01 The repayment date is 5 days earlier than the payday
On this day, it was Saturday, and Lin Dayan had been waiting for a call from a nurse.
The day before, he had done a dialysis that he had to do on the same day.
The money was paid to the hospital, "reluctantly." He temporarily cancelled the appointment and wanted to do it for two days.
But the physical discomfort exceeded expectations. On the first Saturday of December 2021, he asked his nurse to help him arrange a dialysis spot for that afternoon. The answer was: When the man is full, he will be notified if there is a vacancy.
11 years ago, chronic kidney disease was diagnosed, and 6 years ago, it developed uremia. Since then, he has had to undergo hemodialysis treatment for the rest of his life, starting twice a week, and now, at the age of 40, he has to do it four times a week for 4 hours.
Before he fell ill, he planted watermelons, set up stalls, killed fish in supermarkets, and worked as a cook and cook in restaurants. As his condition worsened and the frequency of dialysis increased, these jobs were no longer open to him.
Delivering takeaways, working hours are relatively free, and the intensity is within his physical strength, which is the "best place" that Lin Dayian can find.
But the job is also showing decline.
In the two years since the outbreak of the epidemic, the number of riders at Lin Datian's takeaway site has increased from 30 to more than 100, and with more riders, Lin Datian can receive fewer orders.
Running 38 singles can earn about 200 yuan, but he runs late at night, and he may not be able to do 40 orders. Catching up with Mondays, Wednesdays, Fridays, and Saturdays, it takes half a day to do dialysis, the working time is reduced by half, and even the minimum attendance standard of 14 singles is somewhat reluctant - efficient riders can complete eighty or ninety orders a day.
He is 1 meter 6 tall, weighs more than 100 pounds, dark clothes, and Lin Datian, who has just seen the health industry, is inconspicuous in the crowd. The only bright color was the bright yellow plastic bag he carried, which was polished white at the handle and printed "Sharing Sweet Time".
This is an ice cream bag, but there are three kinds of drugs: ebastine tablets, antipruritics, uremia granules, laxatives, carbonate sveram tablets, phosphorus reduction.
Only when he lowered his head and held the phone in front of his eyes, the tip of his nose almost pressed against the screen, did passers-by pay a little attention to the thin man.
A great uncle said to him, "Why don't you wear glasses?" Lin Datian stuck on his mobile phone and did not answer.
He has some problems with his hearing. When he was a child, he was slapped several times by the eldest children in the village, perhaps because of the problems that fell at that time. Eyesight is also, when he was in junior high school, he couldn't see the blackboard clearly, and then he studied hard, plus the family had to provide for his three younger brothers to study, so he quit school and went home to plant watermelons.
He always thought that he was just short-sighted, but he had glasses, more than 800 degrees, and wore them with little effect. It wasn't until December 2021 that the media helped him contact a private hospital, Fuzhou Southeast Eye Hospital, for a free examination, that he learned that he had cataracts and had to undergo surgery.
Kidney function was seriously impaired, and Lin Dayian's creatinine had exceeded 1,000, more than ten times the normal value. Ophthalmologists recommend that if you want to have cataract surgery, you must first lower the creatinine.
Lin Datian felt that doing the most basic hemodialysis four times a week was not enough, and he wanted to do it with hemodialysis and blood irrigation. Hemodialysis can filter out the water and small molecule toxins in the body, with a unit price of 400 yuan, while the blood perfusion with a unit price of 600 yuan can further filter out medium macromolecular toxins.
For each blood perfusion, you have to buy a disposable blood perfusion device, and this "bottle" added to the machine can be very expensive: ha130 perfusion device with a unit price of 599 yuan, or HA230 perfusion device with a unit price of 1197 yuan.
If the medical insurance still has a quota, he can do free hemodialysis twice a week, and it takes more than 200 yuan to open HA130 blood irrigation, and more than 300 yuan to open HA230 blood irrigation.
On December 3, the outpatient charging window of the first hospital in Fuzhou City. Lin Dayian took some medicine, and prescribed ha230 blood irrigation to be done the next day in advance, paid at the window, and the outpatient charge sheet showed:
Personal account payment: 0.00
Pooled Fund Disbursement: 1137.36
Pay-out: 1021.92
Total RMB: 2159.28
Lin Dayian paused, he vaguely knew that in 2021, the medical insurance payment limit of 120,000 urban and rural residents was exhausted, and the medical treatment may be two or three hundred yuan more than before, but this figure still frightened him.
The payment code was deducted to the toll machine, and after a short "drip" sound, his huabei had an additional amount of 1021.92 yuan this month, and the total amount was close to 2000 yuan.
The repayment date is the 20th of each month, and the payday is the 25th of each month.
The nearly $2,000 to be repaid is just the beginning. It's only been 3 days in December, and he has to do 16 dialysis sessions this month, at a frequency of 4 times a week.
When the bill of charge came to his eyes, Lin Dayian couldn't see it clearly and couldn't understand it. Treatment requires money, and without treatment affects work, money is not earned.
He was caught in a dilemma, insomnia at night, sleepy all morning during the day, and half the time to make money.
Things chased things, questions followed by problems, and Lin Datian was trapped in the same place and whirling around. He didn't know if he wanted to go to the hospital, but the choice wasn't in his hands.
This Saturday, he went online at 10:30 a.m. to take orders, delivered to nearly 12 o'clock in the evening, sent 30 orders, and could earn 165 yuan.
The hospital phone never rang.
02 The second heart
Patients on maintenance dialysis usually have a rugged forearm. Two bluish-purple bulges, puncture points for veins and arteries, resemble dormant volcanoes, with a vascular pathway lurking beneath them.
The bulge is opened, the needle is inserted into the fistula, the volcano is awakened, the blood enters the dialysis machine, and the dialysis machine replaces the damaged kidney to filter out the metabolic waste, and the purified blood is returned to the body from the dialysis machine.
The fistula vibrates constantly and is the second heart of a uremia patient.
The opening of this blood pathway is often accompanied by a rupture in the trajectory of life. Guizhou fu hong came to Xiamen at the age of 17 to work, and then came to Fuzhou, and since receiving hemodialysis, he has never returned to his hometown.
She had two scars on her forearm, one for a dialysis ostomy incision and the other that was longer and deeper— she was suffering from kidney disease in her early 20s, and doctors said she was afraid she would have to undergo dialysis for life. Frightened, in desperation, she cut her wrists.
Now Fu Hong has been on dialysis for 10 years, three times a week. Roughly calculated, she has spent more than 100,000 yuan on medical treatment over the years. In the first few years of illness, she did not know what medical insurance reimbursement, and she paid more than 1,000 yuan per month to see a doctor.
When she was young, she worked in a factory in Fuzhou, and the leaders of the factory looked at her pitifully and helped her run the medical insurance for employees in Fuzhou.
The long dialysis period deprived her of the possibility of continuing to work in the factory. Her parents died early, the four brothers and sisters of the Fu family all lived in Fuzhou, and now she lives on the street with her brother's family, she does housework, takes care of the children, and when she is lucky, she can receive some piecework.
At present, for outpatient special diseases such as outpatient dialysis treatment for severe uremia, the proportion of medical insurance for employees in Fuzhou can reach 85%. The medical insurance for urban and rural residents that Lin Datian participated in paid by 60%.
Since 2012, Fuzhou City has set up the Municipal First Hospital and the Municipal Second Hospital as pilots, and the insured of the urban basic medical insurance of chronic kidney disease Phase 5 (uremia) can receive free hemodialysis twice a week in these two hospitals.
Fu Hong's life trajectory is thus tied to the city's first hospital. Whenever the dialysis was over, she got the medicine, and she threw away the charge slip, "Someone can get some subsidies if they keep it, I am out of town, I don't have this benefit."
Every New Year's Festival, the family returned to their hometown of Guizhou, leaving Fu Hong alone to guard the empty house. In the early years, she would also send some New Year's greeting text messages, but later heard that receiving such text messages from patients was unlucky, and contact with others became less. Many Spring Festivals, through photos and videos sent by her family, she looked at her hometown after many years of absence, and the old house was no longer what she remembered.
03 The weight of a life
Every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday, Li Renle is almost the first person to go to the hemodialysis room.
The hemodialysis room opened at 7:30, and at 5:30 in the morning, Li Renle shrank his body, put his hands in his pants pockets, and took two steamed buns to the city courtyard. He lives in The Iron Lane, an old housing area surrounded by high-rise buildings close to the city's first courtyard, and the rent is 500 yuan per month.
At about 6:30, there were more people in the waiting area of the hemodialysis room. The people who came greeted each other and asked about their sleep and blood pressure, while Li Renle hid in the corner looking at his mobile phone.
He is always alone, and when his sense of existence is strongest, he borrows money from the patient group.
Patients call uremia "undead cancer", and treating it over the years means that there is no economic investment in sight. Some people can't turn around for a while, and the group of friends will also give a hundred or ten pieces to help.
But Li Renle borrowed a little frequently, which caused everyone to be dissatisfied.
Li Renle has no job and lives on the 1700 yuan that his brother calls every month. He is a native of Minqing County, and he does hemodialysis three times a week, basic medical insurance and targeted poverty alleviation subsidies, which can solve most of the cost of his medical treatment.
But people live, in addition to seeing a doctor, they also eat and live.
The room he rented, separated by partitions, was only wide enough to hold a single bed, only one position longer than the bed, and could only enter the room sideways. The air conditioner is broken, the furniture that can be used is a bed, a cabinet, and the cabinet door and the door of the house will block each other when they are opened at the same time. Ordering takeout for meals not only increases overhead, but also means a greater physical burden – uremia sufferers need to control salt and water intake, while takeout is obviously less controllable.
After 6 years of dialysis, Li Renle claimed that he could clearly feel the alienation of his brother and father from him.
"My brother 'changed'", Li Renle remembers, when he was not sick before, his brother worked in Dirks, and would bring him fried chicken to eat after work, "he would not scold me before."
Now, his brother's family will not call him for dinner, and he will always be counted down by his brother when he asks for money, "then there is no way, only rely on him."
Relying on yourself, in addition to borrowing money from group friends, it is through platforms such as water drop fundraising and easy fundraising. The fundraising services of mutual aid platforms are often based on social relationships, and for people like Li Renle who graduated from secondary school and only worked in restaurants and factories for a few years, the social resources that can be leveraged are very limited.
The three years of secondary school were Li Renle's most proud time, he held several positions, and at night he led his classmates to patrol and check discipline. After getting sick, he tried to contact his classmates at the time to borrow money, but no one replied.
It's not that he hasn't found other ways to get money: like the lottery.
"At that time, I was very accurate in watching the lottery!" Hit a dozen times!" He brought some laughter, talking about the two years when he first started doing dialysis, he "guessed" to guess the winning number, and he won two or three thousand yuan before and after, and he could also pay for dialysis at his own expense.
Once, he owed a few hundred yuan to someone and was discovered by his brother. His brother scolded him for spending money indiscriminately, and Li Renle was anxious, "I also want to reduce my brother's burden!"
He rushed out of the door on a rainy night, walked aimlessly outside for three or four days, and then his body could not stand it, and secretly returned to his hometown in Minqing, "from the back mountain to go home, no one else knew that I had returned."
He hid at home, refused to go to dialysis, his face turned black, people were very soft, weak, almost waiting to die.
His mother was so anxious that he kept calling his brother and asking him to persuade him. His brother, sister-in-law, and head nurse took turns calling, and he softened.
"If something happens to me, my mother will be upset." He returned to Fuzhou and lived by this thought, watching Lin Zhengying's zombie films repeatedly in a room not much bigger than a bed, and sometimes the sound of men and women frolicking could be heard next door. He is 33 years old.
In contrast, Lin Datian has a job that can support himself, but his life is also shrinking.
When he was stir-frying in the restaurant, he would try the dish. I didn't expect a lifetime of good taste, almost all at that time to taste. Now he ate some steamed buns every day to cope with the past, small meat buns for five yuan two, six yuan for three, Lin Dayian only bought two. You can't eat more, and you can't eat more when you can eat.
In order to save money, Lin Dayian only ate three packs, first poured the punch granules into his mouth, and then drank saliva to swallow the medicine. Maintenance hemodialysis has a series of complications such as gastrointestinal tract and cardiovascular system, Lin Datian only cares about solving the most basic survival needs, phosphorus-lowering drugs, antipruritic drugs, and sleeping pills, which have to be eaten, and other problems have to be survived for the time being.
His drawer contains 2021 outpatient billing slips, thin stacks of paper stacked together, thickness and weight becoming clear and perceptible.
This is also the weight of his life.
As for the kidney replacement surgery that cost hundreds of thousands of dollars, Lin Datian was not even willing to mention it.
"It goes without saying," he said, covering his face with his hands, his voice oozing from his fingers, "don't even think about it."
04 Foreigners
Lin Dayian's WeChat avatar is a night view of Fuzhou Dongtaihe.
Taihe Plaza brings together five-star hotels, 5A Grade A office buildings, single-family commercial clubs, high-end shopping malls, and a sunken square equivalent to 3 and a half football fields, which is the largest commercial complex in Fuzhou. Electric cars are not allowed to enter, and takeaway "infantry" carry lunch boxes through them. Lin Datian is one of them.
In the fourth year of Dongtaihe's takeaway delivery, he was familiar with convenience stores, milk tea shops, bun shops, and a sauerkraut fish shop on the edge of the square. Say hello to the boss, and he can eat a sauerkraut fish with almost no seasoning - originally he used to eat the fat cow rice in this store, but later the recipe was upgraded, and the fat cow had to be pickled into the flavor, so he did not dare to eat it again.
Uremia patients need to maintain a low potassium, low phosphorus diet and strictly control water intake. Before Lin Dayian did not care too much, when it was hot, he poured ice water and ate some fast food when he was hungry. Puffy, itchy, the body quickly warns.
Lin Day did not have the conditions to cook his own meals, there was no refrigerator in the group rental house, the kitchen was small, and there was no place to cut vegetables. When he was staying in the last group rental, he occasionally turned on the fire, threw rice and meat into a pressure cooker and boiled together, adding a little salt and soy sauce to cover the smell of meat, "but it was useless, it was still itchy."
After finishing work, Lin Datian often holds a cup of milk tea in his hand. Sometimes it is for myself, drink a small half during the day, go to the store to let the waiter reseal the cup, and leave it until the evening to go to the hospital to continue drinking.
Sometimes it's for others, convenience store aunts, hospital nurses, and patients' families, all of whom may receive random gifts from the delivery rider.
Sauerkraut fish and milk tea, Lin Daytian's own takeaway orders are almost these two. A serving of sauerkraut fish is about 20 yuan, and a cup of milk tea is about 10 yuan. The reason for consumption is because the day of dialysis is less than 14 orders, in order to ensure the workload, he can only take the orders he placed, from the bottom to the bottom, there is a great risk of being judged by the system to be "illegal brushing orders".
Across Hengyu Road, which is full of electric vehicles, poly champagne international's high-rise residences stand tall and overlook Taihe Plaza. Lin Datian lives in one of the group rental houses, and the rent is 1200 yuan per month, which is not a small number for him.
But he can only live here. Fuzhou City stipulates that electric bicycles that do not hang new yellow cards are prohibited from passing within the third ring road, and Lin Dayian's electric vehicles are not yellow cards and are detained in Qingkou Town, Minhou County.
Without electric vehicles, you can only do "infantry", and out of Dongtaihe, there are few opportunities to do "infantry". Moreover, it is difficult for him to cope with traveling longer distances and more complicated road conditions.
In 2020, he was living in a group rental house in another building of Poly Champagne International, and one day suddenly received the news that the house was about to be rectified. In a hurry, the residence permit and the invoice for the electric car were lost, so he could not get the yellow card and could not get the car back.
When the car was detained, it had just been bought for half a year and cost 2800 yuan. The night before he was detained, he was itchy, couldn't sleep well, and went out early, thinking of taking more orders.
Squinting his eyes and riding on the road, vaguely, the car drove to the traffic police, he reacted, and it was too late to turn around.
In 2021, he also had two car accidents, one was on the way to get a health certificate, he was run over the soles of a car and was hospitalized for 10 days; the other was in the underground parking lot, he was reluctant to open the lights of the electric car, and was hit by a car at the corner, and his whole face fell bruised and deformed, and he was hospitalized for more than 20 days. Fortunately, the medical expenses are mainly paid by the other party.
In the first half of the year, he was also hospitalized for a week because "there are bubbles in the stomach, almost perforated", spending more than 10,000 yuan.
Illness has allowed Lin Datian to live a life with a very low fault tolerance rate, but such a life has accidents from time to time. Both the car accident and stomach ailments brought unplanned expenses and caused him to use up the $120,000 maximum payment limit early.
In the hospital over the years, Lin Dayian has seen girls who continue dialysis after spending a lot of money on kidney replacement surgery, and also watched the old man in the next bed die the day after hospitalization. He inquired about the old man's name, and the nurse said, "It has nothing to do with you."
Illness is the beginning of runaways, but not all that gets out of control.
Lin Datian's three younger brothers have healthier bodies, but their lives are still limited to working and supporting their families. Lin Datian was hospitalized, and they couldn't come up with money, so they could only swipe their credit card for loans.
Xiao Chen was the only friend of Lin Datian who bought a house. Of course, the house is not in Fuzhou, in Xiao Chen's hometown county. The two were riders at the same station, and Lin Datian only told Xiao Chen and another colleague about uremia.
For a while, Lin Datian rode a scooter to deliver takeaways, often falling blue and purple. Xiao Chen didn't know Lin Dayian's illness at that time, and seeing that he was embarrassed, he took the initiative to help him send a single. After Lin Dayian's electric car was seized, Xiao Chen also lent him his car.
When he first came to Fuzhou, Lin Datian imagined the appearance of the people in the city, specially bought a suit, wore a suit to set up a stall in Wuyi Square, and was found by the city management before it opened. The last time he wore a suit was in 2020, when Xiao Chen got married and invited him to be a best man.
In order to make Xiao Chen have face, Lin Dayian spent more than 1,000 yuan, bought a new line from head to toe, and also wrapped a red envelope of 1,000 yuan for Xiao Chen. As a result, I was busy delivering orders that morning, and when I arrived at the wedding site, the bride was picked up.
That suit did not give Xiao Chen a face, but collided with the wedding dress of the groom official Xiao Chen. He was very embarrassed, and the tie he had originally bought did not dare to wear it.
Lin Datian almost got married and started a family. A month after the engagement, he was diagnosed with uremia. The girl's family forcibly brought her back to her hometown, and later the girl married someone else, the other party cheated, domestic violence, and the two divorced.
She had approached Lin Datian and asked if she would marry her. Lin Datian did not feel happy, but because of this, he felt more hatred, "I am in this situation, how can I talk about this again?"
The illness made the 40-year-old man dull and dry. When he came home from work, the elevator door opened, and he shook his head and followed the girl in front of him outside, and when he reached the door, the key could not be twisted.
The girl stopped in front of a door in the distance, slowed down, looked back at him frequently, and finally asked tentatively, "Uncle, do you live here too?"
The door opened at this moment, and a young face peeked out of it, and it was only then that he realized that he had gone to the wrong floor.
Memory is losing, aging is coming faster.
"Unlucky", Lin Datian blamed everything on himself, it was his own bad life.
But he didn't think it was rare either. In Fuzhou First Hospital alone, the number of outpatient visits for maintenance hemodialysis patients each year is nearly 45,000. Lin Datian lives in a group rental house, next door to live a deaf mute, with his wife and daughter crowded in a single room, "there are too many people like us."
05 Money money money
That toll slip frightened Lin Datian. On December 3, the 3rd dialysis of the week, 1021.92 yuan. By the next day, the number was still pressed against his chest, "thinking about it", taking a wrong order when delivering the takeaway, and overturning a single order.
Blood irrigation is too expensive, do not do it for the time being, Lin Datian calculated, four times a week of dialysis can also try to reduce to three times. Survive until the new year, the new reimbursement line down, life will be much better.
By the following week, the first dialysis of the week, on December 8, Lin Datian prescribed several drugs and a single hemodialysis. The staff of the outpatient charging window of the first hospital in the city reported a figure in his early 300s and told him that there was something wrong with the online payment system and that he had to go to the self-service machine to settle.
Lin Dayian walked to the self-service machine, plugged in the medical insurance card, and the display screen of the self-service machine was a string of red error messages:
There was an anomaly in the settlement of medical insurance. The medical insurance cost in the preferential treatment package: 420.0 yuan, the remaining cost of the annual medical insurance: 0.0 yuan, please check!
He thought there were two free dialysis sessions a week, but the staff told him that he couldn't prescribe free dialysis when the medicare ran out.
Lin Datian didn't hear clearly, or couldn't listen to it anymore. He raised his voice, "But I drive it for free!" The staff repeated the explanation several times, trying to reassure him, "It's the end of the year, and a lot of people are like this.".
After walking back and forth several times in the self-service machine and the artificial window, Lin Dayian's steps were getting faster and faster, the volume was much higher, a rude sentence was spoken, there was no following, and he did not know who to scold.
It was one of his rare moments of emotional outburst. Most of the time, Lin Datian is a good old man with no temper, carrying seven wolf cigarettes with red soft shells, a pack of 15 yuan, mainly used to distribute to others. This is his method of networking, which mainly includes colleagues, community security guards, and patients he meets in the hospital.
On the porch of a hospital in the city, a patient took a cigarette and gave Lin Datian 200 yuan. Lin Datian made a slight prevarication and accepted it. The money was returned to Lin Datian.
A few days later, he borrowed money from Lin Datian again, and Lin Datian had no money in his card, so he borrowed 300 yuan with his sister and transferred it to the other party. The patient is from Fuzhou City, lin Dayian feels that his life should be much better than his own, and he does not know why he has to borrow money. But he didn't ask much, and it was not easy to refuse.
Lin Datian attaches great importance to "relationship". At the beginning of the illness, he did peritoneal dialysis, half a year later, abdominal dialysis failed, he could not help but think, although the hospital does not accept red envelopes, he should still find a way to stuff the doctor before the operation; the only cement road in the village can not pass the door of his home; and the Yongtai County Red Cross Humanitarian Assistance that he applied for after several twists and turns, gave 1000 yuan in 2020, and he did not apply again in 2021, which he attributed to no "relationship".
Behind the "relationship" is his desire to be blessed.
The minimum guarantee is 400 yuan per month in the first half of 2021 and 630 yuan per month in the second half of the year. He could have returned to the village to apply for a minimum guarantee and then reimbursed, and could have reported one or two thousand yuan. Given the strained relationship between their family and the village, he decided that the application would be troublesome.
And he is afraid of affecting his mother's minimum guarantee, because a family can only have one low insurance place.
Fear this, fear that. In fact, in many cases, he can't understand, nor can he understand, "urban and rural residents' medical insurance, the amount of 120,000, the reimbursement rate of 60%. Others say that after the medical insurance quota is exhausted, I can continue to reimburse the urban and rural residents' serious illness insurance, but every time I call the Yongtai County Medical Insurance Center, it is a prompt "on the phone."" Lin Datian said.
Until 2022, there will be a new quota, which is his hope for this month.
Throughout December, Lin Day was in debt of about 10,000 yuan in Huabei and Borrowing, spent nearly 6,000 yuan on self-funded treatment, and another 4,000 yuan was to repay friends. In order to treat his illness, he borrowed 3800 yuan from the waiter who worked in the same restaurant. For several years, his friend did not urge him to return.
But recently, friends came home for the New Year and wanted to use money. Lin Datian cashed out from Huabei and returned him 4,000 yuan.
"If I can't go to work in the future, I won't be able to pay back my friends." Lin Datian explained it this way.
06 No way home
At the age of 40, Lin Datian is not familiar with his town or Fuzhou, where he is located. His past life and his present life have shrunk into isolated dots, surrounding the village where he grew up and where he works and sees a doctor.
In the square in the center of the town, there stood a huge white statue, Lin Datian said, that is Lin Zexu, in fact, it is the Song Dynasty famous Zhang Yuangan.
The father made up 100,000 yuan, enough for his son to buy a "half house" in the town, and was planning to buy a house, lin Dayian fell ill.
Most of the families in the village have moved to the town, and Lin Datian's parents still live in the old house. The old house was born with termites, and when it was tapped with its hands, the pillar made a crunching sound, and the inside was hollowed out. A few years ago, my father wanted to strengthen the house and buy cement, bricks and sand, but he stopped working because he could not afford to pay for labor. Today, cement is in the house, bricks are piled outside the door, and sand piles are full of fallen leaves.
Father cared more about the road than the house. The Lin family's house is on a dirt slope, and the cement road in the village skips the door of his house, leading to the small building that has been uninhabited for a long time in the distance, which is the village cadre's family.
Watching the gray-white cement road stretch into the distance, my father had to pull the stones himself and pave a path in front of his house. At the mention of this, the father's eyes were red, and the mother, who was in a good and bad state of mind, repeatedly said, "Be careful of talking."
Lin Datian blamed himself, "It is because I am sick that our family will get worse and worse." In the summer of 2021, Lin Dayian's grandmother was critically ill, and his family was reluctant to let him come back to visit. With a body of illness, Lin Datian was regarded as an ominous person, "Decline Boy!"
Life shouldn't be like that. When he was a child, Lin Datian was bold and very capable, and at the age of seven or eight, he dared to drive cattle alone for more than ten miles at night. The big children in the village beat him, and he couldn't resist, but he definitely didn't admit defeat in his mouth. In recent years, his memory has become worse and worse, but the events of his childhood are still vividly remembered. In addition, he was also impressed by the TV series "Under the Gate of Zhengyang".
The male protagonist in the play picks up rags and collects antiques, but also learns to cook, opens a restaurant, and rides the wave of reform and opening up, starting from scratch. The drama premiered in 2013, when Lin Datian had not yet been diagnosed with kidney disease, and he also worked in a restaurant, from a passer to a chef, accompanied by a girlfriend. In the good days of the TV series, he seems to be able to get the edge.
"Why is it so hard to sleep?"
"I don't think there's anything more painful than that."
"I've seen too many unfair things in the world, and my faith has been shaken a little, which is a terrible idea." 」
"You say what will happen in ten years, I can only laugh."
......
During the sleepless night, itching crawls all over the body. He sent many circles of friends expressing anger at the "kind of thing" that would happen, but did not specify what kind of thing it was.
"Next month will be much better." In early December, he consoled himself.
At the end of the month, what awaited him was the amount of money to be repaid by nearly 5,000 yuan. He first asked in the circle of friends, "Does the universal circle of friends have a business of making quick money?" For example, gang fights, black work, and the work of carrying corpses can be picked up", with three emojis covering their faces and crying.
After 13 minutes, he sent another message, "Demolition of the east wall to make up for the west wall." There was no way to "make quick money" or a "universal circle of friends," and he moved more than $3,000 to pay for next month.
The toxins in the body accumulate and cannot be discharged, and the melanin particles float to the surface of the skin, and when they are scratched, they will fall off the dirt of the black and dirty, and at the same time, there is a peculiar smell that seeps out, Lin Datian hates himself.
He thought about the village road, about his mother's illness. He swallowed five or six sleeping pills. He scratched his own skin. He repeatedly applied floral lotion and body lotion. He felt like his body was rotting.
The itch lingers, like termites in a roof pillar.
Editor's Epilogue:
"Provincial and municipal medical insurance will unify the closure of the information system from 21:00 on December 31, 2021 to 6:00 on January 4, 2022 to carry out the annual carry-forward of medical expenses." Medical expenses incurred by insured persons during the shutdown period, such as outpatient (emergency) diagnosis and critical illness rescue, shall be paid by the individual first, and after the information system is opened, the social security card or health care medical insurance card, medical record information, medical expense list, invoice, and valid bank account information (which shall be indicated as the account opening bank) shall be taken to the relevant handling agency, and the settlement and reimbursement procedures shall be handled in accordance with the relevant provisions of each co-ordination district."
Such a normal shutdown arrangement every year is particularly difficult for Lin Datian. This means that he has to pay for the two hemodialysis on January 1 and 3, 2022.
Fortunately, the new medicare payment quota has come into effect, and his hopes have landed.
Sources | the health community
Written by | Liu Dan
Edited | Chapter North Sea