Like a dream bubble, suddenly feel that everything that happened in the past, so unreal, so unimportant, so meaningless, so dispensable, so drifting, so lack of autonomy, really like having one dream after another, the only real thing is that I am still alive, as long as I can still live, everything else seems to matter. For the rest of my life, I just want to be able to listen to the arrangements of my heart and live as I please.
![Zhou Enlai: As long as I am alive, I am not allowed to engage in the form of Guangzong Yaozu! Does Zhou Enlai have a sense of homesickness? Why have you refused to return to your hometown? Not being able to return to my hometown has become the biggest regret![fig]](data:image/gif;base64,R0lGODlhAQABAIAAAP///wAAACwAAAAAAQABAAACAkQBADs=)