Everyone goes through these things. Open your eyes and wait for the long dawn, sink in the boundless darkness of the night, like falling into a suffocating swamp, into the bottomless sea, into the cold sun.
Today with friends to meet and eat, for a long time did not see the whole person emaciated not like words, bangs long covered half of the face, the original good-looking big eyes hanging on the palm of the face at this time but it seems very abrupt, thin like a gust of wind can blow him away.
He fell out of love. Eight years of girlfriends, talking about marriage, suddenly separated, and within a month, they found a new boyfriend, got engaged, and took wedding photos. He guessed the reason for their breakup, which he didn't quite understand. For example, she didn't love him anymore. She felt he wasn't good enough. He was never a qualified boyfriend in her eyes. She had another him. She never loved him... All the reasons he could think of. Although I am not a party, when I hear this, I am still heartbroken. The whole world, everywhere the eye goes is the reason, the cup is not the cup, it is the reason, the light is not the light, it is the reason. The sun is not the sun is the reason. The whole world drags you slowly sinking, and the heart collapses.
I resented this heartbreak and tried to empathize with it, to share such sadness. So I went to blame and lash out to fight for him... In the end, I can only say that I can understand.
It's inevitably sad and can't tell anyone.
Sad because I can't help it.
Sad because of the difficulty.
Sad because there is no way to talk.
Sad because there is no way to get comfort.
In the hustle and bustle, there is silence within the skin.
He said he wanted to leave everything behind and go to Tibet and escape from here.
He said that tomorrow was his thirtieth birthday, and he was going to cut his hair, shave his beard, dress himself up, change his face, and give himself a new beginning.
He said that he hopes that this year he can find a new girlfriend as soon as possible to talk about marriage and marriage, go on a blind date, we don't have much time, and we must have a new start as soon as possible.
Yes, we don't have much time to romantically start a new love.
If we are eighteen, twenty, twenty-four, we can still say that we can wait for love. Now I understand that once some movements begin, the song is sung and the song is dispersed. Those who have nothing to do with you have nothing to do with you. From the first day of acquaintance, even if it is a sweet and sweet smile, even if it is a lot of innocuous interaction, even if you try to manage the relationship. It's always irrelevant.
Some people say, "Some people are destined to be cancers in your life, while others are just a sneeze." All this. It is said that it is only the fate of the underworld. ”
Today, as we count our unmarried friends around us, a few feel like-minded people have been lost. Restless and anxious inside. It felt like in one of the most important exams in my life, at the end of time, others had written a full paper, and their own scribbles were still a mess and a blank. So simply ignore it and let him go.
Because I saw too much despair, I became calm and relieved.
Suddenly I wanted to get drunk with him.
We have all seen shadows similar to ourselves in other people's stories, in the interludes of songs, in the twilight of the city.
Everyone goes through these things. Open your eyes and wait for the long dawn, in the boundless darkness of the night, look back alone, and go ashore alone.