One
In 1853, at Clara Schumann's home, Brahms met her for the first time. Since then, he has begun the journey of lovesickness for his lonely life.
Only in this tangled life, he was also happy. For in his mind, there is an unquenchable sun, and a full moon that is not stained with dust, music and Clara.
That night, he was invited to his home by Schumann and played a piano sonata in C major among a group of celebrities, which shocked him and became famous in one battle.
Young Brahms
Just as Sima Xiangru conquered the amazing Zhuo Wenjun with a song "Phoenix Seeking Phoenix", Brahms captured the heart of Schumann's wife Clara with a piano song.
However, this heart has nothing to do with love, but only the appreciation and surprise of a predecessor for the future life. This year, Brahms turned 20 and Clara was 34.
Anyway, the talented teenager was moved by the truth as soon as he saw the stunning. Perhaps at that moment, in the midst of the stunning gaze, he found a cool figure in a long skirt, elegant and dusty, with a unique style.
What would he think of when his hands were flying rapidly on the keys? Perhaps, he had already thought of "I long to sit silently beside you, I dare not, for fear that my heart will jump to my lips."
But even if the admiration in his heart was raging, he could only bury it deep in his heart, because the absolute color in front of him was his master's mother, a wife with a husband.
Clara, too, saw the radiant teenager, and that night she wrote: "Today a great man came from Hamburg... He was only 20 years old and had been sent by God. ”
The day the two first met, they left a very good impression on each other's hearts, but they would not have thought that this meeting had planted a seed for their lifelong entanglement and entanglement, which took root and sprouted in the washing of the years, and was indelible until they entered the depths of the soul.
Two
Brahms must have had an inextricable love for Clara, otherwise he would not have written down the affection of "I have always been alone, I love someone, some words are silly, but I still want to say that you are like a lily and like an angel" affection.
It's just that there is a worldly and Schumann between him and Clara, and between them and their own true feelings for Schumann. Clara loved Schumann, and in the eyes of the world, they were a match made in heaven both in appearance and talent.
This is true even in Brahms's view, as he says:
"The human beings of the world... It is not worth it for the two of you, Robert and Clara, to live on this earth, and I feel uplifted whenever I think of the gaze they adore you, two people with such a completely poetic nature. I almost hope the world will forget you. Then, for the people, you will be able to have a more complete sanctity. ”
How could he get involved in such feelings? He loved Clara, but he loved Schumann as well. He loves Clara's spirit and flesh, but he loves Schumann with the noble spirit in him.
Schumann
For him, Schumann is the bell period, the confidant and Bole of life. Schumann was a famous German composer and music critic of the 19th century. Before meeting Brahms, he had been writing for a decade and was no longer writing reviews about music.
But the day he met Brahms, it was like digging up a treasure, and he was full of excitement. He could hear the enthusiasm beneath Brahms's silent exterior, and he wanted to introduce Brahms to the world.
In this way, he left Brahms in his home and introduced the proud son of heaven to the crowd. He highly recommended this musical talent in the New Music Magazine: "He is a genius once in a century. ”
Not only that, but since then he has often interacted with Brahms at home and exchanged musical experiences with him. It is both communication and guidance, and in the face of genius, he does not have any broom-cherishing ideas.
Brahms respected Schumann as a mentor, and in turn, he respected Schumann's wife, Clara. Therefore, his love for Clara can only be buried in the bottom of his heart after all, and it is difficult to express.
As long as Schumann remains, there will never be a possibility between him and Clara. But for people like Brahms and Clara, even if Schumann leaves, there is no result between them.
Three
In February 1854, Schumann developed symptoms of mental weakness. Unable to bear the pain of illness, he chose to jump down the Rhine. But Heaven did not want the wonderful musician to die, and Schumann was rescued by a passing ship and taken to the hospital.
Clara was devastated when she heard the news. The love of life is imprisoned, which is undoubtedly a torture for an affectionate woman.
At this time, Brahms came to Clara's side, and he took care of her and her children, as well as Schumann lying in the hospital, as a student.
Later, Schumann was admitted to the Endernic Asylum, and Brahms visited him several times, only to find that the enthusiastic Bole was getting worse and worse.
He had forgotten many things, and most of his life's experiences were already in the dark. But he still remembered the woman named Clara. Hearing information about her, there is always a sparkle in her eyes.
Brahms wrote in a letter to Clara: "The warmth in his eyes when he told me about you, and the joy in his eyes when he saw your portrait, I seemed to be unable to describe it with words." ”
During this time, Brahms and Clara traveled with the Rhine. No one knows what they were talking about at that time, but I think it should be the music they loved each other deeply, or Schumann who once jumped off the Rhine.
On July 29, 1856, Schumann, who was completely insane, chose to end his life. Clara, too, was completely left alone.
In the world's opinion, Brahms should have chosen to leave the day after Schumann's funeral in order not to let Clara fall into the rumors.
However, for Brahms, who loves Clara deeply, he will never leave so decisive and calm. He'll leave Clara, just not now.
After Schumann left, he often accompanied Clara, traveling with her and taking care of her life. It wasn't until a year later that he truly left Clara's world, broke the worldly gossip, and went on a journey for the rest of his life alone.
He knew that even if Schumann left, there would be a barrier between him and Clara. In an unsent letter, he wrote: "Even if it is reduced to dust, Clara, your dead beloved still fills any gap between you and me until death comes again, so how can I have you?" ”
Leaving is the best choice.
Four
In 1858, Brahms met another woman in Göyengen and betrothed her. But in the end, he still ran away from the marriage, because he knew that he would never forget the beauty who was 14 years older than him.
After that, he never married, spent the rest of his life remembering Clara, and using his body full of snow and snow to commemorate the woman who lived in his heart.
He composed music for her, wrote to her, and in the melodious melody, in the pitch-black ink, Brahms's longing came so violently that it was like a tsunami rushing and never returning.
He longed to be by Clara's side and watch the wind and snow with her. But he kept suppressing himself, and he never saw Clara again in the next forty years.
Clara
From his letters left in the world, we can see that his love is so deep:
"I shouldn't enjoy this trip alone. I had thought these cities would delight me, but they looked so cold, boring, and lifeless. ”
"I'm going to go home and read a book while listening to music until you show up, and then I can do these things with you." If you really want to make me happy, send a letter to Dusseldorf... If the intense desires that have taken over me in the past few days have had any positive effect on my playing or anything else, I will curse humanity at once. ”
"Clara, my dear Clara... In my love for you, I have experienced supreme happiness and peace. I miss you more in every moment than in the last moment, and the most important thing in this longing is the joy. That's it. Even though I already knew this feeling, I had never felt such warmth at this time. ”
"I will call your name a million times every night, just so that the evening wind can turn them into thoughts, blow into your ears and whisper, accompany you to sleep, and wake up with you." 」
From black hair to snowy whiteheads, he spent twenty years creating the Piano Quartet in C minor, which incorporated years of longing into every note and dedicated it to Clara.
After another twenty years, he was finally reunited with Clara in Frankfurt in 1895. This year, he was 62 and Clara was 76. Wrinkles have long climbed on the face of the beauty, the beauty of the past is hanging on to the old age, the style is no longer gorgeous, but the temperament is not reduced.
In the cold light, Brahms was ecstatic to see Clara as if he had first seen it forty-three years earlier. Even though the years have passed, the sweetheart is close at hand, and he can only be full of joy.
He asked her to dance a dance together, and she played a piano piece for him.
After that, they separated again, and this time they met, it was the last time they saw each other in their lives. Since then, he is at the end of the world, and she is at the cape.
The following year, Clara passed away. Brahms stumbled to Frankfurt, but was never able to see Clara for the last time.
All he saw was a cold coffin. The Iraqis have passed away, and brahms's lifelong faith has faded with the wind. He placed the music he had written for Clara all his life on the coffin, and wanted to send the composed music to Clara as usual, so that she could accompany her away.
Later, in front of Clara's tomb, he played the unknown violin song countless times, and it was endless. It was the crystallization of his feelings for Clara for forty-three years.
"The king buried the mud under the spring, and I sent the world full of snow", the wind blew on Brahms's shoulder, but how could he forget the confidant of his life?
Old Brahms
Eleven months later, after playing the piano song for Clara for three full days, Brahms also passed away. He will continue to follow in her footsteps and play the music of his heart together in heaven.
That is, proof that they have known each other for a lifetime.
He died, but his name is remembered forever. In the land of love, people remember such a name - Brahms.
His love may not be suitable for the universal concept of love as a sentient being, but in the face of Brahmsian love, anyone has to sincerely praise his sublimeness.
Don't ask for each other, but seek to know each other. Even though I am separated from you by mountains and rivers, I am eternal confidant with you.