"Meeting you is like wading through a mountain and meeting a moon, and after dark and sad, I asked to borrow a little moonlight that day."
The moon is always there, hanging in the river of time. I came the day before, the person I was looking for was you, and you went the next day, not the person I was looking for. ”
Part1
Born into a broken family, the weight of life has left parents arguing and eventually having to choose to separate.
The shadows left by childhood linger, and Song Yi carp is like a puppet cowering in a dark corner, cowardly. Always wearing a false mask, trying to fake a smile, trying to show that I don't care, making myself look brave and fearless, but I can't hide the humility and timidity in my heart.
Those days that cannot be passed are like an endless tunnel, stretching endlessly. It wasn't until he met Lin Yi, the girl who made him shudder and look at him for thousands of years, that Song Yili's life slowly began to change.
As the book says, she was the last light in the clouds, the last key in prison, the last straw he had caught as he reached through the river overhead, the only light in his dark life.
After getting married, Lin Yi worked hard to take care of her half-paralyzed mother-in-law, and she and Song Yili carefully ran a small restaurant with a small income. But the pressure of life is like an invisible fuse, quietly buried in their relationship, which may be detonated at any time. After a long period of internal struggle and patrolling, Lin Yi finally chose to leave.
For Lin Yi's departure, Song Yili felt very incomprehensible, obviously severing the relationship between the two sides would make them feel very painful, why Lin Yi still chose to leave so decisively, but he ignored Lin Yi's real needs and expectations for life.
Lin Yi was born into a poor and despised family, and deep down in her heart, she has a strong desire to change. She expects to be able to harvest a good love, but she prefers to get a good material foundation and the respect of others.
She also firmly chose Song Yili and tried to maintain this beautiful relationship. But Song Yili was never able to meet her needs and could not give her the shelter she wanted. In the face of all kinds of unbearable and stressful life, she can only choose to flee helplessly.
I've been trying very hard to hold on, but, this time, I'm sorry, please forgive me for giving up halfway.
Life is not a fairy tale, there are not so many dreams and happy endings, more, it is indescribable bitterness and sorrow. In the end, we are all just ordinary people who have lost to fate.
Part2
Lin Yi's departure became an indelible pain in Song Yili's heart, and it also made his original messy life even worse.
I thought you were the salvation of the light, but I didn't expect that I was just stepping from one abyss into another.
Taking care of his paralyzed mother for half a year, Song Yili once again found that his life was worthless and meaningless at all, and from beginning to end, he was powerless to change his current life and situation.
One night, he chose to end his life by taking sleeping pills.
But at this time, fate seemed to have made a huge joke to him.
Despite taking a lot of sleeping pills, he miraculously survived the next day, why did it seem so difficult to even die?
"When you have nothing, it means that what you deserve has not yet arrived."
If he hadn't met Xiao Ju, Song Yi carp might have been nothing more than a drop in the ocean, small and fragile; or he would have left this world with regret and regret.
But coincidentally, Xiao Ju, who is suffering from brain cancer, met Song Yili, one bent on death, one desperate to survive.
Life is a journey from hell to heaven, and in this journey to find the meaning of life, they accompany each other and finally achieve each other's self-redemption.
Part3
"If someone in heaven is high, you look down again, there are traces of sadness to follow, and no one can cover their mouths and can't speak, after all, others are busy with others." 」
For Xiaoju, being able to become strong and excellent, and having the ability to protect her family and friends, is her greatest wish.
There was no sunlight in her childhood, but she was worried about making a light with her own hands.
But the sudden illness buried all her hopes.
She obediently took her medicine and insisted on exercising, just to make her mother, who loved her, less worried.
The only "wayward" thing he did was to pestering Song Yili and letting him take him to see Zhong Yan's concert.
Behind the seemingly unreasonable request, she also hid her careful thoughts, she just hoped to be able to do her part to rescue Song Yili and not let him die.
She earnestly lingers on this world, just like people who have no chance try to seize every breeze and use all their abilities to redeem desperate people, so that they can experience the warmth and heat of life.
"I'll exchange my few months for a lifetime of good life, okay?"
When Xiao Ju insisted on braving the heavy rain and refused to enter the car and said these words to Song Yi carp, his heart was greatly touched. But in the end, xiao ju's stubborn temper could not be defeated, and Song Yili reluctantly agreed.
Although she is only seven years old and knows that she will eventually leave, this optimistic and transparent little girl still hopes that Song Yili can live well with hope. Because only by living can we see the dawn.
It is precisely because of the existence of Xiaoju that Song Yili began to slowly reconcile with his pain and past self and gained a new life.
The ending of the story is as cruel as imagined, Xiaoju left the world that made her nostalgic, away from the life tormented by illness, but her soul has always stayed in the life of Song Yili, accompanying him to see the beauty of the world.
However, if there are people in heaven who are high up in heaven and see that there are so many sorrows and joys in this world, will they suddenly have kindness and let those who are struggling to survive in the cracks have a glimmer of hope?
Part4
"I want to go to the end of the world, where there is a lighthouse, and if I can go under the lighthouse, I will forget the suffering I have experienced."
In the whole journey of Xiaoju, they met many people, many things, there is love and can not be, there are gains and losses, there are better than death, there are escapes from death, but their common belief is to live hard.
The experience along the way made Song Yili more clearly aware that fate kept taking some away from you, and even if you felt that it was all, you were reluctant to put it down, you couldn't put it down, you couldn't hold it, but if you didn't live, you couldn't find out what fate returned to you.
So he chose to live strongly, because he did not live for every day in the past, but for every day in the future.
At the end of the story, Song Yi carp takes a small gathering to the southernmost city on the earth, and at the end of the southern ocean current, the iceberg floats and the clouds freeze with the water.
In this world, everything, whether it is life, love or affection, is not eternal, and the cycle repeats, you come and go. The meaning of existence is not how long it exists, but how it exists.
In the vast universe, every star will leave traces of its existence. And the trajectory of your life depends on what form you exist in.
The world is constantly blossoming, and I believe that there will always be angels who secretly put a flower on your heart.