The soul must not be restless, and life can be stable and worry-free

As a child, my understanding of freedom was "do whatever you want" what a lovely and pure idea.

When my yearning for freedom is "if you want to do it, don't do it", I suddenly find that I have no right to choose, the responsibilities of the family, children, the elderly and so on are in front of me, I dare not jump ship, I dare not lose my job, and I am careful in the unit.

In April 2021, at the age of thirty-four, the job position was also replaced by airborne soldiers, and the internal support post was forced to the front-line sales post, facing the end of the elimination, caught off guard. During that time, I was mentally anxious, fidgety, couldn't sleep at night, and even needed to drink a little drunk at night to fall asleep. Every day I worry about one thing: "What if I'm eliminated?" Repeatedly ask yourself, ask your husband, and get a reply from your husband, "I raise you.". I feel so tired that there is no harbor that can make me dock!

An atmosphere of extreme anxiety, tension, and depression enveloped the whole family, my husband did not dare to talk to me, and the children did not dare to come near me. Immersed in the pessimistic world he created, he was not interested in anything, and could only brush his mobile phone to chase drama and anesthetize himself. Or drill the horns of the bull's horn "Why was my post replaced?" Why am I not nepotistic? "Complain about why you're so mediocre.

Don't dare to spend money, don't dare to spend. Fear of losing your only source of income at any time.

"Dissatisfied but do not take the initiative to leave the environment, will be like air, always rolling our unhappiness, is a kind of consumption that penetrates into the bone marrow" is this meaning, accidentally see this sentence, I am now this state, dissatisfied with the working environment, and inseparable from the position of earning a living, why? What to do?

Because we read less books, we can't understand, can't understand the problems in life, can't see people and things clearly, the key is that we read too little, and our own cognitive level is limited. A person is prone to anxiety because he is always overthinking, thinking more and doing less. Isn't that me? Afraid of losing your job, you try to adapt to work, do it first and then think about it, anxiety can't solve the problem, but it adds to the blockage and degrades yourself.

Recalling my student days, I was also the bookish teenager, who loved to read and copied good sentences that hit my heart. Regain the dreams of youth, read more, enrich your life after work, improve your cognitive level, way of thinking, alleviate anxiety, and live happily.

Recently, I was reading Teacher Wang Long's "The Story of The Human World", and the first one had such a text.

Happiness like a plant Happy as an animal

Flowering, fruiting, growing freely

Running, foraging, tailcropping

They still live in the Garden of Eden, unconsciously blessed, living happily in the dark.

How relaxed and enjoyable, how enviable.

Man, who was originally in the garden, only because he ate the fruit of wisdom, opened his eyes and gained knowledge, saw that he was naked, had shame, and calculated gains and losses. Since then, he has been expelled from the Garden of Eden and lost the right to live a happy life.

When you are tired and tired, you can't help but temporarily act like an animal, spit out the fruit of wisdom, live well in the moment, and stop all restlessness.