Only to hold hands with the dream (1) to remember my father Feng Hai

Original Feng Jianshu Yanzhao New Daily 2022-02-10 11:21

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Just to Hold Hands with Dreams (Part 1)

Why do I always have tears in my eyes? Because I love this land so much...

—— Ai Qing, "I Love this Land"

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The topic that has been discussed for several years has finally been revealed. Hebei Zhuolu Middle School will be relocated to the new campus in the summer of 2014. Although it was expected, when I first heard this, my heart still boiled and contradicted. Sitting in the classroom to tutor evening self-study, I thought that in a short time, the current school will be razed to the ground and built into one commodity building after another, and my heart is piled up with nostalgia that is difficult to give up. I walked out of the classroom and slowly circled the campus, as if to take the campus that was about to disappear into my heart. The campus is quiet and ethereal, the sky is gray, the moon is dark and the stars are thin, intermittently drifting with gentle raindrops, sliding down to the cool silk on the face. See what you think of! It was as if the old teachers and graduates of the past had drifted by. Walking to the silent auditorium, I remembered that a wonderful program had been staged here, and I remembered that a boy Huang Chengguang sang on the stage: "Let my heart shine ...", many years later still haunt my heart, but I still don't know what the name of this song is. Walking to the playground, I remembered that I and my classmates had dug a seepage well with a shovel and a pickaxe, and now they should have worked in various places. Looking up at the majestic red teaching building, I remembered that when the 50th anniversary of the school was held, all the faculty and staff solemnly took a group photo in front of the newly completed teaching building. There are weeping willows around the campus, beautiful and graceful, and the gentle and flowing willows roll in the rain, like a plump young woman, sobbing helplessly when she is about to "disaster". I am reminded of Xin's words: "Dance hall song stage, the wind is always flowing, the rain blows and the wind blows...". Whenever I am depressed, I miss my father, who has died many years ago. To me, my father was like the god of war, but also a big mountain, never bowing to difficulties. Once upon a time, the scenes floated in the mind...

Chapter 1 Preliminary Adjustment of Zhuolu Middle School

In October 1984, his father was transferred from the principal of Dabao Middle School to Zhuolu Middle School as the deputy principal, in charge of teaching. This paper transfer order was sudden, and both our family and the teachers and students of Dabao Middle School were very surprised. Dabao is an alpine area of Zhuolu County, and october is already autumn and winter, and the northwest wind of hunting is accompanied by a harsh whining sound, and the sand is flying in the sky. In the cold wind, the whole school faculty and staff took a group photo on the playground to send their father to a new job. Dabao Middle School was founded by his father, and at that time his heart was really big: he wanted to build Dabao Middle School into a well-known model in the country as Daqing and Dazhai, and strive for industrial Science Daqing, Agricultural Science Dazhai, and Education Dabao. Once the ideal illuminates the direction, the work becomes conscious and emotional, not only for making a living. In order to make the vast dream in his heart become a reality, he has been working hard, and his hot pride surges all day long.

Not only did he do so, but he also activated the whole school with lofty ideals, a team of teachers who were indoctrinated with ideals, improved their ideological realm, full of energy, and work became an entrepreneurial epic. Without appropriation from the superiors, they took the road of work-study, built a middle school with both junior high school and high school in a field, and also established a military annex factory, a carpet factory, and a school-run farm. Every step of the school's development is flowing with the sweat of teachers and students. The school building changed from the original adobe house to four corners hard, from four corners hard to tiger skin stone, and from tiger skin stone to brick tile to roof. Many examples in history are similar: the 100,000 Northern Expeditionary Army trained by the Whampoa Military Academy was able to crush 750,000 Beiyang Army; the French army led by Napoleon swept through the allied forces of the European continent because the soldiers' guns shone with ideological light. The deeds of Dabao Middle School were praised like wings, Xinhua News Agency and Guangming Daily sent reporters to visit the group to observe, that day there were several cars, vans, but the teachers in small places have not seen the big occasion, when the reporters in the capital shook hands with the teachers, the teachers who usually talk about the flow of the classroom in the classroom shyly hid their hands behind their backs.

When the students in the school cram school heard that their father was going to be transferred, they panicked and cried in the classroom to wipe away their tears. In 1984, Zhuolu Middle School was in the autumn of troubles, the college entrance examination results continued to decline, all sectors of society were quite dissatisfied, ridiculed Zhuolu Middle School as "a hair", etc., the leakage of the room was even rainy, the student Yue Ming was stabbed to death by his classmates in the classroom, and some students were particularly arrogant, chasing and beating the teacher all over the campus, scarting the teacher into hiding in the vegetable field, and the general affairs office's cabinet was scarred with a knife. As soon as my father arrived at Zhuolu Middle School, he worked at full capacity, listened to no less than four lessons a day, quickly found out the teaching status of the school, became familiar with the teaching style of many teachers, broke the old habit of seniority that the school had formed for many years, enriched a group of teachers who could teach, wanted to teach, and could teach lessons to the third year of high school, and carefully trained some teachers who had potential but were not yet experienced, such as sending Zhao Yongxiang, a newly graduated mathematics teacher, to Teach at Dabao Middle School. Recommend some teachers who understand teaching and dare to manage to leadership positions. Teacher Hao Shiyi graduated from the Department of Mathematics of Nankai University, and he dares to say that his legs are diligent and quick,his brain is agile, and his teaching is rigorous and dedicated. Soon after his father arrived in Zhuozhong, he had a keen eye for talents and recommended him to be the director of the Academic Affairs Office, and sure enough, the comrade soon became an excellent teaching administrator. Opening up the mountain of people who discuss seniority and talk about relationships to see the background is equivalent to blowing up a pool of spring water in Zhuozhong, stimulating the enthusiasm of the majority of teachers and accumulating popularity. Father likes talents, in order to build a high-quality teaching team, eager to gather the county's top teachers in Zhuolu Middle School under the banner, many times with the Education Bureau, communication and consultation, painstakingly transferred Li Fenqi, a Chinese teacher at Alum Mountain Middle School, and Xia Zhihe, a biology teacher at Dabao Middle School, to Zhuozhong to teach. Teacher Xia was a fourth-level teacher in a middle school as early as before the Cultural Revolution, teaching seriously and skillfully, treating students kindly. Li Fenqi teacher graduated from Tianjin University, handsome, affectionately known as "Albania" (beautiful man) by students, he lectures well, but also loves amateur writing, his father helped him contact the publishing unit everywhere, and finally published and issued his debut work "The Great Wall Famous Aria", after which Teacher Li's enthusiasm for writing was high, like the soldiers in the belly of the Trojan horse drilled out one after another, and successively published books such as "Horse Ass Grand View".

1985 New Year's Day holiday, the father from the county back to the home of Dabao Village, Zhuolu Middle School young teacher Lv Changming, bicycle 80 miles to Dabao Town Huanghualiang Village home visit students, near noon to find the family to visit the father, the father insisted on keeping Teacher Lu at home to eat, he especially valued the flame-like professionalism of the teachers, Teacher Lu walked into his father's vision with extraordinary behavior, and cultivated him as long as there was an opportunity in the future. His father became the principal of the school, which was liked by teachers of all ages, and the old teachers regarded him as their representative, and the young teachers regarded him as a caring person. In the selection of outstanding gardeners in Hebei Province, the vast majority of the teaching and research team of the school elected his father as the teacher, but the father sincerely gave it to his middle school teacher Bao Nianfeng. After being transferred to Zhuozhong, his father won the respect and praise of the majority of teachers and students with his hard work and sweat, but he also destroyed his body, twice suddenly had coronary heart disease, fainted on the school playground, when the teachers helped him into the office, he took a short rest, and after a while he went to work as usual. At noon and in the evening, I went to the dormitory to check on the students' rest, and as the principal was closer to the students than the class teacher. The day before the college entrance examination, a girl due to lack of self-confidence, suddenly ran home not to take the exam, when the father learned the news, it was already evening, in the mid-eighties of the last century, the traffic was not developed, the county to Dabao only passed one bus a day, the school did not have a car, the father used social relations to borrow a jeep from the science bureau, drove back and forth 160 miles overnight to pick up the school, took the college entrance examination on time and was admitted to the university. In July 1985, the boiling and anxious college entrance examination ended, the college entrance examination score ranked fourth in Zhangjiakou area, and some students were admitted to famous schools such as Shanghai Tongji University.

1985 was the second year of urban reform across the country, and the spring tide of thawing was surging everywhere in the motherland, and all walks of life were thriving. On the occasion of the first Teachers' Day, respecting teachers and re-teaching has become a popular phrase of the times, and people pay special attention to education. Schools nurture children effectively, and society gifts schools with support and respect. Before and after Teachers' Day, all walks of life used different ways to comfort school teachers, sending mooncakes, fruits and so on to the school.

The days go by so fast! In the blink of an eye, half a year passed, and the calendar flipped to 1986. It's time for college, middle and primary school students to take winter vacation again. For the first time, I moved back to my new home in the county seat, which is located in the family courtyard on the east side of the campus of Zhuolu Middle School. Walking to the middle of a row of houses, the street door is my home, when I first entered the house, I felt fresh everywhere, making me a little dizzy, wondering if this is really my home? Compared to the home of the past, it is simply heavenly and earthly. The windows of the new home are filled with glass, and the west wing is equipped with a newly made combination cabinet, and there is a row of books in the cabinet, and the home has added a book volume. There are also modern furniture such as private room beds, three-person sofas, writing desks, chairs, etc., and the younger brother also paints the combination cabinet with light wax from time to time, and the window in the east wing room is still a plate of earthen kang, and there are newly made wine cabinets under the kang, and two single sofas. The middle room is divided into two huts with wooden partitions, and the cabin in the middle is placed in a large steel tube bed, which can sleep two or three people without problems, and light a light bulb of only three degrees, emitting a soft light of half light and half darkness. The outer room is only a round dining table and a few plates of oranges, which looks neat and empty. The fly in the ointment is that the earth stove is still used for heating, and the coal is filled with coal for a while, and the ash is poured on the other. On the south side of the courtyard is a cooking hut, and there is no longer a wind box under the pot stove, so the hair dryer is put on, and there is no need to pull the wind box. The old standing cabinets, broken cabinets, and gale compartments used in the old home are gone. I said to myself in my heart: "A new life has begun, come on". At this time, I timidly faced all this, and I was really afraid that happiness would flow away from my fingers without paying attention.

In 1986, the flowers of my life slowly bloomed, and finally flew out of the dark tunnel of life.

In January of this year, I was wandering on the streets of Zhangjiakou City, I found a private clinic in an alley, the middle-aged man was the doctor of the clinic, he looked and asked me to prescribe a prescription, I went to the pharmacy and spent two or three yuan to buy three pairs of chinese medicines, and a few hours after the relatives fried the medicine, the head was not tight, and the condition improved by more than half. When I finished my medicine and went to the doctor, the private clinic had moved away, and I learned from the neighbors next to me that the doctor had returned to his hometown of Bichengtai Village, Xuanhua County.

I must find this "divine doctor" who can cure my illness, first take a bus from Zhangjiakou to Xuanhua, from Xuanhua to a train to Bichengtai Village, the train only stays here for three minutes, a small village hidden in a ravine, the train stops at the edge of the empty village, and there is only a station name tag next to the railway track. Climb a gentle loess slope into the village. Under the guidance of the villagers, hesitantly found the doctor's home, at this time it was noon, his family brought food around the kang to prepare to eat, the whole family beckoned me to eat together, under my repeated pushing, only jumped off the kang to prescribe medicine for me, and gave a home remedy, I left 5 yuan as a medical fee, in order to catch the train hurriedly bid farewell to the doctor. It is the coldest day of the mid-winter, the coldest time of winter, the railway is lined with clusters of dry yellow tarpaulin weeds, the loess road is hollow, the canopy grass can be seen everywhere unmelted snow, and the cold wind from time to time wraps up the snow and flies all over the field. Under the cold stop sign, only one passenger of mine stomped back and forth.

At about 1:30 p.m., a long green dragon finally roared in, and the iron wheel crushed the silence of the field. When the train stopped and rushed to get on the train, I found that the doors and windows were all closed, and there was no intention of opening, so I realized that the station was wrong, I should stand on the other side of the track, get on the train from my right hand, and I was still standing under the stop sign when I came, looking at the train and not going up, and when I hesitated across the track to the other side of the train, the train had slowly moved, and then walked faster and faster. Looking at the train that gradually disappeared into the field of vision, I stomped my feet in a hurry, and the corners of my eyes couldn't help but overflow with tears of grievance. At this time, it is difficult to go forward, and it is impossible to go back? -Think left and right, pluck up enough courage, and walk along the railroad tracks with a hard scalp. The railroad tracks are the road signs, rushing forward, thinking of the novel "Shining Red Star" that the teacher often read in the self-study class when I was in elementary school: Fan Dongzi looked at the Big Dipper in the sky at night to find her father. The biting cold wind, the flying snow dust, and the hunger and inexplicable fear all struck at the same time, and the silent wilderness still saw the shadows, and occasionally encountered a few bare poplar trees, without a single branch, and a few dead leaves on the branches were trembling, as if struggling to climb, and would roll down at any time, and be blown around by the wind. The sky was gray, the sun was jumping, sometimes peeking out of the clouds, swirling and hiding in the clouds. Fragments of sunlight squeezed out of the clouds and shone on dirt roads littered with dead leaves and weeds. The trip finally got the prescription, and in the past few years, I have spent every day in a trance and struggle, unable to get rid of the headache. A new life is about to begin, thinking about the beauty of the future, immediately with a hint of youthful pride, suddenly open, with distant and poetic eyes. Shuo wind roared in the wilderness, the whirlwind swirled, the splashing dust fascinated my eyes and could not open, from time to time turned around and walked backwards, when I was tired, I would support my knees and rest my legs before walking... I can't remember how long I walked, but I finally saw Xuanhua Railway Station.

The mountains also laugh, the water also laughs, and the mountains and rivers of Zuyuan have a new look. My family has the same fate as the motherland, and there are many happy events in the big family. Uncle Da implemented the policy, resumed his work, and was placed in Zhangjiapu Town as a civil affairs assistant and enjoyed the treatment of old cadres. The third uncle was a farmer who served as a factory director in a township enterprise. The fourth uncle is honest and responsible, is a worker of the Jiubao Fruit Tree Farm, and since the production responsibility system has been established in the field, the family income has increased and he has ridden a Yamaha motorcycle. Chinese New Year's Eve, my father borrowed the color TV from the school union to his home, and for the first time, the family sat around the house to watch the Spring Festival Gala, listening to the sound of firecrackers coming from all directions outside the window, and a sweet one came out of his heart, and he felt that a good day that he could not imagine was coming. In the past few days of the Spring Festival, there are many guests in the family, most of whom are new and old students who have graduated and teachers in the school. Before people could see it, they heard "hoo-hoo" and "hoo-hoo" gasping for breath, as if it were blowing wind, and there was still a wisp of white smoke under the nose, and the mandarin in his mouth was spoken in a square circle, and this tall man was the school's recognized "language titan" Teacher Bao Nianfeng, Teacher Bao was considered to be his father's teacher, and his father rushed out of the hospital to greet him, and he said in his mouth one after another: "Where in the world there is snot flowing backwards, I can't stand it!" Can't stand it! There are also famous historical teachers Liu Shijun who speak like quarrels, and everyone does not leave the line in three sentences, which are all things in the school. The family seemed to open a teaching symposium, and from time to time burst into a hearty laugh, sitting in the outhouse, I wondered, teacher Liu Shijun, who has always been cold and rigorous, would also laugh. I fell into contemplation, I don't know how much effort my father has made, gathered these distinctive personalities in Zhuozhong, perhaps this reflects a person's aura, the father's firm persistence, not afraid of hardship, not afraid of challenges of the style, let people look up.

My father was busy at work on weekdays, even on Sundays and winter and summer vacations, and only stayed at home during the New Year's Holidays, often when others left school on vacation, but he fell ill at home. In addition, the father eats a serious choice of food, does not like to eat white noodle rice, the most like to eat wheat noodles, eat this kind of rice all year round, sometimes too big year, but also want to let the family do some wheat noodles to rub dumplings, if you make some mushroom soup dipping, it will be the most suitable New Year's rice. The fifteenth day of the first month is the Lantern Festival, the last climax of the Spring Festival. For the first time, I saw so many people pouring into the streets at night, no matter which street I walked, it was brightly lit and crowded. Remembering that the day had just been smeared, the family was cooking the Lantern Festival, and Secretary Guo Shengying, who was eating at the school, gently pushed the door into the house, and his father beckoned Secretary Guo to drink. A few of our children could not sit still, and a nest of peaks seemed to run to the street to watch the social fire. At that time, Zhuolu Middle School was still full of arable land, and only a few uneven dirt roads led to the county town and highways, especially in the summer, full of green cage crops, plus frogs and cicadas, a little afraid to go to the street alone. Every New Year's Festival is different, people from all over the crowd to the old department store on this street, dragon lantern dance, lion play, running donkey, pedaling high, etc., one after another team came over, watching the lively people gather more and more, crowded people breathless, but the heart overflowed with happiness. In order to open a field for the performers, several people vigorously circled the red charcoal, and the screened sparks splashed around, frightening people to shrink their heads and run around, but after a while they rushed forward.

In 1986, reform and opening up had just been sung throughout the country, the countryside was separated from the land, the peasants were rich, the factories expanded their enterprise autonomy, in addition to receiving wages, bonuses, clothes, meteorological updates from all walks of life, people's morale was very high, the performances at the Lantern Festival were particularly hard, wonderful, and singing about a new life. Happy days always feel short, and in the blink of an eye school starts again. I returned to the teacher's college to continue my school, this year our country is destined to be a year of unrest, some cities have a wave of learning, rock music in the Western world poured in, the literary and art evening popular men's shawls, women wearing short skirts tear up the vigorous song and dance, almost every must perform the song "Enthusiastic River Desert", the actors swayed on the stage, applause like thunder. Sixty years old is popular on campus, where there are young people, where there is love, love is like weeds growing wildly in all corners of the campus. Almost every day at noon, three or five people go to the street to change clothes, and at night they help the bunk beds to learn to dance. The green poplar smoke is cold and light, and the red apricot branches are full of spring. It was a time of passion and vitality, and youth was fully publicized. In the college study room, there is one thing that I will never forget. Zhuolu fellow sent a ticket for the song and dance party, the party was performed in the Zhangjiakou Pioneer Theater, our seats were on the second floor, the party was quite wonderful, the actors were very good at mobilizing the audience's emotions, and each program attracted bursts of applause. The most eye-catching actors are Wang Jishi and Shelith, two stars, remember Wang Jishi wearing a straight gray suit, looking young and handsome, Shelise wearing a red gauze skirt, very slim look, the two sang a song: If you feel happy, you clap your hands! If you feel happy you stomp your feet.... The audience clapped their hands and stomped their feet together, and the atmosphere was warm and shaking.

Chapter Two: Turning Around Beautiful is Also Tragic

In 1986, the national college entrance examination had just ended, the results had not yet been released, and after the study of the Standing Committee of the county party committee, he was transferred to Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School as the principal. Although the father loves to work, not afraid of difficulties, but also unwilling to choose difficulties, work has just opened the situation, the family has just moved into the county, and now it is cold and not a paper transfer order and let go to Baodai Middle School, from the emotional difficulty, the whole family also for the father to hug, 50-year-old people to eat the canteen, lead the students to build land. At this time, some people with ulterior motives went around spreading rumors that zhuo middle school students' college entrance examinations were smashed this year. When cheng zhaohai, the secretary of the county party committee, promised his father to go only for two years, and as a result, he went for six years, and then there was a car accident in Xuanhua Banpo Street, and he was seriously injured before being transferred back to the county seat.

At the beginning of August 1986, the results of the college entrance examination were announced, zhuozhong results were thunderous, some students were admitted to Peking University, Harbin Institute of Technology and other famous universities, Zhangjiakou Regional Education Commission summed up the results of the college entrance examination that year, Zhuozhong ranked first in Zhangjiakou area, surpassing Shacheng Middle School, which is the only time since the resumption of the college entrance examination in 1977. Zhuozhong's classmates knew best who was fighting side by side with them, and when the election of people's congress deputies was held, the father did not belong to the Zhuolu Town constituency according to the regulations, and the host repeatedly stated this to zhuo middle school students, but the students just did not listen to dissuasion and voted for their fathers, expressing their respect for their fathers in the way of children. Zhuozhong lost a valuable opportunity to sprint to a prestigious school. Many parents regretted it, and some teachers were discouraged and moved to other places. Soon Hao Shiyi was transferred to Xuanhua Cement Factory, Zhang Kairan was transferred to a children's school in Baoding, etc., and the Lower Garden Power Plant also came to hire his father to be the principal of the children's school, and also promised to arrange work for his children. But Zhuolu County is hometown, and there are too many complexes here that are difficult to give up.

In October 1986, his father transferred to Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School as the principal with mixed feelings. Baodai is twenty miles away from the county seat, starting from the county seat, crossing the Sanggan Bridge, all the way to the south, although it is a tar kilometer, but almost all of it is a small uphill, to the tea house village, leaving the kilometer, but also to walk two or three miles of loess road, only to arrive at Baodai Village, to the impression of the newcomer: Baodai Village from east to west to go higher and higher, like going up the mountain, from the east of the village to the west of the village to walk for several miles, it feels so big and broken. Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School, town government, supply and marketing cooperatives, savings offices, police stations, and post offices are all crowded in the east of the village, and only Baodai Town No. 1 Middle School is alone in the west of the village. Father is busy at work and not very good at cycling, about once a month only go home once, every time back home to return to school is very troublesome, all rely on friends in the society to help, send a car to pick up and go home, sometimes stand on the highway to pull coal trucks back, so insisted on more than six years, it is not easy. At that time, Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School had just been restructured from middle school, and its thinking was still stuck in the mode of running an ordinary middle school, with teachers lecturing according to the script, students sitting in classrooms listening to lectures, and teaching was seriously out of touch with reality. When the provincial and municipal acceptance of the school was criticized as "hanging sheep's head and selling dog meat", the teacher felt that there was no rush to teach students to farm, students felt that reading did not work, and the whole campus was shrouded in decline. Under the support of the superior leadership, his father selected Xu Chuansheng, a teacher in Zhuozhong School, to serve as principal of Baodai, cao Wendang, a teacher at Dabao Middle School, as the director of the office, and Zhang Yuxi, director of the educational affairs of Baodai Middle School, as the director of the school affairs of Baodai Middle School, to form a leadership team with a strong sense of enterprise and willingness to work hard, and to do his best to improve the treatment of teachers, such as building family rooms, organizing tourism, improving canteens, purchasing daily necessities, and helping to combine families, etc., sending a trace of warmth to the teachers, slowly igniting the professionalism of the teachers.

In order to stimulate students' interest in attending the Agricultural Technology Middle School, the school traveled around responsible for arranging work for high school students in various factories and mines, and also encouraged students to seriously study professional courses to take the corresponding entrance examinations. Teachers and students fought hard with their industrious hands on the Erdao River Beach, and pushed out the experimental base with their shoulders, and in autumn, the former river beach was already watermelon verdant and the orchard was fragrant. The school also runs pig farms, hatchery chicken farms, TV assembly plants and so on. Teachers and students also sent scientific knowledge to the countryside and cut fruit trees for farmers. Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School has a good reputation and has been praised by the higher authorities for many times, especially the Commissioner of the Summer King's Power in Zhangjiakou Area is very concerned about the development of the school. Just when the society was eagerly expecting Baodai Agricultural Technology Middle School to fly higher, a car accident occurred in July 1991 in the section of Banpo Street in Xuanhua. Father took the old jeep in Zhuozhong to Zhangjiakou Admissions Office, walking in the Section of Xuanhua Banpo Street, the sky was drizzling, plus the road section was a ramp, steep and dangerous, a car accident quietly approached, collided with the car in which Li Bengong, secretary of the Zhangjiakou Municipal Party Committee, was riding, when the father sat on the co-driver's seat of the jeep, the door was knocked open, the father fell heavily on the highway, fell unconscious on the spot, the head was broken, the blood stained the highway, was sent to the Zhangjiakou Second Hospital for rescue, after investigation, except for head injuries, Multiple crushing fractures of the flank bone. After being hospitalized in the hospital for more than two months and being discharged from the hospital, he was recuperating at home, which was the only long rest he had after joining the work. Due to excessive blood loss, the car accident left him with scars that were difficult to heal for eternity, and his body deteriorated from then on. Before the car accident, the father was not afraid, and this alone made the children fear from an early age. As early as the Dabao Middle School, his father often came home from school late at night, once, he actually circled around the "Dabao Lake" in front of his home several times, and could not find his own door, he squatted down on the shore to light a cigarette and smoked it leisurely, waiting for a cigarette to find a home, in the folk this situation is commonly known as "ghost lost", for others will never go home so late, but the father did not take this matter seriously, still check the student dormitory home, only to talk about this matter as an interesting matter with people. For a long time after the hospital, I was afraid of being at home alone during the day. The attending physician explained that he had lost too much blood and was weak, and could only rely on convalescence to recover.

The Mid-Autumn Festival in 1991 is approaching, the father endured the pain and returned home from the hospital, the whole family was very happy, the family immediately became lively, every day there were many guests to break through the door of the family to visit the sick, there are relatives, fellow villagers, colleagues, students who have been taught, and friends from all walks of life, even the county magistrate Ma Zhaotai on behalf of the county party committee, the government to visit home, see this scene, is equivalent to wordlessly give us a lesson in life as a child, let us realize: you have done good things for people, people will remember your benefits. Although my father selflessly loved and cared for us, he was usually particularly strict and often taught us how to do things and behave at the dinner table. When guests come to visit the sick, they inevitably bring some gifts, and my father is afraid that we will breed pride and covet hedonistic thoughts, so he said several times at the dinner table: "Others send this gift and that gift, these are all superficial phenomena, not the real connotation of life." In the future, the happy life will still rely on your own efforts, these cigarettes and alcohol are sent to me, not to you, do not enjoy it with peace of mind, not afraid of you eating, but worried that you will eat hungry and will not be able to buy it in the future." These teachings still ring in the ears to this day, never dare to covet enjoyment, eat and wear with others, eat "five grains" all day long and want "six grains". From childhood there is a sense of insecurity in the heart, which accompanies a lifetime. Whenever idle, the mind will be empty. Now that society has progressed, life is getting better and better every day, and people pursue leisure. Dancing, climbing, playing mahjong, rubbing walnuts, I dare not join the ranks, for fear of losing my mind. Father at home for most of the year sick, in order to understand the boredom, the family bought a peony brand 18-inch color TV, the family sat around watching TV at night, the first time in his life and father stayed at home every night, a happy day. I remember watching the drama "Mulan" one night, and my father said with deep feeling: "Hua Mulan is really broad-minded for her father to join the army, compared to her, what can't be abandoned as a person?" ”

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