Text: Teng Xiaoqi
Figure: All from the network
For a moment I suddenly thought about what life should be like.
I looked at the words flashing in my mind, and suddenly smiled, I am also a college graduate who likes to read, and it is good to be admitted to the adult undergraduate of Nanjing University, but I rarely mean to say it; although I am currently planning a big event, but before it starts, I do not want to mention it; it is like this, I actually have such a philosophical problem.
Some people say that you are twenty-seven or eight, so old, and you don't consider lifelong events, but let your family worry, I think it seems a little reasonable; others say that you are only twenty-seven or eight, it is the best age in life, you should work hard, you should live for yourself, getting married and having children is not a trivial matter, you need to think carefully, you can't make a decision easily; some people say, see what you think.
So what do I think myself?
I am twenty-seven or eight this year, life experience is not rich, but it is not shallow, life is not so smooth, experienced a major change, felt countless times can not last the moment, but with time have endured; I have undergone traditional education, know what is right and what is wrong, of course there will be selfishness, but there is no use; I feel that I am my own, not how to do it is useless; in this way, I seem to be a bit feudal; but what I want, rely on myself to fight, There is always nothing wrong with not following the path of crookedness.
Feelings, I look forward to having such a person, can live the life of two people, but I still can't seem to convince myself to enter the palace of marriage with whomever I want, my mother always said, should not read to me, read more books, which led to my current work. But I still feel that if I just endure for a while, I can harvest a relationship that can be expected for the rest of my life, I am willing to wait, and I don't care about anyone's opinion and discussion; if I only want to get married and gamble for the rest of my life, I still can't do it.
I also don't have any single addiction, just look forward to having someone who I understand his embarrassment, who understands my helplessness, just fine. But it's very difficult, like my idea in the eyes of the family is that your vision is too high; but I like some people, really good looking, but the education is not very good; I have also chosen some people, the education is good, the family is good, but in the end they still did not come together; they all have a congenital condition is that I have feelings, what is this feeling, who knows, I only know that when two people are together, I am happy and happy, but I have not been able to go to the end, in fact, everyone has problems, Because none of them are the last ones.
I like to read Zhang Jiajia's books: Passing Through Your World, The Ferryman, Let Me Stay with You, A Commissary by the Clouds, and Heaven Tour.
In his story, there is always a character who has the identity of living in the real world, but always faces the injustice of life, such as Cheng Shuang, who is suffering from cancer, such as Xiao Ju, who can't live long...
Sometimes I wonder, this is obviously a story, why can't you give a happy ending; later I learned that in fact, the story is alluded to life; but not everyone can usher in the final happy ending; many people are confused, through life, sad, sad; but you can't say that he is unhappy.
When I first watched "Paradise Tour", as the text went from this page to the next, I looked at the tragic life of the protagonist, and I always thought of Yu Hua's "Alive"; you see, in fact, when you feel sad, there will really be someone more miserable than you.
When I first met Xiao ju, a seven-year-old girl, she had already suffered from brain cancer and would soon die, her mother worked hard to earn money to treat her, and his father abandoned them.
Xiao Ju said that the doctor told me that I earned every day of my life, but why should I consume it in the hospital.
Looking at the way Xiao ju traveled with "me", I immediately thought of Cheng Shuang in "There is a Commissary by the Clouds", the same terminal illness, the same denial of life, the same active life, just a seven-year-old, a hard time to live to seventeen...
Even if it is a tragic story, there will still be an element of happiness.
For example, Xiaoju thinks that "I" is crying in the toilet, but "I" is actually eating beef noodles sent by the boss in order not to disturb her news.
Xiao Ju knew how I ate alone, angry, indignant, and reprimanded me for stealing food; the angry live broadcast spit out all of "my" situation: I was put on a green hat by my wife, and then abandoned, my mother was sent to a nursing home, and "I" now live a poor and destitute life.
A lively and cute little girl gradually came to mind, standing on the bed with her waist crossed, clenching her small fist, pointing to the man holding beef noodles and hanging a noodle at the corner of her mouth, which was so funny.
"I" did not blame Xiaoju, but went to the new city together, met the fans who frantically complained about "me" in the live broadcast room, and used their little time to tell them that even if the haunted house is going to go out of business, even if there are only two ghosts, you must persist.
After reading the book, I naturally knew the ending of some people, such as this is a realistic book, there is no strange process, so that Xiaoju can not leave this world..... How the people in the book end, you see that not every novel will arrange an ending.
Not to mention life.
I seem to cry every time I read Zhang Jiajia's book; when Wang Yingying leaves, when Xiao Ju says goodbye, I don't know why; probably the text hints at the arrival of parting, and few people really like parting.
Even if you listen to cheerful music, but the eyes linger on the words, the tears will still remain, which seems to be a kind of strength.
After reading this "Paradise Tour", I saw Zhang Jiajia's self-statement, it turns out that no one can go smoothly, even if it seems to us to be a writer or an artist with unlimited scenery.
You'll see that he tells you with every story "Live, live well." ”
When I finally finished reading it, I had a feeling in a trance that there were still people who were seriously writing books.
Zhang Jiajia has experienced a lot to have such a good story for us to see; Xiao Zhan has experienced such an Internet storm, which makes us understand that he did not choose the wrong person to believe.
However, in fact, if I can, I hope more and more that he can be plain, simple, smooth, and safe, and come to us, and it doesn't matter if the time is a little later.