Jiang Zuhui had a very famous mother: Ding Ling. Her birth is also very dramatic: she is the child of her mother in prison with her husband Feng Da, and she is also Ding Ling's only daughter.
After Ding Ling was released from prison, she quickly broke up with her husband Feng Da and made the decision to go to Yan'an.
Ding Ling is a bold woman, after the death of her first husband Hu Yepin, she chose Feng Da only because they had been "like-minded" and broke up after being released from prison, because Feng Da chose the Kuomintang, and her faith was the Communist Party.
After breaking up with Feng Da, the 32-year-old Ding Ling resolutely went to Yan'an.
Before arriving in Yan'an, Ding Ling sent her daughter back to her hometown, just like Jiang Zulin, the son born to Hu Yepin, this time, she did not show much reluctance. When she parted, her eyes revealed: more helplessness.
Ding Ling poses with her mother and son
After Ding Ling arrived in Yan'an, she devoted herself to her work with full enthusiasm, and she soon became a well-known writer in Yan'an with her outstanding talent and learning. It also means she's busier than she used to be.
When Jiang Zuhui was 4 years old, he arrived in Yan'an with his uncle. She did not know whether her coming to Yan'an was her mother's intention, in short, her life had taken a great turn.
After Jiang Zuhui arrived in Yan'an, she was sent to the Yan'an Security Nursery. At the foot of the Pagoda Mountain in Yan'an, she spent an unforgettable childhood. Unfortunately, in her childhood, there was almost no mother.
When a child is young, the love of parents for their children is companionship. But this "companionship", her father can't do it, and her mother Ding Ling can't do it. Ding Ling lives far from the nursery, and with her busy schedule, she rarely visits her daughter. Since there are very few "visits", care is even more difficult to talk about.
Jiang Zuhui was very unfamiliar with the word "mother", and for a long time, she even found the pronunciation of the word "mother" so difficult.
When Jiang Zuhui was 6 years old, her mother fell in love again, and she fell in love with Chen Ming, an actor who was more than ten years younger than herself, and this "uncle" was only 17 years older than her. When Jiang Zuhui was 8 years old, Chen Ming resolutely gave up his marriage and married Ding Ling.
Ding Ling and Chen Ming
When her mother had a new home, she would occasionally take her "home" to live. Because she is accustomed to the collective life of the nursery school and the school, when she goes to the "home", she is like a "string of relatives".
Jiang Zuhui sometimes went to the house and sat down, but she didn't know where her legs and hands should be placed. Her cramps were looked at by the sensitive Ding Ling. The clever Ding Ling didn't say anything, she sighed in her heart: "In the end, I didn't bring it with me, hey!" ”
Ding Ling very much wanted to repair the relationship between mother and daughter, and when she was in prison, she endured countless pains and humiliations in order to give birth to her. In order to raise her to grow up, she did her best in prison, who knows how difficult it is to support a child in prison! No one knew, only she Ding Ling knew.
But in the blink of an eye, for the sake of her career, she had to put down her daughter, both ends of a burden are too heavy, if she does not let go of one of them, their future, who will guarantee it!
When sending her daughter back to school, Jiang Zuhui would always politely say "thank you", and this "thank you" made Ding Ling's heart hurt for a while, but she couldn't do anything.
Ding Ling sometimes thinks that unless something comes out, our mother and daughter can get better.
People say "what to think", shortly after Ding Ling thought about it, she was notified by Yan Security: "Your daughter has scarlet fever, it will be contagious, please come and take it!" ”
After receiving the notice, Ding Ling was anxious, and in that era, this acute infectious disease would kill a child at any time. After seeing her daughter with a high fever, Ding Ling did not say a word, and she rushed to the hospital with her on her back.
In order to see her daughter, Ding Ling walked dozens of miles on her daughter's back, and sweat soaked her clothes, but she completely ignored it. Ding Ling was extremely scared, and her daughter was her spiritual sustenance and the strength she had to endure in prison. Without a daughter, Ding Ling was really unsure whether she could survive those difficult years.
Ding Ling (1938)
According to the doctor's instructions, Jiang Zuhui needed to be isolated for a long time. This means that Jiang Zuhui cannot return to school until she is well. Ding Ling kept nodding to the doctor and said, "I took her to live in the cave, I came to take care of her, I wrote down everything you said, she will be fine." ”
In this way, Jiang Zuhui was arranged by her mother into a cave, which was just above her mother's residence. Every day, Ding Ling stayed by her side, telling stories to her daughter and carrying her daughter to the toilet...
During that time, although Jiang Zuhui suffered from illness, she felt happier than ever. When she fell on her mother's back, she even had a strange intoxication, and decades later, when she recalled this past, she said with tears in her eyes:
"Every time she carried me, I put my ear on her back, and I listened to her heartbeat and my own heartbeat into a rhythm. At that time, I was a little proud, and it was no one else who carried me, it was my mother..."
Ordinary children feel that the ordinary "hug" and "back", here in Jiang Zuhui, but let her "strange intoxication", behind this reflects the lack of love on her way to growth.
After recovering from her illness, Jiang Zuhui returned to Yan'an Baoxiao again, her life returned to its original state, and she and her mother returned to the "old way". But after this time, Jiang Zuhui determined one thing: her mother loved her.
Jiang Zuhui, who was growing up slowly, began to think about things, and when she saw that her mother and Chen Ming'en loved each other, she even thought: Her mother loves her husband more, and her children may not be so important to her. When she thought like this, there was an unspeakable loss in her heart. Slowly, she began to find all kinds of reasons not to "go home" to visit them.
Ding Ling, Chen Ming, Jiang Zuhui and Jiang Zulin took a group photo
The longer Jiang Zuhui grew, the more like Ding Ling, someone always told her: You and your mother Ding Ling are really exactly the same. She had an unspeakable feeling about these words, and she slowly realized it here: her mother was a very famous woman.
At that time, Ding Ling was "hot" in Yan'an, and she served as the director of the "China Literary and Art Association", the deputy director of the Political Department of the Central Guard Corps, the editor-in-chief of the literary and art supplement of Jiefang Daily, and the vice chairman of the Shaanxi-Gansu-Ningxia Border Region Literary association. Her literary works, such as "When I Was in Kasumi Village" and "In the Hospital", have received great praise.
When Jiang Zuhui was 14 years old, Ding Ling also created "The Sun Shines on the Sangan River", which later won her the Stalin Literary and Art Prize in the Soviet Union. It was also in this year that Ding Ling violently interfered in her daughter's life.
When Jiang Zuhui was studying in Yan'an, she liked science and engineering like most of her classmates, and she especially liked chemistry. But her mother, in Moscow, watched Pushkin's lyrical adaptation of the ballet "Fountain of Tears" and asked her to learn dance.
Jiang Zuhui was very surprised, she said nothing and refused to agree, she even angrily reprimanded her mother, saying: "Since you were a child, you have not paid much attention to me, why should I listen to you?" Ding Ling strongly persuaded: "Using ballet to express the broad social reality is a bold attempt, and my daughter Ding Ling is suitable for doing this." ”
Without her daughter's consent, Ding Ling sent her to North Korea to learn dance. It was not until the Time of the War to Resist US Aggression and Aid Korea that she was taken back to China.
In those years in a foreign country, Jiang Zuhui had to embark on the road of dance, and she did not expect that she had slowly fallen in love with dance. After returning to China, she continued to study at the Central Drama Cadet Dance Troupe. Soon, because of her artistic potential, she was selected to be sent to the Soviet Union to work as a choreographer of ballet screenwriting.
Jiang Zuhui (Photo by Ding Ling)
When Jiang Zuhui was studying in the Soviet Union, she unexpectedly learned a shocking news in the newspaper: her mother had been beaten into an "anti-party clique." She was shocked by the news, and she refused to believe that her mother, who had sent her "Selected Works of Mao Zedong" when she went abroad, would be an "anti-party member."
Jiang Zuhui did not know that at that time, the country was in chaos, and her mother was even more overnight, and overnight, the vice chairman of the China Writers Association, the director of the Literature and Art Department of the Central Propaganda Department, and the editor-in-chief of "People's Literature" suddenly became the mastermind of the "Ding Ling and Chen Qixia anti-party clique." Jiang Zuhui's mother lost everything overnight and was sent to the Northern Wilderness for transformation.
In 1959, Jiang Zuhui, who had been studying in the Soviet Union for three years, was given a chance to return to China. On the day she was allowed to go to the Northern Wilderness to see her mother, her heart was full of mixed feelings. It was during this time that she learned that an important reason for her mother's conviction as "anti-party" was that she had given birth to her in a Kuomintang prison. Her accusers said: "If she and the Kuomintang are not in the same gang, can they get her to have a baby in prison?" ”
This news made Jiang Zuhui feel guilty, and she deeply felt that "she was tired of her mother."
Ding Ling's life in the Northern Wilderness was very difficult, she and Chen Ming lived in a thatched hut with an earthen wall of only 7 square meters, and she was also responsible for raising chickens and other work.
Originally, Jiang Zuhui thought that after her mother saw herself, she would cry and complain about her experience. To her surprise, she looked very positive and optimistic, and she excitedly took her daughter to visit the Northern Wilderness.
When the mother and daughter were reunited, Ding Ling only told her how the chickens she raised were, how the intellectual youth of the Northern Wilderness were, and she did not say a word about being beaten into a rightist. When they were separated, she said to her daughter:
"I'm pretty good, and I don't think much of you, so rest assured, study hard." I have so many intellectual youths here, and they are all my daughters. ”
Ding Ling (front row center) in the Northern Wilderness (1958)
Jiang Zuhui's words deeply touched Jiang Zuhui, and after returning to the Soviet Union, she worked harder than ever.
In 1961, Jiang Zuhui's graduation work, "Spanish Daughter", based on the original work of writer Robert Te Vega, later replaced the program written and directed by foreigners and became a program designated by Premier Zhou Enlai to entertain foreign guests on National Day.
Facts have proved that Ding Ling's decision to make "rough" for her daughter in the past was right. After graduating and returning to China, Jiang Zuhui became a professional choreographer. Ding Ling was thrilled to hear the news, and she was quite relieved by her original decision.
After putting "Notre Dame de Paris" on the stage, she was praised by Premier Zhou Enlai and began to boldly create ballets with revolutionary themes. In 1964, she was one of the main choreographers of "The Red Detachment of Women" officially performed, and her career entered its heyday.
At this time, Ding Ling has been in the most difficult situation, she has been persecuted several times, and even once thrown into prison. Fortunately, no matter how bad the situation, her spirit will never die, and she even insists on creating.
In 1975, Ding Ling, who had escaped from prison, was sent to Changzhi, Shanxi, and Jiang Zuhui and her husband secretly ran to visit their mother. Ding Ling was still optimistic, and she said to her daughter:
"I came to Taihang Mountain during the War of Resistance Against Japan, and now I am on The Taihang Mountain again, and I am very happy to see young people grow up and see the orchards we planted!"
Jiang Zuhui heard this and was busy advising her to pay attention to her speech, but Ding Ling smiled and said, "I am almost 80 years old and pay attention to what else I pay attention to when I speak, what else can I do?" ”
Ding Ling, who said that she "could do anything else", but in her near old age, despite her frailty and illness, she diligently wrote 1 million words of works such as "The World of Rays" and "The Wind and Snow in the World", and founded and edited the "China" literary magazine...
Ding Ling's strength has always inspired Jiang Zuhui, and when she was later devastated like her mother, she had no anxiety of her peers. She shared her mother's belief that the light would come.
Ding Ling, Chen Ming, Jiang Zulin, Jiang Zuhui and Ding Ling's mother took a group photo
After the end of the Cultural Revolution, Jiang Zuhui returned to the Central Song and Dance Theater, and like her mother, she left everything behind and put all her efforts into her career, she said: "I want to take back all the time I lost." ”
Under her efforts, dance dramas such as "Flying South of the Wild Goose", "Yang Guifei", "Evening outside Moscow", and "Blue Danube" came out one after another.
In 1979, Ding Ling and Chen Ming returned to Beijing. Before her mother's train arrived, Jiang Zuhui and her husband were already waiting on the platform, and she missed her mother too much. When her mother slowly got out of the car, her steps were a little faltering, and she hurried forward to help, but Ding Ling stubbornly waved her hand. Seeing such a mother, Jiang Zuhui's nose was sour.
Soon after the mother and daughter were reunited, his brother Jiang Zulin also rushed to Beijing with his wife and children. This New Year is the first Spring Festival that the family has spent together for more than 20 years. The photo of the eight people taken on the day of the Spring Festival also became their only "family portrait" group photo.
Ding Ling, Chen Ming, Jiang Zuhui's family and Jiang Zulin's family
Like her daughter, Ding Ling devoted all her efforts to her career for the rest of her life, and the mother and daughter chased after me: they wanted to chase back the past time.
What is very interesting is that jiang Zuhui in the later period received the task of adapting Lu Xun's novel "Blessing". But in the process of adaptation, she encountered difficulties: she did not want to rehearse this play as "poor, gray, and bitter", she felt that this was not good, and she had to ask her mother, who was engaged in literature, for help.
After listening, Ding Ling said slowly: "You can emphasize some beautiful things, such as weddings, the choice of actors, you can also choose a Jiangnan beauty." ”
After being inspired by his mother, Jiang Zuhui's rehearsal of "Blessing" really received good results.
Every time Jiang Zuhui mentioned her mother, she was full of gratitude, she always said: "If she gave up her career for us, we can always get her company, but then, we will also have one less example." ”
Jiang Zuhui believes that a mother is very important to the companionship of her child, but what kind of person the mother herself is more important. Because, to a large extent, it will determine how far the children can fly.
Some people believe that the reason why Jiang Zuhui has such a cognition is because she is out of the ordinary, and if she does not grow up very well because of the lack of companionship of her parents, or even has a very miserable life, her feelings for her mother will be completely different.
On March 4, 1986, Ding Ling passed away at the age of 82. Before she died, her last words were for Chen Ming, the first sentence was: "You kiss me again", and the second sentence was: "I love you, I only worry about you, you are too bitter." ”
Jiang Zuhui was very calm about her mother not leaving any last words for herself and her brother, and she seemed to have known that what her mother loved most would never be them.
After the death of her mother, Jiang Zuhui continued to adapt various literary works into ballets. She went through almost all the literary works and made all kinds of attempts, but she did not adapt her mother's works. When asked why, she said:
"I don't know why, but before I can think about it, time has passed."
In fact, Jiang Zuhui had never even read her mother's literary works, and she seemed to have no interest in her mother's works. Obviously, Jiang Zuhui is subconsciously rejecting her mother's works.
Why? The answer may really be as Jiang Zuhui said, "there is no time", but some people believe that behind her obvious abnormal behavior, it reflects her subconscious "rejection" of her mother. People, only when there are complaints in their hearts, will have subconscious "rejection", no doubt, Jiang Zuhui has a complaint about the lack of her mother's companionship.
Compared with Jiang Zuhui, Jiang Zulin's resentment towards his mother is more obvious. As soon as his mother died, he fell out with Chen Ming's copyright for his mother. On the surface, what he "fights" for is copyright, but in fact, what he "fights" for is love. Regrettably, in the end, Ding Ling's copyright still belongs only to Chen Ming.
Jiang Zuhui and Jiang Zulin paid tribute to their mother
In the face of such a result, Jiang Zulin was extremely disappointed, and he was like his sister: he was full of gratitude to his mother, but he also had resentment. What they complain about is the "companionship" that their mother lacks, and the lack of "companionship" makes them feel that "they are not so loved." As a result, after their mother's death, they still "complained" and thought of "fighting"...
Such a result, Ding Ling may have been aware of it before she was born, but she grew up only once, and she couldn't do anything except helplessly. Alas, there is no consummation in the world after all. If you choose rulai, you will lose the beauty, which is also the helplessness that people will face.