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"I lived here for more than 4 years, when our guard company was on the slope, which was the original office building, and the row of bungalows was a scientist's living quarter." You Zehua shuttled through the crowds of tourists, walking through old buildings and camphor trees, introducing the grass and trees here like an old acquaintance, "These trees are the small saplings they planted when they came, and now they have grown so tall." ”
You Zehua, who became a rehabilitation doctor
You Zehua was Deng Jiaxian's last guard, and from 1982 to 1986, he accompanied Deng Jiaxian until the last moment of his life. In May 2021, You Zehua returned to this place that changed his life, telling the story of his last time with Deng Jiaxian.
In You Zehua's memory, Deng Jiaxian had three regrets before his death: before Tiananmen Square, Deng Jiaxian wanted to see the development of the country 50 years later; under the Wutai Mountain in Jiangxi, he was worried about being able to come back to the missile base again; in the bed of Beijing 301 Hospital, he hoped to return to Mianyang, Sichuan Province, to see his colleagues and where he worked.
In addition, You Zehua can't forget the conversation that changed the trajectory of his life, and it was because of that conversation that he changed from a guard to a rehabilitation doctor.
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From worrying about "bad contact" to "being like an elder"
The office building of the Ninth Academy
For You Zehua, his encounter with Deng Jiaxian was "a kind of fate." On February 17, 1982, less than two years after You Zehua joined the army, the head of the guard regiment selected four people, including You Zehua, and personally sent them to the secret base of the Ninth Yuan in Zitong County, Mianyang City.
At that time, it had been 13 years since the Ninth Academy of Sciences and Departments had been relocated from Qinghai to Zitong, Mianyang, and after the completion of the test explosion of atomic bombs and hydrogen bombs, the heavy responsibility on the shoulders of scientists was still the same, and they needed to complete the weaponization and finalization of atomic and hydrogen bombs, as well as the development of a new generation of weapons and other national defense scientific research contents. "In layman's terms, it's not enough to have ammunition, we still have to have guns." You Zehua said.
You Zehua recalled that before they went, it was the Ministry of Security that was responsible for the safety of scientists, but after the Ministry of Security generally left work, they went back to their respective homes, at that time, scientists were very busy, and often worked late, resulting in some emergency documents or meeting notices, no one helped, it was not very convenient, considering this situation, You Zehua They were sent over, on the one hand, to protect the safety of scientists, on the other hand, to assist in some trivial matters at work, to take care of the scientists' diet and living.
The guard house where You Zehua used to live
"When I came over at that time, the leader of the unit told me that this place is very mysterious, and we also feel very mysterious, we don't know what to do, and we are worried that scientists are not easy to contact, but when I see Elder Deng for the first time, I feel quite kind." You Zehua recalled that when they first met, Deng Jiaxian chatted with You Zehua about his family routine, and the first sentence asked: "Little warrior, where is your family?" ”
You Zehua was a native of Neijiang, Sichuan, but because of the secrecy nature of his work, the correspondence address of the Ninth Yuan was in Chengdu at the time, and his family thought he was a soldier in Chengdu.
You Zehua recalled that after understanding some of the family situation, Deng Jiaxian said to him: "You are following me here, ask me if you don't understand anything about daily life work, my work is also very simple, that is, send and receive documents, and notify colleagues to hold a meeting." You Zehua himself would not have thought that in the next 4 years of getting along, he not only changed his stereotype of scientists, but also gave him an elder who was both a teacher and "like a father".
"Two Bomb City" Elite Gate (Scenic Official Website Photo)
Now, You Zehua, who has become a father, feels a kind of honor when he tells his children about that experience. "I often encourage my children to learn the spirit of the older generation of scientists, and now that they have grandchildren, I will often bring them over to reminisce about the old days." You Zehua said that when he walked into the "Two Bomb City", it was as if he had returned to that period of youth.
bosom friend
Compressed biscuits are hidden in the book pile and meals are not troublesome for the chef
You Zehua introduces Deng Jiaxian's former residence
All the way to Deng Jiaxian's former residence, You Zehua looked at the scenery around him and fell into the memories of the past. "In the past, those scientists lived in this kind of bungalow, which was very simple, and the door was as wide as it is now, it was a trail." You Zehua's hands draw the width of a person.
Deng Jiaxian's former residence (scenic official website photo)
Today, Deng Jiaxian's former residence is still the red brick and gray tile of the past, but a small square has been expanded in front of the door, and deng Jiaxian's head and the oath of joining the party are placed on the square, and many teams who come to visit will relive the oath of joining the party here. In a solemn oath, You Zehua walked into the old residence and returned to 39 years ago.
As soon as I entered the door, it was You Zehua's room. A table, a cabinet, a telephone, a single bed are all the things here, the room is only a wall away from Deng Jiaxian's bedroom, whenever there is Beethoven's symphony next door, You Zehua knows that it is Deng Lao who is working overtime to think about the problem again.
Deng Jiaxian's office
"Deng Jiaxian did not have a fixed time for work, often worked overtime in his residence, and when he was tired, he lay in bed, but he would not sleep, so he closed his eyes and listened to the symphony, and his mind was still thinking about problems." You Zehua said, "Elder Deng has more things, and when there is often a need to call a temporary meeting, he has two places to work, the office building has an office, and there is also an office in the home, and the office at home is more used by Elder Deng." ”
Deng Jiaxian's former bedroom
After walking through the narrow passage and turning another corner, it was Deng Jiaxian's bedroom. The largest area is a few large bookcases, the most conspicuous is a record player, which is the only entertainment equipment inside, an iron frame bed inside, is the dowry of Deng Jiaxian's wife, because he can't see his wife for many years, Deng Jiaxian has been taking this bed with him after he left home, from Beijing to Qinghai to Sichuan. After Deng Jiaxian's death, this bed was left to You Zehua as a memorial, and then the "Two Bombs City" scenic spot was established, and You Zehua donated the bed again, hoping that more people could come here to understand Deng Jiaxian's deeds and spirit.
Looking at the iron frame bed and desk in front of him, You Zehua remembered that Deng Jiaxian worked until midnight many times, and he had to rush to a meeting in the morning, You Zehua sometimes saw the pain, and wanted Deng Jiaxian to rest for a while, as a result, Deng Jiaxian often held a teacup in one hand and two compressed biscuits in the other, and walked to the meeting while eating, and on the way he laughed and "blamed" You Zehua and said: "You almost delayed my big thing today." ”
"This is where Deng Lao hid the compressed biscuits." You Zehua pointed to the storage room in the corner that was more than two meters high, and said that it was understood that in the past, it was full of books that Deng Jia had first retrieved from the Wangfujing Foreign Bookstore in Beijing, and this pile of books often contained a box of compressed biscuits, about 4 or 5 pounds, except that deng Jia would take two pieces in the morning when he was too late to eat, and he would also use it when he was working overtime at night.
You Zehua recalled that many times when meetings were held in the morning, colleagues saw Deng Jia holding a compressed biscuit first, and they were half blamed and half laughed: "You see old Deng has not eaten." After Deng Jiaxian worked overtime in the evening, You Zehua wanted to ask the chef to add a meal, but Deng Jiaxian said, "It's so late, what are you bothering others to do?" ”
"He's a man who doesn't want to trouble people." You Zehua recalled that even during the meeting in Beijing, Deng Jiaxian did not like to use the special car and driver equipped, and he squeezed the bus to read books at the Wangfujing Foreign Bookstore, and then squeezed the bus to tiananmen Square for a walk. "I squeezed the bus with Elder Deng so many times, and once I was very uncomfortable, that was the last time I squeezed the bus with him." Recalling this experience, You Zehua's voice was a little choked.
This trip to Tiananmen Square has also become one of Deng Jiaxian's most widely known regrets.
Separation
"Three regrets" and dying words
"Two Bombs" model
In 1986, Deng Jiaxian went to Beijing to see a doctor. You Zehua recalled that one afternoon after the second operation, Deng Jiaxian felt better and wanted to go out for a walk.
"At the entrance of the unit, I asked Elder Deng to wait for a while, I went to call the driver, and when I came out, he squeezed the bus away, but I knew which car Mr. Deng was taking to go to." You Zehua said.
You Zehua squeezed onto another bus and arrived at the Wangfujing Foreign Bookstore, where Deng Jiaxian was indeed reading. Until they saw that after 10 o'clock in the morning, they went out to have a meal at a small restaurant, and Deng Jiaxian suddenly proposed to go to Tiananmen Square. "Elder Deng has a special affection for Tiananmen Square, and I have been to him many times, including when he returned from the United States in the 50s, the first thing he did was to go to Tiananmen Square, which for him is a symbol of the Chinese nation." You Zehua said.
You Zehua remembered that the weather was very good that day, there were many people, Deng Jiaxian sat down in front of the Monument to the People's Heroes, looked at You Zehua and asked: "Xiao You, do I have time in the future?" On the occasion of the 100th anniversary of the founding of New China, come and see me and tell me about the changes in the country. You Zehua replied busily: "If you are well, I will accompany you at any time." Deng Jiaxian said, "You don't have to wait until the 100th anniversary, the 50th anniversary, you can come and see me." A week after this conversation, Deng Jiaxian died of heavy bleeding.
You Zehua recalled, and another regret, was at the end of 1984. Originally, the commander of the base wanted him to go to Wutai Mountain after his work, but after arriving at Wutai Mountain, Deng Jia first looked at the long staircase up the mountain, and finally he could not climb it, and he asked unwillingly: "Xiao You, do I still have a chance to come again?" You Zehua replied, "I will accompany you when you are well." "But I didn't expect to have another chance to climb Mount Wutai."
Before his death, Deng Jiaxian had also been thinking about Sichuan. You Zehua remembered that Deng Jiaxian on the hospital bed had said to him many times: "Xiao You, you must tell the doctor, I want to go back to Sichuan to see, when the colleagues of the unit come, you must also tell them, let them tell me the good news." At that time, Deng Jiaxian, who was lying on a hospital bed, was still making overall plans to determine the later development direction of China's atomic weapons.
"In fact, when he wrote that thing, he was already very uncomfortable, he sat on the bed, with a small cushion, the paper was full of writing, and when the money was dropped, there were bars and levers, and I don't know how many times it was modified." You Zehua said.
"It's a pity that none of these three regrets have been realized." You Zehua sighed.
Finally, during the period of treatment in Beijing, You Zehua lost from more than 120 pounds to more than 100 pounds, Deng Jiaxian saw that You Zehua was thin like that, and he was also very distressed, You Zehua recalled that during that time, Deng Jiaxian began to pay special attention to himself, and every time he went to see Deng Jiaxian at the same time, he would advise: "You must take good care of Xiao you in the future." ”
Once, when You Zehua was giving Deng Jiaxian a massage, Deng Jiaxian suddenly asked, "Xiao You, what do you want to do in the future?" You Zehua replied: "I want to study medicine, you are a great scientist who has made so many contributions to people, and I can also help others after I learn." Deng Jiaxian nodded and replied, "That's good." ”
Now, when You Zehua fulfilled his original agreement to become a doctor, he also remembered what Deng Jiaxian had said to his wife before he died, and this paragraph of firmness was mixed with regretful words, which made You Zehua who was on the balcony at the time listen to extreme heartache.
You Zehua remembers that at that time, Deng Jia first called his wife to the bedside, shook his wife's hand, and said: "If there is an afterlife, I will still choose China, choose the cause of nuclear weapons, and choose you." ”
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