In the last circle of friends in her life, the girl born in 94 wrote:
"Jiangshan to you, enough play, bye-bye."
Her name is Wu Si, a very cute name.
Her life is forever fixed in the summer of 2019, but in those 25 years of life journey, she brought us the most gentle touch.
She said: "All the way I met were good people.... I want to write down as much as I can with all my thanks. ”
In September 2018, Wu Si was diagnosed with uterine cancer.
After that, she began to write a diary on and off the Internet, not complaining about anything, just wanting to write down all the warmth and emotion she had gained:
Each of the class around the world recorded a word of encouragement, cut it into a long video and put it on an iPad to give it to her;
Often complained about her roommate, busy with scientific research, but personally sewed a peace bag, went to the temple to worship the Buddha and sent it to her;
Tube bed primary school sister extubation action is particularly gentle for fear of hurting her;
Company leaders and colleagues took turns to see her and brought various gifts to make her happy.
"A lot of times in places you don't know, there are a lot of people silently doing a lot of things for you that you don't know."
The peace charm that her roommate asked for her
In her diary, for those uncomfortable processes, it has never been just a light breeze, more from the pain still conveyed, bit by bit of fun and beauty.
Tian Wei, the author of "Half An Acre of Flower Fields", writes in the book:
"Everything is beautiful, I am in the center."
I think it is also appropriate to describe Wu Si.
After taking the medicine, the nausea disappeared after two days, and it became a foodie again ~ the dumplings I wrapped~
After doing CT, I came back and passed by the school playground... The sunset is infinitely better, but the baby is hot to death.
Just maybe woken up from chest pain... I wondered if since I woke up, I would go to make a bowl of potato flour, the horse has no night grass is not fat, and the person is not happy without a night snack.......
My colleagues were so kind to me that each of them gave me an exclusive red envelope.
Today the results came out, the tumor Junxiti double lungs, stomach, buttocks and other new house N! I said my ass hurts from time to time~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~
Lying down at night and drinking milk with a straw, the milk stains on the corners of the mouth were not wiped clean, and then I drank juice again, and the corners of the mouth had more juice stains, so the next day I licked the corners of my mouth, and I got a small piece of fruity cheese.
After getting into the bed at night:
Me: Legs, see you are not too painful during the day, a rest at night will definitely be more painless, right, let's sleep well, is it okay?
LEGS: Okay... Right
Leg: No, I still have a slight pain
Me: Just a little bit, I'll adjust the most energetic posture for you. Relax and relax, calm and calm, forget about this, after a while there will be no feeling...
LEG: Okay, I'll try
Legs: Really, it doesn't hurt
Me: Fine, let's start falling asleep
Me: [Confused]
Legs: Wait, this position is a little tired after a long time, can I change the position?
Me: Well, that's right
Legs: one, two, three, ah twisted, so painful!
Me: Hiss --
........
Me & Legs: Come on, let's start over....
So young but facing such a cruel fate.
Some netizens asked her: Will you feel unfair?
She replied calmly: Some students are graduating from a master's degree, outsiders only see the bright and beautiful, but in fact, the pressure is so great that they are sick, which can be sympathized, they say that they have no place to say ~ that is, it is easy to say that no one is alive, and the suffering that can be understood by people is much better than not being understood. So I am already very satisfied with my life
Greet all arrangements, without resentment or sorrow, calmly and calmly.
Such a life is proud and honorable.
She said: "Since I have embarked on the path of medicine, there must be something I should do on this road." ”
Wu Si was a former student in the Department of Laboratory Medicine, Xiangya Medical College, Central South University, and became a medical worker after graduation.
She has had depression, experienced a long period of bad mood, and slowly walked out more and more want to help more people through her own experience, so she also taught herself to take the certificate of psychological counselor, hoping to become a psychologist in the future.
"There will always be people in the world who are working hard for a better tomorrow and accumulating the results from generation to generation."
"Since I have embarked on the road of medicine, there must be something I should do and do on this road, and this is my feeling for my profession."
It's just that the disease didn't give her a chance.
But for the path of doctors, she has never regretted it, and because of studying medicine, she knows the profession of doctors better than others, and she is in awe of life.
They are doing their best in the bush of death to kill a bloody path for patients, doctors are human beings, not gods, and they cannot guarantee that every rescue will be successful.
When life passes in front of them, their feelings of powerlessness and heartache are not even less than those of the patient's relatives, "but the professional requirements cannot be indulged in their own emotions, and there are many more patients who are still alive and have many things to do." That feeling of death can only be transformed into a lesson in saving the next person. ”
In the process of treatment, for every doctor, for every treatment, Wu Si's heart has always held an attitude of gratitude, and all the tenderness she feels has been firmly remembered by her.
As early as the first anatomy class in college, listening to the teacher lament the lack of sources of body donation for medical dissection, Wu Si thought about body donation, and she hoped that after death, she could also do a little for her beloved medical cause.
In 2016, she submitted her organ donation form.
Soon after her illness, she took the initiative to contact her alma mater, Xiangya Medical College, to fill out the body donation volunteer form, and even when she was seriously ill, in the first article of the will, she once again emphasized the matter of body donation to her mother.
Even though she did not give up, this was the daughter's wish, and the mother agreed with tears: "She can bring light to others, which is a good thing, a matter of great love."
She said, "Jiangshan to you, enough play, bye-bye." ”
Wu Si's diary stayed on July 1, and he did not forget to joke with netizens:
At that time, her strength to play with her mobile phone was almost gone, and she still thought of saying goodbye in advance to the netizens who had been accompanying her on the last journey. And in her last circle of friends, the same is written as a farewell: "Jiangshan to you, enough play, bye-bye." ”
On July 5, 2019, Wu Si closed his eyes forever.
How I wish it was really just that she had had enough of this country and country, and she was going to play elsewhere.
According to her last wishes, her family donated her cornea, and the two children were able to glimpse the light from the darkness because of Wu Si's cornea.
Her body was donated to her alma mater, Xiangya Medical College, to become a "general teacher" - she will become the first "patient" of the first surgery of a certain class of students in the future, and also their teacher, so that those teenagers who are about to go to the road of medicine can feel the profound connotation of saving lives and helping the injured, and feel the true meaning of the word doctor.
In his diary, Wu Si once shared a passage from "A Leaf Falls":
If we're going to fall and die anyway, then why are we here?
Is it not enough for the sun and the moon, for the happy times we have together, for the shade, for the old people and children, for the colors of autumn, for the four seasons?
"While tragedy has eternal value, joy does not have weight because it cannot be eternal."
My life, even if it is not long, should not be used to grieve with it.
<h3>Life is full of people, don't forget, there is a girl named Wu Si, she has come. </h3>
Source: Visual Chronicle (ID: iiidaily), Source: Baidu Tieba: Wu Si Diary, Author: Not One
Editors of this issue: Hu Chengyuan and Li Na