2021, Floating Light 2022, The Sea of Stars | Lin Qiong

2021, a glimpse of the light

2022, Sea of Stars

Lin Qiong

The winter of 2021 is a little colder than in previous years, but the closer it gets to the end of the year, the more intimate the weather will burst into a bright smile. Fortunately, living in the southwest border of the motherland and the first city at the source of the Pearl River, even on the coldest days of the year, we can greet the new year with joy under the blue sky and white clouds and the care of the breeze and warm sun.

The 2021 that has just passed, wonderful, bland, stable, changeable, proud, frustrated, joyful, sad, as I have experienced in the past many years, alternately appeared and changed. I hope to be always accompanied by excitement and joy, but I always meet with blandness and sorrow. I gradually found that everyone's life is like the protagonist Fugui in the famous writer Yu Hua's novel "Alive", sweat and tears are intertwined, hard work and emotion are intertwined, joy and pain are mixed. Proud of the form, frustrated do not lose consciousness, the more difficult the time, the more efforts to manage ourselves, may be able to make us live better.

My 2021 is a year of "danger" and a year of surprises. This year, due to the complexity of affairs, restlessness, neglect of study, coupled with the occasional negative emotion, the number of literary works I created set a record in five years, but these few works allowed me to unexpectedly receive the most awards. On the occasion of the centenary of the founding of the Communist Party of China, the essay collection, propaganda, and online evaluation contest organized by relevant departments gave me the opportunity to praise the times, praise my hometown, and show myself, which made me both happy and happy. Seven honors, such as the second prize of the "Into My Green Life" essay and the third prize of the "Welcoming the Centenary of the Founding of the Communist Party of China" Nanzhong Cuancheng Cup Literature Competition, not only made me feel the short-term joy, but also made me experience the joy of cultivation and the meaning of persistence. They remind me to work hard toward what I think and what I want to be angry in my heart, but they also remind me to remember those who have given me care, help, care and encouragement in the journey of life, and those who have touched the heartstrings. I often exhort myself with these awards when I am frustrated: keep going, don't give up, and the ordinary self can also create miracles that I am proud of.

In 2021, because of the wild mushroom poisoning incident last year, I know more and more how to cherish my body, strolling, brisk walking, cycling, let me appreciate the city I live in, different morning light, sun, sunset, different crowds, traffic, street markets, but also found a different self. The most different thing is that I have a new understanding of prose creation, and this difference is all due to the tireless guidance, suggestions and encouragement of the two writers and teachers. Under their patience, I revised and polished a long essay I created more than ten times, and in the process of refining the work over and over again, I gradually explored more methods and techniques for refining titles, making words and sentences, and planning the layout of the article, and took a more solid step in the journey from "writing" to "writing well". If the articles I have created in the past are buds that want to bloom, then this manuscript is the first blooming flower, it may not be as delicate as imagined, but it is beautiful and flexible, and it chooses to be presented in my vision at the end of 2021, even if it is short-lived, it also needs me to use my life to favor, remember, and feel nostalgic.

In 2021, the biggest regret is to miss an exam with a difference of 0.5 points. Although I know that the pros and cons of admission or not are equal, I am particularly concerned about it. Because I am almost a year old, I can take the exam, the opportunity is not easy, and missing is forever. However, the strength is not good, excessive care, coupled with the succession of emergencies before the exam, disturbed the mood, with a difference of 0.5 points, did not have the opportunity to interview. Although I knew that the written test score was low, even if I was lucky enough to enter the interview, the odds of winning were very small, but I still couldn't suppress my sad feelings, because this was the only time I didn't enter the interview. In the days to come, I will remind myself with this exam: In the long journey of life, with a slight gap of 0.5, missed, why not just an exam? Only by respecting life, fearing responsibility, never slacking off, never giving up, and striving to make up for deficiencies, narrow gaps, and reduce mistakes can we be better ourselves. If you have worked hard, you have regrets, but you also have no regrets.

I have to say that in 2021, I have the biggest fear since I joined the work, and even because of this indescribable fear, I fell into the trap of knowing that it is not worth it, but I have to discern and fight with a worthy heart. In the past, I only regarded "Every time God closes a door, he will open a window" as a comforting word, and even sometimes when I use this sentence to comfort others, I can't help but ask myself, where is this window? However, with the increase of age, the increase of experience, especially when the ray of light in the desperate situation comes into view again, I suddenly find that every journey I have walked or a horse or a river or a high mountain and water adventure, every moment I have experienced or warmed people's hearts or cold and fallen, and every place I have enjoyed or colorful or mottled scenery, is not it the door that is closed by heaven, or the window that is opened? To this end, I gradually let go of the past concerns, worries and considerations about gain and loss, love and harm, excellence and mediocrity. I believe that kindness is human nature, as long as you live with kindness, gratitude, and enterprising heart, even if you step on thorns, your steps are still firm and powerful; as long as you have sunshine in your heart, the sunshine will always illuminate us through another window. In the past, whether good or bad, only a glimpse of the light should be flashed; the future, can be expected, only wish the stars and the sea.

In 2021, in addition to some awards and an essay, what I unexpectedly gained was a TV series titled "The Sea of Stars" - a girl who became an orphan at the age of 13, after the painful loss of her parents, the abuse of relatives, the lack of access to college, the helplessness of her lover to stay away, etc., still smiles at life, throws "sunshine" into suffering, tolerates harm, and grows like a snow lotus on the snowy mountains of the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau, blooming crystalline and brilliant. If a classmate's spiritual message in the circle of friends is a good medicine for me to heal the sadness and laziness of the occasional birth, then "Sea of Stars" is a good recipe for arousing my reflection on life. It made me understand that although we cannot be as far-reaching as the sea, we can strive to practice as wide-open eyes, broad knowledge and broad minds as the sea, because time passes, there is no night without stars, and every night when the stars twinkle will not be brilliant.

As the bells of 2022 ring, I lean against the window, looking up at the deep night sky and expecting the stars to fill the sky in the endless memories of 2021 and "The Sea of Stars". Then, with this beautiful hope in mind, he slowly closed the curtains and separated the curtains of the night on the other side. I know that waking up is a new day, a new year; I hope, waking up, is a new day, a new year.

In 2022, I will continue to love the stars and love the sea. May all eyes be as far as the eye can see!