"Golden Age" interesting soul king Xiaobo

1 I was twenty-one years old that day, and in the golden age of my life, I had many extravagant hopes. I want to love, I want to eat, and I want to turn into a half-light and half-dark cloud in the sky in an instant. Later, I learned that life is a slow process of being hammered, and people grow old day by day, and their extravagance disappears day by day, and finally they become like cattle that have been hammered. But I didn't foresee this on my twenty-first birthday. I felt like I was going to be fierce forever, and nothing would give me the hammer.

2 I told her that she was indeed a broken shoe, and gave some reasons: the so-called broken shoe is a reference, everyone says that you are a broken shoe, you are a broken shoe, there is no reason to talk about it. Everyone says that if you steal Han, you steal Han, and there is no reason to talk about it. As for why people say that you are a broken shoe, according to me, it is like this: everyone thinks that a married woman should not steal, she should have a dark face and sagging breasts. And your face is not black and white, and your breasts are not sagging and towering, so you are a broken shoe.

3 When the grass is far away, I built a grass house in a place where there are no people, the empty mountain is empty, the water is flowing and flowers, and I can cultivate myself by living in it.

4 Go back twenty years and imagine Chen Qingyang and I discussing the broken shoe problem. At that time, I was yellow, my lips were chapped, stained with shredded paper and tobacco, my hair was disheveled brown, I was wearing a torn military uniform with many holes in it glued with rubber paste, and I was sitting on a wooden bed on Erlang's legs, completely a rogue appearance.

5 On my twenty-first birthday, I was herding cattle by the river. In the afternoon I lay down on the grass and fell asleep. When I went to sleep, I had a few banana leaves on my body, and when I woke up, I had nothing on me (the leaves may have been eaten by cattle). The sun of the subtropical dry season made me red and itchy, and my little monk pointed straight up to the sky, in an unprecedented size. That's what happens to me on my birthday.

6 Chen Qingyang later said that she never understood whether my great friendship was real or whether it was made up to deceive her. But she added that those words fascinated her like incantations, and that she would not regret even if she had lost everything for them. In fact, great friendship is neither true nor false, just like everything in the world, if you believe it is true, it will continue to be true; if you doubt it is false, it is false. My words are also half-true. But I am always ready to deliver on my word, even if the world falls apart. Because of this attitude, no one else believes me. Although I regard making friends as a lifelong career, the friends I have made are only two or three people such as Chen Qingyang.

7 Can you please lie down a little bit? I'm going to study your structure in terms of light. Just listen to a loud pop, like a thunder in the ear, and she gives me a big slap. I jumped up, took my clothes, pulled my legs and left.

8 Before my twenty-first birthday, I was a child boy. That night I lured Chen Qingyang and I to the mountain, and at the beginning of the night there was moonlight, and then the moon fell, and the stars of the day came out, just like the dew in the morning.

9 After arguing for a while, he said that he would not fight, so he let me wrestle with Sanmu'er, and Sanmu'er couldn't fall on me, so he moved his fist. I kicked Sanshin into the pit in front of the circle and left him covered in cow dung.

10 After a while, Chen Qingyang ran around with his eyelids red and swollen, and the first sentence of the split head was: Don't be afraid. If you are paralyzed, I will take care of you for the rest of your life.

11 During the dry season, the wind blows and the whole grass house shakes. Chen Qingyang sat on a chair and listened to the sound of the wind, recalling what had happened in the past, and doubting everything. It was hard for her to believe that she would inexplicably come to this extremely desolate place, and be called a broken shoe for no reason, and then really make a broken shoe. It's unbelievable.

12 To her, I was the back of the one who hurried down the mountain, a man of memory. She doesn't want to have sex with me or break my shoes unless there's a major reason. So she came to me as a real shoe breaker.

13 I used to think that Chen Qingyang would come to see me as soon as I entered the mountain, but I was wrong. I waited a long time and then I didn't wait anymore. I sat in the hut and listened to the roar of leaves all over the mountain, and finally reached the realm of forgetting both things and things. I heard a mighty tide of air rushing above me, and it was the time of the surge in my soul. Just as the flowers bloom in the deep mountains, the dragon bamboo shoots peel off the shells and go straight upwards. When the tide recedes I also rest in peace, but when the tide rises, I will dance with pleasure.

14 When I was having sex with Chen Qingyang, a lizard crawled in through the crack in the wall, walking and stopping through the ground in the middle of the room, when suddenly it was alarmed, went out quickly, and disappeared into the sunlight at the door. At this time, Chen Qingyang's moans were like a flood of floods, spreading in the house. I was so startled by this that I fell down and did not move. But she said, quick, bastard, and twisted my leg. When I was "fast", the tremor seemed to come from the center of the earth.

15 At night, Chen Qingyang and I had sex in the cottage. At that time, I was full of professionalism and great enthusiasm for every kiss and caress. Whether it is the classic missionary style, the backward type, the side advance style, the female upper position, I can complete it meticulously. Chen Qingyang was extremely satisfied with this. I am also extremely satisfied. At such times, I feel that I don't need to prove that I exist, and from these experiences I have come to the conclusion that I should never let others pay attention to you.

16 Chen Qingyang said that on the Zhangfeng Mountain, she rode on top of me, and her eyes were full of gray mist. Suddenly I felt very lonely, very lonely. Although part of me was rubbing against her body, she was still very lonely, very lonely.

17 Chen Qingyang said that this time she was lying in the cold rain, and suddenly felt that every pore had entered the cold rain. She felt sorrow coming from it, and she could not break it. Suddenly, a huge wave of pleasure came in. Cold fog, rain, all poured into her body. She wanted to die at that time. She couldn't stand it and wanted to call out, but when she saw me she didn't want to call out. There was no man in the world who could make her call out in front of him. She couldn't get along with anyone.

18 Come to the fork in the road, where there are four forks in the road, each leading to one side. There is no relationship between east, west, south and north, one leads to foreign countries, it is an unknown place; one leads to the interior; one leads to the farm; one is the road from us.

19 It was just after the rainy season. Clouds rise from all directions. A ray of sunlight flashed on the ceiling. We have a variety of options to go in all directions. So I stood at the intersection for a long time. Later, when I returned to the mainland, I stood on the road and waited for the car, and there were two options, I could wait or go back to the farm. When I go down one path, I always think about things on the other road. At this time, my heart is very confused.

20 Chen Qingyang said that at that moment she felt like a gift box, opening the package, so she was overjoyed, she finally relieved herself of all her troubles, and she did not have to think about why she was a broken shoe, what a broken shoe was, and other inexplicable things: why did we come to this place, what we came to do, and so on.

21 Chen Qingyang said that it was also her golden age. Although she was called a broken shoe, she was innocent and innocent. She is still innocent.

22 Chen Qingyang said that people live in the world in order to endure destruction until they die. With this in mind, everything can be handled calmly.

——Excerpt from Wang Xiaobo's "Golden Age"