In the hazy moonlight, Li Qing stood on a street corner that was both familiar and unfamiliar, holding the old photo that had turned a little yellow, her eyes revealing complicated emotions. Three months ago, she resolutely left the home where she had lived with her husband Chen Hao for seven years with the fond memories of her first love in the past, to pursue her ex-boyfriend Wang Lei, who had vowed to grow old with her.
On the balcony at home, Li Qing said to Wang Lei on the other end of the phone, "I have decided, I want to give us another chance." On the other end of the phone, Wang Lei's excited voice was mixed with uncertainty: "Are you really sure you want to do this, Qingqing?" ”
And now, she finally understands that people's hearts are changeable, and the former mountain alliance and sea oath have become a thing of the past. Wang Lei has changed, perhaps, he has never changed, it is his wishful thinking that ignores his shortcomings. In the three-month compound life with him, Li Qing gradually discovered more and more shortcomings and inappropriate places in Wang Lei. After resolutely hanging up the last call with Wang Lei, Li Qing walked home alone, and her heart was cut along the way.
Lying on the bed that he had slept with Chen Hao, Wang Lei's figure echoed in Li Qing's mind. Those happy memories are gradually replaced by the pain of reality. The guilt in her heart came like a tidal wave, and she began to think about how to face Chen Hao and how to explain to him the bizarre experience of these three months.
"I have to go back, I can't just lose my home." Li Qing said to herself while crying. She understands that going back means facing Chen Hao's hurt and anger, and maybe even facing the breakdown of her family. But the warmth in her heart told her that no matter what, home is always the final destination.
In the end, Li Qing returned to the hut that was once full of laughter with scars all over her body. She stood in the doorway, took a deep breath, and slowly reached out and knocked on the door.
"Husband, it's me, Qingqing." Li Qing called out in a low voice, her heart full of uneasiness and fear.
The door slowly opened, and Chen Hao's familiar figure appeared at the door, his expression was so cold that it made Li Qing's heart cold. "What are you doing when you come back?" Chen Hao's voice was tinged with faint anger.
The guilt in Li Qing's heart surged like a flood, "I... I knew I was doing something wrong and I wanted to go home. Please give me a chance, husband. ”
Chen Hao was silent for a moment, looking at the woman he once loved in front of him, his heart was mixed, but he felt so strange, "Qingqing, the day you left, my heart also followed you, what can you bring to this family when you come back now?" ”
Li Qing burst into tears, she knew that her mistakes could not be remedied, but she still longed for forgiveness. "I will do everything to make up for the mistakes I have made, I just want to have this warm home again."
Chen Hao looked at Li Qing, and a trace of sympathy rose in his heart, but he knew that some cracks could not be repaired, "You come in first, let's talk slowly." ”
Li Qing walked into the house, but she knew in her heart that no matter what the outcome was, this experience of leaving home would become a pain for her life, and she might never be able to find the happiness she once had.
The late autumn wind was cool, the fallen leaves fell one after another, Li Qing stood in front of the door, and the quiet community seemed particularly deserted. Once every brick and window was full of warmth and memories for her. Now, looking at these again, her heart feels like she has been pricked by a needle, and the full sense of guilt makes her almost breathless.
Her hand hesitated on the doorbell, and she asked herself over and over again, is she really ready to face her husband Chen Hao? Finally, Li Qing mustered up the courage and pressed the doorbell.
"Who?" No emotion could be heard from the voice coming from the door.
"It's me, Qingqing." Li Qing's voice was weak, and her heartbeat could almost be heard.
The door opened, and Chen Hao's indifferent face appeared in her sight. There was no surprise in his eyes, more of a detachment and scrutiny, like he was looking at a stranger.
"Why are you back?" Chen Hao's voice was so calm that it almost made Li Qing tremble.
Li Qing opened her mouth, she wanted to say a lot, she wanted to apologize, she wanted to explain, but the words in her throat just couldn't be spoken.
"I... I came back to say..."Li Qing stammered, and tears couldn't help but flow.
"Say what? Say your first love was perfect? Or are you tired again and want to take a different place to rest? Chen Hao's words were tingling, making Li Qing's heart feel like being cut by a knife.
"No, Chen Hao, I'm here to apologize, I... I did it wrong. Li Qing finally said what was in her heart, and her tears couldn't stop flowing.
Chen Hao looked at the crying Li Qing, his heart was complicated. He wanted to be angry, he wanted to accuse the once beloved of infidelity and betrayal, but at the same time he saw the girl who was once ignorant and stubborn.
"You want to apologize? Do you know how much your three-month decision has hurt us? Do you know how I survive every day in front of an empty home? There was a hint of tremor in Chen Hao's voice.
"I know I'm selfish, but I really know it's wrong, and I'm willing to take all the consequences." Li Qing bit her lower lip tightly, and the pain in her heart could not be expressed in words.
"Consequences? Qingqing, what other consequences do you have to bear? You've left, and this home, perhaps, is just a temporary shelter for you. Chen Hao's words implied sadness and helplessness.
Li Qing felt a pain in her heart, she wanted to refute, but she knew that Chen Hao was telling the truth. The cozy nest that the two have run together over the years has become fragmented in their own thoughts.
"I didn't mean that, I really wanted to go home, I would do anything." Li Qing choked up and explained weakly, she knew that it would not be easy to rebuild the trust and warmth of this family.
Chen Hao was silent, he turned his head to look at the empty living room behind him, where there was once a testimony of the happy life of the two. His gaze returned to Li Qing again, and he slowly spoke: "Come in, we should have a good talk." There was a hint of tiredness in his voice.
Li Qing wiped the tears on her face and followed Chen Hao into the house. Although she was very apprehensive in her heart, she knew that the gap between her and Chen Hao could only be slowly bridged by honesty and time.
In the middle of the night, only the cold moonlight was left to illuminate the two people in the living room. Li Qing's tears left traces on his face, but Chen Hao's face was cold. This is undoubtedly the most tense and unbearable moment in the relationship between the two.
"Do you really know what you're doing?" There was a suppressed anger in Chen Hao's tone.
"I know I was wrong, very wrong." Li Qing's voice was almost inaudible, she was afraid that she would cry if she continued to say more, "I'm not here to ask for your forgiveness, I just want a chance to prove that I am still worthy of this family." ”
"Worth it? Did you think about this home when you left, did you think about my feelings? Between the words, Chen Hao couldn't control his emotions.
Li Qing bit her lip and took a deep breath again and again, she desperately wanted to speak firmly, "I was only thinking about the past, I forgot the present and the future, I forgot you and our home. Later, I realized how selfish I was, and then I realized that what I needed, cherished, was never left. ”
A hint of decadence flashed on Chen Hao's face, "Do you remember our oath?" In this home, we promised each other. ”
These words were like a knife stabbed into Li Qing's heart, "I remember, every word, every look... I remember it all. I'm sorry for you, Chen Hao, and I'm sorry for our oath. ”
"What you remember, only what you want to remember." Chen Hao sneered, "Memory, you selectively forget. It's like you've forgotten this home, you've forgotten me. ”
"I haven't forgotten..."
"Enough! Stop it! Don't you feel miserable? In the face of all this? Chen Hao interrupted her, "You know what? When you came back, I thought I was going to be furious and kick you out. But I didn't, and you know why? Because looking at you like this, I feel dirty. ”
These four words were like lightning strikes, Li Qing's body shook suddenly, and she stared at Chen Hao deadly, as if she suddenly didn't know this man. "Dirty?" Her voice was sharp, "How can you say that about me?" ”
"Isn't it?" Chen Hao's voice calmed down, but the coldness was even more biting, "You left our home to pursue your past, and when you realized that you were wrong, you came back with scars all over your body. What do you want? Let me pretend nothing happened? ”
Li Qing was speechless for a moment, and Ren was tears raining down, but she was speechless. Is she wrong, owes so much that she can't afford to pay it back, how does she expect Chen Hao to re-accept a scarred self?
There was silence in the room for a while, and neither of them spoke. There was an invisible sadness and despair in the air. Li Qing finally understood that there were some rifts that could no longer be repaired. Chen Hao may never forgive her for her betrayal, and he will never be able to find that pure and flawless love again. After all, she can only leave this home that once belonged to her with this painful pain.
When the first rays of sunlight in the morning shone through the gaps in the curtains and sprinkled into the familiar hut, Li Qing had already packed her luggage. She took a deep look at this home that was once full of love and warmth, and her heart was full of infinite reluctance and sorrow.
Chen Hao sat quietly at the dining table, his face still expressionless, and complex emotions buried in the depths of his eyes. He didn't stop Li Qing, nor did he say anything, just watched Li Qing move every box to the door.
"I'm gone, husband." Li Qing looked at Chen Hao, trying to find a possibility of redemption, but in the end, she still called out this last affectionate title in her mouth.
Chen Hao nodded lightly, and his voice was low: "Qingqing, you have to be good." Although the words were simple, they were enough to make Li Qing's heart tremble again.
Li Qing bit her lower lip, took a step, and turned back one step at a time, each step was like giving up a piece of the past. She thought of every corner she had walked with Chen Hao, and those happy and sad memories were intertwined at this moment. She finally realizes that she has lost her true treasure in her pursuit of illusory love.
The door slowly closed behind Li Qing, and she stood outside the door, taking a deep breath, silently reciting her final farewell to this home in her heart.
Li Qing embarked on a journey to find a new life with scars all over her body. She knew that the road ahead might be difficult, but at least, she had learned to learn from her mistakes. This experience of failure will be like a mirror, faithfully reflecting the cowardice and mistakes in her heart, reminding her not to lose her way on the road ahead.
The sun rose in mid-air, and Li Qing stepped onto the road to the station. She didn't look back, because she knew that it was all in the past and that she couldn't let memories get in her way. At this moment, she has a clearer understanding of the meaning of family to a person, as well as the weight of love and responsibility.
Although the parting at this moment made her feel sad, Li Qing believes that there are still many new chapters in her life waiting for her to write. This time, she will be more careful, grasp every precious moment, and cherish the feelings of everyone around her.
She understands that true love is not only about passion and romance, but also about responsibility and sacrifice. And it all starts with a complete goodbye to the past.