I think it's far away when you look at me, and it's close when you look at the clouds. --- Gu Cheng
Gu Cheng had built countless dreams, but finally smashed them with his own hands, he had been in the night
Looking for the light, he never got lost in his life.
The poet Gu Cheng's wife-hanging incident was a sensation, and now that thirty years have passed, you really know the reason for mentioning the events of that year again. What irreconcilable contradiction occurred that made the obscure poet kill his wife, resulting in an irreparable ending.
The poet --- Gu Cheng
Gu Cheng was born in Beijing to a poet's family, and his edification and good education from an early age made him show unusual talent at an early age.
He began writing poetry at an early age, but what really made him famous was the publication of Dandelion in 1977, the year he received a lot of attention.
Later, he joined the Chinese Writers Association, and his status was further improved, and his poetry also received more recognition and attention.
Gu Cheng's life experience is extraordinary, he has seen the dust at the bottom of the valley and the prosperity of the branches of the high station. Gu Cheng is stubborn, he writes everything into the poem, as if the poem is his world; Gu Cheng is also unworldly, he integrates life into the poem, and abandons the world in the poem.
Met --- wife
Fate always comes quietly, and in 1969, Gu Cheng met the person he had been entangled with all his life- Xie Ye. Their encounter is beautiful and romantic, the young poet who is looking for inspiration at the train station, the young girl who is gentle and gentle to look at the painting, Xie Ye is standing next to him, his gaze has been following, Gu Cheng has painted many people alone without painting Xie Ye.
Later, in a letter to her, he wrote: "Others occupy your seat, you stand by my side without speaking, and I begin to feel you, the fine hair fluttering behind your neck." I took out my paintbrush and painted everyone around you, but I didn't paint you alone, and I felt that your bright and dazzling made my eyes unable to stay. ”
On the train they did not know how to take the words, remember that at that time he read the poem, said the movie, her eyes are very beautiful, deep like a dream of fish, nose line and the corners of the mouth have a metallic luster, Gu Cheng fell in love with this gentle and gentle person, and did not want her to disappear, never so bold to do a thing, took out a piece of paper to write down the address for her and got off the car.
The bond between people does not know when it began or ended, but when fate intertwined the two people should know that there is a lifetime of entanglement.
Gu Cheng's approach is certainly clever, so that a young girl with admiration has since fallen into the deep web of weaving, and there is no way back from then on.
Xie Ye once wrote back: "Will you write to me?" You said yes. How much to write? You compare it with your hand, and that thickness is at least equal to two novels. ”
At that time, she was full of longing for the future, hoping for the unknown future, romantic and quiet, surging and beautiful.
At this time, she could not imagine, the water in the future was fierce, and she could not imagine how cruel and chaotic the elegant and beautiful poet was.
Attachment --- mother
From acquaintance and love to entering the palace of marriage, their encounter is unexpectedly beautiful and difficult to forget, but the ending is unsatisfactory and lamentable.
After marriage, Gu Cheng still needs companionship like a child, and also reveals the hidden paranoia and control in the past, Shu Ting said in her memories: "He does not let his wife dress herself, does not let her wear earrings, goes out to dress up and needs his trial, swimming is Gu Cheng's most annoying, he does not like her to wear swimsuits in public." Gu Cheng's desire to control his wife is very strong and extremely selfish, and he controls everything about Xie Ye and does not allow anything to appear on her that he does not like.
Xie Ye's marriage is a graveyard of buried love, and when he and she step in, there is no possibility of escape. He was extremely attached to his mother, and his obsession with women was almost crazy, so much so that his later relationship with his wife Xie Ye was also deeply affected.
He transferred his attachment to his mother to Xie Ye, repeatedly asked Xie Ye to resign and tried his best to prevent Xie Ye from studying, and he could not leave her like a child, so that Xie Ye gave up work and study for his noble marriage.
If Gu Cheng is Xie Ye's husband, then it is better to say that Xie Ye acted as Gu Cheng's mother, she existed in Gu Cheng's life as a mother's lifestyle, and then sent her son Xiao Mu'er away for foster care only because her son would take away his wife's love.
It is rumored on the Internet that Xiao Mu'er was sent away not only because the son had taken away his wife's love, but also because Ying'er's arrival had embarrassed the already poor family and had to make a choice between Ying'er and her son. Whatever the truth we know is that eventually the little fungus was sent away.
Arrive --- leave
The indispensable woman in Gu Cheng's life, in addition to his wife Xie Ye is the lover Ying'er, the entanglement of the three of them can be described as shocking.
Gu Cheng did not want Ying'er to miss the disease, raised funds to take Ying'er, but her arrival made Xie Ye lose her son, Ying'er and her son Gu Cheng chose Ying'er, husband and son Xie Ye chose husband, to a certain extent, they all gave up Xiaomu'er.
Xie Ye's deep love for Gu Cheng, the obsession with love, but Gu Cheng told Ying'er all about love, had no pity for Xie Ye, Xie Ye lost his son at the same time, but also had to accept the intervention of the third party Ying'er.
Ying'er is the lin sister of Gucheng Grand View Garden, he pities her for loving her, only with her is the real happiness, writing poems and articles for her, exhausting all the gorgeous and beautiful words. Xie Ye seemed to have become the shrewd Xue Baochao unlovable, enduring inhuman grief to personally punch out that beautiful and cruel pen knife. The promise letter sent by Gu Cheng at that time seemed to be a sharp knife that was repeatedly stabbed back in Xie Ye's chest, stabbing painfully without leaving a trace.
Ying'er's arrival and departure have caused her great pain, and the appearance of the big fish has made her rekindle the hope of life, and she wants to leave.
Xie Ye and Gu Cheng said that they decided to divorce and go to Germany with Big Fish, and she was tired of everything in New Zealand. However, she did not know how the paranoid and selfish Gu Cheng would let her leave, "only the governor was allowed to set fire, and the people were not allowed to light the lamp" was vividly reflected in Gu Cheng. Gu Cheng's poem reads, "If I give my heart to others, I will not be able to get it back; when others give it to others, love will be passed on to the world." But he never gave her a chance.
For Gu Cheng, Xie Ye's departure was already doomed, and her feelings had long disappeared, not to mention Gu Cheng's extreme hurt.
In the end, Xie Ye could not leave, when the axe cut on her body, it hurt, and even more painfully, there was a broken heart, and she finally paid a painful price for her noble marriage.
Gu Cheng said, "If either Xie Ye or Ying Er leaves him, he will not be able to survive" And now both of them are leaving.
In October 1993, Xie Ye died of his slashing wounds, and in the same month Gu Cheng left a letter to hang himself, and this marriage ended in tragedy.
One of the letters was written to Xiao Mu'er, who was fostering abroad, and the letter mentioned: "Because Xie Ye wants to leave with people and abandon this family, he has repented, and I hope that you will not be like me in the future." "The words are sincere and sincere, as if everything they have done before is someone else, and they have exonerated the guilt themselves."
It seems that he forgot the father who abused the little fungus, forgot the husband who brought his lover home, forgot the culprit who sent the little fungus away, and forgot the wife's own under the axe.
The poet's artistic conception is always beautiful, not as impetuous and turbulent as in the human world, people are bright and luminous, things are quiet and luxurious, and everything is the appearance of fireworks that do not eat in the world. Abandoning poetry, in addition to his talent, he seems to be a complete madman, and cheating in marriage, abandoning his son and killing his wife, no matter which one is enough to fall on the altar.
In his father's memories, Gu Cheng had no books to read in Shandong, and it was always exciting for him to compete for food when feeding pigs, he gave them strange nicknames, had unique preferences, and the gloomy colors expressed in the poetry expression were worrying.
Most of the child's innocence comes from the fearlessness of the outside world, almost the vast majority of people's childhood is a solipsistic momentum, Gu Cheng is no exception, he always treats the things around him with a compassionate heart, but never reflects on his own faults, so that after adulthood, he is still "childlike and free to do whatever he wants." ”
The various performances of his childhood were doomed to his extraordinary, but the final ending was stained with sadness in the fearlessness of his parents.
Gu Cheng's poems wash away the glitz and have a different kind of innocence, in the cliff of despair permeate a faint hope, his poems are pure and sad, his people are paranoid and compassionate, his experience tells the ups and downs and sorrows of a genius poet, just as most people think, genius and the devil are often only a line apart, and his paranoia and selfishness eventually become the culprit of his destruction.