On August 26, 2005, in the cremation hall of the funeral home in the eastern suburbs of Chengdu, many citizens spontaneously came to send an 8-year-old girl, She Yan, on her last journey.
On this day, it was raining lightly in the sky, as if God was also weeping for this poor child.
Time back to the 1996 lunar calendar October 22, 1996, She Shiyou, a farmer in Yunya Village, Sanxing Town, Shuangliu County, Chengdu, Sichuan Province, went to the market at 4 a.m., and when he passed a small road, he faintly heard the faint cries of children. At this time, the sky was not yet light, the surrounding area was dark, She Shiyou put down his flat burden, looked around, and found a baby in the grass.
It was freezing cold, and the child's body was only wrapped in a thin red cloth, and his small face was pale. If she hadn't found out in time, maybe a small life would have disappeared.
The baby's face was full of innocence, and his big eyes looked at She Shiyou, so that She Shiyou couldn't bear to leave the child like this,
But he has to consider a real problem, because the family is poor, the 30-year-old She Shiyou is still not married, and if he adopts the baby, it will be more difficult for him to find a marriage partner.
Thinking of this, She Shiyou put down his heart, put down the child, took a few steps, but found that each step was so heavy, he finally turned back, picked up the child several times and put it down, and finally stopped letting go.
After a big deal, she decided to raise this poor little girl, and he named the child She Yan.
Being a single father is hard, but Xiao Sheyan is well-behaved and cute, and gradually, she has become a light in the life of She Shiyou, illuminating his life.
Five-year-old She Yan has learned to wash dishes on a bench, cook, and do housework, like a little adult.
Whenever She Shiyou returns from outside work, he can always see his daughter's bright smile and hear her daughter's sweet "father", which makes She Shiyou feel that no matter how hard he is, it is worth it.
She Shiyou has suffered enough of being uneducated, and hopes that her daughter can study well in order to change her destiny. Even if he smashes pots and sells iron, he will provide for his daughter's schooling. She Yan kept her father's advice in mind, studied especially hard, and always won the first place in the exam. She was a sensible child who never let She Shiyou worry.
She Shiyou did not deliberately hide her origin from the child, She Yan knew from childhood that she was different from other children, she told She Shiyou, "I think I have a father is enough, my father took good care of me, I must study well, grow up and honor my father."
She Yan knew how to be polite and obedient, and the people in the village praised She Shi's friendly blessings and picked up a daughter who was so popular.
Although the material life is poor, the spirit of the father and daughter is upward, full of expectations for the future, but fate is often more malicious to the poor, and has always liked to make it worse.
One day in May 2005, when She Yan washed her face, she constantly had nosebleeds, and the water in her basin turned a dazzling red.
She Shiyou hurriedly took her daughter to the township health center, the doctor gave the child an injection, but even the needle eye began to bleed continuously, and many small red dots appeared on the child's body, and the doctor asked She Shiyou to quickly take the child to the big hospital.
After diagnosis, She Yan suffered from "acute leukemia", these words are like thunderbolts on a sunny day, She Shiyou stood in the same place, half a day can not return to God, he did not dare to think about what these words mean, only felt that the heart was like a knife.
The doctor told She Shiyou that it takes 300,000 yuan to treat leukemia, which is astronomical for the poor She Shiyou, who raised money everywhere, but only raised 10,000, which is really a drop in the bucket.
She Shiyou decided to sell the earthen embryo house he lived in, but such a dilapidated house could not be sold at all, and the huge medical expenses overwhelmed She Shiyou every day, and his face was full of despair.
Lying on the hospital bed, She Yan often looked out the window in a daze and was worried.
One day, she took She Shiyou's hand, and before she could speak, tears flowed down: "Daddy, I want to die..."
She Shiyou did not understand the child's words: "You are only 8 years old, why do you want to die?" ”
"I am a doll that I picked up, and everyone says that I have a bad fate and can't afford this disease, so let me be discharged from the hospital..."
Knowing that the child did not want to drag himself down, She Shiyou could no longer bear it and cried bitterly. Life is cruel to the poor, and a serious illness can easily make people in debt, and even have no chance to survive, but can only wait for death.
Xiao Sheyan knew her father's difficulties, and she also knew that her illness was not good for medical treatment, and she had arranged her own posthumous affairs in advance.
"Dad, can I live to the fall?" I want to die in the fall, I came from autumn, with red beans, linden trees, and acres of golden corn and wheat in front of the house. When I died, he buried me on the back hillside, and I didn't want to leave Daddy...". As she spoke, the child shed tears again, she was reluctant to her favorite father, but she could not fight against fate, and could only be arranged by fate.
Whether it is life or death, it is destined, and it is not up to people.
On June 18, She Yan, instead of her father, who could not write, signed her medical record book: "Self-yuan gave up treatment."
After returning home, She Yan only made one request, she wanted to wear a new dress and take a photo.
She told her father: "After I am gone, if you want me, you can look at me in the picture." ”
Hearing She Yan's words, She Shiyou was very sad, he didn't know how long he could stay with his daughter, but he would accompany her to the end.
After putting on the new clothes she shiyou bought, She Yan smiled hard when taking photos in the photo studio, but her eyes were filled with tears.
She Yan's understanding has long been infected with the hospital's medical workers, and has also touched Fu Yan, a reporter at a newspaper in Chengdu. The more sensible a child is, the more distressing it becomes. If she hadn't experienced the bleak side of life early, She Yan would have had a carefree childhood like other children.
Fu Yan reached out to help and brought She Yan back to Chengdu Children's Hospital for treatment. Fu Yan's report "8-year-old girl obediently arranged the aftermath" was reprinted by many media and caused a sensation.
Everyone has donated their own love, and in just a few days, the donation has exceeded 560,000.
In the process of treatment, She Yan was very strong. Whether it is chemotherapy or bone puncture, it is an extremely painful process, She Yan has always tried her best to be patient, not to cry or make trouble, until the needles on her body are more and more, she began to plead with the nurse: "Auntie, slowly, slowly, I am in pain."
The doctors and nurses in the hospital loved this lovely and poor child.
The attending doctor, Xu Ming, wanted to recognize She Yan as a daughter, and She Yan shook her head and said that she wanted to be with her father.
Although she rejected Xu Ming's proposal, when Xu Ming came to She Yan's hospital room the next day, she still sweetly called out to Xu's mother.
She Yan's situation is not optimistic, the side effects of chemotherapy are huge, and her health is getting worse and worse.
As if foreboding something, on August 20, She Yan took out a homework book and handed it to Aunt Fu Yan, who cared about herself: "Auntie, this is my suicide note."
Fu Yan's hand was trembling, only to see the book read: "Auntie goodbye, we will see you in our dreams." Aunt Fu Yan, my father's house is going to collapse. Dad don't get angry, don't jump off the building. Aunt Fu, you have to look after my father. Auntie, the doctor gave us a little money for the school, thank you aunt for saying to the President of the Red Cross. When I die, give the rest of the money to those who are as sick as me to make their illness better...
She Yan is a person with great love in her heart, although she is only 8 years old, she has learned to care for the pain of others, and offered to leave the rest of the donation to people who are sick like herself, and this money eventually saved the lives of 7 children.
She Yan is most relieved of her father, the father and daughter have always been dependent on each other, and after he is gone, what should he do alone?
On the morning of August 21st, She Yan's spirit suddenly improved. She played cards with her aunt for a while, and then wrote down the phone numbers of Mother Xu and Aunt Fu in her father's communication book, and solemnly instructed her father: "All the houses in our family have been rained down, and your life will definitely be difficult in the future." In the future, if there is something, I will call Aunt Fu Yan or Mother Xu. Also, if I die, Dad, you'll remember me. ”
Obviously, she is still a child, but she thinks about all aspects like an adult, just so that her father can suffer less in the future, and only hopes that her father will not forget her.
She Shiyou was already in tears, and did not want to hear the child say death again, he told his daughter: "If you die, I will go and jump off the building." She Yan cried, she wanted to be with her father, but Heaven did not want to give her the opportunity to grow up.
On August 22, because of the gastrointestinal bleeding, She Yan, who had not eaten for a month, was extremely hungry, she quietly ate a bite of instant noodles, but increased the burden on the stomach and intestines, the digestive tract was seriously bleeding again, the doctor arranged blood transfusions, infusions, She Yan was in excruciating pain, and her mouth kept shouting: "Let me die, I am very uncomfortable",
Looking at Xiao Sheyan's uncomfortable appearance, the medical workers present could not help but cry in a low voice, she was still just an 8-year-old child, the disease was so cruel, but chose her.
The doctor comforted Xiao Sheyan, and if he insisted on it, he would get better, but this time there was no miracle happening, and She Yan finally couldn't help but sit up, hit the pillow hard, causing intracranial hemorrhage, and left this world in extreme pain.
For a child suffering from illness, this may be a relief.
When everyone sorted out her belongings, they found a poem written by She Yan
: "My road is not on the little road that children walk, my road is not on the wide road where the car runs. I like to walk my way up the hill and I sing with the birds when I go down the hill. If you were willing to walk on my path, you would hear me and the birds singing. Listening to the song to go forward, the road is no longer, and you will not feel tired. I love walking my way. ”
This is a spiritual child who deserves a bright future.
She Yan's tombstone reads: "I have come, I am very well-behaved", she has been gone for many years, but still lives in the hearts of many people.