Hello everyone, I'm a new intern, Sissi.
Last week, Min Min talked to me and said that she was very upset, and she found that she seemed to like the hair small around her for more than ten years, and she was very uneasy and did not know how to face it.
It seems like a lot of crushes start with friends, including myself.
Yes, I didn't escape the nightmare of breeding other feelings in friendship. I've never dared to tell anyone that I failed to confess to my best friend.
Anin and I are very nice and good friends.
We've shared together stupid things that no one knows about, drinking together and talking about dreams about the future. We also cried on the phone in the middle of the night for the sacrifice of Iron Man, and even quarreled over such a small matter as "whether Zongzi eats meat dumplings or sweet dumplings".
I thought we could always stay in the best of friendships, but I didn't realize that another emotion was also unconsciously heating up.
If you're going to ask me, "When did you start realizing you like it?" In fact, for a while I couldn't answer it.
Was it that time?
I was bullied by my opponents during the match, and Anin was the first to rush over to protect me, scolding and encouraging me to believe in myself. That was probably the first time I realized that I liked Anin. Not only because of his verbal protection, but also because I was willing to believe his words, and he felt very at ease just standing next to me.
And when I couldn't answer his good wishes, "I wish we had always been good friends," I was sure why I wasn't willing to be good friends with him.
In my opinion, a crush is a very painful thing, and the degree of pain of a crush friend is even more serious. Although we were with each other day and night, doing the same things as lovers, I was always a good friend without a name.
I want to confess, I want to tell him my heart, but examples of crush confession failures abound, and the most frightening thing is that in the end I don't even have to do friends, I am a little hesitant.
But people are always greedy, at first you just want to be closer to him, then you want to be his best friend, and then you expect to be his lover.
His refusal was actually a predictable response, and he thought we were still fit to be friends. I think this is really a blessing in disguise, and the ending I bet on is at least the identity of a friend.
But I still lost, after emotionally crossing the line, it is not the end of the road you want to go that will leave the way for you, feelings are always a matter of two people.
After this balance is broken, all the embarrassment and contradictions come to the fore.
Min Min said: "I was rejected, and I still have to be friends I see every day, but I still can't put it down." "Of course, intentionally approaching, intentionally talking, are all manifestations that I can't accept just being an ordinary friend.
I knew he was hiding from me.
We used to give each other a look to know what the other was going to do next, but now we're even dodging the conversation. I've also really tried not to work hard in this friendship and I've found that he doesn't initiate contact and no longer shares his daily life.
After it took me so long to accept that we could only be friends, Anin told me with action that I couldn't even grasp the friendship.
So I chose the most decent approach, and slowly faded this friendship myself, as if this was the only way we could maintain the most comfortable distance.
There was no way for me to sit still under the care of his friendship, and there was no way for me to bless his relationship in the name of friendship. Even giving up on this friendship is the last thing I want to see.
A crush wrapped in friendship is like a lemon-flavored sandwich candy.
At first you eat more and more sweetly, so you try to know more, and finally the tip of your tongue licks the lemon-flavored sandwich, sour and sweet intertwined. For a moment the sour taste stimulates all your nerves, and the sweetness and the heart that wanted to know more at first seem to be gradually washed away by the sour taste.
I know that there are a lot of people who may be in the same state of crush as I do, although I can't tell you explicitly or whether Min Min wants to confess or not. But I know that a crush is a very hard thing, and if I don't puncture this crush, I may not be willing in this life.
There is no way, people are always greedy in front of love, always want to have all of them. So since love has come to love, no matter what the result is, not letting yourself regret is the best life experience.
Head image / Arren Aaren
Illustration / Drowning Knife
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