Qin Yi, 100 years old, passed away.
Looking back on the ups and downs of the past hundred years, Qin Yi once had two marriages.
And these two feelings are closely intertwined with the background of the times.
In the first relationship, Qin Yi met Chen Tianguo.
This is a man with violent tendencies.
It was 1938, and 16-year-old Qin Yi decided to leave Shanghai.
Growing up in Pudong, Shanghai, Qin Yi has never been outside of Shanghai.
Her family was originally well-off, but as the sixth child in the family,
By the time Qin Yi was born, the fall in the family road was inevitable.
After Qin Yi was born, her mother gave birth to four more brothers and sisters.
They were even sent to the nursery because their families could not afford to support them.
Qin Yi gradually grew up, because she received a new education, and her thinking gradually became progressive and trendy.
In 1938, with the changes in the general environment, Qin Yi decided to go to Wuhan.
Originally, she had discussed with her classmates to go together.
However, when it was time to leave, the classmates could not leave because of the obstruction of their families.
In the midst of the chaos, a young girl went out alone, which was really inconvenient.
But Qin Yi had already made up his mind and eventually went to Wuhan alone.
In the chaos, Qin Yi, a sixteen or seventeen-year-old girl, did not have any foothold at all.
So after staying in Wuhan for a short time, Qin Yi came to Chongqing in 1938.
It is located in the rear of the country, far from the war.
Qin Yi quickly found an errand for a document.
After gradually settling down, she often went to see various drama performances.
Once in the theater, Qin Yi, who looked outstanding, successfully attracted the attention of a director.
The director felt that Qin Yi was in good condition, took the initiative to talk to her, and suggested that she go to the drama troupe to become an actor.
She was a little girl who felt too abrupt and a little overwhelmed for a while.
However, the friend who watched the drama performance with Qin Yi found it very interesting and encouraged her to apply.
In this way, Qin Yi successfully joined an acting group called Zhongwan Theater Troupe through application.
She had never been systematically trained and studied in acting before, and everything was learned from scratch.
It seemed that she was destined to eat this bowl of rice, and soon Qin Yi entered the Chinese film studio from the drama troupe.
It was 1939, and 17-year-old Qin Yi was in the middle of miao's age.
Just after arriving at the film studio, she was taken in by Chen Tianguo, who was 11 years older than herself.
Chen Tianguo starred in many movies at that time, which can also be regarded as a big hit.
Qin Yi had not yet gained a foothold in the film studio, and Chen Tianguo pursued this beautiful Shanghai girl.
At first, Qin Yi was a little unacceptable, she was still young, and the key was that she did not have any experience in this area.
In the confusion, a man suddenly appeared like a mad cow ramming,
This not only made Qin Yi feel excited, but more than that, he was overwhelmed and even afraid.
After all, it was the 1930s, even if new social trends had rolled in.
But the openness of people's minds, especially in terms of emotions, is not the same as the present.
Seeing that Qin Yi's attitude towards himself was lukewarm, Chen Tianguo, as an older person, came over with feelings.
The offensive against Qin Yi's pursuit became even more fierce.
Some men will leave emotionally after hitting a wall,
Some men are more enthusiastic after being coldly rejected.
Chen Tianguo belongs to the latter type of men.
In the film studio, he almost did not leave Qin Yi every day.
On weekdays, he created various conditions and wanted to be alone with Qin Yi.
Qin Yi's attitude towards him was still the same as at the beginning.
It is not a thousand miles away, but it is only to maintain a kind of communication between colleagues.
Seeing that it was difficult to catch up, Chen Tianguo decided to play some "small tricks".
One day there was no work, Chen Tianguo told Qin Yi that the factory organized everyone to go out on an outing together.
Believing that it was true, Qin Yi was tricked by him into going to a mountain outside the city.
The two were alone, and Chen Tianguo once again mentioned his admiration for Qin Yi.
In addition to feeling deceived, Qin Yi felt a little overwhelmed.
And Chen Tianguo pressed forward step by step, he even pulled Qin Yi to a steep cliff,
Claiming that if Qin Yi did not agree to marry him, he would drag her to jump down together and martyr for love.
In this way, in the face of Chen Tianguo's small means, Qin Yi finally reluctantly agreed.
But Chen Tianguo was still not dead hearted, and later he simply concealed Qin Yi,
I sent a wedding invitation directly to other colleagues in the factory.
It is said that good women are afraid of pestering Lang, facing Chen Tianguo's death and stalking,
Qin Yi finally married him in 1939.
However, the combination with Chen Tianguo is a complete tragedy.
This man is not only extremely possessive, but also has the problem of alcoholism.
On the third day of marriage, Chen Tianguo came back drunk from outside.
Drunk and drunk in the house,
Qin Yi, who was not satisfied with Chen Tianguo's pursuit of himself,
Almost at the beginning of the new marriage, he separated from Chen Tianguo.
For the next four years or so, Qin Yi lived in the troubles and shadows of this drunkard.
Chen Tianguo intensified his efforts, and even more insulted Qin Yi.
When Qin Yi painfully decided to divorce, he found out that he was pregnant, so this decision was delayed.
The birth of her daughter did not change Chen Tianguo's attitude towards her, but on the contrary, it intensified.
Because of the difficulties in life, the husband even wanted to give his daughter away, and Qin Yi silently endured the humiliation for the sake of the child for six years.
In 1942, by chance, Qin Yi met the actor Jin Yan.
At that time, Jin Yan's wife was the movie actor Wang Renmei.
They didn't know each other, and this side of the relationship laid the groundwork for future unions.
Two years later, Qin Yi, who could not bear Chen Tianguo's torture,
With the help of Xia Yan and others, he fled Chongqing by boat.
Since then, her marriage with Chen Tianguo has completely ended.
In addition to her daughter, all that qin Yi has left in the past few years are painful memories.
After the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, Qin Yi returned to Shanghai.
When she later met Jin Yan again in Shanghai, both of them ended their unhappy marriages.
As a result, the two people went from a little familiarity to a later gradual interaction.
At that time, the place where Qin Yi lived was far away from the set.
After filming the night scene every day, Jin Yan felt that it was not safe for her to go back to the way back as a girl.
Therefore, he invited Qin Yi, if he was late in the handiwork one day, he could borrow it on the sofa of his house.
In this way, the two people did not hurry to communicate for more than a year.
On December 15, 1947, it was Qin Yi and Jin Yan who entered the palace of marriage.
The 7-year-old daughter also followed her mother to a new family.
Jin Yan regarded her as his own daughter and let her take the surname of Jin and named her Jin Feijiao.
At that time, both of them happened to be filming in Hong Kong, and their wedding banquet was also held in Hong Kong.
On that day, in the Cosmic Club in Central next to Queen's Road,
At that time, almost half of the big names in the cultural circles in China witnessed the wedding of the couple.
The specific organizers of the wedding were Wu Zuguang, Zhai Bozan, Ding Cong, Guo Moruo and others who were all guests.
Among them, Guo Moruo is also a witness to the marriage of the couple.
Guo Moruo wrote down double stars and jumped four seal characters on their marriage certificate.
Then, he gave the couple ten words: cherish love, cherish artistic life.
After all, both Qin Yi and Jin Yan had an unbearable past,
Guo Moruo hopes that the two people can go well in the second half of their lives.
In 1949, after marriage, Qin Yi gave birth to a son.
Xia Yan named the child Jin Jie.
However, for many years, Qin Yi has always called her son "little brother".
Also in this year, Qin Yi and her husband Jin Yan collaborated on the only film "Lost Love".
For a while after the marriage, the family did have a brief period of happiness.
But in the days that followed, Jin Yan and Qin Yi were frequently caught up in family quarrels.
A relatively common saying is that Qin Yi's acting career in the 1950s became wider and wider.
However, Jin Yan has become somewhat obscure from the "movie emperor" who was voted out before.
Once a man's career is overtaken by his wife, more or less will produce a gap mentality.
In addition to frequent quarrels, the two people will also have a long cold war.
In Jin Yan's view, after Qin Yi quarreled with himself, he ignored himself for a long time.
He could not feel tenderness in his wife's body, so the relationship between the two people soon became more and more strained.
Soon after, Qin Yi learned the news of a thunderbolt on a sunny day.
Jin Yan empathized and did not fall in love, and the object was still his sister Qin Wen.
For a while, Qin Yi was a little difficult to accept, and at first she thought it was a false rumor.
But it soon turned out that everything was true.
Qin Yi thought of divorcing Jin Yan, but Jin Yan did not agree.
When her daughter Jin Feijian was in her 20s, she told her mother that she was getting married.
The boyfriend's surname is Meng, he is from the countryside, and the two have been dating for less than a week.
After Qin Yi learned about it, he naturally disagreed, after all, he was a person who had experienced two marriages.
At that time, Qin Yi was still out of town and told her daughter that she would go back in a week or so.
However, Jin Fei did not listen to her mother's words at all, and before Qin Yi returned, she finished the wedding.
Qin Yi later found out that this surname Meng had a family in the countryside and 3 children.
Qin Yi quickly found her daughter, told her the truth, and asked her to divorce, but her daughter did not follow.
Jin Feijian did not want to believe that the mother and daughter had a big quarrel, and since then they have formed a deep contradiction.
It was not until 30 years later that the 55-year-old gradually came out of her hatred for her mother and began to re-understand her mother Qin Yi.
In 1957, when Jin Yan was filming the movie "Eagle in the Storm" in Qinghai,
In order to withstand the harsh local weather, he drank a lot of liquor.
Since then, Jin Yan has suffered from a serious stomach problem.
In 1962, during an operation, Jin Yan's stomach was again affected.
He could not feel any hunger when he ate, and he had to lie flat after eating.
Although the relationship with Jin Yan had already cracked, Qin Yi at this time still shouldered the heavy responsibility of taking care of Jin Yan.
What Qin Yi didn't expect was that her next suffering had just begun.
In 1965, Qin Yi was no longer able to act, and she was sent to work as a worker in a steam turbine factory in Hangzhou.
One day in May of that year, the Shanghai Film Studio suddenly brought her a message.
Jin Jie was sick and hurried back.
Qin Yi hurriedly took the train back to Shanghai, and just out of the train station, the car sent by the unit to pick her up was waiting.
The driver said a word directly, and I sent you to Longhua Psychiatric Hospital.
After Qin Yi listened, he almost collapsed on the ground.
Later, her son Jin Jie was diagnosed with schizophrenia.
That year, the "little brother" in her mouth was only 16 years old.
In an instant, her husband and Jin Yan and son all fell ill, and Qin Yi felt that the sky had fallen.
For the next six months, my son was treated in the hospital.
Qin Yi accompanied the child almost day and night.
It wasn't until the National Day that my son was finally able to say a clear word.
He told his mother that I knew I was sick and hadn't known before.
Qin Yi took his son out of the hospital.
However, shortly after his son was discharged from the hospital, Qin Yi gradually realized that something was wrong with his body.
Frequent tiredness struck again and again, and then the examination revealed that it was rectal cancer.
Her husband Jin Yan had already fallen down, and her son was also sick, and Qin Yi knew that she could not fall.
Next, she registered herself for medical treatment, and there was hardly a single relative around her.
Who knows that after surviving this paragraph, there is still suffering waiting for her.
In 1968, Qin Yi was sent to work on a suburban farm in Shanghai.
The care of her husband and son, Qin Yi can only entrust to her elderly mother.
However, just over a year after Qin Yi left home, her mother died.
After another three years, when Qin Yi returned home,
Her son had almost turned into a disheveled F-son.
Qin Yi did not dare to imagine how her husband and son survived in the past three years or so.
By 1978, his son had developed into a maniac.
The size is the same as adulthood, but the mind is constantly degenerating, and it is easy to beat people.
There was no way, Qin Yi could only take his son with him.
Even if she goes to a foreign country, she has to live with her son.
After restarting the performance and filming, Qin Yi worked on the set during the day.
At the end of the night, I also have to wash my son, feed medicine, cook food and eat.
Every time his son fell ill, Qin Yi held his head and let the child beat him.
She kept saying:
Hitting your mother's back can't hit your face, and if you break your face, your mother can't work tomorrow.
My son's illness grew heavier,
Her husband, Jin Yan, also died in 1983 after suffering from illness for more than two decades.
At this time, Qin Yi had already passed the year of Hua Jia,
For the rest of her life, she stayed with her son.
On Qin Yi's 70th birthday,
My son suddenly raised his glass and said, I will not argue with you again.
Listening to this sentence, Qin Yi's heart can be described as a mixture of five tastes.
As she grew older, her biggest worry was what her son would do after she was gone.
But what Qin Yi did not expect was that
In 2008, her 59-year-old son still came ahead of her.
At the time of his death, Qin Yi, who was old, had been with his son.
After his son left, Qin Yi was the only one left in the family.
At the beginning, Qin Yi was a little mentally confused every day.
It wasn't until later that Qin Yi slowly improved again.
Qin Yi, after a whole century.
She once said that in her life, she has experienced too many hardships and misfortunes.
But because I have a strong ability to bear it, I can slowly walk out of the pain every time.
Like all Chinese women in the 20th century, Qin Yi experienced all kinds of suffering.
The only difference is that many women her age often don't have the right to make their own choices when it comes to relationship issues.
Although Qin Yi experienced the failure of feelings and the pain of marriage,
But compared to the thousands of women of the same generation who can only endure in silence, Qin Yi can at least say no to misfortune and pain.
From this point of view, the progress of society and the advancement of ideas,
The significance of the psychological and emotional liberation of women is very significant.
But on the other hand, as a woman who has come all the way from the old times,
Even if women like Qin Yi liberated their minds,
But in the face of marriage and feelings, relative to the current young self,
They will also appear more or less traditional or even conservative.
Because of this, even in the face of the infidelity of the husband,
Qin Yi was also able to continue to take on the responsibilities of a wife and take care of her husband for many years.
This is a portrayal of Qin Yi's life, and it is also a portrayal of thousands of Contemporary Chinese women.
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