"Juan was a gift from my mother."
As we all know, Lu Xun is a generation of literary heroes in china, and when the nation was in crisis, he abandoned medicine and literature, used the pen as a weapon, and wrote many classic works that have been passed down through the ages.
His pen and ink cast profound thoughts, every sentence is a golden sentence, even in today's era, his work still has a sharp and inspiring power.
Lu Xun was a man who saw the world's coldness particularly thoroughly, and he hit the inferior roots of national nature in an attempt to save this sick era. But in his life, it is actually full of a helpless marriage.
The world can only hear the good stories of Lu Xun and Xu Guangping, but Xu Guangping is actually not Lu Xun's original wife, Lu Xun's original wife is called Zhu An.
However, Lu Xun did not have any emotional component towards her. What's going on here? And listen to the author slowly.
For filial piety and loving motherhood, arranged marriage
Lu Xun was born at the time of the confrontation between the late Qing Dynasty and the Republic of China, many new ideas poured into the country, and the young people's concept of marriage and love was also greatly subverted.
Arranged marriages have been vigorously flogged, and some young people who have embraced new ideas are vigorously resisting this matter, but there are also some conservatives who adhere to the traditions and rules of their ancestors and believe that etiquette is indestructible.
In this way, a new generation of young people and an older generation of people are bound to have contradictions and conflicts, at the cost of a tragic marriage.
Lu Xun and Juan were like this.
In 1899, Lu Xun was studying in Nanjing, and his thinking was influenced by the new trend of thought, single-mindedly pursuing freedom and abandoning the old customs and traditions.
But in this year, Lu Xun's mother saw that Lu Xun had reached the age of marriage, and she talked about a family affair for him, the woman was a typical traditional woman of the old society, who had not read books for several years, followed the rules, and was three years older than Lu Xun.
At that time, Lu Xun was at the forefront of ideological change, and seeing that Zhu An was so conservative and feudal, he wanted to persuade her to go to school, accept new ideas, and abandon the bad habit of binding her feet.
But Juan couldn't understand Lu Xun's meaning, and always adhered to the traditions of the old ancestors, and did not agree.
Lu Xun naturally did not want to spend his life with such a traditional woman, and after graduation, he went to Japan to study, delaying the marriage.
After waiting for year after year, Lu Xun's mother could not sit still, afraid that her son would repent, so she said that she had a serious illness and was in danger.
After Hearing this "bad news," Lu Xun rushed home to visit his mother, but found that her mother was not sick at all, but was just looking for an excuse to call herself back.
Seeing his mother deceiving himself like this, Lu Xun was a little displeased and wanted to go back immediately. But the mother cried, remembering that her mother had stumbled all her life, and it was not easy for a woman to carry all this alone, Lu Xun did not want to disappoint and be sad with his mother, so he became a filial son and agreed to this marriage.
Be careful, like walking on thin ice
In 1906, Juan and Lu Xun married.
In order to please Lu Xun, on the day of the wedding ceremony, Juan deliberately wore a pair of large shoes that did not fit the foot, and filled the vacant place with cotton.
But when walking, the cotton still fell out, and Lu Xun was even more annoyed when he saw it.
That night was supposed to be the night of the cave flower candles, but Lu Xun did not perform the marriage ceremony with Juan, but only regarded her as a nominal wife.
Subsequently, Lu Xun went to Japan to study, and this time he did not return to China for three years.
But Juan did not complain, just quietly waited for Lu Xun to return, and when Lu Xun returned, Juan was like nothing had happened, like a virtuous wife, gentle and virtuous, and Lu Xun's mother was also very satisfied with her daughter-in-law.
But Lu Xun's attitude was still as cold as ever, not ashamed or angry, and he did not have any affection for Juan.
But Juan was still cautious, as if he were living a life of walking on thin ice.
Later, Lu Xun's article had a lot of repercussions, bought a big mansion, and brought the family members together.
Juan thought that he had survived and could finally get closer to her husband, but Lu Xun still did not sleep with her, and Juan still lived with her mother-in-law.
Even so, Juan still worked hard and complained, doing his best in this family, and was also very concerned about Lu Xun and thinking about him everywhere.
But feelings are always willing, Lu Xun has no feeling for Juan is no feeling, no matter what Juan does, Lu Xun is indifferent, and his attitude is still very cold.
Lu Xun's lungs have always been bad, always coughing, and his physical state has deteriorated, Juan is very worried about her husband's body and wants him to eat some healthy nutrition.
Once, Lu Xun inadvertently confided that he missed the pastries in Daoxiang Village. Although it was just a heartless word, it was firmly engraved in Juan's heart.
She is also a woman, and she also hopes to get the respect and love of her husband, in order to make Lu Xun happy, Juan immediately set off for Daoxiang Village.
But Daoxiang Village is really a distance from their home, the road is difficult, there is no car on the road, but Juan does not tire of hard work, step by step hiking to Daoxiang Village, walking back and forth 70,000 steps, before buying back the cake.
But as long as it can bring unexpected surprises to Lu Xun, Juan is also willing.
After the cake was bought, Juan happily handed the cake to Lu Xun, even if she saw Lu Xun smile, she was satisfied.
However, Lu Xun did not have waves, and his state was no different from usual, and he only said to Juan lightly, "Good." ”
Zhu An walked on foot and walked 70,000 steps, every step was hard for her, but in the end she only got a word from Lu Xun.
Fate is a trick, in name only
Lu Xun has always been lukewarm to Juan, he only has responsibility for her, and there is no emotional component, how difficult it is for two people to get married, but it is in name only.
In fact, Juan can choose to pursue his own feelings, arranged marriage in the Republic of China years has been severely criticized, women pursue their own happiness is not wrong, but Juan still accompanies Lu Xun.
She had never read a book and knew nothing about literature, but she supported Lu Xun in doing all this.
She was Lu Xun's original wife, but she watched Lu Xun fall in love with Xu Guangping without any complaints.
All of this is just Juan's wishful thinking, Lu Xun can't give her love, everything is like fate.
Two completely unsuitable people are bound together in this way, each suffering.
In the final analysis, Juan's life is lamentable, but the fault is not in Lu Xun, he did his best as a husband, but he did not want to continue to do things against his heart.
To blame, perhaps can only blame that ruthless era, but pity Juan, a lifetime of dedication, but in the end did not get half a bit of warmth.