresses, Yang Yaqin's position in people's hearts has also quietly changed. But she was not very sad, because the love she had pursued for many years had finally arrived.
Yang Yaqin, who is immersed in sweet love, chose to marry her boyfriend in love after filming the movie "Xizi Girl" in 1983. At the same time, she is also thinking about her future development path.
In 1984, Yang Yaqin was invited to shoot Guangxi Film Studio's "Far Away", which was also her last film in the inland.
After the film was filmed, Yang Yaqin went to the Bayi Film Studio to handle the internal withdrawal procedures. Just like the name of the final film, she and her husband left the eyes of Beijing and inland audiences for many years to go to the distant and unfamiliar Hong Kong with full anticipation when her career was not yet completely decaying.
After arriving in Hong Kong, Yang Yaqin lost the audience who knew her and the director who supported her, and she gradually faded out of the screen. Without a career, it means that all the achievements and aura of the past have been removed, and she is now an ordinary housewife.
Yang Yaqin put all her love and eyes on the family. After all, this was a happiness she had never felt when she was a child.
But as time passed, she found that her husband's love for her had gradually faded. Their love, like a stone that stirred up ripples in the lake, finally returned to silence and indifference.
Why? Because the second husband loves her aura, the way she shines on stage. Yang Yaqin, who has faded her aura, is no longer young, and she is like a first love girl who has given everything to love her husband, which may make her husband a little confused.
Yang Yaqin, who found that her husband had become cold to herself, also began to fear, and she was more eager to ask her husband for love and warmth, but this also pushed her farther away.
The loneliness in Yang Yaqin's heart was awakened, and she was puzzled, and she was haunted by sorrow all day long. In order to relieve the bitterness in her heart, she picked up the wine glass again and began to drink heavily. But after drinking too much in her early years, she found that drinking could not make herself drunk. As a result, Yang Yaqin began to learn to smoke.
After learning to smoke, she mourned her lost love and the warmth she could not ask for. Long-term smoking, coupled with the unfillable loss in her heart, Yang Yaqin suffered from lung cancer in this way, and her life also came to an end step by step.
Yang Yaqin underwent surgery to remove two lobes of her lungs at a hospital in Hong Kong. After the operation, Yang Yaqin's health did not improve, and she returned to Beijing after many years of absence.
But returning to her hometown did not stop the cancer cells in her body from spreading, and she was finally admitted to Beijing 301 Hospital, where she never got out of the hospital healthy and healthy.
On September 29, 1997, Yang Yaqin, who had been chasing love all her life but was always disappointed, died in the hospital at the age of 53.
It was that dedication to love and unwillingness in her heart that devoured the life of this talented and famous actress.
But the many images she has left on the screen still hold endless thoughts in the hearts of the audience.