Today's China's attitude towards Zhang Ailing is very ambiguous, on the one hand, the students, literary youth and the booming market are enthusiastically pursuing her, on the other hand, the academic community with the right to speak intentionally or unintentionally ignores, in the two flows between the two, although its own style is inevitably difficult to set the tone, these contradictions have artificially added a bit of mystery to this legendary female writer.
Author Zhang Ailing
Nanfang Shuo said that in the ups and downs of the times, there will eventually be two kinds of "voter" type writers who will be raised and pushed up, one to make the times rise through ardent criticism, such as Lu Xun; and the other is cold observation, using the damage of the times to pile up the immortality of literature, such as Zhang Ailing.
The novel "The Grudge Girl" feels mournful just by listening to the name, but after actually reading it, you will find that there is still a mockery in it.
I wanted to understand a woman's life through this novel, and I also wanted to answer the question - what happened to the woman who married into the rich?
The story is not complicated, but the mood after reading it is complicated.
Unlike many stories, the story of a bitter girl begins with "playing a rogue".
Shanghai slept early at that time, especially in the city, and there were no electric lights installed. Around eight o'clock on the summer night, the dusk had just precipitated, the sky was bright, the blue sky, the house below was inky black, it was sediment, and the human voice also hummed down. "Big girl! Buy sesame oil! ”
"What oil to buy so late?" Hurry up, bring the bottle. ”
She held out her hand and was grabbed by him.
"Pull the hand, big girl, pull the hand."
"Dead man!" She screamed. "Kill a thousand knives!"
He muttered to himself with a sly smile and contentment, "Ma You Xi Shi." ”
Yin Di is a beautiful girl.
Her family is poor, she has to rely on the marriage to make plans for her future, Yin Di has a good feeling for the young guy in the opposite pharmacy, but this guy is a little cowardly and shy, and she is a girl who is even more difficult to open her mouth. The matchmaker came to the door again to mention a family affair, it was a big family, to be the new daughter-in-law of the second young master, it sounded beautiful, but this second master Yao had asthma, and people shrank into a ball. Although the brother-in-law is obsessed with the latter, she is not forcing her, at this time, she has to make a choice.
If Yin Di is a girl full of romantic fantasies, she will firmly choose to stand on the side of hazy love, and even biased to say that Yin Di is only a better family, and she is also very likely to stand on the side of love. But such an assumption is meaningless, because Yin Di holds a rare opportunity in that era - one person gets married, and the chicken and dog ascend to heaven!
This is a real opportunity, a real opportunity to "turn over the serfs and sing", not to mention that Yin Di is not a person who is willing to be poor forever, she is a woman with a good appearance, but also a poor woman full of ambition and hope, plus her future husband is weak, and a heavy embarrassment disguises a heavy freedom, at this point, she will be brave and brave to enter the rich.
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The more beautiful she was, the sadder she became at this time, and not only herself, but even the people watching next to her often had unspeakable regrets. Beautiful girls, regardless of their origins, always have unlimited prospects, or should be unfathomable, and she herself has the mystery of fate. Once married, a queen dies, or a prostitute dies, and no one knows which one. ”
She was poor and afraid, and she had had enough of the pain of not having money, so she became Yao Er's grandmother.
As soon as the yao family's gate entered, there was no turning back.
The family is big and there are many people, at a glance, they can see through her from a small family, few people open their eyes to her, and the domestic servants who look like spirits understand Yindi's status very well.
There was no warmth in the room, and her husband's flaws made Chai Yindi begin to fall into fanatical desires: desire for the body, desire for money, desire for love.
Finally, she broke through the taboo with the prodigal son of the family, Third Master Yao.
Yao Sanye has become a substitute for love, body and sex, she is afraid that things will be exposed, but while enjoying such ambiguity, she is also worried that Yao Sanye will poke this matter out, but such a stimulus is not another kind of pleasure?
Finally, the second master died, and then the trumpet of freedom sounded—and the old lady of the family died too.
The Yao family is about to split up, she took the second grandfather's children orphaned and widowed to share the property that is not very polished, but it is always the return of suffering for so long, she went out to live alone.
She clutched the money in her hand tightly, extremely searching, she couldn't help it, seeing that the family would only go in and out of the house, but there was still a place in her heart that was still restless, that is, Third Master Yao.
Even this bit of restlessness was completely shattered after a meeting.
He didn't talk to her or leave. Sometimes she didn't speak for half a day, and she didn't look for something to say, deliberately giving him a chance to quit.
But the silence in the semi-darkness does not feel stiff, but very tasty. If a servant walked by and saw them sitting dark and dark, what would he say? But she sat still, afraid of breaking a single strand of their relationship. Little by little the darkness increased, little by little, as slowly as honey, and gradually sat down in a new element, thicker than the air, a time of more than ten and a half years ago.
He also lingered on the past, which could be heard in his voice.
There was a knowing smile in their voices in the darkness.
In such an ambiguous environment, it seems that they all recall the past, but at this time, the debt collectors outside let her know the real purpose of his trip - to borrow money!
Yin Di rose up a sense of shame and gave him a slap, and the two of them stopped thinking about it.
Without love and big smoke, Yin Di struggled in that family, smoked a lot with her asthmatic husband, and finally boiled herself into a smoker.
She even smoked a lot of smoke for her son in order to control him.
Today's young people do not eat tobacco, and now they are playing with dancers and making divorces. If he ate a cigarette and squatted quietly at home, the Feng family would not object. One day, like her, he remembered to live at home and put this lamp on the bed, and wanted it to be lit forever. She wasn't afraid anymore, he couldn't run, the kite's line was in her hand.
In order to keep her son, Yin Di also advocated marrying her son to a daughter-in-law, and after the daughter-in-law married back, she tortured her daughter-in-law to death little by little, and the desire to possess made Yin Di lose her humanity.
In those rushed years, she felt war, death, decay, and she was accompanied by her smoking gun to resist the bleak situation.
At the end of the novel, Yin Di recalls her youth, the rogue man and the phrase "Big girl!" ”。
The story comes to an end here, and in other words, remember our title?
What happened to the woman who married into the rich?
Others watched her have money, freedom, and the style of being the master of her own home, but only she herself secretly recalled, what day led her to this road? She wants to remember the time she has spent decades in bitter water.
Looking at the gradual deformation in the time, the girl who was once naïve and ignorant and in love has changed into the appearance she is now, even if Yin Di becomes economically solid, it is difficult for us as spectators to say, it is worth it!
Previous online surveys asked, if your significant other does not love you in a marriage, but she/he is willing to give you a large sum of money every month, can you accept such a marriage? The answer at the bottom is clear: And this kind of good thing?
It is not a secret, when I first saw this problem, I was almost happy to go back, there is such a other half, simply not too cool, enjoy the protection of marriage, do not have to be responsible, anyway, she / he does not love me, psychologically there is no burden, this is a person's life? This is paradise! This is the ocean of joy?!
But today I'm going to make a different point, that is, never overestimate your tolerance for a loveless marriage, even if you feel absolutely prepared, think twice.
Ma yay! Oh again! (Is my style)
Back to "The Grudge Girl", friends who are familiar with Zhang Ailing have read a little meaning, and this "Grudge Girl" and "The Golden Lock" are too similar. In fact, "The Grudge Girl" is Zhang Ailing's rewriting of her short story "The Golden Lock", "The Grudge Girl" is not created by Zhang Ailing in a whim, but out of the love of "The Golden Lock", after years of brewing and precipitation.
Zhang Ailing's creation of "Complaining Girl" is not a simple deletion or expansion of the story of "Golden Lock", but in a more concentrated way to operate the story of the heroine Chai Yindi, you can see that Yindi is not as charming and spicy as Cao Qiqiao, always hiding a hint of bitterness and sadness under the crazy action, like a faint sky blue after the rainstorm, people have no time to resent this rainstorm, they can only look at the blue in a daze.
So "The Grudge Girl" has its own flavor. It stared at the cold, could not see any obvious sadness or joy, only felt that the days were slowly sinking, and it would not be long before people would grow old, so when Yin Di recalled the past, it was like a world away.
In contrast to blindly criticizing YinDi, Wang Dewei said, "When Yindi finally joined the ranks of etiquette and cannibalism, the struggle she experienced was not necessarily inferior to the feat of a new woman breaking through the snare."
Although most of Zhang Ailing's novels are not social, they are beyond the horizons of those characters who are intoxicated by the closed world, and the reader can always vaguely realize that behind the story is a turbulent world.
"The Grudge Girl", what a good title.
Yin Di has been complaining all her life, complaining that her brother and sister-in-law have nothing to do, complaining about her husband's disability, complaining about the injustice of the Yao family, complaining about her son's estrangement, but she is just complaining, and does not actually do anything to change, using this resentment to entangle herself until she has become a part of the darkness, and then to devour the next generation of life that should be bright.
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