Zhang Jiajia's works, I have never missed. From "Passing By Your World", "Let Me Stay with You", "There is a Commissary by the Clouds", to the release of the new book "Paradise Tour Group", each book continues Zhang Jiajia's style: warmth.
From these small stories, people always follow the plot and laugh and laugh and shed tears. These words are full of warmth, full of despair, but at the same time full of strength, a power to try to live and see the glimmer.
The world was not as perfect as we thought, there was despair, there were scars, there was dust, but it was not as bad as we thought, there was hope, there was comfort, there was warm sun.
So, here we listen to Zhang Jiajia's story of "despair and hope" colliding during his "struggle to survive" period.
01
Song Yili and Lin Yi: She came suddenly, suddenly left
Song Yili's original family was not happy, his childhood was poor and lacked love, his father could not find a job, and after marrying his mother, he used the savings of the two families to open a small restaurant to make a living, and the two often quarreled and fought in the middle of the night. When he was six years old, his father was gone, and since then his mother has carried the family and run this small restaurant to support their mother and son. When he was ten years old, his father's hometown suddenly called to inform him of his death, and asked Song Yili to return to his hometown to kowtow for his father.
After Song Yili's father left them, he became a new family, the two did not want children, he had been living unsteadily in his heart, and he left with a heart disease. At his father's funeral, someone quietly stuffed a note for Song Yili with an address written on it, and more than ten years later, Song Yili found that address, which was a sixty-square-meter dilapidated cottage in an old building, the room was very dimly lit, and the skinny old lady who did not turn on the lights in order to save electricity was his father's later wife.
After seeing Song Yili, the old lady cried uncontrollably and said, "I have no children, no relatives, I live alone, I pay her." She, of course, refers to Song Yili's mother.
Lin Yi, is an alumnus of Song Yili University, the two met when they were cooking in the canteen, Song Yili rice card has no money to brush out, Lin Yi is lined up behind him, of course, she did not help Song Yili brush the rice card, but she will want the share of two more dishes, and then said that the two eat together, because Lin Yi said, she also has no money.
Lin Yi also came from an ordinary worker family, and later her father was laid off, and her parents maintained a family-sized livelihood by doing some scattered small jobs, looking at the shabbiness of her parents, Lin Yi said that she understood from a young age that people would be isolated if they did not progress. Therefore, desperately wanting to mix well and take root in big cities is lin yi's goal.
When he met Song Yili, Lin Yi initially felt that he was lucky, although his family was ordinary, but people were kind, the key was that he understood her, believed in her, and loved her. But she was afraid that her love for him was not firm enough, so the two of them married as soon as they graduated.
However, after graduation into the society, all dreams will be shattered, the confusion and difficulty of finding a job, every time the collision of hope and disappointment, Song Yili's mother suddenly had a brain infarction, and can only resign to go home to take care of her mother and run this small restaurant.
Lin Yi couldn't find a job, the two of them ran a restaurant together, bumped into each other for a long time, took care of the paralyzed mother-in-law for a long time, and were in a gray state of life for a long time, and the contradictions between her and Song Yili became more and more, until one day Lin Yi said, Is her life like this? She couldn't see the hope ahead, she had to leave.
For the next 13 months, Lin Yi would send a message every month, only one sentence, "Let's get a divorce", but Song Yili could only escape the silence and not return, as if this was his only hope for survival, as long as he did not return that message, he would never see the disillusionment of hope.
Until Song Yili, who desperately wanted to give up his life and achieved nothing, met a seven-year-old girl with brain cancer, Xiaoju, many things invisibly began to change.
She came suddenly, suddenly left. I slowly understood that there was no suddenness between people, she would come after thinking about it, and she would leave after thinking clearly. ——Zhang Jiajia, "Paradise Tour Group"
02
Song Yili and Yu Xiaoju: Children are triumphant, there is no sun in childhood, but they are worried about creating a light with their own hands
Song Yi carp, who wanted to escape the divorce and was overwhelmed by life, drove his own dilapidated van and crashed into the street lamp pole on the side of the road, because he could afford to lose money by hitting this, he hospitalized himself, and Yu Linyi found the best excuse.
It was hard to stay in the hospital for three days, Lin Yi also came, but her indifference made Song Yili feel desperate, so he swallowed a bottle of "sleeping pills" prepared in advance on the roof of the hospital, and thought that he had ended his life sloppily, but he did not want to drink too much wine, swallowed the medicine and woke up dizzy the next day.
After being discharged from the hospital, he met the seven-year-old girl Yu Xiaoju in the garage van, she was secretly hiding in his car, and begged to take her to see a concert, the ticket was given by someone else, she said, growing up to seven years old, she has not yet seen the outside world, but she knows that her life is running out, because she has brain cancer.
What kind of force made Song Yili decide to take this seven-year-old girl all the way south to the city of the concert?
One is the despair after the death of the heart, only for the sake of death, there is no tomorrow to live the present; the other is to know that they have little life, but always want to desperately survive, to see the outside wonderful.
The two had a lot of funny things on the road, and there were also a lot of warm stories.
Song Yi carp was mistaken for an adult trafficker and brought to the police station, but it was later found to be a misunderstanding. One of their vans fell into the ditch, but unexpectedly gained a friendship and witnessed a great and poignant love story. The funeral of the great teacher in the countryside, but it is another girl, the wedding of his former student, only for her former teacher to stay in her hometown, so that more children have culture, no longer poor and ignorant, the girlfriend left him, but his student Tian Meihua insisted on marrying him when she grew up, she believed that the teacher's dedication and kindness should not let him marry his daughter-in-law, she wanted to become her daughter-in-law. On the day of the funeral, she quietly decorated her room, wore a wedding dress, and became a bride.
Yu Xiaoju did not go to primary school for a day, but she has good friends in kindergarten, and on the Internet, she also has two fans, which are the two partners she must come to every live broadcast room.
The two were colleagues, working in a haunted house in a city, and the two dressed up in black and white impermanence. But the haunted house business is getting worse and worse, and it is about to go out of business.
On the way from Nanjing to Kunming, they decided to drive to the haunted house of the two people, bought tickets, entered the haunted house, came to the place of black and white impermanence, when they were about to pounce, suddenly stunned, so Song Yi carp went forward to hug them, Xiao Ju took out two apples from the bag, one handed one, after the two caught, or stunned there stupid.
I led Xiao Ju to turn around and leave, took a few steps, Xiao Ju raised his small fist, punched into the sky, and shouted: "Even if there are only two of you left, you must come on!" Incompetent little devil, come on! Bouncing around, come on! ”
We have met many people along the way, many things, there is love and can not be, there are gains and losses, there are better lives than death, there are escapes from death. Their common belief is to live hard. ——Zhang Jiajia, "Paradise Tour Group"
03
Yu Xiaoju: Use all her abilities to arrange all her worries
Yu Xiaoju wanted to go to Kunming to see Chen Yan's concert, it turned out that this Chen Yan was Song Yili's college classmate, but he dropped out of school in his junior year to pursue her ideals, and now he has become famous and has toured everywhere.
Yu Xiaoju asked Song Yili to push Chen Yan's WeChat to her, and then she noted that she was Song Yili's daughter, and Chen Yan passed her friend application. They had gone from Nanjing to Wuhan to see a concert, but the rain was canceled and they had to go to Kunming for the next stop.
Xiao Ju reunited Song Yili and Chen Yan, two old friends who had not seen each other for many years, and thought that everyone would have a good life, one seemed to be very beautiful, one was talented, and did not think that the "good" of the two was superficial.
Everyone has had the experience of giving up their lives, and there is always no hope, Chen Yan said: No matter how poor and rich he is, he has nights that he can't survive. Everything I had couldn't stop me from feeling bored living.
Song Yili promised to help Chen Yan write the lyrics that he had not finished writing when he was in school, Chen Yan helped Song Yili to return to the small restaurant he sold, when Song Yili cleaned up all he had, he gave the sold restaurant 600,000 yuan to his mother to pay all the money after entering the nursing home, took more than two thousand yuan on the card, and drove a broken van with Xiao Ju, all the way to the south.
Chen Yan said that Song Yili has a 10% stake, helped her write ten songs, and then gave him all the restaurants, Song Yili asked why? Chen Yan just replied that she didn't want her friend to have no home.
Fate keeps taking some away from you, and even if you feel that it is all, you are reluctant to put it down, you can't put it down, you can't resist, but if you don't live, you can't find out what fate has returned to you. ——Zhang Jiajia, "Paradise Tour Group"
Yu Xiaoju finally did not have the opportunity to arrive in Kunming to watch the concert on the spot, her mother took her back, because her body really could not stand up, in the ward, Song Yili accompanied Xiaoju to watch the live broadcast, until the big screen of the concert scene suddenly cut to the picture of their ward.
Song Yili told all the audiences at the scene his story, told the story of Xiaoju, he just wanted to encourage more people who were desperate because of their lives, and then persevered, even if it was a little more, like Xiaoju shouting, come on!
Then, Chen Yan's oratorio sounded at the concert scene, and a big song title was displayed on the screen - "Paradise Tour Group"!
Song Yili later learned that Xiaoju was an angel sent by heaven to save him, that night, Xiaoju, who loved to go out and walk around at night, found Song Yili who wanted to swallow medicine and die on the roof of the hospital, and she took advantage of his drunkenness to quietly take out a bottle of white candy to replace the bottle of sleeping pills, and the drunken Song Yili did not notice it at all, but only thought that the sweet one was still delicious.
Later, Xiao Ju climbed into his car and begged him to take her to see the outside world, but it was only the little girl's "careful arrangement" to save a soul who was begging for death.
I thought that Song Yili was saving the last time of Xiaoju, giving her hope to see the world, but who knows, it was Xiaoju who saved Song Yili like an angel.
The little child seemed to be using all her abilities to arrange all her worries. ——Zhang Jiajia, "Paradise Tour Group"
04
Heaven: When you have nothing, it means that what you deserve has not yet arrived.
Zhang Jiajia said that this "Paradise Tour" was written during his most collapsed period, depression, anxiety, panic disorder coexisted, tormented his body and psychology, once thought that he was on the verge of death, here is his deepest despair, but at the same time has the most desired expectations, looking forward to his own well.
Yu Xiaoju eventually went to heaven, when she left, there were many people accompanying her, she used her own little glimmer to illuminate a lot of healthy but feel unable to live, and she, only seven years old, brain cancer spread, but single-mindedly survived, and encouraged the people around her, to live well, because, only by living, can you see the dawn.
After Song Yili completed this trip to redemption, she calmly gave up her past, no longer entangled, no longer tortured each other, she accepted Lin Yi's divorce application, Lin Yi got the love she wanted with the child, and Song Yi carp, of course, also harvested the love and happiness of his life.
Never give up the bad past, and how to meet the good future.
I have to live because I don't live for every day in the past, I live for every day in the future. ——Zhang Jiajia, "Paradise Tour Group"
Zhang Jiajia's text always makes people feel very warm, no matter how noisy the outside world is, or the rain is majestic, or the sky is clear, put yourself in a corner, put aside all your troubles, immerse yourself in the story of Song Yili and Yu Xiaoju, always let us get some "tranquility" outside of troubles, enjoy such an optimistic and transparent life of a seven-year-old girl in warmth, she has never prayed for others to save her life, but she has redeemed countless desperate people in addition to her life.
Listen, Yu Xiaoju in heaven, and there are words to say...
You, what reason do you have, not to live well!
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