Quarantine diary twenty-three
May 4 Golden Years
Today, May Fourth Youth Day. Sunny outside the window. I woke up at less than six o'clock, changed directions, and continued to sleep against the window. I used to dislike the sun shining in when I slept, but these two days I especially liked to sleep in the direction of the sun, I think, probably in the dream can see the sun, the whole dream is warm.
This morning, the staff called again and said, "Last night at eleven o'clock, we got a call asking you to go out now. I was stunned and asked him, "Where do I live when I go out?" The three of you called me yesterday and I've made it very clear. And I paid for seven days. "Or you should ask the responsible leader." I'll give you a call. So, I called the person in charge of the unit. I feel like I'm in the mood. Sure enough, I tried to suppress but couldn't suppress my emotions. I told the other person about it again, and then I put forward two conditions - I can go out, please tell me where to live? I can sleep on the street and live in the car, as long as you allow it. In the end, I continued to stay here and quickly communicated with the isolation point again. Thank you to the staff for their meticulous attention and care.
When I took breakfast this morning, the staff member who delivered the meal said, "I have brushed you with vibrato, and you said it so well." "I saw a sincere smile on her face, and that smile was the brightest sunshine of the day. I took breakfast and smiled and said, "Thank you sister, you have worked hard." ”
There were fritters for breakfast, and these two days I was controlling the staple food, smelled the fritters, and put them down again.
Today's lunch is a stew, and the meat is rich in a lot of sauce. But I didn't have the appetite to eat it. I'm not a saint, and probably these phone calls last night and this morning affected me. It is not easy for people to have so many people in different places. When I gave up my freedom and insisted on complying with the rules to face the epidemic with the people here, I felt that I was probably a part of it. But the process of where to go after going out these two days and having nowhere to go made me feel like I didn't belong here. Presumably, it was a loneliness in which all the people in a foreign land had no sense of belonging. There are really too many uncertainties in life, and after hard work, we just follow it. Some things, processes and results are not important, and it is the most important thing to get by in your heart. So, give time and time, give the past to pass. Before, there were many worries about the future, family, work, children, relatives and friends... Now I feel that it doesn't matter and I have nothing to fear. Those who should come will come, just accept and face it.
In "Flowing Golden Years", Ye Jinyan faced the departure of everyone and silently said, "Am I not responsible?" I think of the book "One Hundred Years of Solitude" that appeared in the play, which said, "Life has never existed independently without loneliness." At that moment, I felt the loneliness in Lao Ye's heart.
In the afternoon, I finished brushing "Flowing Golden Years". Lao Ye left the company he had run in order to lock the lock and helped Xie Hongzu to take care of the Xie family. Suosuo did not remarry, and went to Beijing with her children a few years later. The relationship between Lao Ye and the lock lock in the whole drama is confusing. Some people say that this is a yearless love, and some people say that this is a father-daughter relationship. In fact, many times, this kind of non-blood relationship we can not give it a precise definition. It's just that one of them is trying to wait for the other. Many times the relationship between two people is clear to each other, and there is no need to explain too much to others. Locks say that there are many combinations of home, as long as there is love, there is a home. In a way, these people are probably a kind of soul mate relationship, a void but real love house. These people, I was moved.
Tomorrow is the working day, it is time to resume work, and the two plans that have not been written will be written as soon as possible. There are a few more writing topics listed the other day, so take advantage of this time to write as soon as possible.