For Yin Di, who has become a mother, the moon in the past seems to be even bigger and rounder than the current one.
The light is bright, and the river is leisurely. It reminded her of the lingering summer nights and the annoying feelings of her youth.
It was the most beautiful period of her life, but just because of a wrong marriage, Dahao Shaohua was like a wet paper boat, and it went down like a swirling silence.
At that time, she was still the sesame oil Xishi in the sesame oil shop, and when her parents died, she helped her brother and sister-in-law in the shop.
Because of the curved willow eyebrows and the extremely thin waist, it is inevitable that they are the covetous objects of the single youth in the town.
Yindi is like a beautiful legend in the streets and alleys, which is remembered by men, and often harassed by second-rate people under the guise of buying oil.
It seems that a beautiful and unmarried girl like her will always have such troubles, but beauty is like a fruit, although it often attracts countless flies, but there are always times when it is not fresh.
So my brother and sister-in-law would always mention marriage to her when she was free, "You, it's time to get married."
Yin Di knew that they just wanted to throw away her burden and get another gift money by the way.
When it comes to her life's events, in fact, she already has a crush in her heart, that is, Xiao Liu, a guy in the pharmacy on the other side of the street.
He looks handsome and handsome, and Yin Di can't avoid the young girl Huaichun, and she has a little admiration for him in her heart.
Xiao Liu also had an interest in Yindi, so he entrusted the matchmaker to talk to Yindi's grandparents.
The second elder told Yin Di that they were all elders in the family, and their hearts were only for Yin Di's good.
Unfortunately, Xiao Liu's family was poor, and although Yin Di liked his appearance, he could not avoid being a little picky, so he temporarily shelved this matter.
Who knew that in the evening, a matchmaker came to the door to propose to Yin Di, and the other party was still the second young master of the Yao family on the rich side.
This matchmaker always has a mouth, and can always blow the bad into the good, and three points into twelve points.
She was full of praise for the talent and handsome appearance of the Second Young Master, but she was a little eye disease.
After Yin Di listened, she couldn't help but feel a little itchy in her heart, and she longed for the world of the paper drunk gold fan.
So she finally chose to forget Xiao Liu and accepted the marriage. After choosing an auspicious day, Yin Di quickly married her.
Soon it was the day of returning to the door, and my brother and sister-in-law bought a banquet for guests.
Neighbors are crowded around the street, competing to watch the bustle.
This was a golden phoenix flying out of the mountain nest, but I didn't know how the second young master was born with a clean and handsome appearance.
After the sound of firecrackers, everyone held their breath, and the bride got out of the car, but her face was full of sorrow.
The bridegroom soon got out of the palanquin, but was carried out by the slaves, only to see that his eyes were crooked, his back was hunched over, and his face was miserable like a leper.
There was an instant of silence all around, and everyone felt very embarrassed when they saw this scene.
The brother and sister-in-law also felt that their faces were dull, and the matchmaker who had no conscience had already slipped away.
Although the bridegroom is very different from what the matchmaker said, the ceremony of returning to the door still has to be carried out.
After the ancestors were sacrificed, the two newcomers sat together and listened to The Happy Lady say auspicious words.
Yin Di's heart was full of grievances, after the ceremony, she could no longer stand the sneering eyes of everyone, so she used the excuse that her body was not happy, and quietly went upstairs to rest alone.
At this time, Yin Di's feet were still covered with golden bells, and as she walked, the bells shook gently and made a crisp sound, like a shackle made of gold, which made Yin Di gradually feel dull and suffocated.
Soon after, the sister-in-law also went upstairs to comfort Yin Di, and now that the matter was over, she had to be patient with the girl.
However, Yin Di only felt embarrassed, looking down from the upstairs window, the handsome little Liu was still standing across the street, but from then on, she and he were people of the two worlds, and they would never intersect with each other again.
Thinking of this, her heart was even more full of resentment. She complained about her wife and sister-in-law, but she was more resentful of herself.
Yin Di couldn't help but cry secretly, and in this way, she married into the Yao family with a grudge.
It's just that a big family like the Yao family looks rich and glorious from the outside, which is enviable, but in fact, there are many troubles on the inside.
Not only is life as dull as stagnant water, but there are also intrigues between concubines.
Grandma Da Shao and Grandma San Shao, who entered the door earlier than her, were all Miss Qianjin with heads and faces, and only Yin Di was the daughter of a poor family.
Besides, Yin Di's husband is still disabled, so they don't look up to her much.
In the Yao Mansion, the upper and lower levels are very clear, and even the matter of getting up early every morning to boil water must be paid attention to in order.
The old lady's subordinates enjoy the right of priority, and Yindi's subordinate mother-in-law is often the most marginalized.
Because of her humble origins, in order to consolidate her position in the house, Yin Di had to serve her husband every day with bird's nest shark fin soup.
However, her disabled husband, because of his strong inferiority complex, did not get out of bed several times a year.
All day long it is either lying in a daze or smoking a big cigarette, someone is hungry to pass on food, someone is thirsty to deliver tea, a small bed is his whole world, and he is a deformed monster raised in bed.
Yin Di was not accustomed to such waste, she got up very early every day, and then she brushed her hair and makeup, and hurried to ask the old lady for peace in her lace-intricate robe.
It's just that Yin Di came from a poor background, and in the eyes of the old-school aristocrats, whatever she did was wrong.
However, I got up early, and I was ridiculed by the old lady as a countryman, and I got used to getting up early.
But even if she was wronged, she did not dare to return her mouth, for fear of upsetting the old lady.
In the old days, the deep boudoir life of the rich had always been boring and dull, especially the women who were locked up in the golden bird cage.
When the men spend their days outside drinking and not leaving the house all day, they stay together to do housework and gossip.
Or what jewelry was bought today, who had a child again, and so on.
On this day, several concubines gathered together to peel almonds, and in the small talk, the third grandmother talked about playing mahjong, and she deliberately wanted to make Yin Di ugly, so she asked her to call the second young master out to make a table of mahjong.
Her words were full of ridicule, and Yin Di was impatient to hear such words, so she went straight to the side and played with the wind chimes with her hands in boredom, but she inadvertently caught a glimpse of the Third Young Master coming from afar.
The Third Young Master was the younger brother of Yin Di's husband, born a talented man, funny and flowery, I don't know how many women have fallen under his sweet words.
He went straight upstairs, and he didn't even shy away from the female relatives in the room, still giggling, Yin Di saw him borrow shoes to flirt with the young grandmother, and his heart was also itchy.
So she also took the opportunity to come forward to talk, and the two flirted and messed up, but the lady of the main room was so angry that she threw away the things in her hand and left.
Yin Di and the Third Young Master became more and more unscrupulous, and the Third Young Master secretly walked away with the armor worn on Yin Di's fingers, and had to let Yin Di sing the first song before he could return it, and the latter was already blushing with shame.
In the end, someone returned, interrupting the ambiguous atmosphere between the two.
With the contrast of the Third Young Master, Yin Di felt more and more that she was married like a dead person.
On this day, she was embroidering under the lamp while gossiping with her husband, saying that the family's expenses were too large, and the Third Young Master always went to the storeroom to steal things, and perhaps the Yao Mansion was about to fall.
She grunted for half a day, who knew that the other party did not have any reaction, and what Yin Di hated most was her husband's numb look.
All day long you only know how to smoke a big cigarette and immerse yourself in your own world and don't care about anything.
Or they cling to the Buddha's beads every day, as if they were their own treasures.
Speaking of this, Yin Di was angry, so she deliberately bullied her husband into looking bad, secretly took his Buddha beads to crush them one by one, while also sinisterly laughing and laughing that she was holding walnuts.
Although Yin Di longed for her husband to die immediately every day, she still had to sleep with him every night.
A year later, Yin Di became pregnant and gave birth to a son in the first womb.
She is also a mother and a noble child, and her status in the concubines is also a little higher, and the old lady is even more satisfied with her daughter-in-law, and rewards her with a lot of gold and silver jewelry.
Yin Di enjoyed the praise and service of everyone, and when her sister-in-law came to visit, she could not help but sigh.
Although Yindi's status is rising, there is still one thing that needs to be solved urgently, that is, the problem of the full moon ceremony.
The brother and sister-in-law were very poor and could not get the full moon ceremony on the table, and Yin Di was forced to take out the jewelry from her box and let them be discarded.
In a rich family like the Yao family, it is a shame to take the jewelry head to pawn, if it is overdue and cannot be redeemed, Yin Di bluntly said that she really wants a rope to hang.
Who knows that when several people discussed, they were already heard and laughed half to death by the beards.
Yin Di was even more angry in her heart, why was her brother and sister-in-law so poor and sour, even with her being looked down upon.
Fortunately, this little episode passed quickly, and it was the annual Buddha's birthday, and for the blessing of a silver son, the old lady took everyone in the house to the temple to incense.
While everyone was playing mahjong, Yin Di hugged her son and said that she wanted to go out to breathe, and walked through the corridor of the Buddhist temple, and she looked around boredly as she walked.
Who knew, he met the Third Young Master wearing a brocade coat and wearing Western sunglasses and walking towards her slowly.
At this moment, Yin Di felt that her heart was beating a few points faster.
The two got along in private, inevitably there was another ambiguous burst of open guns and dark arrows, lawsuits in the words, the Third Young Master intended to hook up, and Yin Di did not resist.
The more the two talked, the more they entered the harbor, and later the Third Young Master directly put the baby on the futon and wanted to do such a thing with her in front of the Buddha.
Yin Di married a cripple in her youth, and her heart was already very bitter, and now there is such a charming young master to hook up, where there is no hook.
The two were in love, who knew that the Third Young Master suddenly woke up and walked away, she only knew that she was really miserable, if the Third Young Master also wanted to leave her, her life would be bleak from then on.
Looking at the back of the lover's determination, Yin Di's heart also gradually withered to death.
What Yin Di did not expect was that as soon as she came home, her child had a fever.
Her husband was angry with her again, not only that, but also threw her with a teacup, but fortunately yindi avoided her.
Yin Di and the Third Young Master's private love husband knew more or less, and only hated himself for being a cripple, so he could only lose his temper with Yin Di all day, beating and scolding.
At night, Yin Di got up in a cloak, the moon was cold and miserable, and quietly smeared on the window, but it hooked out the lonely thoughts in people's hearts.
Yin Di finally took another look at her sleeping son, thinking that her private affair had been exposed, and her lover also abandoned her, pushing the window to look at the moon, and her heart just wanted to die.
So Yin Di moved a table and planned to commit suicide, who knew that she was found and saved, and she was lucky to have a life left.
She survived, but her husband's side could not bear the humiliation and took advantage of the lack of preparation and committed suicide.
As soon as her husband died, it was like a big stone pressing on her heart, and Yin Di was finally free. Shortly thereafter, the old lady also fell ill and died.
The Yao family dispersed, and the uncles and uncles of the clan competed to divide the family property.
When it was Yindi's turn, they bullied her for not having power or power, and most of the property distributed to her was real estate. During the war years, the situation was turbulent, the property could be worth a few dollars, and she also had a son, Yuxi.
So Yin Di cried and ran to the old lady's spiritual seat and asked the old lady to make the decision for her, who knew that those clansmen were so cold-hearted that they went straight to it.
Time flies, and in a flash it is many years. Yin Di's son had grown up, and the beautiful young woman of the original was much older.
Today, she has long moved out and lives in a divided villa.
She doesn't have much money, but she is already very rich compared to the average family.
Over the years, Yin Di deeply realized that only money is the thing that can give her the most sense of security, so she takes her share of the money very tightly.
When Yin Di was leaning against the window and watching the moon, the butler came to report that the Third Young Master had come.
Yin Di was overjoyed, and she dressed herself up well before coming out to pick up the guests.
The two had not seen each other for many years, but they both still carried a different ambiguous atmosphere, and Yin Di even brought out rose wine.
As she spoke, she felt like the dried rose petals, bringing people back to life.
The two were vaguely intimate, who knew that the doorman heard a knock on the door.
It turned out that there were a few pimps outside, and they had come to find the Third Young Master to make him pay back.
From the words of several people, Yin Di realized that he had been deceived, and the Third Young Master did not come to her to tell her about his old feelings, but to target her money.
Seeing that it had been debunked, the Third Young Master simply did not pretend.
Yin Di swept several people out of the house, and his heart just felt empty.
So she began to go out to the theater every day, like the rich wives of other families, or smoke a lot of cigarettes.
One day she found her son Yuxi mysterious, and only after asking for clarification did she know that after the day of the fight, the Third Young Master held a grudge, so she took Yuxi in and out of the fireworks place all day, and also borrowed a usurious loan to him, wanting to bring him bad.
Yin Di knew and scolded his son, who knew that the latter was unruly, seeing that his son disobeyed discipline, thinking back to the past, Yin Di's heart resented suddenly.
She resented herself for listening to the lies of the matchmaker and marrying a cripple, resenting the rudeness of the people under her, and resenting the third young master's weak feelings.
She couldn't grasp all the beautiful things in the world, and now even her own son was out of control, so she was angry, so she deliberately coaxed her son Yuxi to learn to smoke opium in her own way, so that he wouldn't run out all day.
Knowing that he had reached the age of marriage, he also deliberately asked the matchmaker to find a bride for him to tie his heart.
At Yindi's suggestion, Yuxi married a rich lady, Zhishou.
The matchmaker said that her appearance was crazy, who knew that on the wedding day, the moment the hijab was lifted, everyone was dumbfounded.
Now this scene is like the time when Yin Di returned to the door many years ago.
The bride in front of her looked mediocre and had a big mouth of blood, which was quite different from what the matchmaker boasted, and this made Yin Di half dead.
Not only did he fall for the matchmaker, but his son also repeated the same mistakes.
So she said bitterly in front of everyone, "We, the bride, have enough lips to cut a large plate."
And Yuxi was not satisfied with this daughter-in-law, even if he married his wife, he still spent every day outside drinking.
After this, Yin Di became more and more bad for Zhi Shou, not only embarrassing her everywhere, but also often uttering evil words, making fun of her shortcomings in front of many wives.
Although Zhishou looks ugly, he is not bad, where can he withstand such a cold reception.
Her husband did not love, and her mother-in-law always abused her, so she quickly became worried, became ill, and coughed non-stop every day.
The doctor came to see it, but said it was tuberculosis, which is a disease to be contagious. Yin Di immediately and mercilessly drove Zhi Shou to the next room to live.
In order to rush the joy, he also helped a young lady in the house to become a little wife.
Firecrackers sounded, the sky was bustling, and the new lady laughed into a flower.
However, Zhishou, who was wrapped around the sickbed and pale, had to force a smile to send red envelopes to the newcomers.
Yin Di was very satisfied with her new daughter-in-law, and when she looked back at Zhi Shou again, she became more and more unpleasant, always feeling that she was just as obstructive as her dead ghost husband, and wished that the other party would die early.
So Yin Di took a stool every day, sat outside the Zhishou Gate, and said some harsh and vicious curse words.
Yuxi, on the other hand, smoked opium all day and ignored Zhishou's bullying.
A year later, the winter girl with a fighting stomach gave birth to a child for Yuxi, and the three of them were more like a family together.
Although Zhishou is still a righteous young grandmother, there are countless things that are secretly bullied and excluded.
Her illness did not heal well, but became more and more serious, and she could only look at her husband and others with joy and laughter.
One night, she remembered the good old days when she used to be a girl, so she went to the living room with a sluggish look, and said crazy things in her mouth, saying that she wanted to see the carriage.
Yin Di couldn't see this obscure person, and frowned and asked the servants to drive her back to the lower room.
Who knows that Zhi's life is not long, this time it is to return to the light, and it will not be long before the incense disappears.
Seeing this tragic situation, Yuxi and The Winter Maiden still had a hint of intolerance.
Yin Di, however, turned his heart sideways and directly asked people to inform the funeral home to pull the body away and burn it, so as to go to obscurity.
Time passed, and the Winter Maiden bore Yuxi several children.
The war outside is tight, and the family is getting more and more difficult, and Yindi's brother and sister-in-law often come to their house to borrow money.
In small talk, it is said that the city is becoming more and more empty, and many shops have closed their doors because of the war.
Yin Di didn't care about this, just lay on the bed smoking opium, and got by.
Just sighing about the past, Yin Di suddenly remembered a person, that is, Xiao Liu in the pharmacy.
She also remembered that he belonged to the snake, but the old youth, the golden age of her as a girl, could never come back.
If she had chosen a different path, what would have happened now?
Yin Di only felt that even at her age, her heart was still full of resentment, and she regretted it when she looked back on the past.
She shouldn't have married from the beginning, and after that, it was a wrong step. So Yin Di indulged herself in complaining about others, being bitter and mean, and just taking her own money seriously.
It was as if she were wearing a pair of shackles made of gold, but she also had to split the sharp shackles at the people around her. She treated her husband and daughter-in-law Zhishou viciously, spraying poisonous juices at the people around her, eager to vent her full of resentment to all the people around her.
So Yuxi became a puppet of opium, Zhishou died of desolation, and she herself always resented herself into a psychologically twisted and vicious person.
Even if she forced her husband and daughter-in-law Zhishou to die, she had no remorse. Looking back, what I miss most is that when she was young and carefree, how she should not have been in this life.
Only to say that the prosperity ends, the road is full of vicissitudes, life is just a gorgeous and empty robe, which is crawling with annoying lice. Yin Di was bound by money and the old society's stereotypes, and eventually became a psychologically twisted monster, leaving a sigh in vain.
People may suffer all kinds of misfortunes in their lives, but if they indulge their inner resentment to treat others viciously, it is nothing more than harming others and harming themselves, and people may wish to learn to look at the point.
Some netizens once said such a sentence: I always resent the person I sympathize with him; always love the person, I can't bear to hurt his heart, because as a person, always have to believe.