The world kissed me with pain, but I sang in return

My diary is not a lifetime

The cold wind in the morning drilled into my bones, I couldn't get up myself to send my children to school, I remembered that a few years ago, in order to work, I got up early and greedy, and now life seems to slow down a lot. In the past, it may have gone too fast, lack of sleep every day, mental stress, leading to neurasthenia, causing severe depression and anxiety, and now taking medicine for more than a year has finally stabilized the sleep problem, but in exchange for weight gained more than a dozen pounds within a month. It used to be 100 pounds, now it's 130 pounds. While relying on drugs to maintain sleep, it is also fed back by the side effects of drugs. The most regrettable thing in these years is to lose my health, to lose a lot of things I should have, but there is no regret medicine for me to eat, so I only have to save myself, reconcile with myself, tell myself, what you are experiencing at the moment may be most people are experiencing, but some people can't think of it, and I am the kind of person who can't open it, so God will punish you in other ways and let you accept the baptism of physical pain. Maybe the only way I want to be liberated is to accept this baptism calmly, and then tell God, it's okay, not much, I'm fine. Even if there are too many unfairness, traps, and ups and downs in the world, we still have to treat it with a broad chest, don't be cynical, complain about the world, then you will be more miserable, really want to do anything improperly, silly and happy to treat life, it is not a better choice, ah,

Come on, may I walk out of half my life, and the rest of my life is still a teenager