Editor's Note:
She is a talented "star second generation", but suffered from depression for six years because of her father's death. At its worst, she said, she wished she wouldn't wake up when she lay down. When two friends gave up their lives one after another, she finally decided to come out of depression. So she stood on the track of the marathon...
Who is Ouyang Jing?
168 IQ, multi-faceted personality. Daughter of the famous Taiwanese entertainer Tan Aizhen. 5 years of experience as a graphic model, photographer, musician. The design is talented, and the appearance is not like living in the world.
The modern section of "The Best Time" starring Shu Qi is based on her. In 2005, he starred in the movie "Alice's Mirror". In 2008, he wrote the long pseudo-science fiction novel "Cannibal Street".
Premature babies, the heart has a hole, the right eye is gradually blind to see only the color patch, and to take epilepsy drugs every day. In Manhattan for two years, living in a chaotic area, I once opened the door and looked at the frozen corpse. He has been an alcoholic, drug addicted, and in a band, and he cannot graduate because of a dispute with his teacher. Uncertain careers, models, actors, photographers, musicians, runners, self-proclaimed running missionaries...
She came out of major depression because of running, happy because of running, and gained strength because of running.
This article is compiled by Ouyang Jing's dictation, and the reference sources are Ouyang Jing's book "Hey, Run Together" and Wenhui Reading Weekly "Ouyang Jing's Running Life" and other materials.
The starting line of life is incomparably difficult
Due to long-term borrowing, when we were in the fifth grade of elementary school, our family owed millions of dollars in debt, which was a difficult number to repay at the time. Although it is still difficult for children to understand the legal process of "court auction", when I see my own door sealed, I still have great fear and resentment. Dad's health deteriorated, and on a sunny winter afternoon, Dad took a nap in his room and never woke up again.
In the 6 years when I suffered from the worst of my depression, I wandered between binge eating and anorexia, opened the refrigerator in the middle of the night to find raw meat to eat; long-term alcoholism, medication, resulting in poor memory, etc., I was very much hoping that I would not be able to get up after lying down. After that, two good friends gave up their lives one after another, which forced me to make up my mind to come out of depression. I was confused as to why they were giving up on themselves.
Before I came to this world, the starting line of my life was not smooth, but it seemed to predict that what I would complete in the future was an incredibly difficult marathon.
Because long-distance running has given me a new lease of life
I grew up with a very poor motor nerve; I couldn't get into the basket when I played basketball, couldn't play baseball, couldn't play football, and "sports" was a very unfulfilled thing for me, so I skipped physical education class. Teachers often use "running the playground" as a way to punish me, for me: running = punishment. And when he was in middle school, he was 70 kilograms fat, and he suffered from severe depression in high school... In any case, the "marathon" has nothing to do with my life.
In October 2011, Tan Dabao, the cat who had accompanied me for 13 years, suddenly passed away due to illness, and it was the most important family member for me and even my mother, and it was my spiritual pillar. But I had to go to Japan the next day to work as a model. That designer is my long-term idol, and it should be extremely happy to be a model for an idol brand, but there is suddenly one less relative in my life, and it is difficult to calm down after all.
I brought a pair of running shoes and planned to run in Tokyo at night (but I just wanted to run to a convenience store to buy a bottle of wine). The temperature was 6 degrees that night, and it was raining lightly; there were many professionally equipped people running at night on the streets of South Qingshan, perhaps practicing for the Honolulu Marathon in December? Or is it possible that Japanese people who are enthusiastic about long-distance running are running like this all the time?
In short, the two emotions of "extreme happiness" and "extreme sadness" exist in the brain at the same time, including the loneliness of a person in a foreign land. I was running in the cold air... I can't help but think of many, many things: my father on crutches (in fact, my father has left me for 18 years, and his appearance is a little blurry in my memory), myself weakened by depression, my friends who left this world, the setbacks I experienced when I left society too early, the warm and soft feeling when I held Tan Dabao...
Running and running, I cried, and I cried loudly. I feel incredible about my life experience for more than twenty years, a person who has endured such a huge pressure can get through, and now he is actually taking a big step and running, yes, "running", I never thought I would "run". Life is so unpredictable...
That night, I made up my mind that I would complete the full marathon. That night was October 2011.
The greatest positive energy in life
In April 2012, when the sky was dark, more than 10,000 girls on Ketagalan Avenue set off in good spirits after the sound of gunfire. In this girls' road running activity, each runner is running alone, but has the same goal and is moving in the same direction; it is the greatest positive energy I have ever experienced, and this positive energy is generated by tens of thousands of girls who "believe they can do it".
In October, I was on the track of the San Francisco Women's Marathon when I saw the back of an elderly female runner who had written the words "Survivor" and three names on her T-shirt. I ran behind her and looked at the text carefully to realize that she was a mother, and she was running to cheer for her own child with blood cancer.
The origin of all efforts in the past year and a half has been to prove that they have become stronger. My life has gone through a lonely childhood of bullying, a full six years of depression. There were a lot of people who didn't believe I was going to get better, didn't believe I could walk out, but I did. When I was groping for my life goals but running into walls everywhere, the cat Dabao, who had given me great comfort and strength, and was even regarded as my brother, left... I decided to give it a go: I'm going to accomplish a goal that I used to think I could never achieve, and I'm going to run a full marathon! Try it to know which direction life will go, and it is enough to prove that you have become stronger. No matter what difficulties I encounter in the days to come, I am confident that I will not return to the darkness of the past.
Running is a way to break through life's setbacks
I am very sure that the change of my personality is due to the relationship between practicing running, and in the process of exercising long-distance running, we will encounter a period called "wall-hitting period", as if there is an invisible high wall blocking the runner's face, so that our physical strength and mentality can not be loaded, and we feel as if we can no longer run. The best way to break through the wall-hitting period is to "take it easy". Frank Shorter, the 1972 Olympic marathon gold medalist, once said: "Experience has taught me that the most important thing is to keep moving forward, to concentrate on relaxing and running, and after a while the pain will pass and the smooth feeling will return." ”
He is talking about the way to break through the "wall-hitting period", but it is also a way to face setbacks in life.
Long-distance running is a philosophical sport, and there are few sports in the world that can be like long-distance running, and there are so many famous sayings circulating in the world. Long-distance running is also the simplest sport, and it can be done with just a big step. I believe that long-distance running is also a sport that represents "strength". At the Nagoya Women's Marathon, I saw male students on the side of the road cheering for runners with signs that said, "The girl who runs is the most beautiful girl," and I think he is absolutely right.
Sometimes, I really take pride in being a woman, we can love people emotionally, and we can also face challenges rationally. If the girl can still run confidently and firmly, it will be a beautiful landscape.
On March 30, 2021, Beijing Shangshan Charity Foundation, China Mental Health Association, and the China Branch of the International Bipolar Disorder Society jointly hosted the "Healthy Heart Run for Life" large-scale public welfare activity, which aims to arouse the public to exercise their body and mind through hiking/running and promote depression prevention and treatment.
July Jianxin Run, is in full swing, look forward to your joining, with us, from the "heart", "benefit" from the healthy run!