Text | Snow reminiscence
In the face of Xiao Ran's questioning, Han Ling's heart had already reached the brink of collapse. She couldn't understand why a man who had once loved her deeply should treat her with such a despicable means. On that ghostly night, on the seashore where two gangsters were intent on her and forcibly hurt her, was she not enough to bear the grief? Why does this man have to admit that she was raped before she gives up? If marriage is on the left and freedom is on the right, she knows that she has no choice but to exile herself.
This is the era of the rise of online literature, by the author of the best-selling online article "Chengdu, Please Forget Me Tonight" Murong Xuecun left a fragment in another 120,000-word novel, this work is called "Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right".
This is a work that will be overlooked, if it were not for Deng Chao and Dong Jie starring in the TV series "Ten Years of Love" adapted from it, it would probably be drowned in the vast sea of literature like most online articles.
I paid attention to its initial preference for online literature, the first online novel I read in my youth memory was "The First Intimate Contact", the most impressive was "Give Me a Cigarette", and the most memorable was "Step by Step".
However, after I watched "Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right", a depressed and unspeakable pain always lingered in my heart. If money and love are placed at opposite ends of the scale, is there really no way to balance?
Adapted from the TV series "Ten Years of Love" from "Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right"
I was very touched by the innocent love between Xiao Ran and Han Ling in school, in order to meet the beloved, Xiao Ran could brave the cold to wait for Han Ling thousands of miles away, and his determination and persistence touched the heart of the girl. Like all men and women in love, they have dreams and leave their hometowns together to pursue their dreams. However, on the road of pursuing his dreams, Xiao Ran gradually ignored Han Ling and lost himself. When they finally no longer have to squeeze into a rental house, when they have their own villa, the abundance of money makes the people they once loved drift away.
Like most successful men, Xiao Ran, who became a rich man, began a life of spending time and drinking, he forgot the children that Han Ling miscarried for him, and he forgot the promise he had made to Han Ling. His value is getting higher and higher, he plays more and more openly, he will name Hong Kong and Taiwan stars to accompany him for a night, and he will even stuff ping-pong balls into the body of actresses. He did everything he could, he burned money to buy excitement. He began to vigorously promote the young actor Wei Yuan into the entertainment circle, and Wei Yuan, who was not willing to be only a lover, even sent Xiao Ran's underwear to Han Ling...
TV drama version of Xiao Ran and Han Ling
Probably after doing something bad, the man was always worried about the same treatment, so Xiao Ran sent someone to monitor Han Ling every day. Faced with the provocation of her lover and the imprisonment of life, the miserable Han Ling was depressed, and every late night, she would wander in the empty villa. Until one day, Han Ling walked out of the house, and as she walked to the beach, she was defiled by two gangsters. So there was the scene at the beginning of this article, Xiao Ran did not care that Han Ling was frightened, but kept asking Han Ling if he was really missing. At this moment, Han Ling actually had an ominous premonition in his heart, and the gangsters who just appeared in those two dark nights were actually arranged by Xiao Ran, the person next to his pillow. Sad and desperate, Han Ling completely severed ties with Xiao Ran.
Some people couldn't figure out why Xiao Ran was so cruel to Han Ling, I think, this was probably because of the pain of his love but couldn't let go, and he needed to give himself a reason to give up Han Ling. After all, Xiao Ran was not actually betraying love, but only betraying his soul. Every time he saw the Han Ling who had not changed in the slightest, he would see his unbearable self at this time, and he would think of the lost past. He wanted to destroy Han Ling, but he didn't want to bow to himself, so he had to break his dream.
When "Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right" was adapted into "Ten Years of Love", Deng Chao once refused to star in this film and television drama, and the reason he gave was: "This work is too gray." ”
Yes, it's really intimidating, it's dirty and unbearable to look at.
However, I do not want to summarize it as gray literature, I am more accustomed to calling Murong Xuecun's works "heartbreak literature", every word has the power of the heart, and every story is like a mirror, shining into the void of life, seeing broken hope. It's hard to say exactly what you feel in his work, but there's a sad despair that gripped the heart, suffocating the heartbreak tone that one can't help but identify with.
"That city, maybe it's just your imagination. It appears overnight, as illusory and beautiful as a mirage, and the closer you get, the more you can't see it. You stare at it, cry for it, laugh for it, and over time you finally realize that it is just a shadow of you. —"Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right"
What exactly is Shenzhen like? Murong Xuecun said: I don't agree with him, Xiao Ran did not betray love, he just sold his soul. In that era of hard work, Xiao Ran and Han Ling, who had just graduated, were obviously luckier than more people, but Xiao Ran paid a painful price for his success.
Some people say that Murong Xuecun is cruel, but in fact, you can't face the truth of life. "Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right" just spreads the reality in front of you, Murong Xuecun is more like a diner, with a left hand knife and a right fork, little by little, cutting open the bloody side of life for people to see.
I liked the ending that Murong arranged for this book, Xiao Ran, who enjoyed the glory, could not wrap his lonely and empty heart with money, and Han Ling, who he used all his strength to force away, always stood on the tip of his heart, but their harm to each other could no longer be removed.
After all the prosperity, I still miss the love of my heart when I return. After Xiao Ran realized that he could buy everything with money, but he could no longer get Han Ling, his life had no meaning. So, on that night when Chinese New Year's Eve had nowhere to go, he remembered the day when he had desperately tried to find Han Ling, stepped on the acceleration, and galloped to send himself to the end of his life.
Learning to cherish is what I saw in Murong's writings. It's like when we look up at the icy night sky, and there's always a star shining for itself. People often think that they can deceive the whole world, but they cannot disguise their hearts.
We are always afraid that at some stage we suddenly read a book, read a movie, and that must be a lot of experience. Just like "Journey to the West", I used to think that the samurai who appeared at the end of the sunset was actually just to round a beautiful dream. Recently, I suddenly understood that it is not a dream, it is the you and me in life, it is everyone in the thousands of earthly worlds.
Every adult, every day is doing multiple choice questions, it may not be as difficult as choosing to save Cangsheng or save Zixia, but it is also the accumulation of every little thing that has finally become a big thing in life.
You may not think that the person you once gave up may be the cinnabar mole that has left a lifetime of imprint on your heart.
Finally, I offer a passage from the book, and if you have been touched by it, I would like to hear your story.
"The sky is full of stars outside the window, and the grass and trees in Shenzhen in June are verdant. The wind blew, the wind blew through the past, and wandered low in the street market with swaying lights and shadows for a long time, like a sigh that snaked in life. —"Heaven to the Left, Shenzhen to the Right"
A little ink in the heart Story hides mountains and rivers
Words are spirits that have fallen into the mortal world
The soul can only be free in the sea of books
May my words warm you