"You deleted me, but I can't delete you."

Text/An Dongyue

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01.

Deeply in love with someone, it will really be very spineless. Even if the other party provokes himself and hurts himself, he still can't say harsh words and can't do cruel things.

Even the other party has made clear its attitude, has no feelings for herself, still can't turn around and completely put it down, and always reserves a position for the other party in her heart, which no one can occupy.

She'll never forget that rainy day three months ago. That day, she was in a very bad mood because of some things at work, and she especially wanted to find someone to talk to, so she naturally thought of him.

However, when she opened WeChat to send him a message, a red exclamation point appeared in the dialog box and prompted: "Please send a friend request first, and the other party can pass the verification before you can chat." ”

He actually deleted her! She stared at the screen in a daze, unable to return to her senses for half a day, and her heart kept falling.

She never thought he would delete her. After all, they had loved so passionately. Although they later separated for some very complicated reasons, in her heart, he would always be the most loved person in her life.

She once said to him, no matter what the outcome is between us, my world will not allow you to disappear.

But now, he had quietly deleted her, leaving no word behind. His intention was obvious, he was going to withdraw from her world completely, but why?

She couldn't figure it out, she couldn't figure it out.

The rain was pouring down; her heart ached to the point of almost suffocation.

02.

The most heartbreaking thing in your feelings is that the people you deeply care about and worry about all the time have already thrown you out of the clouds. Your worries and worries cannot stir up even a ripple in the other person's heart.

That day, she returned home in a daze and didn't want to do anything, so she curled up on the couch alone and listened to Zhuang Xinyan's "After" over and over again, heard her heart break, and heard tears flowing into a river.

"The wind decides to go, how to keep the cloud, once resisted the entanglement of death, let go of the empty hand, the love is like flowing water, the water is always difficult to harvest, I am still standing at the intersection where you leave, leaving, since you have no heart, I should also let go, why should I be foolish and foolish and entangled..."

She very much wanted to let go of the song and stop being stupid, but when she thought that they had loved each other like that, but now they had become strangers, her heart hurt very much.

Some people say that there is always only one way to forget a relationship: time and new love. If time and new love can not make you forget a relationship, there is only one reason: the time is not long enough, the new love is not good enough.

It is undeniable that some people can indeed let time forget, and some feelings can indeed be replaced by new loves, but some people and some feelings cannot be forgotten or replaced in any way.

After all, she still couldn't let go of him, because she really loved him deeply and had no regrets.

There is a saying: "Feelings are voluntary, and there is no regret in doing things." ”

Perhaps, the world of feelings is like this, there is no value is not worth it, as long as you like your own love, it is worth it.

03.

He deleted her, but she didn't delete him.

Because, she was reluctant, she was afraid, afraid that one day he would regret it, wanted to add her again, but did not have the courage.

No matter why he deleted her, whether he would add her or not, she was there, always there, as long as he looked back and could see her at a glance.

Actually, she had his phone number, just didn't have the courage to call again.

In fact, she could write him an email, but she didn't know how to write.

After all, she was no longer his man, and he had the right to start a new life.

After all, her love, her attachment, is only her business.

For the rest of her life, she would reassure him that she would not be frightened by the wind or the rain.

His number, which she would never delete, would not block, was her last tenderness to him.

If one day he thinks of her and finds her, she can still smile and say to him, "I haven't seen her for a long time." ”

04.

There is a kind of love that makes you delete me, and I am still reluctant to delete you.

Such love is not humble, but tolerant and compassionate.

Truly loving someone cannot be determined under any circumstances.

Just like Zhang Ailing's love for Hu Lancheng, the world feels worthless for her, but she is willing, again and again, to pay for love regardless of return.

Perhaps, many people think that it is not necessary to reserve a trace of tenderness for someone who no longer loves themselves. But some people are like this, always tolerant and always compassionate to those they have loved deeply.

There is no such person in your address book, who is not often contacted, but will never be deleted. Even if one day, you find that the other party has deleted you, you still will not delete, because subconsciously always look forward to the day, the other party will take the initiative to add you back?

In this world, if there is a person who can always keep a tenderness, a tolerance, and a compassion for him, it is actually a very beautiful thing. What do you think?

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