These two days were quarantined.
The cause is that the roommate works in the risk zone. So I was also gloriously isolated.
Quarantined at home, the class is still on. People who used to envy home isolation, when it was their turn, they found that home was not as beautiful as they thought. At home, I really want nothing, and I can't help myself.
This reminds me of my favorite character, Pan Jinlian, in classical masterpieces.
Many people regard Pan Jinlian as a negative character, saying that she is nothing more than a woman who does not obey the way of women and kills people without blinking. But Pan Jinlian is really not such a simple person.
Pan Jinlian can be said to be one of the most complex and comprehensive characters in the history of Chinese literature. Her growth perfectly explains a concept, that is, involuntarily.
Involuntarily, this should be the most empathetic thing for contemporary people, or every generation. But when it is put on someone else, we cannot understand it at all.
What is the difference between Pan Jinlian and us office workers?
Pan Jinlian was the first to submit to her mother, so she was sold around as a commodity to be traded. From Zhangjiamen to Wangjiamen, all the way to stop and go, saw the prosperity, learned the skills, in the face of this bright and green world, she has nothing.
We are luckier than Pan Jinlian. We also succumb to our parents, most of the time becoming tools to satisfy their vanity. Along the way, I learned all the way, and I didn't know what I saw and what I learned, and in the face of this complicated world, I felt powerless after all. The better people are, the stronger this feeling of powerlessness tends to be.
Pan Jinlian later succumbed to love, she fell in love with Wu Song, involuntarily, willingly, the love sinus first opened, and she was thrilled. This love of hers is one of the few bright periods in her life. But her love is very unsatisfactory, very abnormal, so it is very unfulfilled.
In order to satisfy the emptiness in her heart, Pan Jinlian succumbed to desire, and even joined Ximen Qing, was calculated by the princess, and even killed people, and finally ended up with nothing. Along the way, there is her own component, and more often than not, she is pushed by the world.
The world always wants to use beauty to do something.
We don't have beauty, but we are always pushed by the world. We have also had love, and when we were thrilled by someone, we felt that the world was all good.
Then the true face of the world unfolded before our eyes, we touched every obstacle, we crawled over the wrinkles of life, and we thought this time was different. We thought it was our own choice.
In fact, no one has ever been able to escape this kind of involuntariness.
Later, Pan Jinlian fell from her world and completely went down a path of sin.
We are much luckier than Pan Jinlian. Because in our world, there is not so much sin. Our involuntariness will push us into some ordinary path.
This is probably also the progress of an era.