Shortly after XiaoBao's birth, his mother died unexpectedly, and his father had to go out to work in order to make a living, entrusting Xiaobao to his parents to take care of him, so Xiaobao's childhood was with his grandparents, and he could only get some fatherly love every year during the Spring Festival.
The idea of son preference in remote areas is deeply rooted, and coupled with the fact that Xiaobao's mother died after birth, everyone thinks that she is an ominous person.
Xiao Bao's clothes are mostly worn by relatives and children, Grandma sewed and mended for her, she often played alone, because other children always laughed at her for not having a father and mother, because Xiao Bao's full name is called Wang Baobao, often by other children to joke about the name, so Xiao Bao has always felt that his name is very shameful.
Xiao Bao hates going to school very much, because there will be naughty classmates who will deliberately bully her, throw chewing gum on her head, and not only that, but also tear up her homework book when she is not in class.
Sometimes it's not that you can get through it safely without provoking others.
The teacher will not interfere more in the eyes, compared to an autistic child, I believe that everyone likes lively and cute children.
Xiao Bao was always sullen the day before school, and her grandparents did not understand her ideas, thinking that it was just that the children did not understand things. In today's terms, it's playing with your phone.
Xiao Bao was alone at home and alone at school, and no one wanted to approach her.
Later, she proposed to her grandmother that she did not want to go to school, who knew that she was beaten by her grandfather, and they pinned their hopes on the young Xiaobao, hoping that she could get ahead.
It was also this beating, Xiao Bao never raised the idea of not going to school again, the smile on her face was getting less and less, she was unwilling to talk to people, there would always be footprints on her clothes, but her grandparents did not pay attention to it.
One year during the Spring Festival, Xiao Bao's father came back and bought him a dress, Xiao Bao hugged her father and finally cried out, it was the father's love she missed day and night, and it was her sense of security.
The father stayed for a few days and then he was going to leave in a hurry, Xiao Bao wanted to keep his father or go out to work with his father, she was not afraid of pain and tiredness, tightly hugged her father's package and refused to let go, her father's face was full of wind and frost, if he could, he once thought of leaving his hometown, he needed to take care of the second old man in the family and a young child, taking advantage of the strength to earn more money, and later provide Xiao Bao with study.
Even if she is not admitted to college, she can find a good in-law family in the future, and the only thing that Xiaobao is thankful for is that her father did not directly find her in-laws.
Xiao Bao looked at his father who was gradually going away, shouting loudly, "If you are not there, someone will bully me", and his father did not even turn his head back, but the grandparents around him replied, "A slap does not make a sound, how can people bully you not to bully others, you have to learn to understand." ”
In Xiaobao's first year of high school, his grandfather died of a heart attack, and his father also chose to return to his hometown to work, but Xiaobao did not feel the warmth of his father and ignored everyone.
Also that year, the father married a second-married woman, soon after Xiao Bao had a younger brother, grandma held the brother in her arms every day, introduced to the neighbors, looking at the family of three happy them, Xiao Bao felt that she was an outsider, the stepmother was lukewarm to her, the father thought she was too rebellious, the grandmother was busy hurting the grandson.
On a rainy day, Xiao Bao's father received a call from the hospital, Xiao Bao took the tuition fee to a hotel, chose to cut his wrists to commit suicide, and painted on the wall his mother in his mind, the loving father in his memory, and herself.
When the staff found out, they had missed the best rescue time, and Xiao Bao's father cried bitterly while holding her cold and cold.
No one knows how Xiao Bao survived, has been in the bullying of classmates, spent in the grandparents' incomprehension, she was locked in the toilet by her classmates, disliked by the class teacher, every time she called her father in the field is also to report good news and not worry, only to get the father to let her learn to understand things.
Maybe Xiao Bao really learned to understand things and left after her father had a new family, because that home had no place for her, and even her name stimulated her like a brand.
After Xiao Bao's death, life is still going on normally, classmates think that a "smelly mouse" and "a musical toy" have disappeared, the teacher thinks that he has lost a "drag oil bottle", and his father has a wife and children, and his life is also on the right track, without going out, just like a perfect result.
Many years later, no one remembers the existence of Xiaobao, everyone is living selfishly, bad style has contributed to her short and sad life, left-behind children in today's society, school bullying is still staged every day, and how many Xiaobao are waiting for rescue in the corner, may they keep the clouds open and see the moon.