Everyone faces the weight of a person himself.
--Kaori Ekoku
Text | Zhang Yuehan
wine
Two days ago, heavy snow fell outside the window, and the whole city was trapped in a kind of severe cold. Inside the house, a grounded man silently took out a small Japanese stove and a small pot to match.
A small set, off-white, quite beautiful. There are also spicy cabbage, pork belly, chopped cheese, shrimp, squid, green onions, and onions that were previously stockpiled.
A small fire rises, pour oil. The onions and green onions are first fried, then all the ingredients except the pork belly are added in turn, and the Korean hot sauce is poured and stir-fried, and finally the pork belly is slowly added into slices. When the meat is cooked, sprinkle with chopped cheese, stir-fry appropriately, then reduce the heat, and when the whole soup is grunting, you can eat it.
Sit on a tatami mat along the bay window and place a hand stove in a small blanket draped over your knees. Then, open for a cold beer.
At this time, the plague seems to be far away from you, and at this time, you finally do not need to wear a mask. The community WeChat group is grabbing masks, 84, and alcohol every day, but the moment you eat a small pot and drink beer around the small stove, everything disappears.
The family stockpiled a variety of beers with different tastes: full, delicate, spicy, refreshing, bitter, soft... Pale Ayr, May Bork, Pearson, American Pale Lager. One of the most glamorous moments of beer is the "sizzling" sound when the cap is opened. In "My Story Is Long", Xiao Man turned on such a voice in her sister's ear, and she immediately calmed down.
Now only go in and out, life should be as frugal as possible, so red wine is too expensive, drinking beer seems to be a good alternative. If you miss Cabernet Sauvignon in particular, you go to the black IPA to find similarities; miss Chateaudouin very much, so the honey-scented wheat lager you try; if you want to drink Merlot, go to stout beer.
Starting with the softest and lightest beer and ending with the strongest beer in the refrigerator, the whole beer journey is a process from shallow to strong, from soft to bursting. In a beer, you seem to be able to travel the world.
book
In the afternoon, read Mey Satten's Diary of Living Alone. "It is strange to say that friends and love are not my real life, only being alone, exploring and discovering what is happening or has happened in this solitude is my real life." ...... It was only when I was alone, looking around the room, and reliving the conversations I had with it from the old days that I could fully appreciate the taste of life. ”
Watching "Diary of Living Alone" will indeed give you a feeling that is similar to when you read Haruki Murakami's novel, a unique world, only you can dive into, and that world, no one else can ever enter.
"Diary of Living Alone" describes some very ordinary scenes, sun, flowers, fog, dewdrops, breezes, but the author notes them and cherishes and appreciates them, which makes this kind of writing beautiful and elegant. We encounter these scenes every day, but dare you say, do you cherish them so much and give them the appreciation they deserve?
Living at home requires a rich imagination and a determination never to give up if you want to live well. Sato said he gets a joy when he gets up early to water the flowers , "because I'm meeting a simple need, a need to be alive."
So you, during this period of silence, can you think more clearly about yourself? The time that has passed, the contours are invisible and blurry after all, and during this period of staying at home, you may be able to really figure out what your "grasp" of time is.
Psychologist Eric Eriksen divides the life process into eight stages. Early adulthood faces intimacy and alienation, prime is inheritance and stagnation, and old age is perfection and despair. Think about where you are at this point, and what you should do next.
buy
There is a more bizarre phenomenon that the more can not be shipped, the more people's desire to shop. The orders that have been paid are piling up more and more, but the silence of the daily large pile of "pending shipments" is like a merciless mockery of you. I resent the anger of this fingertip toward something wider and more uncontrollable in the world.
Because I did too much housework, a small mouth was cracked in my hand, like a person's small mouth, so dumbly and laughingly nibbling at me, one by one. The wound was small, but deep and extremely painful. I became impatient again. Life is made up of many waits, and yet any wait, if it's too long, is really infuriating.
In the corridor outside the door, the property began to disinfect again. The smell of disinfectant water gradually drifted into my nose, and we were all in an environment where disinfectant water was over-infiltrated. When will you be able to smell the scent of natural flowers and dare to show your face hidden behind a mask? I hope you don't wait too long!
Sometimes, when I go out for the necessities of survival, every time I go out, I want to have the same four-layer protection and sterilization measures as in "Blood Plague". I can't help but want to wash my hands, which is also a major source of the crack in my fingers.
In fact, even Sato's "Diary of Living Alone" is not completely alone, he still goes to see old friends, buys him birthday gifts, and has some visits that he feels are "real people". We, at this moment, meet anyone who is wearing a mask, and there is a little anger toward anyone who does not pay attention to the gradual approaching distance. After all, this is a period of exposure that may be infected for 15 seconds.
good
Sometimes, in the afternoon, I make a pot of mint tea and fantasize about returning to the beautiful garden full of flowers and plants. At this time, I found that the time in my life is not blindly past, but also a thing called memory. You appreciate your memories as much as you appreciate a buddy whose presence in your life will only enrich you and light up your life, not meaninglessness.
A cup of tea can sometimes achieve such a great function, I can't even imagine it myself. "Every kind of calm exists in nature, in the way I feel like I am a part of her, even if it is an inconspicuous existence."
At the moment, our emotions are easily fluctuating, but kindness, even the slightest bit of kindness, as long as it is emitted, you will feel a real warmth. For example, occasionally asking if the mask is enough, the kindness of neighbors, and anything you can do at the moment.
In The Diary of a Solitary You will also read about the most ordinary, authentic, and minimal goodness of some people, which you can also do: the nun helped the local old man and bought a lunch for the child who ran away from home; the author read her letter and sent a check. Sometimes, we feel guilty about the slightness of our kindness, but in fact, any kindness, no matter how big or small, as long as there is, may be good.
Once, the first time I saw Zhang Ailing write "His monarchy is the same", I was young and did not understand it so deeply; later, when I saw this line again in hong Kong, I still did not feel it so clearly. Later, until I actually experienced the funeral, at that moment, I suddenly understood the weight of this sentence.
Life, any birth, as long as it is born, it is so precious. Even if you are "grounded" to live like this at this moment, you must cherish it. Each of us guards our own small window, and everyone must have their own piece of scenery. Stay at home, dig your own territory, then, when the ice is lifted and the warmth comes, you will cherish the hard-won freedom even more.
"Sometimes you have to endure a period of repression. If you can survive this time and pay attention to its disclosure and needs, you will get a kind of enlightenment. ”
Author Profile
Zhang Yuehan
He has published a collection of essays, "The Hustle of a Man," and a novel, "Flowers like a Pupil." The works focus on women's self-growth, emotional confusion, and urban psyche.
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