You're the only one I want to confide in. I'm going to tell you everything, and I want you to know my whole life. It belongs entirely to you and you know nothing, but your secret will only be known when I die and no one asks you to answer anything.
This is the beginning of the novella "Letter from a Strange Woman" by the Austrian writer Zweig, a woman who writes a letter to the writer to tell the poignant love story of her life when her son dies and she herself will leave this world. This writer is the male protagonist of love, but also the father of her son, but the original night affair has long been blurred in his memory, and he can't remember who this writing woman really is, and what she looks like.
Women are always so obsessed, and men are always so ruthless, this poignant love story is well known through the translation of the talented woman Shen Sakura, who also became famous through the translation of this book. Shen Sakura writes novels and also essays, but her translation achievements are even higher.
Shen Sakura's love is as bumpy as the heroine in her translation novel, facing the affection of her lover, although she can't stay together, but that feeling is buried in her heart and lasts a lifetime.
Originally engaged in translation, Shen Ying was to make a living, a single mother with three children in Taiwan to survive, she needed to think of all possible ways to support herself and her three children, she eventually survived with her talent, becoming a role model for inspirational women.
Why did Shen Sakura become a single mother, and why was the father of three children not around? It all started with the tortuous marriage between Shen Ying and Liang Zongdai.
The first marriage lasted for 3 years and the second marriage lasted 8 years
Shen Ying, formerly known as Chen Ying, Shen Ying is a poetic pen name she gave herself when she likes to read, reminiscent of the falling cherry blossoms that flutter in the sky. Shen Ying has been married twice in her life, and her first husband was Ma Yanxiang. The acquaintance of the two people is because they are acting in a drama together, acting together, and the two people who are talented and female are in love because of the drama.
In 1929, at the age of 22, Shen Sakura married Ma Yanxiang, a talented son, but the marriage lasted only 3 years before ending in divorce. The reason for the divorce is because the mercurial Ma Yanxiang empathizes with others, although he has given birth to a daughter Ma Lun, but the stubborn Shen Sakura still chooses to divorce without the slightest nostalgia.
Shen Ying graduated from the department of Chinese of Shanghai University, she is not only a new woman, but also a very independent and thoughtful talented woman, from her handling of the first marriage, we can see her decisive character in the face of men's betrayal.
Although the first marriage lasted only 3 years, Shen Ying was divorced, but with her talent and communication skills, there was no shortage of new suitors and admirers around her, and after half a year of divorce, Shen Ying and the famous scholar Liang Zongdai came together.
Compared with her first husband, Ma Yanxiang, Shen Ying and Liang Zongdai are undoubtedly more intimate, they are both university professors, Liang Zongdai is a well-known translator, and Shen Ying's translation style has been influenced by Liang Zongdai in many places.
Although her marriage to Liang Zongdai lasted only eight years, in her later years, Shen Ying maintained correspondence with Liang Zongdai as a good friend, and Shen Ying explained this strange relationship between her and Liang Zongdai in the letter:
In this old age when there are few old friends, we can always be called the deceased. I often say to my children that in the relationship between husband and wife, we are resentful, but in literature, you are the teacher who has influenced me the most.
As a talented woman with exquisite thoughts, liang Zongdai, who is knowledgeable, is undoubtedly the object of Shen Ying's great admiration and admiration, even after the divorce, she still admits that the other party is the teacher who has influenced her the most. When the two people first started together, the married life was also very happy and harmonious, and they once traveled to Japan together and lived a comfortable life with red sleeves.
Eight years after marriage, Shen Ying gave birth to two daughters to Liang Zongdai, the eldest daughter Liang Siwei and the second daughter Liang Siqing. Two people come together because of their admiration for each other's talents, but two people who are equally good are also prone to problems.
Liang Zongdai has a successful career, she hopes that Shen Ying will be a good wife and mother at home, a husband and a godson, but Shen Ying's professionalism is also very strong, she wants to concentrate on writing her own novels, and does not want to let herself be overwhelmed by tedious housework every day.
The marriage relationship between the two strong men always seems to be unstable for too long, and the quarrels between the husband and wife become more and more frequent, until Liang Zongdai encounters a drama called Gan Shaosu, and the marriage that lasted for eight years has completely come to an end.
Her husband hero saved the United States and married someone else, and she left alone with three children
But no matter how much achievement a man has, between men and women, they like to enjoy the superiority of heroes saving the United States. His wife Shen Ying was too strong, and Liang Zongdai found this feeling in other women.
According to the concept of ordinary people, Gan Shaosu, who was born in the lower class and engaged in the singing profession, should not have any competitiveness compared with Shen Ying, who was born famous and had a successful career, but Liang Zongdai became her savior after meeting Gan Shaosu and completely forgot his wife.
In 1941, the seventh year of Liang Zongdai and Shen Ying's marriage, the crisis of the couple's "seven-year itch" came particularly fiercely. The flow of the literati has been caused by ancient times, Liang Zongdai returned to Guangxi Baise to handle the aftermath of his father, during which he was forcibly pulled out by his friends to listen to the play, originally Liang Zongdai did not care at all, like this small place can have any good drama to listen to.
As a result, Liang Zongdai's encounter was just like what Bai Juyi wrote in "Pipa Xing", originally he could not hear any pleasant music: "What did Dan Twilight smell in the meantime?" The cuckoo cries blood ape wailing. But suddenly I met a talented singer, and as soon as she opened her mouth, it made people feel as beautiful as the heavenly fairy music.
Liang Zongdai met this singer who wandered around the world, that is, the handsome Gan Shaosu, after listening to her round and jade singing voice, Liang Zongdai went back to sleep with excitement all night, it was simply the afterglow of Liang, and He did not know the taste of meat in March.
Liang Zongdai also wrote a poem specifically for Gan Shaosu, praising her voice for being more tactful than Huang Li:"The magic language is clear and the sentences are round, who says that Cantonese opera is unbearable?" If the singing voice compares the spirit bird, it is half a yellow oriole and half a cuckoo. After hearing Gan Shaosu sing for the first time, Liang Zongdai began to want to stop, and the next day he went to give her a show.
"Shang Yin's grievances are the most evocative, and the more bitter the drama, the more true the situation." Singing to the point of red Luo's misery, Su Niang mistakenly believed that it was the predecessor. "This time Gan Shaosu sang a bitter love scene, and she shed tears while singing, as if she were the person in the play." Who wept the most in the seat? Jiangzhou Sima Qing shirt wet. Liang Zongdai was even more tearful when he heard it offstage, and among the many audiences, only Liang Zongdai was the one who cried the most.
After listening to the play this time, Liang Zongdai finally couldn't help but go backstage to find Gan Shaosu, just like Bai Juyi listened to the singer talk about her life, Gan Shaosu's bumpy life heard Liang Zongdai sad and broken, and secretly made up his mind to save this bitter woman from the sea of suffering.
Gan Shaosu's experience is far more bumpy than that of the singer of "the boss married as a merchant's wife", because her family is poor, she was sold to the drama class by her parents at the age of 12, and at the age of 15, she was forcibly occupied as a wife by the ugly Huang Jiabao, and it was difficult to survive to fame, get rid of Huang Jiabao, and was occupied by Zhong Shuhui, a captain of the Guangxi Yulin Special Bureau.
Gan Shaosu was not only abused by Zhong Shuhui, but also bullied by his wives and concubines, and could only get rid of them on the stage, after meeting Liang Zongdai, who sympathized with his own suffering, Gan Shaosu was like grasping a life-saving straw.
Liang Zongdai decided to help Gan Shaosu get rid of Zhong Shuhui's control, when he and the original partner divorced Liang Zongdai, who was sued in court because he was unwilling to pay 100 yuan per month in alimony, was very generous at this time, taking out thirty thousand yuan to Zhong Shuhui, having money to make the ghost grind, this huge amount of money finally let Gan Shaosu, who had been imprisoned for many years, regain his freedom.
Although he was born a literati, Liang Zongdai's fist and foot kung fu is also good, he likes to solve problems through fighting, and when he negotiated with Zhong Shuhui, he had a fight, and the famous Professor Liang Zongdai performed a full martial arts for a female drama, which soon became the news of major newspapers in Guangxi.
Liang Zongdai originally just wanted to help Gan Shaosu out of a pure heart, but now that the matter between the two of them has been spreading in society, Gan Shaosu asked Liang Zongdai to make a mistake:
I also don't want to live on stage anymore, so I ask you to be human to the end and send the Buddha to the West.
Just for this to send the Buddha to the west, Liang Zongdai decided to marry Gan Shaosu home, no need to ask, Shen Ying would definitely not agree to her husband to take a concubine, even at the risk of losing his wife, Liang Zongdai also decided to go his own way.
Sure enough, Shen Ying, who has always been stubborn and conceited in personality, after hearing that her husband fell in love with the drama, took her 2 daughters to Taiwan, when she was still pregnant with her youngest son Liang Siming, before leaving, she only left a note for Liang Zongdai, which read:
Never see each other again in this lifetime.
No matter what era, Shen Ying's independence and loneliness as a woman are admirable, Liang Zongdai once chased to Shanghai, he wanted to keep his wife, at least to prevent the children from leaving, but ended in failure.
Without the child around, Liang Zongdai comforted himself again, and when he left, he could still regenerate. But unfortunately, Gan Shaosu has already lost his fertility in a long-term abused life, and the two people have not had children since then.
Liang Zongdai, who did not have children to accompany her, also began to feel lonely, and after the washing of time, Shen Ying had already forgiven her husband's original behavior in her heart, although she had decided to go away, but her heart had actually not put down Liang Zongdai in her life, and when she wrote to her friends, her signature was Liang Chenying.
In his later years, Shen Ying, who followed his children to the United States, began to resume correspondence with Liang Zongdai, in which they talked about their children, no longer as stubborn as when they were young, but became open-minded in old age, recalling the stories of meeting each other when they were young, discussing each other's current hobbies, although they could not be husband and wife, they still knew each other's confidants and old friends best.
But their relationship was only maintained in correspondence, and Shen Ying always insisted on the vow left when he left: they would never see each other again in this life, and Shen Ying, who returned to the mainland to visit his friends, did not go to see Liang Zongdai, and they did not see each other again until his death.
Shen Ying forgave Liang Zongdai, but her son Liang Siming, who was still pregnant in her stomach when she left, did not forgive his father, whom she had never met. Liang Siwei once returned to China with her husband to visit her father Liang Zongdai, and Liang Zongdai expressed his desire to see his son.
Liang Siwei went back to convey Liang Zongdai's meaning, but Liang Siming flatly refused: "No! He did this to my mother, and I couldn't forgive him. From birth to growth, he has always been by his mother's side, and Liang Siming's refusal is also forgivable. If there was a child between Liang Zongdai and Gan Shaosu, his regret of not seeing his son might not be so deep.
Why Liang Zongdai would rather give up the excellent Shen Ying and come together with Gan Shaosu, his student's words are very well said:
What does Mr. Zong Dai need to be a person who works together, or a person who applauds him from the side? Judging from Zong Dai's self-absorbed personality, I am afraid that he is more useful to a person who looks up at him from a low place and applauds him everywhere at all times.