Eighty-three-year-old Sasuke Onui recalls his past, and the first thing that comes to mind is Haruka's face when she was thirty-seven years old.
"The well-contoured melon seed has a nose and eyes that seem to have been plucked with cute fingers, so delicate that it looks as if it is fleeting."
At that time, Chunqin had been blind for more than twenty years, but in the eyes of outsiders, although it was blind, it was more like closing her eyes. Therefore, the biggest difference between deaf and blind people is that deaf people raise their eyebrows in order to listen to others, tilt their heads, and look silly, while blind people sit quietly and bow their eyebrows, looking like they are closed and contemplative, making people unconsciously feel a sense of awe.
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This Sasuke Oni is a disciple of Haruka, a servant of Haruka who takes care of her blindness, and a lover who has never acknowledged a relationship. Before Haruka went blind, she was delicate and lovely, kind and kind, and after she lost her sight at the age of nine, she was grumpy and moody, and at this time Sasuke Oni was thirteen years old and was sent to Haruka to serve her life. Soon after, Sasuke became the only servant accepted by Haruka. She felt that he was more honest than anyone, not talking too much, not adding trouble, and it was in line with her thoughts.
Whenever Haruka practiced guzheng and three strings, Sasuke was with him, and over time, the music that Harumen learned naturally entered his ears, and Sasuke's musical hobby was developed. Even after he later earned the name of "Inspector", Sasuke always said that his skills were far inferior to Haruka, which was talented and Sasuke was the result of hard work.
Sasuke Oni is like the sea, haruka is like a needle, no matter how you stick to the sea, it will be absorbed. Later, Haruka and Sasuke actually expired their married lives, but Haruka treated Sasuke like a slave. Once Sasuke had a toothache, his right cheek was red and swollen, and he was miserable, Chunqin asked him to cover his feet, because his chest was cold, Sasuke had to use his cheeks to replace his chest, and he was scolded by Chunqin, he was not only sad, but also smugly praised the soft soles of Chunqin's feet.
Chunqin is inexplicably pregnant, everyone thinks that Sasuke did it, but thinking that Haruka is already a blind person, with Sasuke to take care of, and giving him a name is not a good thing, did not expect Sasuke to admit that the child is his doing, Chunqin also denied it, the two sang a harmony, making things more confusing. After the birth of the child, he was adopted, and soon after, Haruka took Sasuke's hand and went to practice art.
Until Chunqin's death, the two were not justifiably together, and everyone had already adopted the form of acquiescence to identify. If so, it would be fine, but the author is after all the devilish Junichiro Tanizaki, the jealous pursuit of female beauty, so that the story is about to end, so that Haruka is not only blind, but also disfigured, so that Sasuke Oni must also make a choice. Early one morning, Sasuke stabbed his blind eyes and then said to Haruka, "Master, I am blind, so I will never see your face for the rest of my life." Haruka fell into a long period of silent contemplation, but this contemplation was the first time in so many years that she had responded to Sasuke's love. For the first time in his life, Sasuke felt himself living in these few minutes of silent joy, which is more or less what is called empathy and equality.
Reading this, I have to be shocked by Sasuke Oni's extreme and deformed love. After Haruka's death, Sasuke Oni lived alone for twenty-one years, but his image of Haruka became more and more obvious in his dreams. This seemingly unworldly love, throwing away the form, makes people aware of the possibility of a love, equality and paranoia, self-esteem and humility, both lose and balance each other.
Isn't that ubiquitous in real life?