The story of a little girl

Hello! Hello everyone! My name is Xue'er, when I was 3 years old, my father died of illness, my mother left me with my sister, so I grew up with my grandparents, my mother did not want me, but my grandmother had to leave me behind, not to let my mother take away, because of the idea of patriarchy at that time, my grandparents did not like girls very much, they all liked boys, blamed my mother for not giving birth to a son, bullying my mother

There is no way for the mother to leave the house with her sister, I think everyone should be able to understand that the child who lost his parents is a lack of love, so I grew up to 7 years old with my grandparents, during this period I remember very clearly that my grandfather often beat me and scolded me, as long as he was in a bad mood, he gave me something to find trouble, and the New Year gave me two brothers, that is, the two sons of the uncle's family gave 1 yuan, and gave me 0.5 yuan From this matter, you should be able to see it!

I sometimes wonder if my life is not good, just like this, when I was in the second grade of elementary school, my grandmother also died, when I heard the news, I felt that God had made a joke for me again, as if it was a big deal, I was thinking, what should I do, grandma is gone, no one cares about me, I remember I was crying so sad, but the truth is so cruel, after the funeral of grandma they discussed my affairs

Although I was only 7 years old at that time, but I remember very clearly, a lot of cousins said to let her mother take away, but my aunt said that we can't let her mother take away, we are all so big, can't be cheap her mother, my aunt said she didn't want it, she couldn't afford it, and finally I was left behind at the strong request of my uncle, my uncle and my father were brothers, so I stayed in my uncle's aunt's house, and I really got a lot of sins in his family over the years

I remember that at that time, there were a lot of farm work in the family, there were more than a dozen cattle in the family, there were more than 60 sheep, at that time I was inconvenient to eat water, I had to take that kind of big wooden barrel to the ditch to drag up, the eldest brother often beat me, he rode on the cow, I drove the cattle for him in the back, if I didn't catch well, the cow ran, he blamed me, beat me, beat me to death, at that time my uncle and aunt went to the county town to sell apples, they left, my brother beat me, once, he told me to lift the two stones weighing 10 pounds and run in the yard, and he couldn't let the stones fall. If he falls off he hits me again

At that time, when I was often herding sheep in the mountains, I thought that I might as well die, at least I didn't have to suffer alive, I didn't know how many times I cried outside, what was the use! I remember once my brother told me to jump down from that pit, I almost jumped down, he scolded me again, he said let me jump I will jump, in fact, I was thinking that instead of being tortured every day and being bullied, I should jump down and be happy.

Every time he beat me, I can't let me tell my uncle and aunt, if I say it, the next time my uncle and aunt are not at home, he will definitely beat me, I remember that the blue and purple pieces on my legs were all beaten by my brother, and our neighbors have seen my brother beat me several times, they have said to my uncle and aunt, I am timid and have a lot to do with him beating me, I am particularly scared when I see him, I am full of cold war, I can't forgive him in this life

I've never been sick and no one cares, I sleep on the kang and no one cares, let's talk about my aunt! Fierce heart, lost 30 yuan at a time, not to say that I stole it, but really did not take it, just like that was wronged, she also beat me, said I ate inside and outside, let me get out of her house, said to raise so big, but also learned to steal things, she knows to provoke dissension, harmful my uncle also started to beat me, that is, thicker than the thumb of the stick hit me rolling around in the yard, you say that such a person deserves to be forgiven?

I still remember once when I came home from school in the afternoon to herd sheep, when I came back in the evening, my aunt felt that I had not filled the sheep, so she scolded me, saying that you are the same as your mother, not a good thing, and then I cried in my heart, she felt that I was crying, she said me, you cry, cry again, don't eat, but I was really sad, the tears couldn't stop flowing down, she suddenly threw the bowl and chopsticks out, the rice didn't let me eat, threw it out to feed enough, she said that it was better to give the rice to the dog than to give me food, and pushed me out of the house. They finished eating and locked the door and wouldn't let me eat.

These are some of the things I lived in my aunt's house, and I just said some of the things that I remember vividly, and of course there are many, many more, so I won't say them.

In this way, I went out to work after graduating from junior high school, and just began to stay in my hometown for two years, in these two years, the money I earned was taken away by my uncles and aunts, and I worked hard every day until more than two o'clock in the morning, and every month my salary was taken away by them.

Since I went to Kunshan, Jiangsu in 2016, I did not pay them money, asked me if I did not give, because at that time I took my own driver's license, plus I studied makeup classes, spent a lot of money, I did not want to give them, so I talked about an object in Kunshan, three months to discuss things well, married, when talking about the bride price, I opened my mouth and asked people to ask for 300,000, do you think a rural family can come up with so much money? In the end, the net bride price was 180,000, which was already quite a lot, at that time I told my uncle 120,000, he resolutely disagreed, and I had no right to speak, so I could only agree!

Just for this bride price I hated my uncle and aunt more and more deeply, at that time to the padlock money gave 200 yuan, in their eyes I was worth 200 yuan, at that time my husband's attitude was very bad, I remember very clearly, when my uncle asked me to go out to work in the past few years to earn money, he said let me take it out for me as a dowry, he did not want, said good, you want 180,000 how can you not bear to take out 30,000 to give me as dowry money, but also worry about my money to go out to work, is it a human thing? So we got married, and it took most of the day for my husband's house to arrive, and I really regret it now that I shouldn't have gone that far in the first place.

Since I got married for three years, I have never asked me how I am doing, whether it is good or not, how my in-laws have these problems, I have no contact at all, the opportunity to contact me for a year is very small, the phone call is for the family's affairs, saying who is whose son or daughter is married and asks me if I want to take the money with me, I actually want to break off relations with them from the moment they want 180,000 dowry, just when they have their child support for me in these years! But my mother-in-law disagreed, saying that I couldn't do this.

Actually, how to say it! I'm also fateful! You said that marrying a good man in charge is okay, the result is not very ideal, I married my husband for three years, just married three months when pregnant, pregnant to four months when the child failed to keep, you do not know, I was that reaction at the time, I also know the pain of pregnancy, but did not expect it to be so difficult, bitter I also recognized, and finally the child has not been retained, you say I can not be sad? What's even more infuriating is that my husband was still working in Kunshan, I thought that people were making money, and as a result, people lay in the room every day playing games, playing mobile phones, spending money on this credit card, you talk about how cruel such people's hearts are, the daughter-in-law did surgery in her hometown, she didn't have a penny, and she also brushed more than 10,000 on the credit card, I don't know how to describe it, just for this matter, we almost divorced.

Everyone also knows that we got married 180,000 bride price, after marriage, I owe more than 200,000 yuan, he is not good at making money, he is lazy every day, he does not help the family to repay the money, he can't even mix himself, such a man I have a future with him? Is there a future? There is no way to call his parents and say that if your son has always been like this, we will divorce, and finally under the persuasion of his parents, it is better, until now the monthly salary is less than 5000, there are no children, there is a child, can he support me and the children? I go out to make money and no one cares, I can't make money with my children at home, so I have to work my own!

Mainly because I am still sick, a poor person ran to our county to see a doctor and be hospitalized, maybe others can't experience the taste of a hospitalization! The potion hung I wanted to go to the toilet but no one helped me take the potion bottle, I could only endure, hold back, wait for a bottle of potion to hang up before going to the toilet, I don't believe that people are like this, the daughter-in-law is hospitalized, the husband does not ask.

I don't think everyone's life can be smooth, but there is always a side that sees the sun! It's impossible to be in the dark all the time! There is no way I can only look forward now, and it is not a step to go!